tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39591861048939700362024-02-07T09:30:10.858-08:00BINK-STINK<em>Suspicion must always fall on those who attempt to silence their opponents.</em> – Ian Buckley... <br>the exposing of a pathological nurse who uses her blogs & moderating duties to further abuse abuse-victims and then justify her abuseno one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-10259981432286572102010-10-21T06:29:00.004-07:002011-03-08T17:35:48.105-08:00Bink/ Breisis/ Allie's Dream FINALLY Comes True!<p align="center"><a href="http://failblog.org/2010/11/05/epic-fail-photos-spelling-fail-6/"><img title="Spelling FAIL" style="width: 282px; height: 270px;" alt="epic fail photos - Spelling FAIL" src="http://failblog.files.wordpress.com/2010/11/4bc178cc-f072-42b2-b33d-409ca7fcde17.jpg" height="377" width="500" /></a></p><div align="center">see more <a href="http://failblog.org/">funny videos</a><br /></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" >Bink aka Briesis aka Allie is now a MODERATOR on <a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/">Lisa Scott's site</a>...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" ></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" >since Lisa realized the <a href="http://www.subconsciousrestructuring.com/user/scottli">Subconscious Restructing SCAM</a> was exposed <a href="http://www.allaboutrecovery.com/">she's moving on to a site </a>where she can capitalize on Magical Thinking and MINIMIZE their time with toxic Narcissists into <em>'just a bad relationship</em>.' Lisa was told but she's so childish she actually thinks she's hurting myself & Barbara by making Kim a moderator... LOL!!!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" ></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" >Lisa will be offering ONLINE DATING soon!!.. good going bitches!!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" ></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" >...and Bink/ Briesis/ Allie will be there to help oversee it all... </span></strong></div><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:Arial;" >...by the way -- GooseMama abandoned <a href="http://www.outofthefog.net/">Out of the Fog</a>... probably for the best since they were warned... apparently they CHECK PEOPLE OUT and Kim would <em>never</em> have been made a moderator there!!... lol</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);font-family:arial;" >BEST OF LUCK</span></strong> </p>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-33823099300056191062010-06-16T04:56:00.005-07:002011-03-08T17:43:18.532-08:00Welcome Back, You Psychopath Bitch!<span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" >I left her alone for months - no posts - told her to leave me alone but she just can't stop <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 153);">STALKING!!!</span><br /><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ></span><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/duck%20funny" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 232px;" alt="funny Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c79/bubba_nelson474/funny/duck.jpg" border="0" /></a></span><br /></div><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ><br /><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">http://www.lisaescott.com</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Thank you Lisa</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Wed, 06/16/2010 - 07:14 — Allie</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">for letting me back on the board :) After I defended you against NarcNarc's venom last week, Barbara took it upon herself within an hour to promptly delete my account. I was patient, knowing she would eventually self destruct...the bitter ones always do. Wow, it didn't take long. Makes me wonder just how many times she deleted members who didn't agree with her or simply just p*ssed her off that day, lol. It would be exhausting being that bitter. It smacks of Barbara when members post in her defense. Pseudonyms? Though I agree with one thing, she did provide good links and articles written by others, everything else said in her defense is rubbish...supportive? tough love? Barbara was the most hateful person I've ever come across, and I'm including my 2 past narcs! If your idea of "support" is WAKE UP AND ANSWER THE CLUE PHONE! among all her other words of wisdom, maybe she'll make a forum just for you...you can be called the "Bitter Bunch". You're entitled to miss her, you're also entitled to go find her. I am glad she's gone, and as for the suggestion that Jessika be the new moderator, I didn't know whether to crack up or gag at that post. She hides it behind her "I'm a psychologist" crap, but she is almost as nasty as Barbara. Definitely not operating from a place of light which is what we NEED on this forum! Let in the light!</span><br /><br /></blockquote>Barbara's been GONE for days you twat and I left a couple days ago... No one deleted your account... no one banned you... Barbara's in possession of a validated email from Lisa's old webmaster showing there were only FOUR bannings and not ONE of them was you or that other wackjob - Carolyn. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">LISA LIED ABOUT BARBARA IN NUMEROUS WAYS TO MAKE HERSELF LOOK LIKE A VICTIM!!!</span> just like you... bitch -- sound familiar???<br /><br />Couldn't be something you did or some web glitch... you're so fucking paranoid and delusional it HAD to be on purpose!!.... And Jessika IS a licensed psychologist you stupid cunt... you're just a wanna be nobody and professional stalker!<br /><br />Lisa needs a psychopath like you around... she's never ever dealt with a real one - hopefully you can teach her a thing or two.... Or maybe her Life Coaching scheme will help you get over being a PSYCHO STALKER. Has she offered you FREE help???<br /><br />Maybe you and Lisa can hook up and trade tips about fleecing money from board members... how much did you fleece the Catbox members for again, Kimmy?<br /></span>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-60618577350370673242010-06-11T04:43:00.004-07:002011-03-08T17:42:53.454-08:00De-Evolution of an Abuser... the Genesis of BinkStink<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=MADDONALD.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/MADDONALD.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div><strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">ah... now BinkStink is accusing </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">me</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> of stalking </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">her... </em><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">again, this is what a psychopath does...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> i have proof of her stalking my BLOG and have posted it ... and have asked </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">her to go away... and of course she has persisted</span>.. i blocked her home IP some time ago... then she started stalking my blog from Providence Medical Center... and now i guess she's gone to the trouble of getting a proxy server.. because she is STILL reading my blog... and admits to it...<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">THIS BITCH WILL STALK ME ANYWHERE I GO NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO IGNORE HER!! even to Lisa E. Scott where she proceeded to lie & slander my friend, Barbara - same way she lies about everyone including her EX NEVER WAS HER HUSBAND (as she 'claims') - Tim... hence, this blog</span><br /></span></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">this is from her blog... dated march 9th... </span></strong><br /><blockquote><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Somebody STOP me from reading her blog!! Is this the same thing as checking your ex-abusive-boyfriend's Facebook friend list? Then there's always 'keep your friends close and your enemies closer'</span></div></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">this is interesting in many ways... firstly... she sees no problem with continuing to read my blog... by any means available... and yet... if i happen to read some old posts of hers from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>... some that she probably hoped no one would ever see again... then - according to her twisted logic - i am stalking her!!!</span> <div style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I've never had anyone do RESEARCH on me :) No wait :(</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Who is stalking whom? </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I realize she won't feel a "normal" sense of shame for showing herself as a stalker</span>. </blockquote></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><br /></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>as with all Narcs/Psychopaths... BinkStink MUST have the last word... so she throws up nasty crap about me on her blog... then blocks me from responding... so i did contact her (in order to defend myself from her spew) ... here's the horrible, <span style="font-style: italic;">stalking </span>thing i had to say to her...</strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">seriously.... the person who wrote these things... sounds NOTHING like the hateful, obnoxious stuff you've been posting lately!</span><br /><br /></blockquote></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><strong>the <em>things</em> i am talking about are things she said in posts on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>... when she first arrived there... as they are <span style="font-style: italic;">shockingly different</span> from the things she has spewed at me and others lately...<br /><br />now of course, she can read <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">my </span>blog for sometimes HOURS on end... and that - according to her continued twisted logic - somehow is not 'research'... but if i read posts <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">that she made on a public forum.</span>.. then all of sudden i'm '<span style="font-style: italic;">researching</span>' and '<span style="font-style: italic;">stalking</span>' her! lol!.. she is probably saying these things in reaction to what the posts contain... which seem to be from a completely different person than the one who attacked me repeatedly... and who now is attacking people she doesn't even know on<span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"> </span><a style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);" href="http://www.blogger.com/forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">Our Place</span></a><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">.</span>..<br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>i decided to read some of BinkStink's old posts... and it was SHOCKING... the difference between the things she said then... and the things she says now... </strong><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">perhaps BinkStink should take the advice she gleefully dispensed to another </span><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Catboxer...<br /></span></strong></span></div><blockquote><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=79164&st=20">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=79164&st=20</a> <div align="left"></div><div align="left">~</div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left">Posted 18 August 2009 - 12:35 PM </div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Until you realize that your sense of self worth is INSIDE of you, not out there in someone else's possession, you will be miserable and reading his stuff about you till Kingdom Come. You are the only one in control here. No one can knock sense into your head. If you are cooking rabbits, then YOU are doing it, no one else is pulling any puppet strings.<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> That's the first thing you need to understand, and stop blaming other people for YOUR behavior</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><br /><br />Spend this time working on yourself in therapy, that's where your solution lies. You have a big problem with personal responsibility, accepting the consequences of your OWN behavior, and are causing yourself terrible grief by your own hand.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span>No one here can control your fingers that do the typing :lol:<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I got the impression you attribute YOUR behavior to other people causing it</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span> "Blame" is attributing "cause". His spewing on about you on another board doesn't "cause" you to do anything. You are always choosing to do what you do, maybe not consciously. When a person is choosing to torture themselves, it's hard to know what to say :lol: but STOP READING HIS NONSENSE!!! Stop hurting yourself.<span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">Why would you want to deliberately hurt yourself?<br /><br />That's why I mentioned working on YOU in therapy. Discuss with your therapist that you have this tendency to torture yourself, and what could that be about?</span> </span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">now BinkStink is saying i'm <span style="font-style: italic;">stalking </span>her... let me quote some of her own spew towards me... </span><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>You'd make your blog private or invitation only if you were so APPALLED at being READ (your version of stalked)<br /><br /></blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">why don't you make the shit you smear on other people PRIVATE, BinkStink?... oh yeah... because it's no fun to ABUSE people if no one can see it!!!...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">it's not surprising the cowardly blame shifting finger pointing stance BinkStink is taking... typical Narc... it's somehow MY fault she reads MY blog after I tried repeated to block her??? but alas... it's hard to rewrite history that is in writing... especially when a Narc is so fond of their abusiveness they don't bother to erase it... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">the first shot fired was the hateful attack BinkStink launched on </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">me</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... when she was bowing and scraping and backpedaling and trying to butt kiss her way back onto the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>... where she'd been banned for stalking and slandering other members... i couldn't have cared less... but all that changed when she started attacking me... </span><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I wonder if it is the sudden appearance of anti-Catbox blogspots that people the front page of the Google search engine (I haven't tried any others)? Holy crap, there's a new one by an individual we are ALL familiar with who calls herself Confederaterebel (AKA Eggshellshocked, Outandabout, NeedsHRTBadly, Avoiding_Prozac, Gnashes With Teeth, whatEVER). My own journal modestly dusts the bottom of the page, but then above there is Hope's thread on Rick Ross, comparing Dr Irene's methodology with a cult known as Landmark, and of course NeBody's blog that has held a strong second place since the Meltdown itself.<br /><br />Maybe THOSE little oil spills of information are causing potential new members to look askance.. I've read the entirety of Confederaterebel's blog (which I will, for the sake of the intelligence of my readers, NOT link to). This is an unfortunate woman who began her career on the Catbox with a truly sad story . . . living out her last days in a foreclosing house with beloved dogs and no home for herself and them in sight. Everyone is different, and as she lifted her head and blinked into the day, she saw rage instead of the Groundhog of Healing. There are plenty of other venues for frothing, foaming, vicious vengance vigilantes<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>,<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(yeah....like BinkStink's blog)</span></strong></span> but no, she plants herself in the Catbox and within a few weeks, out she goes. She comes back a few times under various guises to spew vitriol and bask in all the negative attention and frighteningly, some positive <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(frightening to BinkStink i guess)</strong></span><br /><br />She is the first poster I ever put on ignore. I could NOT deal with the ...and all the... between all her .... not to mention all the "fresh fish" metaphors, gawd!!!<br /><br />With all her outright disgust with Trubble's Catbox and </span><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php?showforum=7"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Our Place</span></a><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"> , it causes me to wonder why she kept coming back.<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">She could not let go and now fills pages of the internet with some . . . I have to admit, very clever invective. Yeah, it's insipid and transparent . . . she loves her flying monkeys and counts her hits and flybys. The trouble is, her rhetoric is so NONcontagious that she is inadvertently giving a metric ton of publicity to </span><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php?showforum=7"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Our Place</span></a><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">, The Next Right Choice and Trubble's Catbox. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(I hope so!!! I want people to see how abusive those places are to real abuse victims who need real help!!!)</span><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">pretty nasty, BinkStink... pretty nasty... so i come on and tell her if she doesn't like it to kiss my ass and go away... and the next thing you know that horse faced bitch Goongoddess (BinkStink's spew-sister and proxy) is crawling my ass like cheap underwear with her 'quite the heap of venomous hatred' BS ...</span><br /></strong></span><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/duck%20%20%20funny" target="_blank"><img alt="Shut the Duck up Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i809.photobucket.com/albums/zz18/Scare_Bear_xD/2uf6hoj-1.gif" border="0" /></a></strong></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br />i believe it all goes back to the one line where she revealed herself... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">'<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">my own journal modestly dusts the bottom of the page</span>'</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... the nasty Narc BinkStink was full of rage and envy over this blog... waaaaay back when... and she still can't get over it... Narc jealousy and rage that something else actually gets more attention than her blog... where she writes vicious hateful 'advice' to victims on sites she herself is banned from... things not read or paid attention to... and here we are...</span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">all Psychopaths and Narcs are big on rewriting and tweaking history... that's probably why so few of them put history in writing in the first place... but BinkStink did put history in writing... which makes it just a little bit harder to rewrite... </span><br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>the agenda of Irene and the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>is personal responsibility... they want to <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">force</span> people to take personal responsibility... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">even for things that aren't their personal responsibility to take</span>.... like the behavior of their Narc and Psychopath abusers... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">they want victims to take the BLAME for being victimized</span>...i have a problem with that... a HUGE problem... but BinkStink does not... at least not until <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">personal responsibility applies to HER</span>...<br /><br />so before we start off down the twisting dark road into the 'bad neighborhood' that is BinkStink's mind... let me again quote her..</strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>You are the only one in control here. No one can knock sense into your head. If you are cooking rabbits, then YOU are doing it, no one else is pulling any puppet strings. That's the first thing you need to understand, and stop blaming other people for YOUR behavior.Spend this time working on yourself in therapy, that's where your solution lies. You have a big problem with personal responsibility, accepting the consequences of your OWN behavior, and are causing yourself terrible grief by your <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">own hand.</span></blockquote></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and into the darkness we go...</span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">first stop... BinkStink's first post on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>...</span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Posted 28 August 2007 - 03:28 AM<br />Hi everyone, this is my first post. I keep wanting to change my thread title, it sounds sarcastic, but I think I am just still stunned, and angry with myself.<br /><br />I only recently realized that I've been living with a wretched abusive man for seven years. I just thought he had anger issues, was kind of insensitive, had bad mood swings, and of course drug addiction. I finally managed to kick him out in June, after he was tazed by the police and taken into custody. The sheriff came out to inform me, and I saw my opportunity. I surprised the heck out of him and told him I want a protection order and I'll tell them EVERYTHING. I thought this was all about his drug problems, but he was abusive and scary when he was stone sober too. He's been gone only a little over two months, and I attend Alanon, which has been an absolute lifesaver. There was still a lot of stuff that didn't make sense and <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have felt so ashamed of all this, and the shame has just persisted</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span>even though he's no longer here.<br /><br />I feel like I have let myself down in the worst way.<br /><br />I saw plenty of red flags along the way, and ignored them (like we all do I suppose). I was in a rough spot in my life when I met "Doofus" (that really describes him). I was a single mom with two bratty teenagers, now lovely adults. I worked full time as an RN, which is where I met the Doof, at work. My best friend had just passed away from breast cancer, we spoke daily since we were in junior college, raised our kids together, went through boyfriends together. I was probably insane from grief and just feeling so alone when I met Doofus. He was very religious, and told me he just wanted to sit on the beach and hold hands, he was dating another nurse who just wanted sex, his wife left him and took his son back to Japan because "she was so depressed and scared of everything". Poor guy!! Well I had to have him. He said he wanted to be a Daddy again. He wanted a garden and pets and a wife and children. He was still married to his wife in Japan, but she refused to come back. He said she was such a beautiful, perfect woman (yes he used those words), so "clean" in her person and housekeeping, and the perfect mother to their little boy, too. He mused about getting together with her, or going to Japan to be with her. I bought every single bit of it.<br /><br />Yeah, she exists, and she left him because a SWAT team descended and tossed her house for drug making paraphernalia, scaring her and the baby to death. This I heard from his mother a year into the relationship. His drug history was "long ago", and his favorite was methamphetamine, he even cooked it. I still had to have him! What is that about?? He didn't tell me he had genital herpes. Not until after I caught it and wondered what in the he11 was going on down there . . . and my response? Well he'd been acting very angry, would lock me out of the bedroom, refuse to have sex with me because I wasn't doing it right, yada yada. When I lose it and begin to sob and demand that he leave (he'd moved in about two weeks before, and we'd already been through some serious fights), he went crazy apologizing, he was having an "outbreak" and it always made him feel sick and grumpy.<br /><br />I was relieved! It was only herpes! And of course that is what was going on "down there" with me . . . but I was so relieved he was "back and loving" again that I just couldn't tell him that I had it too, I couldn't break his heart.<br /><br />I just want to VOMIT writing this. But this is the truth. Two years ago, after much insisting, Doofus got his wish, and I sold my house in California so we could go "live in the country". We chose Idaho after a long road trip. It didn't take long for his real motives to come through. How many of us have been told the story that their Doofus would feel so much happier, wouldn't be so stressed and angry and nasty, if they could get out of the city? Moving to the country just gave him more imagined freedom to relapse on meth, accumulate a whole lot of guns and not so nice people in great abundance. Within a year of moving up here, I persisted and began getting livestock. Ironically, the move was his idea but I REALLY got into it . . . egg laying chickens, geese, turkeys, guineas and goats for milk. I loved it!! Thank God for my critters as they kept me sane, and don't forget, I had a garden and learned to can my own food. I've had a great time with that stuff, but in the background . . . I felt like I willingly walked into the biggest trap of my life. I wasn't about to leave the farm. Doofus wasn't about to leave the farm either. He continued to binge, disappearing two weeks of each month, and hosting booze/weed/pill parties in between. Of course I protested. He thought I was "cute" when I got angry. I threw a teflon pan at him and gashed his leg, I don't think "cute" fits too well. <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I was just as crazy as he was by the time the inevitable happened.</span><br /><br />He'd always made "jokes" about me in public. If I pointed out his behavior, he seemed pleased that I noticed. If he was angry and irritable, he threatened to shut me up for good. When I threatened to call the sheriff, he was high and very agitated, he picked up a claw hammer and thrust it in my face and threatened to bash my skull in. I never confronted him again. I just planned how to get rid of him. <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">But, I felt such shame</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span> Not that I "deserved" his abuse . . . I never felt like I deserved it, long before I got over that. It was that I STAYED, that I overlooked so much, that I glazed over and spaced out instead of leaving long, long before. I'd let him have his way just to shut him up. I used to have a script for Xanax because I hate flying and had to for a while in one job. I refilled it, lying to my doctor, so I could give HIM the stupid pills, a few Xanax in him and he'd leave me the he11 alone, you know? I didn't take them but I didn't need to, somehow I can shut it all out and not deal with it all on my own. And that's what I did.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">In June he tried to elude police and was tazed </span>and that's when I told the sheriffs everything. They couldn't believe I hadn't "done" something long ago. They were nice about it, very helpful actually. I didn't know what to tell them. I didn't think they could do anything. <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">If I called them, and they walked away for lack of evidence, he might have killed me</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(isn't it amazing how little empathy BinkStink has for me... .even in light of this?...)