De-Evolution of an Abuser... the Genesis of BinkStink

ah... now BinkStink is accusing me of stalking her... again, this is what a psychopath does... i have proof of her stalking my BLOG and have posted it ... and have asked her to go away... and of course she has persisted.. i blocked her home IP some time ago... then she started stalking my blog from Providence Medical Center... and now i guess she's gone to the trouble of getting a proxy server.. because she is STILL reading my blog... and admits to it...

THIS BITCH WILL STALK ME ANYWHERE I GO NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO IGNORE HER!! even to Lisa E. Scott where she proceeded to lie & slander my friend, Barbara - same way she lies about everyone including her EX NEVER WAS HER HUSBAND (as she 'claims') - Tim... hence, this blog

this is from her blog... dated march 9th...

Somebody STOP me from reading her blog!! Is this the same thing as checking your ex-abusive-boyfriend's Facebook friend list? Then there's always 'keep your friends close and your enemies closer'

this is interesting in many ways... firstly... she sees no problem with continuing to read my blog... by any means available... and yet... if i happen to read some old posts of hers from the Catbox... some that she probably hoped no one would ever see again... then - according to her twisted logic - i am stalking her!!!

I've never had anyone do RESEARCH on me :) No wait :( Who is stalking whom? I realize she won't feel a "normal" sense of shame for showing herself as a stalker.

as with all Narcs/Psychopaths... BinkStink MUST have the last word... so she throws up nasty crap about me on her blog... then blocks me from responding... so i did contact her (in order to defend myself from her spew) ... here's the horrible, stalking thing i had to say to her...

seriously.... the person who wrote these things... sounds NOTHING like the hateful, obnoxious stuff you've been posting lately!

the things i am talking about are things she said in posts on the Catbox... when she first arrived there... as they are shockingly different from the things she has spewed at me and others lately...

now of course, she can read my blog for sometimes HOURS on end... and that - according to her continued twisted logic - somehow is not 'research'... but if i read posts that she made on a public forum... then all of sudden i'm 'researching' and 'stalking' her! lol!.. she is probably saying these things in reaction to what the posts contain... which seem to be from a completely different person than the one who attacked me repeatedly... and who now is attacking people she doesn't even know on Our Place...

i decided to read some of BinkStink's old posts... and it was SHOCKING... the difference between the things she said then... and the things she says now...

perhaps BinkStink should take the advice she gleefully dispensed to another

Catboxer...

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=79164&st=20

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Posted 18 August 2009 - 12:35 PM

Until you realize that your sense of self worth is INSIDE of you, not out there in someone else's possession, you will be miserable and reading his stuff about you till Kingdom Come. You are the only one in control here. No one can knock sense into your head. If you are cooking rabbits, then YOU are doing it, no one else is pulling any puppet strings. That's the first thing you need to understand, and stop blaming other people for YOUR behavior.

Spend this time working on yourself in therapy, that's where your solution lies. You have a big problem with personal responsibility, accepting the consequences of your OWN behavior, and are causing yourself terrible grief by your own hand. No one here can control your fingers that do the typing :lol:

I got the impression you attribute YOUR behavior to other people causing it. "Blame" is attributing "cause". His spewing on about you on another board doesn't "cause" you to do anything. You are always choosing to do what you do, maybe not consciously. When a person is choosing to torture themselves, it's hard to know what to say :lol: but STOP READING HIS NONSENSE!!! Stop hurting yourself. Why would you want to deliberately hurt yourself?

That's why I mentioned working on YOU in therapy. Discuss with your therapist that you have this tendency to torture yourself, and what could that be about?

now BinkStink is saying i'm stalking her... let me quote some of her own spew towards me...

You'd make your blog private or invitation only if you were so APPALLED at being READ (your version of stalked)

why don't you make the shit you smear on other people PRIVATE, BinkStink?... oh yeah... because it's no fun to ABUSE people if no one can see it!!!...

it's not surprising the cowardly blame shifting finger pointing stance BinkStink is taking... typical Narc... it's somehow MY fault she reads MY blog after I tried repeated to block her??? but alas... it's hard to rewrite history that is in writing... especially when a Narc is so fond of their abusiveness they don't bother to erase it...

the first shot fired was the hateful attack BinkStink launched on me... when she was bowing and scraping and backpedaling and trying to butt kiss her way back onto the Catbox... where she'd been banned for stalking and slandering other members... i couldn't have cared less... but all that changed when she started attacking me...

I wonder if it is the sudden appearance of anti-Catbox blogspots that people the front page of the Google search engine (I haven't tried any others)? Holy crap, there's a new one by an individual we are ALL familiar with who calls herself Confederaterebel (AKA Eggshellshocked, Outandabout, NeedsHRTBadly, Avoiding_Prozac, Gnashes With Teeth, whatEVER). My own journal modestly dusts the bottom of the page, but then above there is Hope's thread on Rick Ross, comparing Dr Irene's methodology with a cult known as Landmark, and of course NeBody's blog that has held a strong second place since the Meltdown itself.

Maybe THOSE little oil spills of information are causing potential new members to look askance.. I've read the entirety of Confederaterebel's blog (which I will, for the sake of the intelligence of my readers, NOT link to). This is an unfortunate woman who began her career on the Catbox with a truly sad story . . . living out her last days in a foreclosing house with beloved dogs and no home for herself and them in sight. Everyone is different, and as she lifted her head and blinked into the day, she saw rage instead of the Groundhog of Healing. There are plenty of other venues for frothing, foaming, vicious vengance vigilantes,(yeah....like BinkStink's blog) but no, she plants herself in the Catbox and within a few weeks, out she goes. She comes back a few times under various guises to spew vitriol and bask in all the negative attention and frighteningly, some positive (frightening to BinkStink i guess)

She is the first poster I ever put on ignore. I could NOT deal with the ...and all the... between all her .... not to mention all the "fresh fish" metaphors, gawd!!!

With all her outright disgust with Trubble's Catbox and Our Place , it causes me to wonder why she kept coming back.

She could not let go and now fills pages of the internet with some . . . I have to admit, very clever invective. Yeah, it's insipid and transparent . . . she loves her flying monkeys and counts her hits and flybys. The trouble is, her rhetoric is so NONcontagious that she is inadvertently giving a metric ton of publicity to Our Place, The Next Right Choice and Trubble's Catbox. (I hope so!!! I want people to see how abusive those places are to real abuse victims who need real help!!!)

pretty nasty, BinkStink... pretty nasty... so i come on and tell her if she doesn't like it to kiss my ass and go away... and the next thing you know that horse faced bitch Goongoddess (BinkStink's spew-sister and proxy) is crawling my ass like cheap underwear with her 'quite the heap of venomous hatred' BS ...

i believe it all goes back to the one line where she revealed herself... 'my own journal modestly dusts the bottom of the page'... the nasty Narc BinkStink was full of rage and envy over this blog... waaaaay back when... and she still can't get over it... Narc jealousy and rage that something else actually gets more attention than her blog... where she writes vicious hateful 'advice' to victims on sites she herself is banned from... things not read or paid attention to... and here we are...

all Psychopaths and Narcs are big on rewriting and tweaking history... that's probably why so few of them put history in writing in the first place... but BinkStink did put history in writing... which makes it just a little bit harder to rewrite...

the agenda of Irene and the Catbox is personal responsibility... they want to force people to take personal responsibility... even for things that aren't their personal responsibility to take.... like the behavior of their Narc and Psychopath abusers... they want victims to take the BLAME for being victimized...i have a problem with that... a HUGE problem... but BinkStink does not... at least not until personal responsibility applies to HER...

so before we start off down the twisting dark road into the 'bad neighborhood' that is BinkStink's mind... let me again quote her..