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>I couldn't have articulated this at the time to them.<br /><br />I am here on this board because I just don't get it! What happened to me?? I put up with this for seven years. I abandoned my kids. I let Doofus run the show, and he has ruined me financially. Oh <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">he had my complicity</span>.<br /><br />I know this sounds dramatic but I am SO ANGRY with myself. I'm plenty angry with the Doof and will take out his leg if he sets foot on this property, he taught me how to shoot. I have no trouble being angry with him. But it's the anger at myself that is really hurting me.<br /><br />In Alanon, I get the support for the drug addict end of it, and addiction and abuse often coincide, but are different issues. I'm just beginning to "get" that. Many of my close friends there have lovely spouses who just have an addiction. I had to admit the Doofus was never a lovely person, except when we first met. And then, I had to wonder what on God's green earth I was trying to do all these years, how willing I was to live a miserable life and put up with such carp.BTW, he's living at the edge of town in a junky trailer park. Rumor has it he's still waiting for me to "make up my mind". I believe I've already done that. I have a yearlong R.O., have retained a lawyer (can't afford him to take it to trial though), and every time he's violated the RO I've called 911 and they cart him off. This is a very small town, and we are "new"here, his "friends" steer clear of him because the sheriffs watch every move he makes, his "good" friends steer clear too. Why he hasn't gone to hide in the mountains in shame is amazing, but I know it's because he doesn't think he's done anything wrong.<br /><br />I hope to find the answers here and in my readings on abuse. If you've made it this far, I thank you so much. Even more stuff is sailing home just writing this Bink</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">wow... she sounds NORMAL.. almost... there are a lot of similarities between BinkStink's story and my own... you would think that would cause her to have some understanding and empathy for me... instead of contempt and hatred...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">what is the major difference between me and BinkStink?... SHAME... BinkStink is full of shame... self hatred... self loathing... and i am not... i have never ever accepted any of the blame or responsibility for the psychopath who abused me... is BinkSink envious of that?... it would appear so... early on she gave this creepy clue to how <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">bad the neighborhood is inside her head... </span></span><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Life beyond abuse, for me, is acknowledging how similar I am to my abuser, these days. How easy it is for me to be abusive, careless, refuse to take responsibility, refuse to acknowledge there is a greater reality than I want there to be.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">sorry... i've had an abusive psychopath projecting his garbage onto me for years... and i'm full up... but BinkStink has decided to turn her 'Hippodrome projector' onto me... .to this day...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">now let's turn on our xenon flashlights and go deeper into the bad neighborhood that is BinkStink's mind... </span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">in my '<a href="http://binkstink.blogspot.com/2010/01/and-now-our-feature-presentation-part-1.html">our feature presentation</a>' posts... i unmasked BinkStink for the Narc she is... and included some of literally hundreds of hateful abusive posts she made to me...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">so before we venture further into the mean streets of BinkStink's psyche... let me recap a few she made regarding my pets... and money... you will soon see how BinkStink has in the comments below, attempted to turn ME into HER... all these things below... are things BinkStink said and did... as you'll soon see...</span><br /></strong><div style="text-align: center;"><strong><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/duck%20%20%20funny" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 412px;" alt="The Duck Mafia Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i753.photobucket.com/albums/xx180/XxSasukexSanaxX/178998bl7saee2bs.jpg" border="0" /></a></strong><br /><strong></strong></div></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Your damage is not special or unique, and neither are you. That's the hope and the promise. But in your mind, it is the reason to give up and turn your hurt onto other people for not REALLY helping you, which I am coming to conclude would only be to send money.If that's what you want -- real, practical HELP -- then you'd better tone down your invective or no one will WANT to help such a vindictive, ungrateful, snarling pathetic thing</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">~</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">you don't WANT a hand up, you want a hand out. And who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious, insulting bitch as yourself? NO ONE.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">~</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">There is no medication or real effective therapy for people with your issues. Except prison, to keep you away from taking advantage of naive people who have a hard time believing people as bottomlessly cruel and greedy even EXIST</span></div><div align="left">~</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Funny you don't address the health of your animals, just the one thing that doesn't necessarily implicate you.Do you even HAVE eight dogs and six cats? Or is that just another one of your crafted stories to get pity? It's just a bit over the top, just like the rest of your story</span> </div><div align="left">`</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">They fall for your <span style="font-weight: bold;">fake </span>sob story, try to help you, and when you overwhelm them with outrageous requests and then get ANGRY with them for not complying, they run for their lives</span></div><div align="left">~</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">You slowly doom your animals to starvation and illness and neglect, supposedly. You tell lies to get sympathy and money. You try to take advantage of a system meant to help the TRULY needy. What is your opinion of yourSELF?</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">`</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">For all I know, you aren't living in a "hovel" with nine thousand animals. Someone would have called the Animal Cops on you by now for all your claims they are in need of food and care. How do you keep the fleas and heartworm under control? Do you brush them all and bathe them all? How do you care for their teeth? Do you do your own surgery on them when they are ill? You can't take care of them, if I am to believe your story.But I am starting to not believe it. If you can support 8 dogs and six cats, you DO have money. Because NO WHERE on Planet Earth is there enough charity or people willing to provide it without calling Animal Control on you!.</span> </div><div align="left">~</div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">A person on dial up internet CANNOT set up or maintain a blog such as yours A person who is "disabled" because of their "complex PTSD" cannot manage to string enough thoughts together to set up a blog such as yours, nor would they have the intense focus to maintain such a pathetic sob story for SO LONG as to take advantage of good people until they too run the other direction when you begin attacking THEM. It is YOU who have been busted. As an abuser yourself. As a psychopath yourself. I ought to ban you entirely, out of decency and principle. Except you amuse me.</span> </div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">~</span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Are you flea infested?Are you running with red open sores from the vermin munching on your ankles? Do your dogs gasp and lay quietly on the ends of their chains, fur matted and eyes dim from starvation and worms? Does your hovel stink from the scarce kitty litter? Or are they shitting up the poor man's yard where you keep your hovel? Do you scoop it up out of some rare impulse to actually be grateful? If you do, where do you PUT the POO? In his garbage can? Or do you dry it and burn it for heat</span></div></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">BEHOLD!! BinkStink conning her fellow Catboxers out of MONEY...<br /></span><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=47160">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=47160</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 18 December 2007 - 09:09 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">ATM is a POS waste of the human genome and if I EVER doubted he was a sociopath/narcissist I no longer do. I am crushed to think I had this evil menace to society in my home, in my bed, how can I not look like some kind of moral idiot myself?<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">And how is he getting all these people to HELP him when he is such an OBVIOUS criminal low life??</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span>His widdle nuts got cold and somehow he got this couple -- who know him WELL and everything that's gone on -- to allow him to move in with him. These are salt of the earth folks . . . they are my friends too . . . they KNOW I got a RO for a reason! They know WHY I got one!I feel totally stupid saying this <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">but I feel so betrayed by them</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span> I know that's not what really happened but DAM guys, what the hell?? They are giving him 3 hots and a cot AND a base from which to operate. He cannot function unless he is feeding off of someone, he's been a complete mess since I kicked him out. This couple who allowed him to move in assured me they would NEVER let him come back and stay with them again. Man, that HURTS. I am so hurt. They didn't intend to hurt me or betray me. No, they fell "victim" to ATM and are poster children for why we need Alanon meetings up here. Still . . .<br /><br />Then, I'm on a well for water and there is a leak in the cistern. I fill it up and by the next day, 300 gallons of water is gone. My car spouted an exhaust leak and <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">I am BROKE. I mean I have NO money except about 200 bucks worth of savings bonds.</span> </span>Then the phone company called and my "service may be temporarily disconnected" tonight at midnight.<br /><br />Oh yeah, my lawyer called me back to tell me he doesn't think refunding me any of my retainer is a good idea considering we will need every cent 'cause ATM is now on a litigious ROLL. <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">He also counseled me NOT to sell anything, even if my phone gets cut off, and he was very serious about that</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Oh and I have four bales of hay left for the goats. I've been trying to sell them off without any luck for months, I have offered them for FREE to local 4H but haven't heard back . . .<strong><em> guys, my only other option is to shoot them and butcher them</em></strong>.<br /><br />No, I don't have a J*O*B goddammit. I haven't even been able to function beyond the daily necessities. </span>I guess there is no kick in the pants like this, huh? I need to wake up and get with the program. No one can do this for me.<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I cannot "eat" support and validation, nor will it keep the animals fed and the phone on :)</span> I have to snap out of this depression and MOVE my butt.<br /><br />My family are . . . well, lovely,<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">POOR</span></span> and rather dithering. I'd just worry them into heart attacks.<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I feel very, very frightened</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">. </span>And furious. And . . . I guess resigned. What can I do? But put one foot in front of the other. I have a great deal of faith in God but that doesn't mean I don't have some hell to go through.<br /><br />I know this is a lot . . . if you made it through, knowing you read it means so much.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"></div><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left">wow... that is quite the manipulative post!!. poor BinkStink... she cannot <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">'eat support and validation''.. support and validation won't keep her animals fed!!!.. she's BROKE... she's going to have to BUTCHER her pets</span>... wow...</div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong><br />now... let's take a moment to review some of her vile spew at ME...onto whom she has chosen to <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PROJECT HERSELF and HER PATHOLOGY</span>!!.<br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">'you tell lies to get sympathy and money'</span>... here she is projecting herself onto me!!.. it is BinkStink who was telling lies to get sympathy and money!!. because<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> i have </span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">never </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">used my pets or my situation to solicit sympathy or money!!. EVER!!! </span>she is attacking me... but actually talking about herself! and the same with this attack...</span><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>For all I know, you aren't living in a "hovel" with nine thousand animals. Someone would have called the Animal Cops on you by now for all your claims they are in need of food and care. How do you keep the fleas and heartworm under control? Do you brush them all and bathe them all? How do you care for their teeth? Do you do your own surgery on them when they are ill? You can't take care of them, if I am to believe your story.<br /><br />But I am starting to not believe it.<span style="font-weight: bold;"> If you can support 8 dogs and six cats, you DO have money. Because NO WHERE on Planet Earth is there enough charity or people willing to provide it without calling Animal Control on you!.</span></blockquote></span></div><div align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">gee BinkStink... how does someone with NO MONEY care for -- let me quote <span style="font-style: italic;">you</span> .... <span style="font-style: italic;">"a herd of 25 goats, a couple dozen chickens and ten geese and two tom turkeys, 13 dogs and two cats. Oh yeah, and me :)"</span> ... followed up with that talk about <span style="font-style: italic;">BUTCHERING her pets</span>!!.<br /><br />and well... <span style="font-style: italic;">she can't SELL anything... because her lawyer has told her not to!!.. </span>OMG... and for all these women on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>knew... BinkStink is NOT<span style="font-style: italic;"> 'living in a hovel with nine thousand animals</span>'!! she's projecting herself onto me AGAIN...</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> a couple of people tell her to give the animals away... nd leave... or take them to a shelter...<br /><br />well -- now BinkStink seemed to think i was lying about the shelters here being</span></strong> <div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>full... maybe it's because of her 'forgetting' THIS post of HERS!!! </strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(153, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(153, 0, 0);">Thanks Miki The animal shelters were something I'd looked into a while back, they are crammed with animals and can't take a single one. I even called today, no change, but I was able to schedule spay/neuter of the puppies for free</span> </div><div align="left">`</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Oh I "know" about the farm life thing . . . ATM was going to be the one to "do the deed" while I disappeared myself until it was all over . . . I did this last year with a couple of goats, I handled it OK. Once it didn't "look like" the poor goat any more I was alright .<br /><br />What I CANNOT kill and eat are my precious little poultry people. I love birds and it would be like butchering one of my dogs There are two geese who I will take with me, and my cats Bebe and Bink. I pray I can find temporary homes for the two adult dogs and the Great Pyrenees.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">by now Catboxer Wind Dancer has offered to send her money by paypal... and the ball starts rolling... Wind Dancer even offers to let her come to Georgia and stay with her..</span>. </strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">The general feeling about livestock is . . .well, they are food and open mouths, what are you, crazy? Times are tough, butcher them.<br /><br />Not a single person has offered to help me keep them going until I can somehow, some way, get them on to new homes or Freezer Camp. Wind I don't know what to say, you can't see my face (and I'd be hiding it anyway), people who don't even know me from Adam offering to help me is . . . well, I am used to helping others, and so not used to being helped.<br /><br />I'll set up a pay pal thingie, maybe I can use it to sell something on Ebay?I know I can't just sit here and wait any more. I don't even know what I was waiting for . . . for God to drop a care package from Heaven? To find a money tree, a sugar daddy? I wasn't even thinking . . . I can do "One Day at a Time" like a champ but I think I over did it</span> </div><div align="left">`</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I have received more support that I FEEL from the people here than from all the IRL interactions I've had in the last two years. I am not kidding. That support ALONE has lifted me up, guys.<br /><br />And NO ONE has offered to help me feed my critters till I can get them rehomed except you all. It's not surprising . . . <span style="font-weight: bold;">number one, I never asked :) and second, you don't want to know how they "take care" of unwanted animals up here</span>.<br /><br />I feel like I must say the "right thing" to convey my gratitude, but for the life of me I don't have words for it. I have words for everything too . . . but have to go around the mulberry bush, it's just too powerful for me to give it "word" right now.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong><br /></strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>after acting like she, who seems to be of at least average intelligence, had no idea about paypal or how to set up an account..<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> someone did it for her... and the money poured in... how much no one but she knows...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">OH BOY!! I just looked and SO many have responded and placed donations in my little PayPall account . . . I am truly FLOORED guys :( I am going to make sure every bit of donations and love and concern sent my way MEAN SOMETHING. I promise it will! It is going to be my leg up.I am NOT giving up. This all gives me so much more hope where I was running out of it . . .Y ou have made a difference. A bigger one than you know!<br /><br />Perhaps the favorite all around foodies for the livestock is cracked grains. I call it "crack" lol because they go for it like the drug!! It's especially important to have a little "crack" in the winters up here, it keeps the internal fires burning and little beasts warm and chunky and healthy.<br /><br />And, it is not expensive, and goes a long way.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>`</strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>BinkStink... here -- in her rabid malicious attacks on ME... was actually talking about <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">herself..</span>.<br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>'you slowly doom your animals to starvation and illness and neglect, supposedly. You tell lies to get sympathy and money.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">BinkStink did what she is accusing me of!!. she really played them... and then... when the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>blew up... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">BinkStink thanked them all by hatefully betraying everyone who had sent her that money... attacked them... maligned them... and took sides with Dr. Irene... .again to further her own agenda... and that's why she is not welcome at </span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a>....</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> because she conned them... and they know it... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious insulting bitch as </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">yourself,</em> <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">BinkStink? i bet these days... NO ONE...<br /><br />Here's more of her spew against me:</span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span> <blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span>I agree that what I think of me and know to be true is enough. I don't actually have a problem with her calling me a narc or a ravening psychopath intent upon victimizing the already victimized.</blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">nope... what BinkStink has a PROBLEM with is me causing a psychopath (her) some discomfort... too much full strength truth for her taste...<br /><br /></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">see... i had a 'profession' too... i was a real estate broker for many years... and i'm not quite beliving BinkStink's story!!.. i can go back and look up home sale prices in San Diego the year BinkStink sold hers... and what the appreciation rates were... and i don't believe for one minute that BinkStink took the profit from the sale of her home... bought 20 acres and a cabin in Idaho... bought a bunch of livestock... bought trucks...a snowmobile...tools.. and assorted other things we will eventually hear her tell of purchasing... and did it <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">without a job.</span>.. and then spent two years living there... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">with no job</span>... surviving solely off the money from the sale of her house... while her ex: ATM spent 100 grand on drugs!!.. nope... just doesn't add up... just doesn't add up... </span><br /></strong><div style="text-align: center;"><strong><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/duck%20%20%20funny" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 232px;" alt="funny Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i25.photobucket.com/albums/c79/bubba_nelson474/funny/duck.jpg" border="0" /></a></strong><br /><strong></strong></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">obviously she and her ex, ATM had a source of income that is for some reason not being mentioned... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">wonder what that reason could be?</span>... you'll see her say HERSELF that <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ATM was a meth cook</span>.. why would someone chose to move to a </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">remote</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> area of Idaho?... with no job?... unless they had a </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">new </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">career in mind????????...<br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">hmmmmmm... are you sure that was CHEESE you and ATM were making up on that 40 mile switchback road in the wilds of Idaho, BinkStink????? or is this quote you spewed at ME some more of YOUR </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">projection</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> about </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">yourself</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">???? :)</span></strong> <blockquote><strong></strong><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">YOU MARRIED HIM. You thought he was a pretty good deal yourself. I suspect there was a time his nefarious deeds (criminal activity, drug addiction) were lookin' pretty good to you. Together you could rip off the whole world and sit pretty on your real estate millions, together. ceptin's crime does NOT pay.</span></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br />More from 'always the martyr' BinkStink:</span><br /><br /><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I have a problem with <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">a crazy woman </span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">contacting my place of EMPLOYMENT, dragging my personal life forward and causing the need for me to explain</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> how I even know this whackjob</span>. I don't announce wherever I go that I am a domestic abuse survivor. And it is EMBARRASSING to realize I've got another one after me, so unfortunately, I've been reacting, and you're right :)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I don't care what they think of me because suddenly I am a domestic violence survivor</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.<span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I like to choose when and who I share this information with, on my own terms.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">OK, I didn't realize THAT is what bothers me the most.</span><br /></blockquote><br /><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">hmmmmm... then it's back to the THIRD PERSON schizoid shit... with another jab at me for telling the truth:<br /></div><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Who "Bink" is already speaks for itself, and her blog content says more about her.</span><br /></blockquote><strong></strong><strong style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/11729.html">More from Bink and what she and her proxies say about me.</a><br /><br />STAY TUNED FOR PART TWO... </strong><br /></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center">................</div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=BEN-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/BEN-1.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>BEN</strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>2/14/2007</strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>MURDERED</strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">by psychopath Mike McGrannahan</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><strong></strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><strong>````````<br />"The time will come when men such as I will look upon the murder of animals as</strong> <strong>they now look upon the murder of men."</strong></span><strong> -- Leonardo Da Vinci</strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">```</span></strong></div><div align="center"><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">.“I do not bring forgiveness with me, nor forgetfulness. The only ones who can forgive are dead; the living have no right to forget.” --</span> Chaim Herzog</strong></div><div align="center">`````<br /></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">''Justice is incidental to law and order."</span> - J. Edgar Hoover</strong></div><div align="center"><strong>```</strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">"Life is life's greatest gift. Guard the life of another creature as you would your own because it is your own. On life's scale of values, the smallest is no less precious to the creature who owns it than the largest."</span> -- Lloyd Biggle Jr.</strong></div></blockquote><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-26794787305026064132010-04-19T04:18:00.003-07:002011-03-08T17:42:35.438-08:00Can't Get Enough of These Masquerades!<span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255); 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BOOOOO HOOOOO<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=crybaby.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/crybaby.gif" border="0" /></a></div><br /><div align="center">~~~~</div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Is it so wrong to e</span></strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">xpect people to treat you as you've treated them?</span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">-BinkStink</span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">oh my... how sad... BinkStink has rewritten history... she's <span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);">hidden </span>all her nasty posts... and yet i, horrid horrible person that i am... i have neither forgotten or forgiven!!. .woe is BinkStink... read her latest pity party <span style="font-style: italic;">(my invective in TURQUOISE)</span></span></strong><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Is it so wrong to expect people to treat you as you've treated them<span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>?(NOPE...not at all, especially when you've treated them like shit)</strong></span> Well, yes. </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>(the pity party is getting OLD, Narc )</strong></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Because it's hopeless.You can't make another person behave in a manner that you think is appropriate unless you can beat them, shame them or terrify them into compliance. <span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>(yep.. you tried all that, huh BinkStink)</strong></span> Or, unless they already have the faculty of loving you and wanting to please you. If they do not, then you are back to coercion by force.</span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I don't think there is any escape from "do unto others as you would have them do unto you". It's just that you can't MAKE them do unto you in a specific way, no matter how much good you do unto them.SHOULD they? </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>(poooooor BinkStink... what a martyred saint...)</strong></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">This thought is, "I want you to X, therefore, you should." The wanter is the sun around which the planets of other people revolve<span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>. (NARC NARC)</strong></span> Not real flattering. </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>(NOPE BinkStink... not flattering)</strong></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Wanting other people, no DEMANDING they treat you decently is entitlement.But then . . . but then . . . it's still not RIGHT that I was treated poorly, was it<span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>? (who is she talking about?... who treated this bitch POORLY?.. oh yeah.. everybody in the world, because she's a NARC)</strong></span>No, it wasn't RIGHT.But then . . . but then . . . I should do something about it!!Yes indeed, but what? Do what?Here's the rub. We get stuck believing that the problem is with the other person who is treating us badly. </span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I mean, it seems so obvious. But it's a misperception of solution. And a brick wall, besides, one I've beat my head against forever.Yes, do something. Do something you CAN do.Like . . . walk away. Leave<span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>.(lie.. rewrite histoy... play the victim) </strong></span>Accept the other person exactly as they are, give them that much respect and credit. It's against no law for a person to be an ass, a jerk, or a bitch. See yourself as you are, unable to reach in and mess with their motherboard. So what CAN you do?What I do is take myself away. <span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>(translates to 'run away and reinvent myself')</strong></span> I avoid people who treat me like shit. <span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><strong>(tranlates to 'i avoid people who are onto me' )</strong></span>It's very natural, even paramecia do it.</span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I can imagine only extreme situations where I would confront a person and TELL them to treat me better. The rest of the time, I don't need them to treat me one way or another. They don't define me. They can't get inside me all that easily (anymore). Whatever, dude. Knock yourself out. Go in peace, asshole.I spend just as much time as I ever did noticing people who act like barbarians, but much LESS time searching and obsessing about what to do about it.</span></div></blockquote><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=boo-hoo.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/boo-hoo.jpg" border="0" /></a></span></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong></strong></span></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">well, shucks... she still sounds a little bummed out... i hope it wasn't Sam's opinion of her... of her personality disorders... i mean after all... she diagnosed herself... not intending to of course... in her little pity party entitled MEAN PEOPLE SUCK... she said <em>this..</em> lobbing it at me....</span></strong><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">............</span></strong><br /></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><blockquote>From what I know about <strong>personality disorders</strong>,<strong> a person WITH one is a person with a hazy, indistinct sense of self.</strong> It is easily threatened, and viciously defended. An insult is life or death. They are both grandiose and so insignificant to themselves. When we are talking ideas and honesty and integrity, which are much higher on the food chain than they can grasp, they are struggling, like a 13 year old terror of a kid, for a simple sense of SELF. The sense they do have is so fragile a breeze would dislodge it. It really is life and death, to them.I can better understand "mean people" from this point of view.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div style="font-weight: bold;" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">BinkStink is throwing herself quite the PITY PARTY...but looks like no one came.....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=Crocodile_Tears.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/Crocodile_Tears.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center">~~~~~~</div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">How can I tell whom not to trust?" ...the best clue is, of all things, the pity play. The most reliable sign, the most universal behavior of unscrupulous people is not directed, as one might imagine, at our fearfulness. It is, perversely, an appeal to our sympathy...More than admiration--more even than fear--pity from good people is carte blanche. When we pity, we are, at least for the moment, defenseless...You know this is true. How many times in the movies has this tactic been used by the evil villain? Innumerable. We are screaming at our TV screens, "Don't fall for that!!" as we see the camouflaged evil villain lure in the good guy by appealing to the good guy's intact heart and conscience with a convincing act of being wounded, pitiable, defenseless. If the good guy believes the act, he is the one rendered defenseless. This allows the bad guy to kill him or make an escape. This scene happens over and over again in movies because we all recognize it to be a common tactic of evil people, and we all recognize the good guy's vulnerability to such a tactic. His decency is what sets him up for the fall. We find ourselves wishing that the good guy could be just a little less decent for a moment so he can avoid what we can see is coming...his annihilation.Do we have to lose our decency to insure we don't fall for such a ruse? No, I don't think so. We just need to pay attention. Don't assume that anyone who seems pathetic and pitiable is automatically going to deserve your compassion or pity. Remember that giving sympathy to evil doers is no virtue. If you want your compassion to be virtuous be sure to give it to the truly deserving.Stout gives us some guidance on how to decide who is trustworthy and who is deserving of your compassion:"When deciding whom to trust, bear in mind that the combination of consistently bad or egregiously inadequate behavior with frequent plays for your pity is as close to a warning mark on a conscienceless person's forehead as you will ever be given."<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">~~~~~<br />"I am sure that if the devil existed, he would want us to feel very sorry for him."</span><br /></div><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">-The Sociopath Next Door, pg. 109</span>. <div align="left"></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The devil does exist. Boot his or her sorry ass out of your life.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><a href="http://narcissists-suck.blogspot.com/2008/01/pity-party.html">http://narcissists-suck.blogspot.com/2008/01/pity-party.html</a></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">............................</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">BOOOOOO HOOOOOO BinkStink... cry me a river of crocodile tears... i'm not buying it... and looks like no one else is either...</span></span><br /></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);"></span></strong></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-72931767887442728422010-04-04T15:20:00.003-07:002011-03-08T17:42:00.319-08:00NICE TRY, BINKSTINK!<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0); font-style: italic;">In her latest post, BinkStink tried this exact tactic... nice try... not buying your "poor little ole me" bullshit!</span><br /></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/duck%20funny" target="_blank"><img alt="Duck Scam Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i279.photobucket.com/albums/kk134/Freddie_The_Dog/Funny%20Pics/DuckScam.jpg" border="0" /></a></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></div><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:130%;">A COMMON TACTIC OF NARCISSISTS</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">by Anna Valerious</span><br /><br />Manipulators. We've all been taken in by them. All malignant narcissists are manipulators, though not all manipulators are narcissists. Either way, it is impossible to avoid them. It is possible to minimize our susceptibility to them.<br /><br />The concept that has helped me the most in enabling me to recognize when someone is trying to force me into what they want from me is the reality that manipulators are aggressive, and most times they are able to hide their aggression. George K. Simon, Jr., Ph.D. of "In Sheep's Clothing" calls them "covert-aggressives". As I read his book I realized that my whole experience with my sister especially, but also my mother, was that of being up against a covertly-aggressive person. My sister is better at it than my mother is. Interestingly enough.<br /><br />Simon makes a great case for opening our eyes to what is really happening in these interactions; that the character disordered individual, or simply aggressive person, is fighting to get their own way when they use certain tactics. And he points out that they are tactics. Not defensive reactions.<br /><blockquote><br />"...viewing someone who's in the act of aggressing as being defensive in any sense is a major set-up for victimization." pg. 95<br /></blockquote><br />He also describes the tactics of the covert-aggressive as being another form of lying.<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">One of the first things their tactics accomplish for them is to conceal the fact that they are fighting with you. They are refusing to allow you to have the opinion you have, the standards you have, the decision you've made. They are attempting to force your surrender to their way, their opinion, their standards (or lack thereof). But the first thing they must do is come at you in such a way that the first thing you'll think is that they are reacting defensively.</span> They hide their aggressiveness under a cloak of pretense that they are simply acting out of defensiveness which, of course, means that you attacked them. So the next thing their tactics accomplish is putting you on the defensive. Now you are knocked off-balance and the covert-aggressive will likely start throwing so many different manipulative tactics at you at once that you end up falling for the ruse and capitulate.<br /><br />Simon states that it is impossible to list all the tactics manipulators use, but he does make a short list of the most popular ones. He starts with "minimization". It is a 'oh my god' moment to see it spelled out. How many, many times have my mother or sister used this tactic on me and others?? It could not be counted.<br /><br />Simon again contrasts the behavior of the neurotic with that of the character disordered as he explains this tactic:<br /><br /><blockquote>"...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">the aggressor is attempting to assert that his behavior isn't really as harmful or irresponsible as someone else may be claiming.</span> It's the aggressor's attempt to make a molehill out of a mountain... Neurotics frequently make mountains out of molehills, or 'catastrophize.' The disturbed character frequently <span style="font-style: italic;">trivializes </span>the nature of his wrongdoing. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Manipulators do this to make a person who might confront them feel they've been overly harsh in their criticism or unjust in their appraisal of a situation."</span></blockquote><br />Then the money quote, in my opinion:<br /><br /><blockquote>"Minimization is not primarily the way they make themselves feel better about what they did, it's primarily the way they try to manipulate my impression of them. They don't want me to see them as a person who behaves like a thug. Because they are most often comfortable with their aggressive personality style, they also want me to believe that <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">there's nothing wrong with the kind of person they are.</span>" pg. 97</blockquote><br /></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/duck%20funny" target="_blank"><img alt="Cat Duck Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i1014.photobucket.com/albums/af261/Dragon_One-Nineteen/big4721599.jpg" border="0" /></a></span><br /></div><span style="font-weight: bold;">Can you see the lie that is the fabric of this type of manipulation? If you miss the lie, you can be convinced by the manipulator that you are the one aggressing against them. You are the one who is misapprehending the truth of what happened, the truth of what they are. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">You big meanie. Look at poor little defensive me trying to stand up against your mean and nasty aggression against me! I was only... fill in the blank... as they cut that mountain down to the size of a zit.</span> You back down because suddenly they are the victim and you are hurting them. You fall for the wounded wing act. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">The one who was truly fighting for their own way is pretending that you are the one who picked the fight, who is being unfair, who needs to admit you are wrong!</span><br /><br />I so loathe this sneaky way of lying to get ones way.<br /><br />I had read this book some months before my last interaction with my sister. I had forgotten about the book, but some of the concepts I had learned were operational for me. My sister's aggression was immediately obvious to me. I did not allow her to minimize the mountain. I didn't believe the covert lie that by my having a certain opinion that I had put her on the defensive. I again highly recommend this little book. It can save your sanity when you're suddenly in a "fight" with a sneaky little lying f-ing manipulator.<br /><br />http://narcissists-suck.blogspot.com<br /></span>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-77676559642022010862010-04-03T02:40:00.005-07:002011-03-08T17:41:44.089-08:00BINKSTINK IS BUMMED OUT!!...<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=pop-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/pop-1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></div><br /><div align="center">~~~~~</div><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong>that's a <em>BUMMER</em> man..that's a bummer....</strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">-</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">the Big Lebowski</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">gee...BinkStink is bummed out!!</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></p><p><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/14886.html">http://bink-think.livejournal.com/14886.html</a></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span><br /><br /></p><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong><blockquote><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">My daughter and grandson went to San Diego for another visit to her friends a week ago. Her lovely friend Tanya bought her a ticket and is hosting the visit. I have been walking around my house like a ghost, tripping over Orion's toys and Charisse's plastic hair thingies (crunch), Don't know when they will come back, IF they will come back. It feels like such a huge part of me is gone. I miss them so much.</span></blockquote><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">So when you grieve, you clean. Deeply. With vigor, in the corners. I even repainted all the baseboards today. I yanked down the blinds that don't really fit the new windows and let the outside in. No more running nekkid from the bathroom, at least until I break down and decide on new "window treatments". Sheesh, window treatments? Around here in redneckville it's tres couture to hang sheets in your windows. No one would look askance.</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><br /></span><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">I moved around the furniture in the living room. Not that I have much furniture. We dumped it all when we went to Idaho. We inherited some shitty furniture from the previous owners of the farm, and I left it there when I ran away. So I have a fifty dollar couch from the Goodwill, and a thirty year old pumpkin colored Lazy Boy with my grandmother's afghan over it . . . some blonde oak end tables and a dead plant, still in the pot. I've been an RN for almost 20 years, raised my kids and you'd think I'd have my house "in order" but it looks a lot like what I had when I was on welfare going to college. It's a little depressing. The house isn't even mine.</span></div><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><br /></span><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">It's raining outside (what a shock around HERE, I know) and it's drumming on the patio roof in a way that underscores my mood. Actually, a softer, sadder rain would be better. </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><br /></span><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Well, time to warm up the Kentucky Fried 8 piece Family Meal I bought for my UNfamily. It should last me three or four days. I love the potatoes and gravy, especially the gravy. OK, I'm happier now. There's a pint of Ben and Jerry's in the freezer too. Maybe I'll save it, maybe I'll eat the whole thing. Depends upon how self destructive I feel. If I eat it, I'll get in bed and crank up the electric (pfffffft) blanket and watch Discovery Health Channel. The Duggar's are on tonight. Yeah, I feel better now.</span><br /></blockquote><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/get%20into%20my%20own%20pants" target="_blank"><strong><img alt="Can't get into my own pants Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i88.photobucket.com/albums/k190/Major_Princess21/Misc/Funny%20Comments/Old%20fashioned%20funny%20comments/thfoodsex.jpg" border="0" /></strong></a></span><strong><br /><br /></strong></div><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><strong>BinkStink is sounding a little <em>bummed out</em>... i don't get it... her attacks on me for being bummed out were vicious and relentless... i just <em>refuse</em> to embrace the 'groundhog of healing', <em>remember</em>?.... BinkStink has been busy... she's been rewriting history, and erasing some too... like a little beaver... er... groundhog... er... NARC...<br /><br /></strong></span><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">pooooor BinkStink... she's in victim mode... bummer...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">she's removed all her nasty posts to me on her 'camping with abuse survivors' rant/psychotic break... that's ok... i have it all copied to disc along with source code to prove she wrote it.. :)<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">BinkStink's living conditions sound rather... uh... bleak... let's not forget that BinkStink is for somewhere between 17 and 120 years a NURSE.. RN...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">the <em>average</em> yearly income for a nurse is around 52,000 dollars... and yet BinkStink is sitting around on a Goodwill sofa, and a burnt orange LazyBoy recliner????...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">and she says it's '<span style="font-style: italic;">a little depressin</span>g'... huh... because when i was saying how much i missed my home... and all of my things that the psychopath Mike McGrannahan <span style="font-style: italic;">stole </span>from me... here's what she had to say... </span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=61630#t61630">2009-12-19 08:43 pm (UTC)</a></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">I'm saying that unless you suffer from a mental illness, you don't need to live like you do. He may not have left you much but your beating heart but that's enough.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><br /></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Gu</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ess that ugly ass orange LazyBoy should be enough, BinkStink... buck up.. i mean... unless you're suffering from a <em>MENTAL ILLNESS</em>... you don't need to live with an ugly orange recliner, right????... what's your problem?... don't forget...<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><em>you're</em> HEALED..</span></strong><br /></div><blockquote><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">I learned to accept and forgive myself at the knees of some veteran abuse survivors on Trubble's Catbox (they are all at Our Place) now. I saw that THEY redefined themselves and went on, perhaps limping a bit, to new and better lives. </span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">there you go!!.. living in a rented dump in 'Redneckville' and laying around in an orange LazyBoy is NEW and BETTER... so why so bummed???? why not go back over there on your knees now that you're bumming and get some more of that acceptance and forgiveness... oh... i know why... because you're a <em>PARIAH</em></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">among the PIRAHNAS!!</span><br /></strong><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><blockquote>I know this is what makes me a pariah in the domestic violence victim community, this willingness of mine to point out the stain on the lily white garment of the abused.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">..........................</span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">BinkStink appears to be attempting to reinvent herself... gone is the snide hateful condescending vile bitch, whose rambling vicious diatribes prompted me to make a complaint to her employer... not gone, really... just hidden... like all her nasty comments on her journal...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">lately she's a new and improved BinkStink... posting about her geese... about her love for them... geee... quite a change from the sniveling cowardly bitch who allowed ATM to dump her cats... take her dogs to the pound... and shoot and eat her chickens!!. we'll examine all that in another post...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">but for now let's get back to the matter at hand... BinkStink's DEPRESSION... (SIGH)...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=boo-hoo.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/boo-hoo.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">BinkStink, being a psychopath is a fan of other psychopaths.... Sam Vaknin for instance...</span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><blockquote>Sam Vaknin is the author of Malignant Love, and fathered a new understanding of personality disorder (specifically narcissism and psychopathy), being one himself and telling it like it is, from his perspective. Many people reject his ideas because he openly admits he IS a narcissist or psychopath. But the content of his ideas line up with experience just a bit to well for ME to toss him out. <strong style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(i bet)</span></strong> Personally? Who better can describe the machinations in the mind of a narcissist than a narc? <strong style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(ok... let's run with your opinion BinkStink)</span></strong> That he's undoubtedly skimming a ton of supply from all the attention doesn't prevent me from the revelation. I can't think like a narc, myself.<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><strong style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">(uh huh)</span></strong> I have been aware forever that personality disordered people THINK differently, use a different frame of reference entirely. </blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ok... just for kicks - let's compare some of BinkStink's own thoughts about herself to Sam's take on them!!</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/15411.html">http://bink-think.livejournal.com/15411.html</a></div></blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/15411.html"></a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">what BinkStink says about herself:</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"><strong></strong></span><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"><strong>I had no sense of "self"</strong></span> except a very limited one. <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"><strong>I did not exist as a separate individual</strong></span>.. First you must have an actual SELF to focus on. What I had to focus on, back then, was . . . nothing at all.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ewwwwwww... here's what Sam has to say about THAT....</span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><blockquote><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><strong>Vaknin: A Narcissist (notice the capital N) <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">has no sense of self</span>.</strong> If not reflected by others, he feels annulled, dead, void. It is a harrowing experience (I went through it once). It is like being separated to molecules and suspended in mid air.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">hmmm....then there's this....</span></strong></div><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">My "self" was a decoupage of what I believed was expected of me, what kept me 'well liked' by other people, what kept them from being mean or hurtful or rejecting me.</span> <div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">My "self" was a conglomeration of what I'd been given, or decided I needed, to keep myself safe from others. Beneath the conglomerate was a life long belief that I was walking a fine line between tolerance and rejection.I did not perceive myself as having any real protection from other people's meanness and rejection. <strong>Other than charming them, being as passive and perceptive as I could be to what they seemed to need me to be.