You are the only one in control here. No one can knock sense into your head. If you are cooking rabbits, then YOU are doing it, no one else is pulling any puppet strings. That's the first thing you need to understand, and stop blaming other people for YOUR behavior.Spend this time working on yourself in therapy, that's where your solution lies. You have a big problem with personal responsibility, accepting the consequences of your OWN behavior, and are causing yourself terrible grief by your own hand.

and into the darkness we go...

first stop... BinkStink's first post on the Catbox...

Posted 28 August 2007 - 03:28 AM
Hi everyone, this is my first post. I keep wanting to change my thread title, it sounds sarcastic, but I think I am just still stunned, and angry with myself.

I only recently realized that I've been living with a wretched abusive man for seven years. I just thought he had anger issues, was kind of insensitive, had bad mood swings, and of course drug addiction. I finally managed to kick him out in June, after he was tazed by the police and taken into custody. The sheriff came out to inform me, and I saw my opportunity. I surprised the heck out of him and told him I want a protection order and I'll tell them EVERYTHING. I thought this was all about his drug problems, but he was abusive and scary when he was stone sober too. He's been gone only a little over two months, and I attend Alanon, which has been an absolute lifesaver. There was still a lot of stuff that didn't make sense and I have felt so ashamed of all this, and the shame has just persisted even though he's no longer here.

I feel like I have let myself down in the worst way.

I saw plenty of red flags along the way, and ignored them (like we all do I suppose). I was in a rough spot in my life when I met "Doofus" (that really describes him). I was a single mom with two bratty teenagers, now lovely adults. I worked full time as an RN, which is where I met the Doof, at work. My best friend had just passed away from breast cancer, we spoke daily since we were in junior college, raised our kids together, went through boyfriends together. I was probably insane from grief and just feeling so alone when I met Doofus. He was very religious, and told me he just wanted to sit on the beach and hold hands, he was dating another nurse who just wanted sex, his wife left him and took his son back to Japan because "she was so depressed and scared of everything". Poor guy!! Well I had to have him. He said he wanted to be a Daddy again. He wanted a garden and pets and a wife and children. He was still married to his wife in Japan, but she refused to come back. He said she was such a beautiful, perfect woman (yes he used those words), so "clean" in her person and housekeeping, and the perfect mother to their little boy, too. He mused about getting together with her, or going to Japan to be with her. I bought every single bit of it.

Yeah, she exists, and she left him because a SWAT team descended and tossed her house for drug making paraphernalia, scaring her and the baby to death. This I heard from his mother a year into the relationship. His drug history was "long ago", and his favorite was methamphetamine, he even cooked it. I still had to have him! What is that about?? He didn't tell me he had genital herpes. Not until after I caught it and wondered what in the he11 was going on down there . . . and my response? Well he'd been acting very angry, would lock me out of the bedroom, refuse to have sex with me because I wasn't doing it right, yada yada. When I lose it and begin to sob and demand that he leave (he'd moved in about two weeks before, and we'd already been through some serious fights), he went crazy apologizing, he was having an "outbreak" and it always made him feel sick and grumpy.

I was relieved! It was only herpes! And of course that is what was going on "down there" with me . . . but I was so relieved he was "back and loving" again that I just couldn't tell him that I had it too, I couldn't break his heart.

I just want to VOMIT writing this. But this is the truth. Two years ago, after much insisting, Doofus got his wish, and I sold my house in California so we could go "live in the country". We chose Idaho after a long road trip. It didn't take long for his real motives to come through. How many of us have been told the story that their Doofus would feel so much happier, wouldn't be so stressed and angry and nasty, if they could get out of the city? Moving to the country just gave him more imagined freedom to relapse on meth, accumulate a whole lot of guns and not so nice people in great abundance. Within a year of moving up here, I persisted and began getting livestock. Ironically, the move was his idea but I REALLY got into it . . . egg laying chickens, geese, turkeys, guineas and goats for milk. I loved it!! Thank God for my critters as they kept me sane, and don't forget, I had a garden and learned to can my own food. I've had a great time with that stuff, but in the background . . . I felt like I willingly walked into the biggest trap of my life. I wasn't about to leave the farm. Doofus wasn't about to leave the farm either. He continued to binge, disappearing two weeks of each month, and hosting booze/weed/pill parties in between. Of course I protested. He thought I was "cute" when I got angry. I threw a teflon pan at him and gashed his leg, I don't think "cute" fits too well. I was just as crazy as he was by the time the inevitable happened.

He'd always made "jokes" about me in public. If I pointed out his behavior, he seemed pleased that I noticed. If he was angry and irritable, he threatened to shut me up for good. When I threatened to call the sheriff, he was high and very agitated, he picked up a claw hammer and thrust it in my face and threatened to bash my skull in. I never confronted him again. I just planned how to get rid of him. But, I felt such shame. Not that I "deserved" his abuse . . . I never felt like I deserved it, long before I got over that. It was that I STAYED, that I overlooked so much, that I glazed over and spaced out instead of leaving long, long before. I'd let him have his way just to shut him up. I used to have a script for Xanax because I hate flying and had to for a while in one job. I refilled it, lying to my doctor, so I could give HIM the stupid pills, a few Xanax in him and he'd leave me the he11 alone, you know? I didn't take them but I didn't need to, somehow I can shut it all out and not deal with it all on my own. And that's what I did.

In June he tried to elude police and was tazed and that's when I told the sheriffs everything. They couldn't believe I hadn't "done" something long ago. They were nice about it, very helpful actually. I didn't know what to tell them. I didn't think they could do anything. If I called them, and they walked away for lack of evidence, he might have killed me.(isn't it amazing how little empathy BinkStink has for me... .even in light of this?...) I couldn't have articulated this at the time to them.

I am here on this board because I just don't get it! What happened to me?? I put up with this for seven years. I abandoned my kids. I let Doofus run the show, and he has ruined me financially. Oh he had my complicity.

I know this sounds dramatic but I am SO ANGRY with myself. I'm plenty angry with the Doof and will take out his leg if he sets foot on this property, he taught me how to shoot. I have no trouble being angry with him. But it's the anger at myself that is really hurting me.

In Alanon, I get the support for the drug addict end of it, and addiction and abuse often coincide, but are different issues. I'm just beginning to "get" that. Many of my close friends there have lovely spouses who just have an addiction. I had to admit the Doofus was never a lovely person, except when we first met. And then, I had to wonder what on God's green earth I was trying to do all these years, how willing I was to live a miserable life and put up with such carp.BTW, he's living at the edge of town in a junky trailer park. Rumor has it he's still waiting for me to "make up my mind". I believe I've already done that. I have a yearlong R.O., have retained a lawyer (can't afford him to take it to trial though), and every time he's violated the RO I've called 911 and they cart him off. This is a very small town, and we are "new"here, his "friends" steer clear of him because the sheriffs watch every move he makes, his "good" friends steer clear too. Why he hasn't gone to hide in the mountains in shame is amazing, but I know it's because he doesn't think he's done anything wrong.

I hope to find the answers here and in my readings on abuse. If you've made it this far, I thank you so much. Even more stuff is sailing home just writing this Bink

wow... she sounds NORMAL.. almost... there are a lot of similarities between BinkStink's story and my own... you would think that would cause her to have some understanding and empathy for me... instead of contempt and hatred...

what is the major difference between me and BinkStink?... SHAME... BinkStink is full of shame... self hatred... self loathing... and i am not... i have never ever accepted any of the blame or responsibility for the psychopath who abused me... is BinkSink envious of that?... it would appear so... early on she gave this creepy clue to how bad the neighborhood is inside her head...

Life beyond abuse, for me, is acknowledging how similar I am to my abuser, these days. How easy it is for me to be abusive, careless, refuse to take responsibility, refuse to acknowledge there is a greater reality than I want there to be.

sorry... i've had an abusive psychopath projecting his garbage onto me for years... and i'm full up... but BinkStink has decided to turn her 'Hippodrome projector' onto me... .to this day...

now let's turn on our xenon flashlights and go deeper into the bad neighborhood that is BinkStink's mind...

in my 'our feature presentation' posts... i unmasked BinkStink for the Narc she is... and included some of literally hundreds of hateful abusive posts she made to me...

so before we venture further into the mean streets of BinkStink's psyche... let me recap a few she made regarding my pets... and money... you will soon see how BinkStink has in the comments below, attempted to turn ME into HER... all these things below... are things BinkStink said and did... as you'll soon see...