<br /></strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Sam's assessment:<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><blockquote>The narcissist gets all the love that he needs from himself. From the outside he needs approval, affirmation, admiration, adoration, attention – in other words, externalised Ego boundary functions. The Narcissist emulates and simulates an entire range of emotions and employs every means to achieve these effects. He lies (narcissists are pathological liars – <strong>their very self is a false one).</strong> He acts the pitiful, or, its opposite, the resilient and reliable.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">thanks, Sam...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">THANKS A LOT!!!!<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">gone is the old BinkStink... the hateful self aggrandizing manipulating haughty bitch... she's been replaced by MOTHER GOOSE.. a bummed out one... Sam, what's your take on this?</span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">His <em><strong>aggression</strong></em> having failed to elicit Narcissistic Supply, the narcissist proceeds to indulge himself in daydreaming, delusions of grandeur, planning of future coups, nostalgia and hurt (the Lost Paradise Syndrome).</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">i see... and what about this rewriting history thing, Sam?... what's up with that???</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><blockquote>When all else fails, this is what they do. Put them in a corner about something that happened as recently as an hour ago and they will either tell you that they have no recall of it whatsoever or simply tell you that you are wrong. At this point they will be more than happy to go into great detail about what really transpired, which can be so blatantly untrue that it leaves you standing mouth agape.They will claim to have said or done things that they didn't; claim that you did or said things that you didn't or simply rewrite the story entirely. In extreme cases they will even claim that the incident never happened at all.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">wow, Sam... sounds pretty fucked up... now what about this TWO CAMPS the crazy bitch pounded on about for days???</span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">This is a bit like the old schoolyard dynamics. You'd have two gangs pitted against each other and each would try to steal the stronger members from the other and win them over to their own side. In many ways, narcissists have never left the school yard.As one person falls out of favour with them, so they rush around rallying support against that person from everyone else, starting with their best source of supply and working down to the weakest. Anyone who does not fully agree with the narcissist is thrown into the bad camp with the original outcast.This outcast state can continue for days, weeks, months or even years. It will end when the outcasts either have grovelled sufficiently or the narcissist has outcast someone else in his camp and needs to strengthen this inner circle again.He calls the shots. He decides when you have been sufficiently punished and shown sufficient remorse and all of it is dictated by his own needs only. The king is in his kingdom</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">sounds about right... well, Sam... according to BinkStink, you're the <em>expert...</em> what say you?... is she or isn't she?... give us a hint...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left">`</div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://media.photobucket.com/image/psychopath/becquie/PSYCHOPATH.jpg?o=18" target="_blank"><img src="http://i171.photobucket.com/albums/u306/becquie/PSYCHOPATH.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"></div><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"></div><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center">that's a <em>BUMMER</em>, BinkStink... that's a bummer...<br /></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><p></p><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-21965761906933591782010-04-02T09:15:00.003-07:002011-03-08T17:40:12.919-08:00Blog Stalker...<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><a href="http://www.glitterfy.com/"><img style="width: 300px; height: 116px;" alt="Glitter Words" src="http://img33.glitterfy.com/10093/glitterfy0011542T485D31.gif" border="0" /></a></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:85%;" ><a href="http://www.glitterfy.com/">[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Words*]</a></span><br /></div><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />Come on masquerades! Now that you've left 'THAT FORUM' you're back to your U.K. Cellphone access and on here for hours.<br /><br />WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR??? If you'd ask maybe you'd get farther...<br /><br />Oh, and how was South Africa?</span>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-54718298731453744872010-03-22T02:30:00.015-07:002011-03-08T17:38:37.443-08:00THE PSYCHOPATH BINKSTINK REWRITES HISTORY, TO SUIT HER AUDIENCE AND HERSELF!!!..<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=liar-4.gif" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 255px;" alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/liar-4.gif" border="0" /></a></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">~~~~~</span></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> twist the facts to suit myself, I rewrite history where I see fit and you must believe it at all costs. I embellish, Omit and dramatise everything to suit my needs.I refuse to listen , if anyone did anything wrong it was you and not me. I am always the victim and never the abuser.I am a great big projection machine and I will deflect and project any evil or bad behaviour back onto you, because you see , You are the problem not me.-</span><br /><a href="http://masksofsanity.blogspot.com/2009/06/who-am-i.html">http://masksofsanity.blogspot.com/2009/06/who-am-i.html</a></div><br /><div align="center">~~~~~~~~</div><div align="center"></div><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">'See, what I did, wasn't much more than call bullshit and confront her about the inconsistencies and evasions in her "story". '</span></p><p><strong>that quote directly above is from BinkStink... from her little pitty party entitled... <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">MEAN PEOPLE SUCK</span>... what she <em>really</em> did was attack me relentlessly... slander me... call me a liar... berate me and deride me on her nasty little blog... so now... well... BinkStink... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">all i'm doing HERE is <em>CALLING BULLSHIT</em> and confronting YOU about the </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">inconsistencies and evasions </em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">in YOUR </span></strong><em><strong style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">STORIES!!!!!</strong> </em></p><p align="center"><em><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=calling_bs.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/calling_bs.jpg" border="0" /></a></em><em><br /></em></p><em></em><em></em><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>as those of you who read my blog regularly know... both my blog and i, and now friends of mine have been stalked and slandered and attacked and harassed for quite some time by <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);">Kimberly Anne Stewart</span>, aka <span style="color: rgb(204, 255, 255);">Bink</span> on the <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">Catbox</span></a>..</span> and known here as<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> BinkStink</span>... this woman is a predator... a psychopath... and i<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> repeatedly asked and </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">told</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> her to leave me alone... or that i would expose her</span>... she refused... so now i am exposing her, as promised...<br /><br />psychopaths and narcissists are liars... they continually twist and rewrite the truth to suit the situation and and the audience... and this particular psychopath is not only big on PROJECTION... she is to quote her... a 'HIPPODROME PROJECTOR'... all of the vile nasty things she has accused me of are actually her <em>own</em> behaviors...<br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>~</strong><br /><br /></div><div align="left"><strong>we are about to see a psychopath at work... in print... although <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">BinkStink</span> proudly boasts of her over 5000 posts on <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">Trubble's Catbox</span>... it's not the only forum she's been on... but it is the one where she <em>finally </em>found the perfect audience for her CON... she shopped around until she stumbled on them... she shopped around quite a bit... and each time she put a different spin on her <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">EVIL FAIRY TALE</span>... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">to attract the most sympathy, and for maximum effect... </span><br /></strong></div><br /><div align="left"><strong>here is <span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Kimberly Anne Stewart,</span> aka <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Bink</span>, aka <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">BinkStink...</span> on a public forum called <span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Miracles in Progress... </span>an online Alanon group... on this forum BinkStink is not the frightened abuse victim of the <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Catbox... </span>but the concerned 'wife' of an <em>addict</em>... seeking to turn her life over to her "Higher Power"... BEHOLD... a lying psychopath in print!!..<br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);"></span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);">KIM65 </span></strong></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);"><br />Full Name: </span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Kim S.</span><br /><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);">Location: North Idaho<br />Birthday: 1965-06-28<br /><br />Messages Posted :812<br />Status :Active<br />Member Since :Feb 24, 2007<br />Last Access: November 25th</span> </strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">Biography</span></strong></div><br /><div align="justify"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">I am 42 yrs old with two grown children and</span> <em><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">recently separated</span></em> </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">from an active alcoholic/addict. Two years ago, I left my previous life as a nurse manager for a chemical dependency hospital in San Diego for the homesteading life in rural North Idaho.The move and lifestyle change was not something I would have done without the A hammering at me for YEARS. Once we got up here and got started, he relapsed and has been in this state since. Ironically, I am the one who has embraced this new life and am the current proud Farm Mom for 30 something chickens, 10 geese, 21 dairy goats,<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> 3 and possibly 4 dogs if "Dewey" is really a stray</span> and needs a home, and one little manx kitty.I've been in and out of Alanon since adolescence, when my Dad went into recovery. I joined MIP in January or February (??) since getting to meetings is a rare treasure. I have <em><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">found sincere recovery</span></em> on this board, and am a believe than online 12 step off shoots are the real thing. I am deeply grateful to be a part of MIP!</span></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></span></strong></div></blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Helen Keller could see that this is the same person as our little BinkStink... and you can already see some variations in her '<span style="font-style: italic;">story</span>'... the number of dogs is a striking one... by the time she's on the Catbox it has become 13 dogs... and here she is 'recently separated' -- but on the Catbox she has<span style="font-style: italic;"> fled a raging lunatic</span> and <span style="font-style: italic;">gotten an RO</span> and is <span style="font-style: italic;">sleeping with her finger on the trigger of a gun</span>, yada yada yada...<br /><br />you are about to see a psychopath in action... i am going to post KIM65/BINK <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">telling two very DIFFERENT versions of the </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">same fabricated story</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> to two different audiences</span>...be sure and note the DATES... what she did was simply take some yarns she wove at Miracles in Progress, redated and edited them, and posted them on the Catbox... where she finally got what she was looking for...... not <em>sincere recovery</em>.. but some <em>SUCKERS</em>...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?aBID=42727&p=3&topicID=12806002"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></span></a></div><blockquote><div align="center"><a href="http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?aBID=42727&p=3&topicID=12806002"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?aBID=42727&p=3&topicID=12806002</span></a></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></span></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Kim65</span></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);">Posts: 812Date: </span><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);">Jul 25,</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"> 2007</span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 255, 255);"></span></strong></div>Feelings are so weird . . .<br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br />and surprising. I ran to the little store in town this morning for gas and passed the A coming out of the store. We were both shocked for a second or two, then <span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);">he grinned at me</span> . . . his best <span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);">"Hi, Sweetheart" sort of grin.</span> The one that made my knees weak way back when we began dating.I looked away so fast I almost missed it, and kept walking. I grabbed my Starbucks sugar bomb drink, paid for my gas, and listened to the cashier tell me, "Looks like he's doing real well . . . maybe he'll get his act together??"<span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);"><br /><br />By the time I got out to my car tears were dripping from my chin. I just had to sit and cry for a few minutes. I had no coherent thoughts, other than such sadness and grief. </span>I got home and started milking the goats. I told HP "This is yours, I don't even know WHAT I'm feeling right now, but I know you do. I'm letting you have it because I don't have it in me to do anything with it right now.<br /><br />"The goats got milked, and I had my usual morning of enjoyment with the chickens, the brave turkey who I caught drinking the milk right out of the bucket (what's a little turkey spit between friends??), the usual stuff.<br /><br />So now that HP took it and I'm less volatile, I have to wonder what happened. <span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);">The Hi Sweetheart smile undid me somehow, and I wanted to scratch the smile off of his face. How DARE he smile at me ?? I am offended. I feel deeply HURT by it</span>.<br /><br />We passed a communication to each other, and maybe I do not need to interpret it, but it hit me hard and I thought of you guys right away. . .<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><em> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">why his little smile struck me like a bolt of lightening and left a mystery in my heart</span></em></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><br /><br />I needed to share this with my Alanon compatriots. I so appreciate you all for being "there" :)</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">make note of the date... <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">July, 2007</span>... by October of 2007 she was on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">Catbox</span></a>... with a very different version of the same <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">fabricated </span>story... rewritten for her target audience (aka - the next SUCKERS)...</span></strong> <div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=44740&st=0&p=517882&#entry517882"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=44740&st=0&p=517882&#entry517882">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=44740&st=0&p=517882&#entry517882</a></div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Posted <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">10 October 2007</span> - 04:19 PM </span></div><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br /><div align="left"><br /></div><div align="left">I had plans to make a trip into "town" (sixty miles away) for supplies . . . I made it four miles into the little hamlet I live in, and see the ex's truck at the post office. I pull into the mini market down the street and just have a very bad feeling . . .<span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);"><br /><br />so I sit there and the ex walks out the doors of the mini market, about fifteen feet away from me.</span> There's no hiding. I just turned my head.<span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);"><br /><br />Needless to say I did my business at the mini market, turned around and sped four miles back home, shaking</span>. I sound so tough, you know, but I'm not. I go for weeks without hearing a word or even seeing him, which is amazing since there are less than 400 people in this hamlet. But when I do see him, even for a nanosecond, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><em><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">all I want to do is speed home, lock all the doors and windows and gates, make sure my pistol has a bullet in the chamber and LIE LOW.Just seeing him scares me shittless.</span> </em></span>Yeah, I'm so darn tough alright.<br /><br />I KNOW my decision to end this relationship is right, beyond a shadow of a doubt.<br /><br />I KNOW he is a freak of nature, a bad man, a con man, he's screwing whoever he can, drinking and using drugs while going to AA meetings to get a statement from them to take to court for his meth posession charges.<br /><br />I KNOW I am thinking clearly about him, I am GLAD he's gone, I wish he'd drop off the face of the planet and slither back into the hole he was born from. I am not shaky in my resolve, I don't miss him, I don't have any lingering wishes.<span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);"><br /><br />I just get SO scared when we get "close" like this, while he walked past the car I felt a wave of DANGER coming from him in his body language, the way he snapped his pack of cigarettes against the palm of his hand.I am so scared!</span> And all I did was almost run into him.<br /><br />Am I freaking over nothing? <span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);">I feel like I am in danger. I am really scared,</span> and there isn't any real reason "why".<br /><br />Bink </div></span></blockquote><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 255, 255);">yes, Catboxers... looks like you were HAD by a lying psychopath!!! her adult 20 year old son was living with her and ATM the whole time!!! OOOPS!. she forgot to tell you that???? geee... wonder why?????. poooooor Bink... soooooooo afraid of ATM... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">but not so afraid as to not let her own son be hanging out with him!!!</span>!!</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 255, 255);"></span></strong></p><p><a href="http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?aBID=42727&p=3&topicID=12911077">http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?aBID=42727&p=3&topicID=12911077</a></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Date: Aug 2, 2007</span></p><p><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">What a jerk . .<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">The A ran into my son and his friend in town, and asked them to come cut wood with him to make a little cash. These 20 yr old boys were thrilled, as the A told them he could make $500 in a single day. </span>They waited for him at his place until they got bored and drifted over to a new friend's home. In the meantime, the A<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> got the car keys from them to "check" something (the car is in the A's name), and now refuses to return the car</span>. It was a set up, easy to do to a couple of 20 yr olds.<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">This little car was my son and friend's transportation. The A bought it this last winter, and has verbally given my son permission to drive it when he came up, by his own word to the kid. </span>At least I can say I didn't get involved in that one.This is the same car the A tried to hijack from me a month ago while I was gassing it up in town. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">He's managed to get his own truck out of impound, so he has the farm truck, his own truck, and his motorcycle, and now has "reclaimed" the car he promised my son he could use when he first got up here</span>.So my kid walks in the door at midnight last night, having walked 4 1/2 miles from town. It sounds like the boy had a nice time letting the A have it verbally at least :D . He told the A "you're NOTHING" and walked away, after it became clear the car wasn't coming back.Surprisingly my Mother Bear didn't really come out with claws and teeth (well, it was after midnight and I was pooped!). I'm upset but not surprised. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">The A wouldn't have done something like this a year ago, so my son was caught off guard.Since this car is in the A's name, there's nothing I can do.</span> I do plan on calling the "boss" sheriff up here to notify him of this. It's just info at this point<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">.What this does is screw the boys over, in terms of getting jobs or getting around. We have MY car, which they can use. </span>But still.I just had to get this out. My mind, though fairly calm on this, is still trying to "solve the problem" and go back over and over what I SHOULD have done, I shouild have warned the boys to stay away from him, yada yada.What a royal jerk he is. No big shock.<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">My "real" concern now is this success on the A's part will likely fuel his fire to try and find ways to get the rest of the power tools, etc, that he feels entitled to. Just like this little car, all was purchased with the farm money, which was provided by me. I think I'll call my lawyer too, and see what he has to say. If anything, we can push this lawsuit forward to get to the settlement faster, to get him the hell out of my hair and life period.</span>Luckily, none of the local sheriffs will cooperate with the A in making an appointment to come get the rest of his stuff. Well, that's what he gets for manipulating them. Once burned, twice shy.By writing this, I'm turning it over to HP. Thanks again for listening :)</span></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 255, 255);">........................................</span></strong></p><p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 255, 255);">wait a minute!!!...she's TERRIFIED of him...but she let's her son hang out with him????.....work with him???......geeez....doesn't sound tooo terrified to me!!.and she thought it was FUNNY when her son CONFRONTED ATM....instead of being SCARED!!!..and in the story above she's calling her lawyer to push her lawsuit through!...i thought she was BROKE....and i thought ATM was in JAIL....i thought there was an RO.......it was all a lie, Catboxers......all a lie!!!......and here are a couple of different versions of the firewood story.........the skanks are her friends..GOOD FRIENDS.....no ,wait..... they were friends of ATM who slept at her house a couple of times......no, wait....they were friends.....no..they were just a couple of drug addicts.......no, wait..........lie lie lie lie lie lie..........</span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 255, 255);">....................................</span></strong></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Nov 8, 2007</span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Date: Nov 8, 2007</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br /></span></p><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?aBID=42727&p=3&topicID=14164394"></a></div><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Yesterday mutual friends of exA and I brought over a cord of pine rounds for firewood. This was unannounced, as the puppies had chewed through my phone cord (again). T and M (the mutual friends) just drove up with this wood, which I desperately need. They got it from the exA's "business partner". These two go out on state forest land and get firewood and sell it.<br /><br />I definitely did not want to involve the exA in anyway, there's a <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">RO</span> and I don't speak to him at all, though he's sent a couple of verbal messages through T and M. I was willing to do business through the "business buddy" though, as long as it wasn't mentioned it was ME. </span>I should have known this would backfire.<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><br /><br />T</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> and M said it would be 120 bucks a cord for the wood. Immediately I said that was way too much for PINE</span>. They assured me it was the going price, and there they were in the yard with the truck loaded down. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Plus, T and M said the exA had another cord of wood he wanted to just give me for free. ExA's AA sponsor had told him he needed to do that for me, whatever. So I thought well, two cords of wood for 120 bucks. </span>OK.<br /><br />When we unloaded the wood, T and M let it slip they'd all been hanging out together that morning, with the exA, and so now he knows I was going around him for wood. Very special. I wanted to clang their heads together, but let it go. They also handed me a single sheet letter from exA. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Before T and M took off, they said they didn't know IF or WHEN they could get me the wood the exA was just going to give me</span>.<br /><br />"You know how he is," they said, "You never know if he's telling the truth or not".<br /><br />I waved them away and had a bad feeling.</span></blockquote><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">uh huh... on </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">MIP</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> she turned pooooor Tim in in hopes of </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">saving</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> him... but on the </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">Catbox</span></a>... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">she narc'd out ATM because she 'just wanted him GONE'...