Your damage is not special or unique, and neither are you. That's the hope and the promise. But in your mind, it is the reason to give up and turn your hurt onto other people for not REALLY helping you, which I am coming to conclude would only be to send money.If that's what you want -- real, practical HELP -- then you'd better tone down your invective or no one will WANT to help such a vindictive, ungrateful, snarling pathetic thing

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you don't WANT a hand up, you want a hand out. And who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious, insulting bitch as yourself? NO ONE.

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There is no medication or real effective therapy for people with your issues. Except prison, to keep you away from taking advantage of naive people who have a hard time believing people as bottomlessly cruel and greedy even EXIST

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Funny you don't address the health of your animals, just the one thing that doesn't necessarily implicate you.Do you even HAVE eight dogs and six cats? Or is that just another one of your crafted stories to get pity? It's just a bit over the top, just like the rest of your story

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They fall for your fake sob story, try to help you, and when you overwhelm them with outrageous requests and then get ANGRY with them for not complying, they run for their lives

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You slowly doom your animals to starvation and illness and neglect, supposedly. You tell lies to get sympathy and money. You try to take advantage of a system meant to help the TRULY needy. What is your opinion of yourSELF?

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For all I know, you aren't living in a "hovel" with nine thousand animals. Someone would have called the Animal Cops on you by now for all your claims they are in need of food and care. How do you keep the fleas and heartworm under control? Do you brush them all and bathe them all? How do you care for their teeth? Do you do your own surgery on them when they are ill? You can't take care of them, if I am to believe your story.But I am starting to not believe it. If you can support 8 dogs and six cats, you DO have money. Because NO WHERE on Planet Earth is there enough charity or people willing to provide it without calling Animal Control on you!.

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A person on dial up internet CANNOT set up or maintain a blog such as yours A person who is "disabled" because of their "complex PTSD" cannot manage to string enough thoughts together to set up a blog such as yours, nor would they have the intense focus to maintain such a pathetic sob story for SO LONG as to take advantage of good people until they too run the other direction when you begin attacking THEM. It is YOU who have been busted. As an abuser yourself. As a psychopath yourself. I ought to ban you entirely, out of decency and principle. Except you amuse me.

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Are you flea infested?Are you running with red open sores from the vermin munching on your ankles? Do your dogs gasp and lay quietly on the ends of their chains, fur matted and eyes dim from starvation and worms? Does your hovel stink from the scarce kitty litter? Or are they shitting up the poor man's yard where you keep your hovel? Do you scoop it up out of some rare impulse to actually be grateful? If you do, where do you PUT the POO? In his garbage can? Or do you dry it and burn it for heat

BEHOLD!! BinkStink conning her fellow Catboxers out of MONEY...

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=47160

Posted 18 December 2007 - 09:09 PM

ATM is a POS waste of the human genome and if I EVER doubted he was a sociopath/narcissist I no longer do. I am crushed to think I had this evil menace to society in my home, in my bed, how can I not look like some kind of moral idiot myself?And how is he getting all these people to HELP him when he is such an OBVIOUS criminal low life?? His widdle nuts got cold and somehow he got this couple -- who know him WELL and everything that's gone on -- to allow him to move in with him. These are salt of the earth folks . . . they are my friends too . . . they KNOW I got a RO for a reason! They know WHY I got one!I feel totally stupid saying this but I feel so betrayed by them. I know that's not what really happened but DAM guys, what the hell?? They are giving him 3 hots and a cot AND a base from which to operate. He cannot function unless he is feeding off of someone, he's been a complete mess since I kicked him out. This couple who allowed him to move in assured me they would NEVER let him come back and stay with them again. Man, that HURTS. I am so hurt. They didn't intend to hurt me or betray me. No, they fell "victim" to ATM and are poster children for why we need Alanon meetings up here. Still . . .

Then, I'm on a well for water and there is a leak in the cistern. I fill it up and by the next day, 300 gallons of water is gone. My car spouted an exhaust leak and I am BROKE. I mean I have NO money except about 200 bucks worth of savings bonds. Then the phone company called and my "service may be temporarily disconnected" tonight at midnight.

Oh yeah, my lawyer called me back to tell me he doesn't think refunding me any of my retainer is a good idea considering we will need every cent 'cause ATM is now on a litigious ROLL. He also counseled me NOT to sell anything, even if my phone gets cut off, and he was very serious about that.Oh and I have four bales of hay left for the goats. I've been trying to sell them off without any luck for months, I have offered them for FREE to local 4H but haven't heard back . . . guys, my only other option is to shoot them and butcher them.

No, I don't have a J*O*B goddammit. I haven't even been able to function beyond the daily necessities. I guess there is no kick in the pants like this, huh? I need to wake up and get with the program. No one can do this for me. I cannot "eat" support and validation, nor will it keep the animals fed and the phone on :) I have to snap out of this depression and MOVE my butt.

My family are . . . well, lovely, POOR and rather dithering. I'd just worry them into heart attacks.I feel very, very frightened. And furious. And . . . I guess resigned. What can I do? But put one foot in front of the other. I have a great deal of faith in God but that doesn't mean I don't have some hell to go through.

I know this is a lot . . . if you made it through, knowing you read it means so much.

wow... that is quite the manipulative post!!. poor BinkStink... she cannot 'eat support and validation''.. support and validation won't keep her animals fed!!!.. she's BROKE... she's going to have to BUTCHER her pets... wow...

now... let's take a moment to review some of her vile spew at ME...onto whom she has chosen to PROJECT HERSELF and HER PATHOLOGY!!.

'you tell lies to get sympathy and money'... here she is projecting herself onto me!!.. it is BinkStink who was telling lies to get sympathy and money!!. because i have never used my pets or my situation to solicit sympathy or money!!. EVER!!! she is attacking me... but actually talking about herself! and the same with this attack...

For all I know, you aren't living in a "hovel" with nine thousand animals. Someone would have called the Animal Cops on you by now for all your claims they are in need of food and care. How do you keep the fleas and heartworm under control? Do you brush them all and bathe them all? How do you care for their teeth? Do you do your own surgery on them when they are ill? You can't take care of them, if I am to believe your story.

But I am starting to not believe it. If you can support 8 dogs and six cats, you DO have money. Because NO WHERE on Planet Earth is there enough charity or people willing to provide it without calling Animal Control on you!.

gee BinkStink... how does someone with NO MONEY care for -- let me quote you .... "a herd of 25 goats, a couple dozen chickens and ten geese and two tom turkeys, 13 dogs and two cats. Oh yeah, and me :)" ... followed up with that talk about BUTCHERING her pets!!.

and well... she can't SELL anything... because her lawyer has told her not to!!.. OMG... and for all these women on the Catbox knew... BinkStink is NOT 'living in a hovel with nine thousand animals'!! she's projecting herself onto me AGAIN... a couple of people tell her to give the animals away... nd leave... or take them to a shelter...

well -- now BinkStink seemed to think i was lying about the shelters here being

full... maybe it's because of her 'forgetting' THIS post of HERS!!!

Thanks Miki The animal shelters were something I'd looked into a while back, they are crammed with animals and can't take a single one. I even called today, no change, but I was able to schedule spay/neuter of the puppies for free

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Oh I "know" about the farm life thing . . . ATM was going to be the one to "do the deed" while I disappeared myself until it was all over . . . I did this last year with a couple of goats, I handled it OK. Once it didn't "look like" the poor goat any more I was alright .

What I CANNOT kill and eat are my precious little poultry people. I love birds and it would be like butchering one of my dogs There are two geese who I will take with me, and my cats Bebe and Bink. I pray I can find temporary homes for the two adult dogs and the Great Pyrenees.

by now Catboxer Wind Dancer has offered to send her money by paypal... and the ball starts rolling... Wind Dancer even offers to let her come to Georgia and stay with her...

The general feeling about livestock is . . .well, they are food and open mouths, what are you, crazy? Times are tough, butcher them.

Not a single person has offered to help me keep them going until I can somehow, some way, get them on to new homes or Freezer Camp. Wind I don't know what to say, you can't see my face (and I'd be hiding it anyway), people who don't even know me from Adam offering to help me is . . . well, I am used to helping others, and so not used to being helped.

I'll set up a pay pal thingie, maybe I can use it to sell something on Ebay?I know I can't just sit here and wait any more. I don't even know what I was waiting for . . . for God to drop a care package from Heaven? To find a money tree, a sugar daddy? I wasn't even thinking . . . I can do "One Day at a Time" like a champ but I think I over did it

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I have received more support that I FEEL from the people here than from all the IRL interactions I've had in the last two years. I am not kidding. That support ALONE has lifted me up, guys.

And NO ONE has offered to help me feed my critters till I can get them rehomed except you all. It's not surprising . . . number one, I never asked :) and second, you don't want to know how they "take care" of unwanted animals up here.

I feel like I must say the "right thing" to convey my gratitude, but for the life of me I don't have words for it. I have words for everything too . . . but have to go around the mulberry bush, it's just too powerful for me to give it "word" right now.

after acting like she, who seems to be of at least average intelligence, had no idea about paypal or how to set up an account.. someone did it for her... and the money poured in... how much no one but she knows...

OH BOY!! I just looked and SO many have responded and placed donations in my little PayPall account . . . I am truly FLOORED guys :( I am going to make sure every bit of donations and love and concern sent my way MEAN SOMETHING. I promise it will! It is going to be my leg up.I am NOT giving up. This all gives me so much more hope where I was running out of it . . .Y ou have made a difference. A bigger one than you know!

Perhaps the favorite all around foodies for the livestock is cracked grains. I call it "crack" lol because they go for it like the drug!! It's especially important to have a little "crack" in the winters up here, it keeps the internal fires burning and little beasts warm and chunky and healthy.

And, it is not expensive, and goes a long way.

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BinkStink... here -- in her rabid malicious attacks on ME... was actually talking about herself...

'you slowly doom your animals to starvation and illness and neglect, supposedly. You tell lies to get sympathy and money.

BinkStink did what she is accusing me of!!. she really played them... and then... when the Catbox blew up... BinkStink thanked them all by hatefully betraying everyone who had sent her that money... attacked them... maligned them... and took sides with Dr. Irene... .again to further her own agenda... and that's why she is not welcome at Our Place.... because she conned them... and they know it...

who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious insulting bitch as yourself, BinkStink? i bet these days... NO ONE...

Here's more of her spew against me:

I agree that what I think of me and know to be true is enough. I don't actually have a problem with her calling me a narc or a ravening psychopath intent upon victimizing the already victimized.

nope... what BinkStink has a PROBLEM with is me causing a psychopath (her) some discomfort... too much full strength truth for her taste...

see... i had a 'profession' too... i was a real estate broker for many years... and i'm not quite beliving BinkStink's story!!.. i can go back and look up home sale prices in San Diego the year BinkStink sold hers... and what the appreciation rates were... and i don't believe for one minute that BinkStink took the profit from the sale of her home... bought 20 acres and a cabin in Idaho... bought a bunch of livestock... bought trucks...a snowmobile...tools.. and assorted other things we will eventually hear her tell of purchasing... and did it without a job... and then spent two years living there... with no job... surviving solely off the money from the sale of her house... while her ex: ATM spent 100 grand on drugs!!.. nope... just doesn't add up... just doesn't add up...

obviously she and her ex, ATM had a source of income that is for some reason not being mentioned... wonder what that reason could be?... you'll see her say HERSELF that ATM was a meth cook.. why would someone chose to move to a remote area of Idaho?... with no job?... unless they had a new career in mind????????...

hmmmmmm... are you sure that was CHEESE you and ATM were making up on that 40 mile switchback road in the wilds of Idaho, BinkStink????? or is this quote you spewed at ME some more of YOUR projection about yourself???? :)

YOU MARRIED HIM. You thought he was a pretty good deal yourself. I suspect there was a time his nefarious deeds (criminal activity, drug addiction) were lookin' pretty good to you. Together you could rip off the whole world and sit pretty on your real estate millions, together. ceptin's crime does NOT pay.

More from 'always the martyr' BinkStink:

I have a problem with a crazy woman contacting my place of EMPLOYMENT, dragging my personal life forward and causing the need for me to explain how I even know this whackjob. I don't announce wherever I go that I am a domestic abuse survivor. And it is EMBARRASSING to realize I've got another one after me, so unfortunately, I've been reacting, and you're right :)

I don't care what they think of me because suddenly I am a domestic violence survivor. I like to choose when and who I share this information with, on my own terms.

OK, I didn't realize THAT is what bothers me the most.

hmmmmm... then it's back to the THIRD PERSON schizoid shit... with another jab at me for telling the truth:

Who "Bink" is already speaks for itself, and her blog content says more about her.

More from Bink and what she and her proxies say about me.

STAY TUNED FOR PART TWO...

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BEN

2/14/2007

MURDERED

by psychopath Mike McGrannahan

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"The time will come when men such as I will look upon the murder of animals as they now look upon the murder of men." -- Leonardo Da Vinci

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.“I do not bring forgiveness with me, nor forgetfulness. The only ones who can forgive are dead; the living have no right to forget.” -- Chaim Herzog

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''Justice is incidental to law and order." - J. Edgar Hoover

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"Life is life's greatest gift. Guard the life of another creature as you would your own because it is your own. On life's scale of values, the smallest is no less precious to the creature who owns it than the largest." -- Lloyd Biggle Jr.

UH OH, BINKSTINK!..THE TRUTH REALLY IS OUT THERE!!!

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the truth really is out there... if you just look for it... i looked for it... and i found it... firstly... before anyone starts wagging their psychopath tongue and pointing their psychopath finger... i want to post this reminder...

bink_think
2010-02-17 06:41 am (UTC)
Confederaterebel! Mary Ella McGrannahan. I know you even when you leave out your ellipses.

as everyone can see... the creepy psychopath BinkStink had no problem with posting MY name on HER blog on 2/17/2010...

BinkStink crowed all over her blog that i could not report her to the nursing board... because i couldn't possibly have HER name.. and couldn't possibly get it... she has since removed those posts... along with the one in which she gleefully claimed my father was supposedly a KKK member... but i still have the post and code copied... and in her MEAN PEOPLE SUCK whine-a-thon, she alludes to what she said...

I know it is revenge for suggesting her father was a grand poohbah KKK even though that's probably true.
Finding her father after refusing to believe her sob story, and eventually banning her for endless name-calling twaddle was tantamount in her mind to justify fucking with my sole means of support.

.........

nasty BinkStink also felt it was perfectly OK for her post hateful spews like this to me...

2010-01-03 09:30 pm (UTC) .Are you flea infested?Are you running with red open sores from the vermin munching on your ankles?Do your dogs gasp and lay quietly on the ends of their chains, fur matted and eyes dim from starvation and worms?Does your hovel stink from the scarce kitty litter?Or are they shitting up the poor man's yard where you keep your hovel?Do you scoop it up out of some rare impulse to actually be grateful?If you do, where do you PUT the POO?In his garbage can?Or do you dry it and burn it for heat?-bink

i've always had a bit of a problem believing BinkStink's sob story... always... even back on the Catbox...it didn't add up...

if she had a house on 20 acres in Idaho... bought and paid for with the proceeds from a house she owned outright in California... then why was BinkStink soooooo broke she had to CON her fellow Catboxers out of money, as i pointed out in a previous post??... why didn't she just borrow money against the house and 20 acres... IF it was hers????...

then there was the claim that she was sitting there, scared to death of ATM... that she'd 'told the cops everything'... in exchange for an RO... didn't ring true... and tell them WHAT, exactly?... what could she tell them they didn't already know?...