<br /><br />on </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">MIP</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> she's turning it over to her </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">'higher power'</span></em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">....on the </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/">Catbox</a>,</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> all her </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">faith</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> is in her trusty </span></strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">'9mm Walther'</span>... <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><br /><br />on </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">MIP</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> her 20 year old son is living with her, and has been for some time... on the </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">Catbox</span></a>,</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> she has abandoned both her children in California... and is <span style="font-style: italic;">a pathetic fearful domestic violence victim, all alone with a ravening meth addict after her!.</span>...<br /><br />ah... what a tangled web we weave...</span></strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=tangledweb.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/tangledweb.jpg" border="0" /></a></div></span><br /><strong></strong><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=45804&st=0">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=45804&st=0</a><strong></strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> <blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Posted 07 November 2007 - 06:35 PM</span> <div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">I've heard nothing from my ex since I got him kicked out in June</span>. He's sent messages via our mutual friends T and M, which I only responded to by telling him NO.<br /><br />For the new folks or those who don't know my story, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">my ex is a drug addict and probably a sociopath or a narc. I have a <span style="font-style: italic;">year long RO</span>, which forces him out of the home we co-own. I bought it with <span style="font-style: italic;">my</span> money, but allowed him to put his name on the title like a typical, malignantly hopeful abused woman. We never legally married. Even more embarassing to me, he never divorced his first wife</span>. She fled to Japan with their son and refused to return, after he moved HER into the remote country and did exactly the same drug addict/VA/PA green beans to her.<br /><br />So I'm trying to run my "retirement" farm by myself, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">after he wiped us out financially buying drug</span>s, after he wiped ME out emotionally to the point I was afraid I was going to do something stupid. So at the first opportunity, I turned him into the sheriff, just to <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">get him away from me</span>. I didn't care anymore about finances, being stuck up here alone with a bunch of livestock and gun nuts and mountain men (I'm an ex city girl too). <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">I just wanted him GONE</span>. Only after he was gone did I realize his abusiveness for what it was.<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><br /><br />I've been feeling very down and frightened lately</span>, I seem to cycle in and out of feeling like "yes, I can do this by myself!!" and "I am not going to be able to do this on my own." For the last week, I've been feeling the latter. It's very hard. I pray a lot. The farm money IS gone, and I'm living on a string. And winter is coming. And I can't leave the farm for more than a couple of hours at a time. So . . . sometimes it's just hard.<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">So T and M come by today and sold me a cord of much needed wood. And brought a letter from the ex that I thought I'd share. Yes, the letter really bothered me, so I played with it. I feel much better now :</span>) .<br /><br />The bold face is his exact words and spellings. My first impression was that his letter said nothing at all. I was disappointed in a sick sort of way that he didn't at least put more effort or prose into it, I mean, sheesh. Then I read it again and like slime the "message" started oozing out.<br /><br />This is the first time he's said a WORD to me since June when I kicked him out.</span><br />~<br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255); font-style: italic;">Dear Bink,I am sending this short note along with the wood, I have much to say to you, I pray that it be soon so that I may leave these burdens, Guilts and pain behind. I spoke with my lawyer yesterday and we shall all meet in court soon. I have proposed that we do 4 or more nuetral marraige Counseling sessions. I have placed my expectations that we might part friends and work out our seperation. If we decide to work toward mending the old or starting a fresh relationship that would be a plus. I wish to thank you for your hard work, keeping the farm in operation, I wish I was there along side you. I found nothing in my past, that pains me like being away from our house in the woods. I would like to start sending money to you by leaving envelopes in the mail box. I see nothing in the court paperwork that restricts mail or phone, we will talk more about this in our next court appearance. His First Name</span></div></blockquote><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">. . threats and hoovers, all jumbled together in hopes I'll be confused and grateful. It's hard to believe what a hold he had on me . . . the last five months of virtual silence from him has been very healing. My heart goes out to all of you who have to interact with your abusers! <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">It sure helps when the contact is nil</span> . . . then when you do interact, you see them for what they are.</span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">What gets ME is that I am the one that turned him into the sheriff, got him tossed in jail, blew his "cover" to everyone in this little town. And he STILL wants to come back? To do WHAT?? He would NEVER be grateful I stopped him in his tracks so he could get his life back together. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">He told me I'd be sorry if I ever ratted him out.</span> Is he willing to over look that, hmmmm????</span> </div></blockquote></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">geee... on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>these people are her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">FRIENDS</span>... on MIP these people are some '<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">flakey substance abusers</span>'... it's getting harder and harder to keep up with her lies...</span></strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> <div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong></strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>vs Bink's Catbox spew:</strong></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Today, the truly suckiest part of this whole thing occurred to me. Not only did he send me the stupid empty letter, <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">but he also ripped me off for at least 30 bucks</span>, which is a lot for me right now. I bought a cord of wood from his business partner (their "business" is to go out on state land and gather fire wood and sell it) for one price, and ran into someone in town who bought it from the ex et al for 30 bucks less than they sold it to me. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">There is also the possiblity he and his minions sold me the cord of wood the ex's AA sponsor made him get to give me FREE. Either way, he's a complete pud and if he gets within arms reach I will scratch the face off of the front of him. OOhhh I hate his guts</span>. </span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">In real life I fear I would act nowhere near my quote above, <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><em>this guy deserves to have his balls in a paper bag and I'm just the harpy to do it</em>.<br /><br />I'm sure he and his minions had a great time plotting to rip me off for that wood. Feckin Bonnie and Clyde who I thought were MY friends (T and M from the OP)!!! Ya know they could get about half an ounce of crappy weed with 120 bucks.</span><br /><br />I had an insight last night about the "letter" he wrote. I remarked (and you all agreed) it said nothing at all. It hit me that since <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">I've had no contact with him for so long</span>, that when I see him in town I ignore him, or pass him on the highway don't return his "wave" (everyone waves to oncoming traffic up here :) ), that all he has is his own imagination to determine "where I am at" with him. His mind is like a bad neighborhood at night, so who am I to think I could cause him "injury"? He does it all himself much better than I could do.<br /><br />That I could be DONE with him wouldn't even occur, I mean how dare I . . . his letter really says EVERYTHING I need to know.<br /><br />His threats about "lawyer" and "court" are kind of funny too. His lawyer is a drunk, and has NEVER returned my lawyers calls or documents to be signed. NEVER. He filed the ex's lawsuit to sell the property and split the proceeds 50/50 but there is still NO COURT DATE, I've called and found that out. I'm not able to proceed b/c it will take another 15K to take this to trial. But the ex doesn't know that.<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><br /><br />He's sent Bonnie and Clyde over here a couple of times to "notify" me of court dates </span>. . . that never existed!! He has apparently tried to set up a kind of mediation with his lawyer and mine, so the four of us could . . . "talk". I have systematically refused. I have a RO. He can stick that on his tongue and hallucinate.<br /><br />The next time I see him in court is to renew the RO in July. By then, I hope to be in a state of mind that I am BORED with the whole mess. What a loser. I hear that it gets pretty cold in that travel trailer when it hits about 15 degrees outside :D . Let's see if he "makes it" through the winter up here :D He goes to trial for meth posession in December, maybe he'll stay warm in PRISON for a while.<br /><br />Jenny: I have to say this guy, when I first met him, fooled me SO WELL that I never would have dreamed he was who he's turned out to be. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">No offense against the good people up here, but he wanted to move out into the sticks to be among his OWN KIND. Thieves, liars, <em>gun nuts</em>, fugitives and drug addicts. </span>Bink</span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">PS: I don't know how I could survive this without you guys :wub: :wub: !!!</span> </div></blockquote><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">vs. Miracles in Progress spew:</span></strong></div><br /><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">It's so hard to tell a story with all the details</span> and not have it be an e-book!Jean: yep<strong>,</strong> I live near a town of 400 on a mountain. The whole town was wiped out in 2000 by the lumber mill shutting down, so who's left are mainly retirees and people on state assistance with disabilities, ie, people who literally couldn't go anywhere else. The <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">mean income is 23K per year per household</span>.<span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><br /><br />Plus, my exA in his drugging and carousing made contacts with all these people who aren't above board if you know what I mean </span>.<br /><br />CG: only in the last couple of weeks have I felt like maybe I can't do this after all . . . no offense taken at ALL about the hillbillies, you lived here for a while, and it's all true. <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">Most of the hillbillies woudn't DO something this underhanded and cruel, knowing I am poorer than they are!</span><br /><br />I won't see any money in the mailbox, that is a classic "hoover maneuver", trying to suck me back in. I see that for what it is.<br /><br />So I think you "get it", either a) <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">T and M the so called "friends" made a 30 dollar profit off of me while lying about the going rate of wood knowing I was desperate, or b) they sold me the "free" wood the exA picked up due to pressure from his sponsor.T and M are flakey substance abusers, but exA in the past remarked he'd asked them to buy something for him when they went to town and it cost a lot more than he thought it would. I didn't even know them at the time, nor was there a receipt that I remember.<br /><br />Somehow I just get the feeling that they would do it if they thought they could get away with it.</span>It is very, very discouraging. All around. I'm trying hard not to catastrophize this.</span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Kim</span></div></blockquote><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">.......</span></div></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><br /></span></strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">geeeeeez... is she going to <em>PRAY</em> over it... or shoot the bastard????... it's soooooo hard to keep up!!!<br /><br />is she turning it all over to her HIGHER POWER... or is she going to turn a GUN on him????? does she want to SAVE him or SHOOT him????<br /><br />does she have 3 dogs... or 9 dogs... or 13 dogs... or NO DOGS AT ALL?????...<br /><br />is she a scared vulnerable woman alone on top of a mountain... or does she have her 20 year old son and a friend of his living there???<br /><br />guess it just depends on what version of her STORIES you're reading... and what forum she's<em> lying</em> on!!!! </span></strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><strong>MIP spew:</strong></span></div><br /><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Ah thanks every one :)<br /><br />I KNOW I was ripped off, but just exactly how and why, I guess it's not so important. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">And I agree, there's nothing to be done about it but cut off those relationships as well.It's still hard for me to *believe* people would do that stuff to each other</span>.<br /><br />And so nice that exA was involved in the planning too. Maresie, YES <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">I expect people to deal with me honestly, not play pretty to my face and screw me behind my back. I</span> don't give a holy heck what their problem is, it's an automatic write off in my book. I would NEVER do this to someone else, I disagree with Robin Hood on principle. I don't care what life has brought to you, you don't do that crap for ANY reason.<br /><br />I am seriously bent out of shape about it but I'm also flexible. No, I won't beat myself up about it.But I WILL react, in order to not have people like that in my life. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Other than that, there's nothing to do but let it go.<br /><br />When you lie down with dogs you get fleas. I didn't even lie down with them, I just let them in my house a few times and they let me "talk" and were supportive and funny</span><em><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">.(dam</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"> it!!...i thought they were CLOSE FRIENDS!!..IT'S SOOOOOOO HARD TO KEEP UP!!)</span></em> GAWD I must be lonely.Jen, I LOVE St Maries.Sometimes I think I should just sell this place, pay the lawyer with the proceeds to take the whole thing to trial and get the hell out of this god forsaken place. A town of 2500 sounds like civilization :) to me. I'll get all my stuff and animals moved and spend a week with CG on the beach :D.<br /><br />I'm afraid I'm getting "beaten down" by circumstances. This sucks. </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong><em>I'll pray on this one and turn it over, I promise.</em></strong></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">I would have never believed my ex would do something like this. I never, ever saw him treat another person like this</span>. T and M . . . well, I am HURT beyond words, but now I know what kind of people they are. But my EX??? Where's my head?? He's an unrepentant drug addict, even losing his home b/c of it hasn't woken him up.<br /><br />No, mine never did look out for me either, Maresie. It's like, why am I surprised?? His first real communication to me in six months is a letter about him getting rid of HIS pain and burdens, him missing OUR house and some threatening comments about his lawyer and court thrown in for good measure. Not one word about "how are you doing?" He assumes I'm just hunky dory. No, he wouldn't even go that far . . . <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">I'm the one who took his toys away.I guess calling the cops and getting a RO really made him mad (snort). The beast is revealed.</span><br /><br />Heartbroken, your post was very, very comforting and supportive :) Thank you so much for your prayers -- I really need them :)<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><br /><br />I had a good cry over this when I went out to feed dinner to everyone. </span>I started thinking about who I would "take with me" when I leave and then I had to stop thinking like that real fast.<br /><br />Sometimes I am afraid I am just insane to think I can do this. I really want to do it, but I've never done it before, long term anyway, so how could I know what's possible and what's not? People are saying "Oh you are so TOUGH and STRONG" and you know what? To what end? I am tough and strong and persistent enough to drive myself into the ground, I've done it before.I have much to think about . . . but I refuse to do it tonight.</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> Turning it over .<br /><br /></span></div></blockquote><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong></strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>vs Catbox spew:</strong></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Posted 09 November 2007 - 11:45 PM </span></div><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">Yes I know how to use the gun, it's a 9mm Walther. I like heck don't want to use it but I will</span>. He taught me how, guns are one of his passions. All windows and doors lock, doors have dead bolts. I have 9 dogs<strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"> <span style="font-style: italic;">(damn!!! refer to her 'profile' above... she states she has THREE DOGS... and eventually her on the </span><a style="font-style: italic;" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a><span style="font-style: italic;">it becomes THIRTEEN DOGS... but RIGHT NOW SHE HAD NINE!!! SOOOOOOO HARD TO KEEP UP WITH THE LIES!!!)</span></span></strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>and one is a Great Pyrenees, they HATE it when someone strange comes in their territory. I got her on purpose, believe me.<br /><br />The local sheriffs have been very helpful, they know me, wave at me, say hello at the store. One of them lives two properties away from me on the same road. They can't protect me much. But they've responded promptly when I've called, and always call me back if I call them. They're the ones who insisted I get the ex parte NOW b/c they didn't want to see me in the hospital or worse.<br /><br />What I'm counting on is the ex knows I will call 911 if he approaches me (I have) and the neighbors will call if they see him fiddling with the front gate (they have, a while back). He will lose his gun rights if he violates this RO, it will revert to a domestic protection order immediately. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong>If he loves anything, he loves his guns, nuts as it is.</strong></span> But I'll take it.<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><br /><br />My greatest hope . . . this sounds terrible, but it's true . . . is that he'll go to prison or end up dead</span>. I don't think he'll ever leave me alone unless that happens, as long as I'm sitting up here in "our little house in the woods". It's not "me" he's after, it's his fantasies. He's a real screwball. Now that he's so drug impaired, I barely recognize him. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">He was a jerk and VA before, but now it's like he's his crazy twin</span>.<br /><br />We'll see how he does this winter :D there's no work up here, his work now is cutting firewood cords and the forests will be shut down for the winter here in about . . . two weeks :lol: !! No one will hire him to take out their garbage. And I have said very little to anyone.<br /><br />I guess I should let all this inform me that "things" may escalate. I should just give a howdy to the lead sheriff that this is what's going on. I'm already being very careful. NOT writing him back is in this same theme, it gives him nothing but silence to respond to.And of course there's always the Karma Bus. But hey, thanks for the concern, it feels good to write this out for myself too.</div><br /><div align="left">Bink </div></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">.........</span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=lying.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/lying.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>let me quote some excerpts from BinkStink's <em>HIPPODROME PROJECTOR</em> diatribe entitled <a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">MEAN PEOPLE SUCK</a>... the one <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">she aimed at me</span>... while obviously talking about HERSELF...<br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">I will chide people or confront them in the right context. Like, when they ask for it or in consensual debate. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong>I see a moral difference between challenging a person's words or behavior, and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">telling lies</span>, </strong></span>rather an obvious point to most folks.<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong>See, what I did, wasn't much more than call bullshit and confront her about the inconsistencies and evasions in her "story".</strong></span> She can't tell the difference, and is therefore, a dangerous person.<br /><br />Finding her father <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong>after refusing to believe her sob story</strong></span>, ...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong>When we are talking ideas and honesty and integrity, which are much higher on the food chain than they can grasp</strong></span>, they are struggling, like a 13 year old terror of a kid, for a simple sense of SELF. The sense they do have is so fragile a breeze would dislodge it. It really is life and death, to them.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong><br />Worse, to be unaware that this is how you appear to others . . . not a victim at all, but a lunatic to be feared</strong></span>. <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong>I imagine what a sad and joyless life it must be, to be her. And that each attempt to hurt or destroy other people (I am not the first, or last) puts another brick in the wall around her, isolating her further.</strong></span> Reinforcing her self loathing, and shame.<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong> The really sad part is that each time you attempt to hurt another person for your own pleasure, you are damning yourself to further pain.</strong></span> Because of your hazy lack of self to begin with, the acts of hatred appear to come from outside yourself, and you are victimized, over and over again without respite.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">Sympathy for such a person is natural enough . . . but considering the damage they can and do cause others, the sympathy is misplaced. </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong><br /><br />Ironically it is sympathy that they demand, for they pity themselves above all other suffering.</strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">..............<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">BinkStink, i'm calling you on <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">YOUR lies and bullshit</span>... and i'm going to continue to do it.. there are so many lies... and there's SOOOOOO much bullshit to call you on...this is just a <em>sampling...<br /><br /></em>now I'm SURE... you're a pathological liar and a psychopath... you can rewrite history on your creepy little psycho blog... but<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> you can't rewrite what you've written that is FOREVER in Google caches!</span>!!...your bad!!!<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">stay tuned for more of BinkStink's lies and manipulations exposed... the truth is out there...<br /><br />and more of it is coming soon to this blog...</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=truth-3.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/truth-3.gif" border="0" /></a></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"></span></strong></div><br /><div align="left"></div></span></span>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-29755596796681477412010-03-20T07:15:00.011-07:002011-03-08T17:38:17.968-08:00BINKSTINK IS A GUN TOTING PSYCHO!!!<div align="center">C<a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=closeup.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/closeup.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center">~~~</div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">HAPPINESS IS A WARM GUN, BANG BANG SHOOT SHOOT</span> - The Beatles</strong></div><div align="center"><strong>~~~~~</strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">BinkStink is a paragon of PROJECTION... she just loves to accuse others of what she is doing and thinking... in a recent diatribe she sent to someone <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">she called </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">me</em> a 'crazy killer'... and yet it's BinkStink who almost continually talks about guns, and using them... NOT ME... it's BinkStink who, on the </span><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Catbox </span></a><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">posted time and again about owning guns... and her plans to use to them to shoot the allegedly nefarious ATM... it's BinkStink whose posts <em>really</em> are full of violence and threats of violence... BinkStink calls me a violent killer... it's very typical of Narcs and Psychopaths to turn around their own THOUGHTS and PROCLIVITIES and project them onto others... as we will see here in a small sampling of quotes from BinkStink herself...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">~</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=NegaduckHavingFunwithGun.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/NegaduckHavingFunwithGun.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center">~~</div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?</span></a><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">s=b5cb63833fdb369b24292f41ba2292de&showtopic=44740&st=0&p=517882&#entry517882</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 10 October 2007 - 04:19 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Needless to say I did my business at the mini market, turned around and sped four miles back home, shaking. I sound so tough, you know, but I'm not. I go for weeks without hearing a word or even seeing him, which is amazing since there are less than 400 people in this hamlet. But when I do see him, even for a nanosecond, all I want to do is speed home, lock all the doors and windows and gates,<strong> <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">make sure my pistol has a bullet in the chamber</span> </strong>and LIE LOW.