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Psychopaths are often pathological liars... and they can often not remember a lie they told ten minutes ago, let alone things they said several years ago... and they seldom put their lies in print... but BinkStink... with her 5000 plus Narc posts on the Catbox... put LOTS OF LIES IN PRINT... LOTS...

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and she's also lied recently, of course... in print... here is an excerpt from her blog entry titled HOPE...

March 15, 2010

I was confronted with this choice myself. My ex husband ATM burned through my entire retirement fund and the proceeds from my house sale in California (which was considerable, I sold in in 2005). I was financially destroyed, and have forever lost ground because of it. He sicced his dogs on my animals and injured or killed them. He shot a laying hen with a RIFLE at point blank range because he wanted roast chicken. It blew her to smithereens. I was screaming at him to stop. The neighbors called the cops because they thought I was being killed, what with the rifle shots and all. He threatened to kill me uncountable times. And even today people, family included, do not GET IT, they continue to ask why I put up with it and did not

"leave sooner".

.......

Psychopaths forget the lies they've told... she's forgotten the lies she has previously told... above she says ... 'he threatened to kill me uncountable times'... .but here in a post from the Catbox....

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http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=57418

Posted 22 October 2008 - 09:00 PM
My ex abuser ATM was a threatener. He laid hands on me only a few times. Mostly he just threatened to hurt me, and a couple of times, when drunk and furious, to kill me.

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which is it??... uncountable times???... or a couple of times???? Psychopaths continually rewrite history and lie-on-the-fly... and you can see it BinkStink rewriting it... right here... for maximum effect... in the post dated March 15, 2010... she calls ATM her ex-husband... but in posts on the Catbox... she told a different story...

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850

We were never married ((((running out of the room to vomit in shame, excuse me, will I ever not want to barf when I tell this story :X ))))

and then there's this one...........

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850&st=0

Posted 05 November 2008 - 10:23 PM

the judge PROMISED no more continuances after the trial date set in March. Sometimes I wonder if not having married him will be more of a life saver than I ever thought. In the context of the relationship, he refused to marry me. He would have had to divorce his first wife and pay child support (that was his reasoning). Pardon me while I puke from shame again :X .

not only does she say on the Catbox that they were 'never married'... he couldn't possibly be her 'ex husband'... because she claimed previously that he was still married to someone else!!!!!!

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=75956

Posted 21 November 2008 - 01:54 PM
No one ever proposed to me. ATM just told me he knew he was "screwed" (his term for hopelessly in love with me) and moved right along into calling me his wife. We'd been dating for several weeks, perhaps eight. Probably less. Trouble was, he was still married to his first wife, who fled back to Japan seven years prior and refused to come back to the states (now I know why). He made two half hearted attempts to divorce her.

hmmmmmmm... but by 2009 BinkStink had rewritten history again...

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http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78511

ATM has an ex, in Japan

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it's soooo hard to keep up with a Psychopath's lies!!. even when they're in print... geeez... and then there is the matter of ATM... and the alleged RESTRAINING ORDER she has against him...

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78792

Posted 10 July 2009 - 01:24

ATM made many, many attempts to get this and that from the house. My lawyer had put a stop to taking any of the marital (WAIT A MINUTE!!..in other posts she states CLEARLY that they WERE NEVER MARRIED!) assets. Didn't stop ATM from trying. Since I had a RO, he couldn't approach me without a sheriff being present. And the sheriffs had a copy of the decree from the lawyer so they wouldn't cooperate

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=48368

Posted 20 January 2008 - 03:29 PM
ATM is grandiose and entitled and he thinks he is above the "law", and once I kicked him out went nuts trying to break the RO to get next to me.

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=54741&mode=linearplus

Posted 23 August 2008 - 09:49 AM
I allowed my year long RO to lapse in July . . . ATM doesn't know where I live, and his attention span is so short I doubt he would successfully find me. It was a "civil restraining order", not a domestic protection order, so he was allowed to keep his firearms

then there is the matter of ATM supposedly being in prison...

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850

Posted 05 November 2008 - 06:59 PM
That absolute farthead, who is in prison and will be for at least another year, is fomenting again

BinkStink checks her blog! AGAIN!

wait a minute!!!. in november of '08 he's in PRISON.. and will be for 'at least another year'... but in August of '08 her RO expired and she doesn't think he can find her anyway... wait... i thought he was in prison!!.

it's so hard to keep up with the LIES... let's try again...

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78180&st=40

Posted 15 May 2009 - 01:05 PM

I haven't seen his face or had any contact with him for two years, and he is safely incarcerated in prison due to his drug addiction but mostly stupidity and believing he is above the law. I've had time to heal a bit and see objectively what kind of situation I was in while I was with him (he is not in prison.....and he is VERY CLOSE TO WHERE SHE LIVES.. i'm sure she knows this)

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there's a bit of a problem with all of this... i searched Idaho court records... that

go back to 1995... and... there is no evidence that there was EVER a restraining order !!.. and... there is no evidence that ATM ever went to jail!!.. in fact... the case against him was DROPPED... couldn't find him in the Idaho Department of Corrections site... could find no evidence of him on the Washington State department of corrections site... or in the federal prisoner locator... looks like it was ALL A LIE!!

https://www.idcourts.us/repository/caseHistory.do?roaDetail=yes&schema=CLEARWATER&county=Clearwater&partySeq=28739&displayName=Haugen%2C+Timothy+m+%28+for+Haugen%2C+Timothy+M%29

sorry BinkStink... .aka... Kimberly Anne Stewart... there is no record of you ever getting a restraining order against Timothy M. Haugen!!!! the court case against ATM aka Timothy M. Haugen was DISMISSED... there is no evidence to suggest that ATM went to 'prison'... not in the state of Idaho!!. and there is no record of a restraining order ever being issued to YOU... or anyone else...

State of Idaho vs. Timothy M Haugen
No hearings scheduled
Case: CR-2007-0000652
Magistrate Judge: Randall W. Robinson
Amount due: $0.00
Closed
Charges:
Violation Date
Charge
Citation
Disposition

06/15/2007
I37-2732(C)(1) Controlled Substance-possession Of Arresting Officer: Cordle, Guy, 2000
Finding: Dismissed By Prosecutor Disposition date: 06/28/2007 Fines/fees: $0.00
Register of actions:
Date

06/18/2007
New Case Filed - Felony

06/18/2007
Criminal Complaint

06/18/2007
Affidavit Of Probable Cause

06/18/2007
Order Determining Probable Cause After Arrest Without Warrant

06/18/2007
Hearing Scheduled (Arraignment 06/18/2007 01:00 PM)

06/18/2007
Statement of Defendant's Rights - Felony

06/18/2007
Hearing result for Arraignment held on 06/18/2007 01:00 PM: Arraignment / First Appearance

06/18/2007
Financial Statement And Order

06/18/2007
Defendant: Haugen, Timothy M Appearance John R Hathaway

06/18/2007
Hearing Scheduled (Preliminary 06/29/2007 11:00 AM)

06/18/2007
Order Of Commitment Pending Posting Of Bail

06/19/2007
Request For Discovery

06/28/2007
State's Discovery

06/28/2007
Motion To Dismiss

06/28/2007
Motion Granted

06/28/2007
Court Minutes

06/28/2007
Dismissed by Motion of the Prosecutor with hearing (I37-2732(C)(1) Controlled Substance-possession Of)

06/28/2007
Hearing result for Preliminary held on 06/29/2007 11:00 AM: Hearing Vacated

06/29/2007
Order Of Release From Custody

07/17/2007
Subpoena Returned

07/17/2007
Subpoena Returned

07/17/2007
Subpoena Returned

07/17/2007
Subpoena Returned

and as for the cabin and 20 acres...