</span></div><div align="center">..........................................................................<br /><br /></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=45804&st=40">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=45804&st=40</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 09 November 2007 - 11:45 PM </span></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>Yes I know how to use the gun, it's a 9mm Walther. I like heck don't want to use it but I will</strong></span>. He taught me how, guns are one of his passions. .<span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong><br /><br />My greatest hope</strong> .</span> . . this sounds terrible, but it's true . . . <strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">is that he'll</span> go to prison or <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">end up dead</span></strong>. </span></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">......................................................<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=43356">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=43356</a></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 28 August 2007 - 03:28 AM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>threw a teflon pan at him and gashed his leg</strong></span>, I don't think "cute" fits too well. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">I was just as crazy as he was</span> </strong></span>by the time the inevitable happened.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I know this sounds dramatic but I am SO ANGRY with myself. I'm plenty angry with the Doof and </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>will take out his leg if he sets foot on this property</strong>.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">.............................................................<br /><br /></span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78838">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78838</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 17 July 2009 - 03:25 AM</span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">when we victims of DV wait "too long" to end the cycle and save ourselves, some funny things happen in our heads. <strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">For instance, murder is justified, and worth the consequences. I know I had the thought cross my mind. I saw no other way out<br /><br /></span></strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>I can especially relate to that anger, and to having accesible firearms and knowing how to use them and getting SO absolutely beyond desperate that it seemed like my only option to save myself.<br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">so he pointed a gun at her first? THEN she blew him away?Hmmmm.</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong><br />Sounds good to me.</strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong><em>hmmmmmmmmmmm</em> indeed, BinkStink!!!</strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">........................................................................</span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=Godfearingguntoting.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/Godfearingguntoting.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center">```````````````</div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78812"></a></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78812">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78812</a></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 14 July 2009 - 01:01 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I also had a drug addicted abuser, who threatened over and over to bash my skull in. He was doing meth. I got a restraining order and sat</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>in my house for nine months with a loaded 9mm pistol.<br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">ATM doesn't know where I am. <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>It felt strange not to have that gun with me at first, but it didn't take long to realize I didn't NEED it,</strong></span> and that I was finally free. </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>( she's still got it...and talks about wanting to USE it on her blog...keep reading)</strong></span></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">...................<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=79507&st=10">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=79507&st=10</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 23 September 2009 - 04:28 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I agree it's <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>disturbing to hear someone use the word "kill" but let's be honest here. How many of us have thought about "the burning bed", hmmmm??</strong></span> The despair of living with a disturbed person has that effect. Lot's of members here have felt such despair that suicide seems to be a relief. </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>I OFTEN visualized ATM completely out of my hair, if you know what I mean.</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>I often say that I was afraid something terrible would happen if I hadn't split with my abuser. I didn't just mean something bad would happen to ME. The rage was at a breaking point.</strong></span></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">.....................................................<br /><br /></span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=54575&st=40">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=54575&st=40</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 23 August 2008 - 02:24 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">My war stories aren't funny. Maybe not YET. I<span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"> <strong>did mess with ATM sometimes, but mostly I get off on more direct "assaults", like throwing saucepans</strong></span><strong>.</strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">.................<br /><br /></span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=51698&st=60">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=51698&st=60</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 05 May 2008 - 03:00 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I carry spiders outside in jars (shivering and skeeving the whole time) but I believed</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong> I could take pot shots at ATM with my pistol if I felt the dire necessity. </strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">..................<br /><br /></span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78063&st=10">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78063&st=10</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 03 May 2009 - 05:18 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I really didn't DO anything about it. Except notify the sherriff when he broke the RO. He only broke it about three times. </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>Sometimes I think the only reason he didn't harrass me further -- he is very very obsessive -- is because he taught me how to shoot and I was packing<br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I got an image of the scene in the first Indiana Jones movie where this guy squares off with Indiana Jones with a scimitar, and Jones makes a face and blows him away. His hands are deadly weapons my butt! </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>Can they stop a .44 :p :lol:? </strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">looks like BinkStink herself is quite the gun nut as well as being just a NUT...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">and she's <em>still </em>talking about guns... and KILLING PEOPLE WITH THEM... on her</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">creepy little blog...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/10503.html"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/10503.html">http://bink-think.livejournal.com/10503.html</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I comfort myself with being the equivalent of a barbed bone in the throat of abusive jerks nowadays, but eventually, I think the goal is to avoid getting inside their mouth. To see the teeth coming, <strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">and in the great example of Hothead Paison, Homicidal Lesbian Terrorist, stick the barrel of my Walther in there instead</span>.</strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>uh huh... i see... .BinkStink has certainly shown herself to be abusive... and i've shown clear evidence here of her ummmmmm extreme interest in <em>GUNS... </em>BinkStink armed only with her poor mental health and her rabid tongue is scary enough... but BinkStink with loaded weapons is a very scary thought...</strong></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">and i think even she knows it... let me again quote her.....</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=45508&st=10" target="_blank"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=45508&st=10" target="_blank">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=45508&st=10</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Posted 30 October 2007 - 03:04 PM </span></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">I was instrumental in getting my ex arrested. As desperate as I was to even do this, I still felt like you do, frickin SORRY that it even had to come to this. It was a pretty horrible feeling . . even though I was so wanting him just gone.<span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"><strong>They arrest these gun nut/abuser types for a dam good reason, </strong></span>and I'm so glad you have these people on your side. Bink</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>yeah BinkStink... they watch and arrest you <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><em>gun nut/ abuser</em> <em>types</em></span> for a good reason... a very good reason... because it's <em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">your</span></em> type BinkStink, who is truly 'DANGEROUS'...<br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-52076085846855235202010-03-19T19:21:00.007-07:002011-03-08T17:37:52.678-08:00SHE'S BAAAAAACK!!!<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=Psycho-3.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/Psycho-3.gif" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center">~~~~~~~</div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>NEWS FLASH, BinkStink!!.. your proxy isn't working!!. and it looks like you aren't either!!!</strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"></span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"></span></strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">March 18th 2010</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">08:10:16 PM<br />IE 8.0WinXP1280x1024</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">Location: IP Address:</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"><strong>Olympia, Washington,</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">United States<br />Comcast Cable</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">(76.104.243.242)</span> <a href="http://my4.statcounter.com/project/standard2/add_ip_address_label.php?project_id=5677359&ip_address=76.104.243.242&return_url=%2Fproject%2Fstandard2%2Fvisitor.php%3Fproject_id%3D5677359" target="_blank">[Label IP Address]</a><br /><a href="http://www.proxygiga.com/browse.php?u=Oi8vYmlua3N0aW5rLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbS8%2Feng9YWIwZTkzMTJlNmFmODdhYQ%3D%3D&b=5&page=ot.com/?zx=ab0e9312e6af87aa&f=fr" target="_blank">www.proxygiga.com/browse.php?u=Oi8vYmlua3N0aW5rLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbS8%2Feng9YWIwZTkzMTJlNmFmODdhYQ%3D%3D&b=5&page=ot.com/?zx=ab0e9312e6af87aa&f=fr</a><a href="http://www.proxygiga.com/browse.php?u=Oi8vYmlua3N0aW5rLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbS8%2Feng9YWIwZTkzMTJlNmFmODdhYQ%3D%3D&b=5&page=ot.com/?zx=ab0e9312e6af87aa&f=fr" target="_blank">www.proxygiga.com/browse.php?u=Oi8vYmlua3N0aW5rLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbS8%2Feng9YWIwZTkzMTJlNmFmODdhYQ%3D%3D&b=5&page=ot.com/?zx=ab0e9312e6af87aa&f=fr</a><a href="http://www.proxygiga.com/browse.php?u=czovL3d3dy5ibG9nZ2VyLmNvbS9ibG9naW4uZz9ibG9nc3BvdFVSTD1odHRwJTNBJTJGJTJGYmlua3N0aW5rLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbSUyRg%3D%3D&b=5&page=ger.com/blogin.g?blogspotURL=http%3A%2F%2Fbinkstink.blogspot.com%2F&f=frame" target="_blank">www.proxygiga.com/browse.php?u=czovL3d3dy5ibG9nZ2VyLmNvbS9ibG9naW4uZz9ibG9nc3BvdFVSTD1odHRwJTNBJTJGJTJGYmlua3N0aW5rLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbSUyRg%3D%3D&b=5&page=ger.com/blogin.g?blogspotURL=http%3A%2F%2Fbinkstink.blogspot.com%2F&f=frame</a></div></blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.proxygiga.com/browse.php?u=czovL3d3dy5ibG9nZ2VyLmNvbS9ibG9naW4uZz9ibG9nc3BvdFVSTD1odHRwJTNBJTJGJTJGYmlua3N0aW5rLmJsb2dzcG90LmNvbSUyRg%3D%3D&b=5&page=ger.com/blogin.g?blogspotURL=http%3A%2F%2Fbinkstink.blogspot.com%2F&f=frame" target="_blank"></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/vintage%20funny" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 343px;" alt="Vintage Meds Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i240.photobucket.com/albums/ff237/mareesme/Vintage%20and%20Funny%20Stuff/medsforthat.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></div><span style="font-weight: bold;">You can act on your pathetic blog like the truth I posted doesn't exist, never happened and doesn't bother you all you like... You're done</span>.</div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-80903708324967772312010-03-17T07:54:00.010-07:002011-03-08T17:36:28.671-08:00UH OH, BINKSTINK!..THE TRUTH REALLY IS OUT THERE!!!<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=truth-3.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/truth-3.gif" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center">~~~~~~~~</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">the truth really <em>is</em> out there... if you just look for it... i looked for it... and i found it... firstly... before anyone starts wagging their psychopath tongue and pointing their psychopath finger... i want to post this reminder...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong><br /><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/"></a><blockquote><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">bink_think</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/9140.html?thread=171700#t171700">2010-02-17 06:41 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Confederaterebel! Mary Ella McGrannahan. I know you even when you leave out your ellipses</span>. </blockquote></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">as everyone can see... the creepy psychopath BinkStink had <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">no problem</span> with posting MY name on HER blog on 2/17/2010...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">BinkStink crowed all over her blog that i could not report her to the nursing board... because i couldn't possibly have HER name.. and couldn't possibly get it... she has since removed those posts... along with the one in which she gleefully claimed my father was supposedly a KKK member... but i still have the post and code copied... and in her <a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">MEAN PEOPLE SUCK</span> whine-a-thon</a>, she alludes to what she said...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><blockquote>I know it is revenge for suggesting her father was a grand poohbah KKK even though that's probably true.<br />Finding her father after refusing to believe her sob story, and eventually banning her for endless name-calling twaddle was tantamount in her mind to justify fucking with my sole means of support.</blockquote></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">.........</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>nasty BinkStink also felt it was perfectly OK for her post hateful spews like this to me...</strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=150206#t150206">2010-01-03 09:30 pm (UTC)</a> .<span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Are you flea infested?Are you running with red open sores from the vermin munching on your ankles?Do your dogs gasp and lay quietly on the ends of their chains, fur matted and eyes dim from starvation and worms?Does your hovel stink from the scarce kitty litter?Or are they shitting up the poor man's yard where you keep your hovel?Do you scoop it up out of some rare impulse to actually be grateful?If you do, where do you PUT the POO?In his garbage can?Or do you dry it and burn it for heat?-bink</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>i've always had a bit of a problem believing <em>BinkStink's sob story... </em>always... even back on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>...it didn't add up...<br /><br />if she had a house on 20 acres in Idaho... bought and paid for with the proceeds from a house<em> she</em> owned outright in California... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">then why was BinkStink soooooo broke she had to CON her fellow Catboxers out of money</span>, as i pointed out in a previous post??... why didn't she just borrow money against the house and 20 acres... IF it was hers????...<br /><br />then there was the claim that she was sitting there, scared to death of ATM... that she'd '<span style="font-style: italic;">told the cops everything</span>'... in exchange for an RO... didn't ring true... and tell them WHAT, exactly?... what could she tell them they didn't already know?...<br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">~</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Psychopaths are often pathological liars... and they can often not remember a lie they told ten minutes ago, let alone things they said several years ago... and they seldom put their lies in print... but BinkStink... with her 5000 plus Narc posts on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Catbox</span></a><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">... </span>put LOTS OF LIES IN PRINT... LOTS...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">~</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=lying.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/lying.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">and she's also lied recently, of course... in print... here is an excerpt from her blog entry titled <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">HOPE</span>...<br /></span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">March 15, 2010</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">I was confronted with this choice myself. My<span style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">ex husband</span> ATM burned through my entire retirement fund and the proceeds from my house sale in California (which was considerable, I sold in in 2005). I was financially destroyed, and have forever lost ground because of it. He sicced his dogs on my animals and injured or killed them. He shot a laying hen with a RIFLE at point blank range because he wanted roast chicken. It blew her to smithereens. I was screaming at him to stop. The neighbors called the cops because they thought I was being killed, what with the rifle shots and all. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">He threatened to kill me uncountable times</span>. And even today people, family included, do not GET IT, they continue to ask why I put up with it and did not </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">"leave sooner".</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="center">.......</div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">Psychopaths forget the lies they've told... she's forgotten the lies she has previously told... above she says ... 'he threatened to kill me uncountable times'... .but here in a post from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">Catbox</span></a>....</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">~</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=57418"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=57418">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=57418</a></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Posted 22 October 2008 - 09:00 PM</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">My ex abuser ATM was a threatener. He laid hands on me only a few times. Mostly he <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>just threatened to hurt me</strong></span>, and a<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> </span></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">couple of times</span>,</span></strong> <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">when drunk and furious, to </span></span><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">kill me.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">.........</span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">which is it??... uncountable times???... or a <em>couple of times</em>???? Psychopaths continually rewrite history and lie-on-the-fly... and you can see it BinkStink rewriting it... right here... for maximum effect... in the post dated March 15, 2010... she calls ATM her <em>ex-husband...</em> but in posts on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/">Catbox</a>... she told a different story...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">We were never married</span> ((((running out of the room to vomit in shame, excuse me, will I ever not want to barf when I tell this story :X ))))</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">and then there's this one...........</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850&st=0" target="_blank">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850&st=0</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Posted 05 November 2008 - 10:23 PM</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">the judge PROMISED no more continuances after the trial date set in March. Sometimes I wonder if not having married him will be more of a life saver than I ever thought. In the context of the relationship,<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> he refused to marry me</span>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">He would have had to divorce his first wife and pay child support (that was his reasoning).</span> Pardon me while I puke from shame again :X .</span> </div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>not only does she say on the Catbox that they were 'never married'... he couldn't possibly be her 'ex husband'... because she claimed previously that he was still married to someone else!!!!!!<br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=75956"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=75956">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=75956</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Posted 21 November 2008 - 01:54 PM<br />No one ever proposed to me. ATM just told me he knew he was "screwed" (his term for hopelessly in love with me) and moved right along into calling me his wife. We'd been dating for several weeks, perhaps eight. Probably less. Trouble was, he was <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">still married to his first wife, who fled back to Japan seven years prior and refused to come back to the states</span> (now I know why). <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">He made two half hearted attempts to divorce her.</span></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">hmmmmmmm... but by 2009 BinkStink had <em>rewritten history again...<br /></em></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">~</span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78511"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78511">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78511</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">ATM has an ex, in Japan</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">.....</span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">it's soooo hard to keep up with a Psychopath's lies!!. even when they're in print... geeez... and then there is the matter of ATM... and the alleged RESTRAINING ORDER she has against him... </span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78792">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78792</a></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Posted 10 July 2009 - 01:24 </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">ATM made many, many attempts to get this and that from the house. My lawyer had put a stop to taking any of the <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">marital</span> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">(WAIT A MINUTE!!..in other posts she states CLEARLY that they WERE NEVER MARRIED!)</span> assets. Didn't stop ATM from trying. <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Since I had a </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">RO</span>, he couldn't approach me without a sheriff being present. And the sheriffs had a copy of the decree from the lawyer so they wouldn't cooperate</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=48368"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=48368">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=48368</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Posted 20 January 2008 - 03:29 PM<br />ATM is grandiose and entitled and he thinks he is above the "law", and once I kicked him out went nuts trying to break the<span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);"> RO</span> to get next to me.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=54741&mode=linearplus"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=54741&mode=linearplus">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=54741&mode=linearplus</a></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Posted 23 August 2008 - 09:49 AM<br />I allowed my year long <span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 51);">RO</span> to lapse in July . . . ATM doesn't know where I live, and his attention span is so short I doubt he would successfully find me. It was a "civil restraining order", not a domestic protection order, so he was allowed to keep his firearms</span></div></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>then there is the matter of ATM supposedly being in <em>prison</em>...<br /></strong></span><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850"></a></div><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=65850</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Posted 05 November 2008 - 06:59 PM<br />That absolute farthead, who is in prison and will be for at least another year, is fomenting again</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/facebook%20funny" target="_blank"><img alt="checking up Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d176/doggypaws1980/GIFs/big_847059.gif" border="0" /></a><br /><a style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" href="http://photobucket.com/images/facebook%20funny" target="_blank">BinkStink checks her blog! AGAIN!</a><br /><br /><br /></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>wait a minute!!!. in november of '08 he's <em>in PRISON</em>.. and will be for <span style="font-style: italic;">'at least another year'</span>... but in August of '08 her RO expired and she doesn't think he can <em>find her anyway</em>... wait... i thought he was in <em>prison</em>!!.