1030 Hjalmar Johnson Road, Weippe, Idaho has only ONE OWNER listed... Mr. Timothy M. Haugen... and it STILL belongs to him!!!

am i STALKING you, BinkStink??.. NO!!. did i RESEARCH you?... YES... because you attacked me and called ME a liar, when i had always suspected that YOU were one!!!! and it turns out i was CORRECT...

all the information i have about you is a matter of public record... and a LOT of it, you made public yourself!!!!

there's GOLD in them thar' google caches!!!!!

http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=47241

NONE SO BLIND... AS BINKSTINK

Ole' BinkStink just can't help herself... despite me telling her NUMEROUS times to stay off my blogs... that if she didn't I was going to call her employer for using work computers to come here... she can't stop herself... she's a Narc who thinks the rules don't apply to her... she can't get that I wouldn't give a shit about her if she wasn't bashing me, bashing my friends and bashing abused women she doesn't even know...

...she can't give it a rest ...because like all Narcs she HAS to be right and she HAS to have the last word...

she had to get in more kicks at ALL ABOUT HIM where I am a member... she's attacked the owner of the board - who didn't even know about BinkStink but is now fully aware who and what BinkStink is... and no, BinkStink... no one told this person -- all she had to do was read your insipid blog...

BinkStink is so mercenary that she honestly thinks Barbara is getting paid to moderate ALL ABOUT HIM as a full-time job... once again showing how fucking clueless she is about 'gubbermint benefits'... Barbara is permanently and painfully disabled... she can't have a full time job because she can't work... what she gets per week to offset costs at ALL ABOUT HIM is less than the price of a bag of dogfood and that's it... she hasn't even asked for more because that's who she is... and she's not begging for money like you did on the Catbox... no one could support herself and her children on that kind of money... and she's barely making it on disability bitch... as you so arrogantly pointed out that she's 'bound to her abuser' monetarily in one of your last spews... knock knock... the abuser in question is the father of her children - so who's the "bound" one here??? altruism doesn't compute with a psychopath... BinkStink always knows the price of everything and the value of NOTHING!!!

I'm sad to see that she has frightened her membership with stories of an evil TROLL. Wrong.

Psychopaths are not run-of-the-mill trouble makers. They are devastating. They are not running amok in our society, they are few and far between.

If that is how Barbara feels about her post as moderator, that my criticism was an attempt to undermine the one thing that keeps her afloat in this world, I apologize sincerely.

LOL!!! Frightened? More like disgusted... the members saw through her & called her a psychopath and a jealous narc... she knows nothing about how anyone feels or thinks... she only spews this shit to try to play martyr and make others look bad... she can't stand it when someone shines any light on her bullshit!!.. btw bitch - new studies show 1 in 4 people to be psychopathic... just read Dr. Hare or Dr. Babiak or POLITICAL PONEROLOGY... of course Bink doesn't want anyone to realize SHE'S one of the 'running amok'... she'd rather minimize psychopathic abuse along with her own!!!

BinkStink herself is bound... with her obsession to get her abusive Narc ass onto Our Place... she vacillates between love and hate for them... the board that won't have her... since losing her admin position and being banned from the Catbox she just can't move on... her hero Sam V. has at least 2 or more boards, people like Patricia Evans have boards... but no... sorry, pathetic BinkStink can't let it go... she stalks Our Place giving advice to members who don't even know who she is from her pitiful little blog... and needles her buddies who are on Our Place to PLEEEAAAASSSSEEE put in a 'good word' for her so she can get in... she can't even get herself a new identity and tone down the abusiveness long enough to sneak back in.... noooooo.... her Narcissistic injury won't allow it... BinkStink must conquer... BinkStink must reign supreme... she can't imagine that anyone like myself would be readily accepted on another board with a beloved moderator who was also banned from Our Place, too (for telling the TRUTH, mind you...)... and yet BinkStink's banned everywhere she goes... BEFORE she even attempts to sign up!!!!

tell us BinkStink... what happened to all the money from the "paid for cash" little bungalow you and ATM had up in them thar' hills??? how come you were whining to all your Catbox sisters about being broke and possibly butchering your pets then???

of course BinkStink develops typical Narc amnesia about the money she conned from members back when she was on the Catbox... in her mind somehow she's justified that by attacking this moderator... twisted psychopath thinking...

and she just 'can't get' how taking their money and running away in her WHHAAAMMMMBUUUULANCE and then turning-around and making fun of those same victims behind their backs with her asshole-buddy GoonGoddess was wrong... she 'just can't see it'.... so she still tries to ass-kiss the Our Place gang by saying she learned healing 'AT THEIR KNEES' while backstabbing them for permanently banning her pathological ass from there too... whatever tack a Narc thinks will work - they'll do... they just keep hoping no one sees they change direction every minute to get the maximum benefit from their spews...

no... BinkStink can't understand how any one could be altruistic enough to work a full-time job... yet write a book that made next to no money... and pay out professional webmasters to design and maintain a forum just for victims of Narcissists because this person knows what being a victim is... that's what kind of good-hearted person Lisa E. Scott is... but BinkStink can't possibly wrap her puny Narc brain about caring about the welfare of other victims... BinkStink even tries to parse what she thinks is Lisa's mission statement by saying Barbara is in violation of it... jealousy is an ugly thing BinkStink... and you're a nasty, transparent, irrevelant piece of chicken dung...

Bink also can't wrap her head around a disabled woman with kids who... because of her commitment to getting information out to other victims... moderates a board and runs a successful FREE blog that's gotten close to 1 MILLION HITS since it's inception... only because she wants to help others who have gone through what she went through her whole life... for FREE... no BinkStink has to give some phony apology about being so 'sorry' for trying to get Barbara fired from what she WRONGLY ASSUMED was Barbara's job at ALL ABOUT HIM... simply because this petty bitch can't deal with the fact that I narc'd her out to Providence Medical Center... Narcs can't understand doing something because you care and for free... so she apologizes yet leaves all the other hateful spew up...

...she can't get her head around that fact that neither Barbara or I really have anything to loose... oh yeah, almost forgot.... BinkStink - the long-distance-diagnostician - says Barbara's children (that she's never met and doesn't even know) have lots of 'emotional problems'... that's really depraved BinkStink... at least stick to the 5th grade bully tactics without attacking someone's children... or pets, in my case... but that's the Psychopath for you... anything and anyone is fair game... no remorse, no conscience...

...she goes so far as to ASSUME that we are shoving our 'no hope' understanding of our PERSONAL SITUATIONS down the throats of other victims... she can't understand that there are people out there that don't PROJECT their own sick hopey-codependent-you're a volunteer-you made the choice to be with an abuser brand of victim blaming and shaming on everyone... to the point that this Psychopath BinkStink thinks nothing of pushing a self-harmer over the edge to possibly self-harm permanently by implying the poor girl is just "looking for attention"...

poor BinkStink wants to 'gargle with Percocet' because someone speaks truth about their reality... do you dole out that looking for attention crap to your cancer patients at Providence, BinkStink??? (and for goodness sake stop teasing us and just do it)...

every time she sits down to blog... BinkStink reveals more of the nature of the Female Psychopath... the predator so in love with her own 'voice' she doesn't care who she hurts... or how many 'facts' she gets wrong... as long as BinkStink gets attention!!!! the Psycho-Drug of choice: ATTENTION!!!

BinkStink... you're gonna get loads and loads of attention until you shut up and sit down and stop abusing the abused... I hear that Cho from Virginia Tech and the psychos from Columbine had wacked out online journals just like you bitch!!!!

BINKSTINK CONTINUES TO TRY TO SMEAR MY FRIENDS... UPDATED!!. SOMEONE SHUT THIS BITCH UP!!.. ANYONE GOT A TRANQUILIZER GUN???

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geez... this nasty creepy bitch just can't give it up!!. didn't she just say something recently... that pertains to her behavior here?... oh yeah... her own words from her MEAN PEOPLE SUCK post...

I don't want to sound like I merely point fingers and take other people's inventories. I am in many ways a person to not be proud of. I have embarrassing shortcomings too. I am just not a mean person. I would not relish the thought someone is hurting and scared because of something I did. No matter WHAT they did to me, much less lose their job, reputation amongst their community, because I was vengeful.

I see a moral difference between challenging a person's words or behavior, and telling lies so they might lose their job, rather an obvious point to most folks.Reputations, jobs and positions are dear and most adults have them. They are earned over time, by hard work and trustworthy behavior. They are built over years, very carefully. They're worth the effort.

i mean.. come on... it's obvious this woman is INSANE... let's just lay it on the line... this bitch needs to be a patient in a mental hospital... instead of working as a nurse!!!

this whack job has been attacking me and stalking me for a long time... and now... now that the only thing she's gotten for her trouble is made fun of BY HER and REPORTED to her employer... she's gone completely stark raving!!!

now this sicko is attacking my friends and fellow forum members... and reviewing a forum that she is not part of... a forum that doesn't WANT her... wouldn't HAVE her!!. she was thrown off the Catbox for stalking and slandering members... she is not allowed on Our Place because she conned a bunch of money off those women, and stabbed them in the back... and they hate her guts...she knows this... and i know this....

she's already had to remove posts from her crappy little journal for copyright infringement... .but she's a defiant, nasty little NARC...and she never learns her lesson..

now she has sunk so nasty and low that she is attacking someone else she doesn't even know... Barbara... the moderator from All About Him... last night someone posted this to her... 'You need to get a life. And some psychiatric help'... AMEN!!. AMEN!!. but of course she removed it... because it hit a little too close to home.. and now... now the crazy bitch is at it again... with this spew...

Allabouthim.com, further thoughts

bink_think
March 14th, 13:26
I did get two comments last night (on the review of allabouthim.com), from the same user by the name of "abusesucks", which were (as always) sent to my email account as well as the LJ post. The appeared in their entirely in the email, but were deleted from the comment section of the post and the account "abusesucks" had been suspended sometime after the comments were sent. Could my complaint to LJ have been answered? The THIRTEEN user accounts Mary set up to continue her harassment must have made an impression on them. Except, "abusesucks" was NOT Mary, at least I don't think so, wrong style. And I don't think it was Lisa Scott. :P

Listen: I enjoy a good debate. I am ashamed to admit I listen to a lot of talk radio. I have a long commute, OK? And I enjoy the deft use of logic and evidential data in defense (or opposition) of ideas. I have never once resorted to name calling or personal insults during debates on my journal.

HOLD ON HERE..TIME OUT!!.. we're gonna clear THIS up right now!!.. like a classic schoolyard bully ALL she does is launch personal insults and name call... for example...

you don't WANT a hand up, you want a hand out. And who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious, insulting bitch as yourself? NO ONE.

this bitch is INSANE... I NEVER asked for a handout... she's spewing this crap, when all anyone has to do is look at her own posts!!....any of these will do...

http://bink-think.livejournal.com/2009/12/17/

this crazed PSYCHOTIC NARC is trying to rewrite history as she's writing it!!. TURBONARC! i love how she calls her insane rabid attacks DEBATES... .i believe Ted Bundy called his victims, DATES...

I worked Mary over as hard as I've done because I lowered myself, was brought low too, by the endless taunting, name calling and personal attacks. They got to me after a while. I asked her if she had a flea problem or if her pets were starving, considering the sheer number of them and the two hundred dollars per month she claims to have as her only income (she's admitted she sells "collectibles" and "antiques", as well as having no income). It was an honest question. Food stamps do not buy dog food, flea protection, oral hygiene or veterinary care, and per her own words, she has never asked a soul to help her provide for them. I was both ANGRY that she had so many animals she ostensibly could not care for AND convinced if she DID have all those critters, she DID have the money to care for them and why not admit it?

Regarding my review of Allabouthim.com , I read the articles and the book reviews Lisa E. Scott (a pseudonym for her protenction) has written. Another woman escaped from abuse, telling her story, and giving back.

Encouraging a return to health, yes? If her forum is not her concern, that is one thing. Dr Irene allowed Trubble's Catbox to go on for years without direct intervention in the way it was run by her old admin team. The situations could be vastly different, in that from my direct experience of Trubble's Catbox as an admin, Dr Irene's reason for "taking over" was because the old admin team let things get out of hand. This was her excuse for what happened to HER, but does not reflect the reality of what did happen. A bunch of relatively progressed abuse survivors (I was not included at the time, unfortunately) called her on her mindfucking tactics, to cover up her own mistake. This she interpreted as "out of control" bitchery, and thus the Catbox Implosion and Exodus to Our Place.

Perhaps Lisa Scott has become busy with her life post abuse, promoting her books, and left the forum unsupervised? Maybe the forum is the least important of her priorities at this time, which makes sense considering. It was Dr Irene's least priority for years, until she discovered abuse survivors are not cowed by her Ph.D. or vulnerable and mindfuckable. And that a few took it upon themselves to sully her good name.

Anyway . . . for future reference: If you don't agree with what I am saying, PLEASE use adult language, without resorting to "pee pee poo poo" personal insults. USE YOUR WORDS, as I used to tell my daughter when she was three or so. SHOW ME how I am wrong. I might be profoundly wrong. I'd prefer to know that than go along thinking I'm right and find out I'm not. This isn't about ME, it's about ideas and whether or not another abuse forum is following the board owner's mission statement. In my estimation, Allabouthim.com's forum moderator is not. This isn't about a person's WORTH and VALUE as a human being, so lets not resort to insulting my worth and value. It doesn't effect ME, it says everything about the person calling names.

And if that person, "abusesucks" is who I think it is . . . that is a shame. A terrible shame.

this nut case is not a member on All About Him... so why her interest?... why doesn't this wingnut start writing reviews about something she probably KNOWS about... like SERENITY PADS... or how to get a good fit in a straightjacket????

Bink, you sick piece of shit... you're no better than a 5th grade bully... i'm not gonna beat around the bush... not going to mince words here... All About Him, BinkStink, is all about getting away from wingnuts like YOU... YOU'RE not welcome there... the members there made it very clear what they think of you...

go over and suck Vaknin's psychopath ass... or his front....or whatever he'll let you suck... or go 'gargle a bottle of Percocet'.. or TWO bottles, if you can steal that many from the hospital... the women and men of Vain Encounters KNOW about NARCS... so your shit ain't gonna play there... in fact, quite the opposite...

read it and weep, BinkStink....

http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help

anyone reading this... who is as sick of this twisted piece of skank as i am should contact her EMPLOYER... PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER in OLYMPIA WASHINGTON... . 360-491-9480... ask to speak to an ADMINISTRATOR.. tell them you want to make a complaint about a nurse there... her name is Kim... she is an oncology RN... they will know who you are talking about ...

or.. you can ask to speak to Mary Mertens, Manager Employee/Labor Relations... or you can contact Cynthia Binkerd at Cynthia.Binkerd@providence.org tell them you're sick of her insane spews... her attacks on victims of domestic violence... her stalking forums she is not a member of, or welcome at, and that you believe she is doing it on THEIR TIME CLOCK...

be sure and mention her creepy journal.. and if you email Cynthia Binkerd... be sure and send her a link to posts you find OFFENSIVE or DISTURBING on her journal... MAYBE if she has to get a job at Jack in the Box...the crazy bitch won't have time to STALK...

Anyone remember the Pittsburgh Gym Shooter?... another one who kept a really insane online journal - that no one reported... and if we don't start reporting wacknuts like ole' Bink... who knows what could happen!!!