<br /><br />it's so hard to keep up with the LIES... let's try again... </strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78180&st=40">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=78180&st=40</a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Posted 15 May 2009 - 01:05 PM </span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">I haven't seen his face or had any contact with him for two years, and he is safely incarcerated in <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">prison</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span>due to his drug addiction but mostly stupidity and believing he is above the law. I've had time to heal a bit and see objectively what kind of situation I was in while I was with him </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>(he is not in prison.....and he is VERY CLOSE TO WHERE SHE LIVES.. i'm sure she knows this)</strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">...</span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>there's a bit of a problem with all of this... i searched Idaho court records... that </strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">go back to 1995... and... there is <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">no evidence that there was EVER a restraining order !</span>!.. and... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">there is no evidence that ATM ever went to jail!!</span>.. in fact... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">the case against him was DROPPED</span>... couldn't find him in the Idaho Department of Corrections site... could find no evidence of him on the Washington State department of corrections site... or in the federal prisoner locator... looks like it was ALL A LIE!!</span></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><a href="https://www.idcourts.us/repository/caseHistory.do?roaDetail=yes&schema=CLEARWATER&county=Clearwater&partySeq=28739&displayName=Haugen%2C+Timothy+m+%28+for+Haugen%2C+Timothy+M%29">https://www.idcourts.us/repository/caseHistory.do?roaDetail=yes&schema=CLEARWATER&county=Clearwater&partySeq=28739&displayName=Haugen%2C+Timothy+m+%28+for+Haugen%2C+Timothy+M%29</a></div></blockquote><div align="left"><a href="https://www.idcourts.us/repository/caseHistory.do?roaDetail=yes&schema=CLEARWATER&county=Clearwater&partySeq=28739&displayName=Haugen%2C+Timothy+m+%28+for+Haugen%2C+Timothy+M%29"></a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">sorry BinkStink... .aka... Kimberly Anne Stewart... there is no record of you ever getting a restraining order against Timothy M. Haugen!!!! the court case against ATM aka Timothy M. Haugen was <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">DISMISSED</span>... there is no evidence to suggest that ATM went to 'prison'... not in the state of Idaho!!. and there is no record of a restraining order ever being issued to YOU... or anyone else...<br /></span></strong></div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkKzGIQ6WWV7tWka9yuGubjbju9OklcGi4vKMBr9nOB6FX_mtTd1rLU8HrblTtQ0vwvaKNDrVqkN3meuMJRC9fsKs9gM4grCo5siu2yIimUMZTFcLx3v5ITnoyULJ5OTGXqEk3qXiXVmjV/s1600-h/bullshit.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5449681186176094754" style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 225px; cursor: pointer; height: 300px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkKzGIQ6WWV7tWka9yuGubjbju9OklcGi4vKMBr9nOB6FX_mtTd1rLU8HrblTtQ0vwvaKNDrVqkN3meuMJRC9fsKs9gM4grCo5siu2yIimUMZTFcLx3v5ITnoyULJ5OTGXqEk3qXiXVmjV/s320/bullshit.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><blockquote>State of Idaho vs. Timothy M Haugen<br />No hearings scheduled<br />Case: CR-2007-0000652<br />Magistrate Judge: Randall W. Robinson<br />Amount due: $0.00<br />Closed<br />Charges:<br />Violation Date<br />Charge<br />Citation<br />Disposition<br /><br />06/15/2007<br />I37-2732(C)(1) Controlled Substance-possession Of Arresting Officer: Cordle, Guy, 2000<br />Finding: Dismissed By Prosecutor Disposition date: 06/28/2007 Fines/fees: $0.00<br />Register of actions:<br />Date<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />New Case Filed - Felony<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Criminal Complaint<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Affidavit Of Probable Cause<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Order Determining Probable Cause After Arrest Without Warrant<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Hearing Scheduled (Arraignment 06/18/2007 01:00 PM)<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Statement of Defendant's Rights - Felony<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Hearing result for Arraignment held on 06/18/2007 01:00 PM: Arraignment / First Appearance<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Financial Statement And Order<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Defendant: Haugen, Timothy M Appearance John R Hathaway<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Hearing Scheduled (Preliminary 06/29/2007 11:00 AM)<br /><br />06/18/2007<br />Order Of Commitment Pending Posting Of Bail<br /><br />06/19/2007<br />Request For Discovery<br /><br />06/28/2007<br />State's Discovery<br /><br />06/28/2007<br />Motion To Dismiss<br /><br />06/28/2007<br />Motion Granted<br /><br />06/28/2007<br />Court Minutes<br /><br />06/28/2007<br />Dismissed by Motion of the Prosecutor with hearing (I37-2732(C)(1) Controlled Substance-possession Of)<br /><br />06/28/2007<br />Hearing result for Preliminary held on 06/29/2007 11:00 AM: Hearing Vacated<br /><br />06/29/2007<br />Order Of Release From Custody<br /><br />07/17/2007<br />Subpoena Returned<br /><br />07/17/2007<br />Subpoena Returned<br /><br />07/17/2007<br />Subpoena Returned<br /><br />07/17/2007<br />Subpoena Returned</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">and as for the cabin and 20 acres...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">1030 Hjalmar Johnson Road, Weippe, Idaho </span>has only ONE OWNER listed... Mr. Timothy M. Haugen... and it STILL belongs <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">to him</span>!!!<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">am i <em>STALKING</em> you, BinkStink??.. NO!!. did i RESEARCH you?... YES... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">because you attacked me and called ME a liar, when i had always suspected that YOU were one!!!!</span> and it turns out i was <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">CORRECT</span>...<br /><br />all the information i have about you is a matter of public record... and a LOT of it, you made public yourself!!!!<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>there's <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">GOLD </span>in them thar' google caches!!!!!</strong></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=47241">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=47241</a><br /></div></blockquote>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-24832665960675644632010-03-16T08:12:00.018-07:002011-03-08T17:33:06.040-08:00SOMEBODY, CALL BINKSTINK A WHAAAAMBULANCE, STAT!! SHE'S HAVING A WHINE ATTACK!!!<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=whaambulance-ani.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/whaambulance-ani.gif" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center">~~~<br /><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: left;"><em></em></p><blockquote><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: left;"><em>Lundy [Bancroft], author of WHY DOES HE DO THAT?, points out that one of the abusers most commonly used tactics is to try to convince you and the people around you that <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you </span>are crazy”. </em></p><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: left;"></div><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: left;"><em>Do not fall for their <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">unprofessional </span>diagnosis. Do not try to convince him or other people who are uneducated enough to believe him that they are incorrect. Let them believe what they want. Not only is this your opportunity to distinguish who your true support group is in order to protect yourself from his allies, it’s also a great source for personal strength and growth. And once you’ve overcome the feelings of betrayal, and learned the real reasons for this tactic of his, it can be a great source for endless humor by seeing what “the blind leading the blind” truly means. Stay away from these toxic people, they are harmful to your health, survival and well being.</em></p><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: left;"></div><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: left;"><em>In labeling you “crazy”, the abuser finds it easier to justify his abuse. If you have already left the abuser he can use a pop psychology term to justify to himself and others why you left him in order to avoid looking at the true reason for your departure, which was his abuse. If you find yourself questioning his lay-diagnosis, I urge you to seek the advice of a licensed psychotherapist who can tell you in a few sessions if any of his claims are valid or not.</em></p><p style="text-align: left;"><em><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">http://tribes.tribe.net/abusivepartners/thread/c04b7ec6-2045-4554-bbd3-a3020b15ac61</span></em></p></blockquote><br /></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><strong>this is soooooooo typical... the Narc psychopath BinkStink can do whatever she wants, say whatever she wants... twist the truth... make up LIES... attack anyone and everyone she<em> chooses</em>... but boy... out the bitch or call <span style="font-style: italic;">her </span>on <span style="font-style: italic;">her </span>abusiveness and it's a</strong> <strong><em>WHINE FESTIVAL</em></strong>...<br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">~</span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I didn't expect that my review of allabouthim.com would be greeted (by the moderator) with contrite self reflection, because I've not seen her display that quality when confronted before.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(NO... she expected to cause trouble for other people... but has only caused more for herself )</span> I'm sad to see that she has frightened her membership with stories of an evil TROLL<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"> (you ARE an evil Troll)</span></strong></span> Wrong<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(right)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>I am glad that victims have a place to go, and have a leader they feel safe with. I mean only to point out that there was an extreme lack of empathy for the victimized membership, by the moderator</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (of course this crazed psychotic bitch is just FULL TO BRIM WITH EMPATHY... as anyone who as seen her comments on Gone Quiet from Our Place can clearly see... hahahahahaha)</span></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">~</span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I was not critisizing the membership in any way or shape or form. Just the moderator<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(oh, so that makes it OK...to attack JUST ONE PERSON on a forum she is not even part of )</span></strong></span> To bring the membership into a froth is inappropriate and again, shows a lack of empathy for them. It is drama they don't need to distract them from working on themselves. They have real issues with true trolls in their lives.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><span style="font-weight: bold;"> (yeah: YOU)<br /><br /></span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Psychopaths are not run-of-the-mill trouble makers.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong> (<em>look</em>... she wants to think she's <em>SPEACIAL</em>...she's not just the run of the mill troublemaker... she's a PSYCHOPATH... and a PROUD one)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>They are devastating. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(bragging)</strong></span> They are not running amok in our society, they are few and far between. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(again.....she's soooooooooo SPECIAL)</strong></span> Yes, there are those of us who DO run into a psychopath, or a narcissist, or a real con. Most of us run into their lesser brothers and sisters, still quite devastating. But it is not the end of the world. For MOST people. I think, as Lisa Scott states, you have a lot of choice in how you define yourself in the aftermath.<br /><br />I concede that Ted Bundy's victims, the dead ones, have no choice to recreate themselves in the aftermath. The living ones do. If you live through your abusive relationship, you have choices. It is your personal right to choose to be destroyed forever by your encounter. I was confronted with this choice myself. My ex husband ATM burned through my entire retirement fund and the proceeds from my house sale in California (which was considerable, I sold in in 2005). <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(i'm going to address this in an expose' soon... WHAT BECAME OF THE 'RANCHO BINKSTINK'???... what became of the farm that was PURCHASED FROM THE PROCEEDS OF THE <em>CONSIDERABLE </em>proceeds from the sale of her house?... it seems to have just <em>poof... </em>disappeared!!!)</strong></span></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">~</span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I was financially destroyed, and have forever lost ground because of it. He sicced his dogs on my animals and injured or killed them. He shot a laying hen with a RIFLE at point blank range because he wanted roast chicken. It blew her to smithereens. I was screaming at him to stop. The neighbors called the cops because they thought I was being killed, what with the rifle shots and all. He threatened to kill me uncountable times. And even today people, family included, do not GET IT, they continue to ask why I put up with it and did not "leave sooner". I live every day in a world that I KNOW would think I was an idiot and deserved what I got for staying when I should have SEEN him for what he was.<br /><br />Instead of accepting what others would (and do) define me as, I learned to accept and forgive myself at the knees of some veteran abuse survivors on <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">Trubble's Catbox</span> (they are all at </span><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">Our Place</span></a><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">) <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(sucking up... but it's not working... they won't have her)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>now. I saw that THEY redefined themselves and went on, perhaps limping a bit, to new and better lives. With and without new husbands/boyfriends/children/money/assets. And their hopefulness and strength in the face of adversity was REAL. Not a bunch of smoke and mirrors, or false hope. People in much worse situations than mine. And they were right. Here I am. Still limping, true. Who knows where I will go?I am still living with abuse in my life, I have to admit it.<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>Narcnarcwhosthere/Confederaterebel is posting the full name and phone numbers and email addresses of administrators, and the name of the hospital corporation I work for</strong>, <strong>and encouraging people to contact them<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(YES i AM!!)</span></span></strong> and SAY they THINK I am using hospital time to post my drivel. Asking people to lie, in case they aren't SURE I am at work.<strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(N</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">OPE</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">... <span style="font-style: italic;">not </span>what i said at all... and i'll POST IT AGAIN BELOW..)<br /><br /></span></strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Deliberate attempts to cause me embarrassment and undermine the one thing that keeps me afloat in this world. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">You </span>did this to <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">YOURSELF </span>BinkStink - <span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">you </span>posted about people, forums and victims YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT - what did <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you </span>expect??? Your Narc entitlement is showing!!!)</span><br /><br />If that is how Barbara feels about her post as moderator, that my criticism was an attempt to undermine the one thing that keeps her afloat in this world, I apologize sincerely. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(spare us all)</span><br /><br />Just remember that it's not just about YOU. It's about the people who look up to you. Have some pity for their shattered selves. If you must go on and on about how "destroyed" YOU are, say also that you are speaking for yourself only. You've made your choice. Your membership may have not made theirs, yet, and it's only fair to admit that your choice is not the only one. Maybe it's the only one that made sense for YOU. But for the majority of people, it won't be their choice. The majority will want to rise above the abuse and go on to have satisfying lives. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(newsflash for the clueless bitch - no one ever said they were talking about ANYONE BUT THEMSELVES... and accusing the moderator of having no empathy for the members??? its pure projection!!! BinkStink has no empathy for anyone but BinkStink... notice how she twists the whole thing back around to poor ole' HER... doesn't that make you frightened for her patients at her job???)<br /><br /></span></span><blockquote style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:100%;" ><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">The narcissistically injured on the other hand,</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">cannot rest until she has blotted out a vaguely experienced offender who dared to oppose her, to disagree with her, or to outshine her.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">It can never find rest because it can never wipe out the evidence that has contradicted its conviction it is unique and perfect.</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">This archaic rage goes on and on and on.</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:85%;" >Group Helplessness and Rage -- Ernest S. Wolf, MD</span></blockquote><br /></div><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/boo%20hoo" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 424px;" alt="boo hoo hoo Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i31.photobucket.com/albums/c353/Talidas/lgFP1154.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">~</span> </div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><em>BOOOO HOOOOOO... </em>Nurse Hatchet can stalk people... slander them and attack them on her nasty little psycho blog... but no one had better report her INSANITY... typical Narc/Psychopath ENTITLEMENT... hey Binky... here's a news flash (only <em>news</em> to you)... YOU'RE NUTS!!!!.. you creepy little journal, filled with your creepy little thoughts brings to mind several other <em>WINGNUTS</em>..i ncluding the <span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">COLUMBINE SHOOTERS... and</span> .</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">THE PITTSBURG GYM SHOOTER...<br /><br /></span>you need to take a rest BinkStink,.. a nice long rest... or one day you're turn up in an article like THIS ONE...<br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><a href="http://www.portlandtribune.com/news/story.php?story_id=118099520999281100" target="_blank"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">http://www.portlandtribune.com/news/story.php?story_id=118099520999281100</span></a><br /><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">anyone who agrees with this, and would like to report the <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">disturbing </span>things BinkStink is posting on her <em>psycho-blog... </em>i do urge you to contact...<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span></span><em><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER in OLYMPIA WASHINGTON... 360-491-9480... ask to speak to an ADMINISTRATOR.. tell them you want to make a complaint about a nurse there... her name is Kim... she is an oncology RN... they will know exactly who you are talking about ... or... you can ask to speak to Mary Mertens, Manager Employee/Labor Relations </span><a href="mailto:Relationmary.martens@providence.org">mailto:Relationmary.martens@providence.org</a> .. <span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">or you can contact Cynthia Binkerd at </span></em></strong><a style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" href="mailto:Cynthia.Binkerd@providence.org"><em><strong>Cynthia.Binkerd@providence.org</strong></em></a><em><strong> <span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><br /><br />tell them you're sick of her insane spews... her attacks on victims of domestic violence... her stalking forums she is not a member of, or welcome at, and that you believe she is doing it on THEIR TIME CLOCK. (because she has certainly done it in the past).. be sure and mention her creepy journal.. and if you email them... be sure and send a link to any posts you find OFFENSIVE or DISTURBING on her journal... MAYBE if she has to get a job at Jack in the Box or Walmart... the crazy bitch won't have time to STALK...<br /><br />~~~~~<br /><br /></span></strong></em></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">SOMEONE is sure spending a great deal of time on this blog... if it's BinkStink, kudos on getting yourself a proxy server... verrrrrrrrrry creepy and psychoish... if it's NOT BinkStink... or if it's one of her proxies using a proxy... then you're also verrrrrrry creepy and psycho-ish... but please keep on reading... eventually when somone googles PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTERS... ol BinkStink here will pop up like a nasty cold sore!!!!</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Domain Name </span><a href="http://airwired.net/" target="_blank">airwired.net</a> <a href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=s&s=s34binkstink&r=34&vlr=89&pg=1&v=52" target="_blank">?</a> <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">(Network)<br />IP Address 216.83.138.# (Air Wired)<br />ISP Fibernet Corporation<br />Location<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Continent North America<br />Country </span><a href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=s&s=s34binkstink&v=52&country=US&vlr=89&pg=1&r=76" target="_blank"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">United States</span></a><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);"> </span><a href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=s&s=s34binkstink&v=52&country=US&vlr=89&pg=1&r=78" target="_blank"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">(Facts)</span></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">State Utah<br />City Provo<br />Lat/Long 40.2613, -111.6271 </span><a href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=s&s=s34binkstink&r=75&pg=1&vlr=89&v=52" target="_blank"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">(Map)</span></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Language English (U.S.)en-us<br />Operating System Macintosh MacOSX<br />Browser Safari 1.3Mozilla/5.0 (iPod; U; CPU iPhone OS 3_1_3 like Mac OS X; en-us) AppleWebKit/528.18 (KHTML, like Gecko) Version/4.0 Mobile/7E18 Safari/528.16<br />Javascript<br /><br />version 1.5<br />Monitor Resolution 320 x 396<br />Color Depth 32 bits<br />Time of Visit Mar 16 2010 12:33:37 am<br />Last Page View Mar 16 2010 1:06:58 am</span><br /><em><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Visit Length </span></strong></em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">33 minutes 21 seconds<br />Page Views </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">5<br />Referring URL<br />Visit Entry Page</span><br /><a title="http://binkstink.blogspot.com/2010/03/de-evolution-of-abuser-genesis-of.html?zx=" href="http://binkstink.blogspot.com/2010/03/de-evolution-of-abuser-genesis-of.html?zx=6891f8106afcb3ca" target="_blank">http://binkstink.blogspot.com/2010/03/de-evolution-of-abuser-genesis-of.html?zx=6891f8106afcb3ca</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Visit Exit Page<br /></span><a title="http://binkstink.blogspot.com/search/label/providence medical centers" href="http://binkstink.blogspot.com/search/label/providence%20medical%20centers" target="_blank">http://binkstink.blogspot.com/search/label/<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">providence%20medical%20centers</span></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Out Click </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">whambulance Pictures, Images and </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">Photos</span><a title="http://photobucket.com/images/whambulance" href="http://photobucket.com/images/whambulance" target="_blank"><span style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">http://photobucket.c...m/images/whambulance</span></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Time Zone </span><a href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=s&&s=s34binkstink&v=52&vlr=89&pg=1&r=31" target="_blank">UTC-7:00</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">Visitor's Time Mar 15 2010 11:33:37 pm</span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-13419260628958161502010-03-15T13:43:00.010-07:002011-03-08T17:32:40.758-08:00NONE SO BLIND... AS BINKSTINK<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Ole' BinkStink just can't help herself... despite me telling her NUMEROUS times to stay off my blogs... that if she didn't I was going to call her employer for using work computers to come here... she can't stop herself... she's a Narc who thinks the rules don't apply to her... she can't get that I wouldn't give a shit about her if she wasn't bashing me, bashing my friends and bashing abused women she doesn't even know...</span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/shut%20up%20%20%20duck" target="_blank"><img alt="shut the duck up Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i53.photobucket.com/albums/g75/auttieb/shut-the-duck-up1.gif" border="0" /></a><br /></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">...she can't give it a rest ...because like all Narcs she <span style="font-style: italic;">HAS </span>to be right and she <span style="font-style: italic;">HAS </span>to have the last word... </span><br /><br /><a style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12921.html">she had to get in more kicks at ALL ABOUT HIM where I am a member... she's attacked the owner of the board</a><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> - who didn't even know about BinkStink but is now fully aware who and what BinkStink is... and no, BinkStink... no one told this person -- all she had to do was read your insipid blog...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink is so mercenary that </span><a style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12921.html">she honestly thinks Barbara is getting paid to moderate ALL ABOUT HIM as a full-time job</a><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... once again showing how fucking clueless she is about 'gubbermint benefits'... Barbara is permanently and painfully disabled... she can't have a full time job because she can't work... what she gets per week to offset costs at ALL ABOUT HIM is less than the price of a bag of dogfood and that's it... she hasn't even asked for more because that's who she is... and she's not begging for money like you did on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>... no one could support herself and her children on that kind of money... and she's barely making it on disability bitch... as you so arrogantly pointed out that she's <span style="font-style: italic;">'bound to her abuser'</span> monetarily in one of your last spews... knock knock... the abuser in question is the father of her children - so who's the "bound" one here??? altruism doesn't compute with a psychopath... BinkStink always knows the price of everything and the value of NOTHING!!!