As we all know... mud sticks best to a clean spot... so since BinkStink the abusive Narc, couldn't make headway with me... she now turns to my friend - Barbara, moderator at ALL ABOUT HIM... in a pathetic attempt to hurt me and get attention for herself... here's her latest spew full of mistatements, ASSUMPTIONS and Narc sarcasm... (my invective in purple)

:All About Him: A Review

bink_think
March 12th, 21:00
(probably posted from PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER, from the looks of the TIME...we'll soon know...and we will report what we find out)

From the welcome page for Lisa E. Scott's website allabouthim.com .

You cannot change a narcissist, but you can take steps to make changes in your life that will make you happier. I believe that is our goal... to accept what we cannot change and change what we can. We have the ability to grow and evolve, which is a beautiful thing. We are responsible for the choices we make in life and we can choose to be happy or we can choose to remain a victim. I choose to be happy and I hope you will join me in my journey.

There is a forum on Scott's website for victims of narcissists to share their stories and receive hope and support. It has a modest (she wishes!!! modest... typical Narc rewriting facts) membership as yet, being only about a year old.

There are tens or maybe hundreds of public and private forums for victims of domestic violence or partners with personality disorders (which amount to about the same thing). I've searched high and low on the net over the last three years, and after joining many of them, ended up spending most of my time on Trubble's Catbox. It was a community that was going strong seven years after it's inception. The membership, almost to the person, is now at Our Place as of a year and a half ago, and in my estimation, has a number of true veterans of domestic violence and the years of healing afterward. Many of the true veterans are on the admin team, some of whom have held the position for the last ten years. Many more are just members, still active years past the grueling end of their abusive relationships. There is real clarity and healing going on over there. There is leading by example. And this is what I see NOT happening on Lisa Scott's forum. Well, at least if you want to lead by HEALTHY example. (and we all know what she 'sees' is DELUSIONS!!! and are we taking this depraved person's definition of HEALTHY now??? LOL!!!)

I'm not clear as to how involved Scott is with her forum. She has a single moderator, "Barbara", who participates regularly and posts a wealth of articles and resources to specific issues that the membership brings up. I recognized "Barbara" almost immediately. I knew her as Shattered4Good on Trubble's Catbox. She was a dedicated link poster then, too. She sometimes linked four or five articles per day.

I was not privy to exactly what happened to cause Shattered4Good to be banned from the Catbox. It had something to do with her linking. The Catbox admins created a dedicated forum for articles and links and helpful books, and asked Shattered4Good to post her material there. Soon thereafter, she was banned. It happened when I left Idaho, I didn't have a computer and lost contact for a few days. "Barbara" was also a member of The Next Right Choice, a spin-off forum of Trubble's Catbox, in the immediate aftermath of the Catbox Implosion of 2008. She was one of many who re-emerged to cast their opinions while the Catbox fell apart, and the membership made their exodus to Our Place. She was eventually banned from TNRC as well, though again I was not privvy to exactly why.

What I do know of "Barbara" is that she lives with her two children and her (ex?) husband in a separated dwelling, and is dependent upon him for her living expenses. She is disabled by a number of chronic health conditions and is unable to work. This leaves her in a kind of bondage to her abuser, which she recounts many tales of. Her children suffer various emotional problems as well. (They do??.. this is really SICK and LOW!!! even for BinkStink... diagnosing someone's children that you don't even know!!!!) All of this information has been shared by "Barbara" on all forums she's been a member of, so this is definitely not insider information, but public knowledge. (on ALL forums??? or is BinkStink rewriting and skewing history like all Narcs!!!)

What concerns me is that between "Barbara's" written feedback to the membership of Allabouthim.com and Lisa Scott's mission is a loud discrepancy. It appears so great, to me, that I wonder if Lisa Scott reads the forum content at all. Or if she does, she doesn't know quite what to do with "Barbara".

The Catbox Implosion occurred when Dr Irene Matiatos, after several years of allowing her admins to run the show, decided she didn't like the direction the ship was going, and took the wheel. It turns out Dr Irene and her admin team had very different ideas about what was "good" for abuse survivors. The difference could be much better described by the ex-Catbox admins (now at Our Place, along with the entire ex-Catbox community), but to a member with a short stint as an admin working directly with Irene, the difference was more about the aftermath of a stupid mistake on Irene's part and her doomed attempts to save face afterward, than anything philosophical. Between the sole moderator "Barbara" and the mission of Allabouthim.com, the difference appears indeed to be philosophical, in the extreme.

Here is her reply to an AAH member who is expressing despair and hopelessness in the aftermath of a relationship with an abuser:

Fri, 03/12/2010 - 21:32 — Barbara I have to back up my buddy narcnarc here. While I can appreciate you all trying to bolster her... people like her and I are WAAAAY beyond 'hope' and 'getting out' and having 'fun.' Fun to me is a good night's sleep on pain killers, when I am able to take them... some party, huh?

narcnarc, for instance, has complex PTSD. She and her pets would be homeless if someone didn't donate a house to her. A house WITHOUT heat... but it's something. She has NO INCOME other than food stamps. Food pantries won't deal with her because she 'can't show proof of income' (I know, WTF! huh?) She probably has fibromyalgia but the hospital won't see her (no medicaid) and no doctor will see her for free.Like her I have complex PTSD. I am severely disabled so a shelter would never take me. Besides I would never leave my kids. I am morbidly obese from drugs & surgeries though people treat me like I am "just fat." If exNH didn't pay my rent, utilities and insurance I'd be in narcnarc's position.

We don't want to go out. We look like hell, feel like hell and we are tired of people telling us to "have hope." We have accepted what IS. That's one of the reasons I am working on getting a coaching certification. The positive affirmation/ self-talk thing gets pretty tired when you've dealt with a serious psychopath (or 3 in my case)

I don't date and I never will again. I get it narcnarc - why afflict someone as PTSD destroyed as us? We don't like it and we are smart enough to know others won't either. The old "her" is gone for me. I'd be ridiculous to even imagine I could get "her" back - she died a long time ago - a horrible agonizing death.the only person who know who I USED TO BE left - was Psycho-Boy!! and look what happened!she's done... all I can do is make sure no one else goes thru the same things I have.

Good grief, now *I* feel like gargling a bottle of Percocet and going to bed forever.(Stop punking us bitch, and DO IT!)

This woman is a MODERATOR? A "leader", a wise woman, for a group of people hoping for a decent life after years with an abusive narcissist? What is she trying to tell them? That she herself is hopeless and so is her "buddy" and DON'T YOU DARE SUGGEST OTHERWISE. No words of support, or any empathy for that matter, for the members who've begun to open up and risk sharing their shame and pain. God forbid they HOPE for a better life, this "destroyed" woman will set them straight! (where the FUCK did anyone but you BinkStink apply this logic to ALL the members... NO ONE... once again, you are assuming things that never happened!!! only in your delusional little Narc brain...)

You know, whatever. "Barbara" has the perfect right to be the way she is.

But is she "moderator material" for a group of very vulnerable individuals recovering from abuse and violence?As damaged and hurt as we are by our abusive scenarios, we are not made STUPID by them. And that is why most of them, anyway, will steer clear of this forum. (omg... now she's implying this moderator is damaging the forums members because she admits SHE HERSELF IS DAMAGED... do the math and apply her own logic: ...can you IMAGINE how this NURSE then treats her own patients???)

Lisa Scott! Pay attention to what's going on on YOUR website. Pay attention to your good name and reputation, which is good enough with your written work and public appearances. Take another look at this forum and ask yourself if "Barbara" is your idea of a guide for people you hope to give a leg up to?

This is a clear sign of BinkStink's desperation, taking things out of context and delusions... what kind of person abuses your friends when they you expose them for who & what they really are??? a PSYCHOPATH... also a clear sign of her need to be 'relevant'... before she removes it or sends her abuser proxies over... like she did with a bunch of her other smear & slander - you can read and respond here:
http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12785.html