<br /></span><div><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote><div><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I'm sad to see that she has frightened her membership with stories of an evil TROLL. Wrong.</span></a></div><div><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Psychopaths are not run-of-the-mill trouble makers. They are devastating. They are not running amok in our society, they are few and far between.</span></a></div><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">If that is how Barbara feels about her post as moderator, that my criticism was an attempt to undermine the one thing that keeps her afloat in this world, I apologize sincerely.</span></a></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">LOL!!! Frightened? More like disgusted... the members saw through her & called her a psychopath and a jealous narc... she knows nothing about how anyone feels or thinks... she only spews this shit to try to play martyr and make others look bad... she can't stand it when someone shines any light on her bullshit!!.. btw bitch - new studies show 1 in 4 people to be psychopathic... just read Dr. Hare or Dr. Babiak or POLITICAL PONEROLOGY... of course Bink doesn't want anyone to realize SHE'S one of the 'running amok'... she'd rather minimize psychopathic abuse along with her own!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink <span style="font-style: italic;">herself </span>is bound... with her obsession to get her abusive Narc ass onto <a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a>... she vacillates between love and hate for them... the board that won't have her... since losing her admin position and being banned from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>she just can't move on... her hero Sam V. has at least 2 or more boards, people like Patricia Evans have boards... but no... sorry, pathetic BinkStink can't let it go... she stalks <a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a> giving advice to members who don't even know who she is from her pitiful little blog... and needles her buddies who are on Our Place to PLEEEAAAASSSSEEE put in a 'good word' for her so she can get in... she can't even get herself a new identity and tone down the abusiveness long enough to sneak back in.... noooooo.... her Narcissistic injury won't allow it... BinkStink must conquer... BinkStink must reign supreme... she can't imagine that anyone like myself would be readily accepted on another board with a beloved moderator who was also banned from <a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a>, too (for telling the TRUTH, mind you...)... and yet BinkStink's banned everywhere she goes...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> BEFORE </span>she even attempts to sign up!!!!<br /><br />tell us BinkStink... what happened to all the money from the "paid for cash" little bungalow you and ATM had up in them thar' hills??? <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">how come you were whining to all your Catbox sisters about being broke and possibly butchering your pets then??? </span></span><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l195/mhead46/AttentionWhore.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 300px; cursor: pointer; height: 215px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l195/mhead46/AttentionWhore.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">of course BinkStink develops typical Narc amnesia about <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">the money she conned from members back when she was on the </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>... in her mind somehow she's justified that by attacking this moderator... twisted psychopath thinking...<br /><br />and she just 'can't get' how taking their money and running away in her WHHAAAMMMMBUUUULANCE and then turning-around and making fun of those same victims behind their backs with her asshole-buddy GoonGoddess was <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">wrong</span>... she '<span style="font-style: italic;">just can't see it</span>'.... so she still tries to ass-kiss the<a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"> Our Place</a> gang by saying she learned healing 'AT THEIR KNEES' while backstabbing them for permanently banning her pathological ass from there too... whatever tack a Narc thinks will work - they'll do... they just keep hoping no one sees they change direction every minute to get the maximum benefit from their spews...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">no... BinkStink can't understand how any one could be altruistic enough to work a full-time job... yet write a book that made next to no money... and pay out professional webmasters to design and maintain a forum just for victims of Narcissists because this person knows what being a victim is... that's what kind of good-hearted person Lisa E. Scott is... but BinkStink can't possibly wrap her puny Narc brain about caring about the welfare of other victims... BinkStink even tries to parse what she thinks is Lisa's mission statement by saying Barbara is in <span style="font-style: italic;">violation </span>of it... jealousy is an ugly thing BinkStink... and you're a nasty, transparent, irrevelant piece of chicken dung...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Bink also can't wrap her head around a disabled woman with kids who... because of her commitment to getting information out to other victims... moderates a board and runs a successful<a href="http://abusesanctuary.blogspot.com/"> FREE blog that's gotten close to 1 MILLION HITS </a>since it's inception... <span style="font-style: italic;">only </span>because she wants to help others who have gone through what she went through her whole life... for FREE... no <a href="http://bink-stink.livejournal.com/">BinkStink has to give some phony apology about being so 'sorry' for trying to get Barbara fired from what she WRONGLY ASSUMED was Barbara's <span style="font-style: italic;">job</span> at ALL ABOUT HIM</a>... simply because this petty bitch can't deal with the fact that I narc'd her out to Providence Medical Center... Narcs can't understand doing something because you care and for free... so <a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">she apologizes yet leaves all the other hateful spew</a> up...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">...she can't get her head around that fact that neither Barbara or I really have anything to loose... oh yeah, almost forgot.... BinkStink - the long-distance-diagnostician - says Barbara's children (that she's never met and doesn't even know) have lots of '<span style="font-style: italic;">emotional problems</span>'... that's really depraved BinkStink... at least stick to the 5th grade bully tactics without attacking someone's children... or pets, in my case... but that's the Psychopath for you... anything and anyone is fair game... no remorse, no conscience...</span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/whambulance" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 223px;" alt="whambulance Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i94.photobucket.com/albums/l92/billbink/ambulance.png" border="0" /></a><br /></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><br />...</span><a style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/13186.html">she goes so far as to ASSUME that we are shoving our '<span style="font-style: italic;">no hope</span>' understanding of our PERSONAL SITUATIONS down the throats of other victims... she can't understand that there are people out there that don't PROJECT their own<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;"> sick hopey-codependent-you're a volunteer-you made the choice to be with an abuser brand of victim blaming and shaming</span> on everyone</a><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... to the point that this Psychopath BinkStink thinks nothing of <a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/11313.html">pushing a self-harmer over the edge to possibly self-harm permanently by implying the poor girl is just "looking for attention</a>"...<br /><br />poor BinkStink wants to '<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">gargle with Percocet</span>' because someone speaks truth about <span style="font-style: italic;">their </span>reality... do you dole out that <span style="font-style: italic;">looking for attention</span> crap to your cancer patients at Providence, BinkStink??? (and for goodness sake stop teasing us and just do it)...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">every time she sits down to blog... BinkStink reveals more of the nature of the Female Psychopath... the predator so in love with her own 'voice' she doesn't care who she hurts... or how many 'facts' she gets wrong... as long as BinkStink gets attention!!!! the Psycho-Drug of choice: ATTENTION!!!</span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/shut%20up%20%20%20duck" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 243px;" alt="I Said Shut UP!! Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i201.photobucket.com/albums/aa317/lordnegaduck/My%20Darkwing%20Duck%20Animation%20Cels/Negaduck%20Screen%20Grabs/NegaduckShuttingUpDarkwing.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><br />BinkStink... you're gonna get loads and loads of attention until you <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">shut up and sit down and stop abusing the abused</span>... I hear that</span><a style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://www2.timesdispatch.com/rtd/news/state_regional/article/TECHGAT191_20090819-135002/286971/"> Cho from Virginia Tech</a><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> and the </span><a style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2006/07/06/national/main1781427.shtml">psychos from Columbine</a><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> had wacked out online journals just like you bitch!!!!</span>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-69374331133851942012010-03-14T17:30:00.011-07:002011-03-08T17:32:20.743-08:00BINKSTINK CONTINUES TO TRY TO SMEAR MY FRIENDS... UPDATED!!. SOMEONE SHUT THIS BITCH UP!!.. ANYONE GOT A TRANQUILIZER GUN???<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=shuttheduckup.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/shuttheduckup.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center">```</div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">geez... this nasty creepy bitch just can't give it up!!. didn't she just say something recently... that pertains to her behavior <a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">here</a>?... oh yeah... her own words from her <a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">MEAN PEOPLE SUCK</a> post...</span></strong></span></div><br /><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>I don't want to sound like I merely point fingers and take other people's inventories. I am in many ways a person to not be proud of. I have embarrassing shortcomings too. <strong>I am just not a mean person</strong>. I would not relish the thought someone is hurting and scared because of something I did. No matter WHAT they did to me, much less lose their job,<strong> reputation amongst their community, because I was vengeful.<br /><br />I</strong> see a moral difference between challenging a person's words or behavior, <strong>and telling lies </strong>so they might lose their job, rather an obvious point to most folks.<strong>Reputations</strong>, jobs and positions <strong>are dear</strong> and most adults have them. They are earned over time, by hard work and trustworthy behavior. They are built over years, very carefully. They're worth the effort.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i mean.. come on... it's obvious this woman is</span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> INSANE</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... let's just lay it on the line... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">this bitch needs to be a </span></span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">patient</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> in a mental hospital... instead of working as a nurse!!!</span><br /><br />this whack job has been attacking me and stalking me for a long time... and now... now that the only thing she's gotten for her trouble is made fun of BY HER and REPORTED to her employer... she's gone completely stark raving!!!<br /><br />now this sicko is attacking my friends and fellow forum members... and </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">reviewing </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">a forum that she is not part of... a forum that doesn't WANT her... wouldn't HAVE her!!. she was thrown off the </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Catbox</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> for stalking and slandering members... she is not allowed on </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Our Place </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">because she conned a bunch of money off those women, and stabbed them in the back... and they </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">hate her guts</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">...she knows this... and i know this.... </span><br /><br /></span></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>she's already had to remove posts from her crappy little journal for copyright infringement... .but she's a defiant, nasty little NARC...and she never learns her lesson..<br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">now she has sunk so nasty and low that she is attacking someone else she doesn't even know</span>... Barbara... the moderator from All About Him... last night someone posted this to her... <span style="font-style: italic;">'You need to get a life. And some psychiatric help'</span>... AMEN!!.<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><em>AMEN</em>!!. but of course she <em>removed</em> it... because it hit a little too close to home.. and now... now the crazy bitch is at it again... with this spew...<br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Allabouthim.com, further thoughts</span><a style="display: none;" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12921.html" rel="bookmark"></a><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /></span><br /><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">bink_think</a><br />March 14th, 13:26<br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I did get two comments last night (on the review of allabouthim.com), from the same user by the name of "abusesucks", which were (as always) sent to my email account as well as the LJ post. The appeared in their entirely in the email, but were deleted from the comment section of the post and the account "abusesucks" had been suspended sometime after the comments were sent. Could my complaint to LJ have been answered? The THIRTEEN user accounts Mary set up to continue her harassment must have made an impression on them. Except, "abusesucks" was NOT Mary, at least I don't think so, wrong style. And I don't think it was Lisa Scott. :P</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br />Listen: I enjoy a good debate. I am ashamed to admit I listen to a lot of talk radio. I have a long commute, OK? And I enjoy the deft use of logic and evidential data in defense (or opposition) of ideas. <span style="font-weight: bold;">I have never once resorted to name calling or personal insults during debates on my journal. </span></span></div></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">HOLD ON HERE..TIME OUT!!.. we're gonna clear THIS up right now!!.. like a classic schoolyard bully ALL she does is launch personal insults and name call... for example...</span> <blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you don't WANT a hand up, you want a hand out. And who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious, insulting bitch as yourself? NO ONE.</blockquote><blockquote><div style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">this bitch is INSANE... I NEVER asked for a handout... she's spewing this crap, when all anyone has to do is look at her own posts!!....any of these will do...<br /></div><strong></strong><br /><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/2009/12/17/">http://bink-think.livejournal.com/2009/12/17/</a> <div align="left"><br /></div><div align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>this crazed PSYCHOTIC NARC is trying to rewrite history as she's writing it!!. TURBONARC! i love how <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">she calls her insane rabid attacks DEBATES</span>... .i believe Ted Bundy called his victims, <em>DATES...<br /></em></strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I worked Mary over as hard as I've done because I lowered myself, was brought low too, by the endless taunting, name calling and personal attacks. They got to me after a while. I asked her if she had a flea problem or if her pets were starving, considering the sheer number of them and the two hundred dollars per month she claims to have as her only income (she's admitted she sells "collectibles" and "antiques", as well as having no income). It was an honest question. Food stamps do not buy dog food, flea protection, oral hygiene or veterinary care, and per her own words, she has never asked a soul to help her provide for them. I was both ANGRY that she had so many animals she ostensibly could not care for AND convinced if she DID have all those critters, she DID have the money to care for them and why not admit it?<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Regarding my review of Allabouthim.com , I read the articles and the book reviews Lisa E. Scott (a pseudonym for her protenction) has written. Another woman escaped from abuse, telling her story, and giving back.<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Encouraging a return to health, yes? If her forum is not her concern, that is one thing. Dr Irene allowed Trubble's Catbox to go on for years without direct intervention in the way it was run by her old admin team. The situations could be vastly different, in that from my direct experience of Trubble's Catbox as an admin, Dr Irene's reason for "taking over" was because the old admin team let things get out of hand. This was her excuse for what happened to HER, but does not reflect the reality of what did happen. A bunch of relatively progressed abuse survivors (I was not included at the time, unfortunately) called her on her mindfucking tactics, to cover up her own mistake. This she interpreted as "out of control" bitchery, and thus the Catbox Implosion and Exodus to Our Place.<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Perhaps Lisa Scott has become busy with her life post abuse, promoting her books, and left the forum unsupervised? Maybe the forum is the least important of her priorities at this time, which makes sense considering. It was Dr Irene's least priority for years, until she discovered abuse survivors are not cowed by her Ph.D. or vulnerable and mindfuckable. And that a few took it upon themselves to sully her good name.<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Anyway . . . for future reference: If you don't agree with what I am saying, PLEASE use adult language, without resorting to "pee pee poo poo" personal insults. USE YOUR WORDS, as I used to tell my daughter when she was three or so. SHOW ME how I am wrong. I might be profoundly wrong. I'd prefer to know that than go along thinking I'm right and find out I'm not. This isn't about ME, it's about ideas and whether or not another abuse forum is following the board owner's mission statement. In my estimation, Allabouthim.com's forum moderator is not. This isn't about a person's WORTH and VALUE as a human being, so lets not resort to insulting my worth and value. It doesn't effect ME, it says everything about the person calling names.<br /><br />And if that person, "abusesucks" is who I think it is . . . </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">that is a shame. A terrible shame.</span></div></blockquote><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.cartoonstock.com/newscartoons/cartoonists/jdi/lowres/jdin273l.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 300px; cursor: pointer; height: 285px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://www.cartoonstock.com/newscartoons/cartoonists/jdi/lowres/jdin273l.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div align="left"></div><br /><div align="left"><a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help"></a></div><div align="left"><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">this nut case is not a member on All About Him... so why her interest?... why doesn't this wingnut start writing reviews about something she probably KNOWS about... like SERENITY PADS... or how to get a good fit in a straightjacket???? </span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Bink, you sick piece of shit... you're no better than a 5th grade bully... i'm not gonna beat around the bush... not going to mince words here... </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://www.vainencounters.com/">All About Him</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">, BinkStink, is all about getting away from wingnuts like YOU... YOU'RE not welcome there... the members there made it very clear what they think of you... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">go over and suck Vaknin's psychopath ass... or his front....or whatever he'll let you suck... or go 'gargle a bottle of Percocet'.. or TWO bottles, if you can steal that many from the hospital... the women and men of Vain Encounters KNOW about NARCS... so your shit ain't gonna play there... in fact, quite the opposite...</span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">read it and weep, BinkStink....</span><a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help"><br /></a></strong><blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help"><strong></strong></a></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help"><strong></strong></a></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help"><strong></strong></a></div><div align="left"><a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help">http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/03/13/members-we-need-your-help</a></div></blockquote><br /></div></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); text-align: left;"></div><div align="center"><div style="text-align: left;"><strong style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">anyone reading this... </strong><strong style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">who is as sick of this twisted piece of skank as i am <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">should contact her EMPLOYER... PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER in OLYMPIA WASHINGTON... . 360-491-9480... ask to speak to an ADMINISTRATOR.. tell them you want to make a </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">complaint</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> about a nurse there... her name is Kim... she is an oncology RN... they will know who you are talking about ...<br /><br />or.. you can ask to speak to Mary Mertens, Manager Employee/Labor Relations... or you can contact Cynthia Binkerd at </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" href="mailto:Cynthia.Binkerd@providence.org">Cynthia.Binkerd@providence.org</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> tell them you're sick of her insane spews... her attacks on victims of domestic violence... her stalking forums she is not a member of, or welcome at, and that you believe she is doing it on THEIR TIME CLOCK...<br /><br />be sure and mention her creepy journal.. and if you email Cynthia Binkerd... be sure and send her a</span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> link</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> to posts you find OFFENSIVE or DISTURBING on her journal.</span>.. MAYBE if she has to get a job at Jack in the Box...the crazy bitch won't have time to STALK...<br /><a href="http://abcnews.go.com/US/story?id=8255530&page=1"><br />Anyone remember the Pittsburgh Gym Shooter?</a>... another one who kept a really insane online journal - that no one reported... and if we don't start reporting wacknuts like ole' Bink... who knows what could happen!!!<br /></strong><strong></strong></div><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="center"><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">As we all know... mud sticks best to a clean spot... so since BinkStink the abusive Narc, couldn't make headway with me... she now turns to my friend - Barbara, moderator at </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><a href="http://www.vainencounters.com/">ALL ABOUT HIM</a>...</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">in a pathetic attempt to hurt me and get attention for herself... here's her latest spew full of mistatements, ASSUMPTIONS and Narc sarcasm... <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(my invective in purple)</span><br /></span></strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">:All About Him: A Review</span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">bink_think</a><br /><strong>March 12th, 21:00</strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(probably posted from PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER, from the looks of the TIME...we'll soon know...and we will report what we find out)</span><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiypZYJxy3fc8_O1Ptu-ojkmwfbNaJnH9bT8CaPZuJSkypAw-kpAd8eNQbYNyoK-saU6ZgjZTpA7lu7PcCIYnALyBiqSAii66u1qmrgjIrKCsQHSUHxVZOh0UDXckKxaI1OOxFr2r2P-ZQ/s400/crazy+nurse.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 301px; cursor: pointer; height: 228px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiypZYJxy3fc8_O1Ptu-ojkmwfbNaJnH9bT8CaPZuJSkypAw-kpAd8eNQbYNyoK-saU6ZgjZTpA7lu7PcCIYnALyBiqSAii66u1qmrgjIrKCsQHSUHxVZOh0UDXckKxaI1OOxFr2r2P-ZQ/s400/crazy+nurse.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">From the welcome page for Lisa E. Scott's website allabouthim.com . <blockquote style="font-style: italic;">You cannot change a narcissist, but you can take steps to make changes in your life that will make you happier. I believe that is our goal... to accept what we cannot change and change what we can. We have the ability to grow and evolve, which is a beautiful thing. We are responsible for the choices we make in life and we can choose to be happy or we can choose to remain a victim. I choose to be happy and I hope you will join me in my journey.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">There is a forum on Scott's website for victims of narcissists to share their stories and receive hope and support. It has a modest <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(she wishes!!! modest... typical Narc rewriting facts)</span> membership as yet, being only about a year old.<br /><br />There are tens or maybe hundreds of public and private forums for victims of domestic violence or partners with personality disorders (which amount to about the same thing). I've searched high and low on the net over the last three years, and after joining many of them, ended up spending most of my time on Trubble's Catbox. It was a community that was going strong seven years after it's inception. The membership, almost to the person, is now at Our Place as of a year and a half ago, and in my estimation, has a number of true veterans of domestic violence and the years of healing afterward. Many of the true veterans are on the admin team, some of whom have held the position for the last ten years. Many more are just members, still active years past the grueling end of their abusive relationships. There is real clarity and healing going on over there. There is leading by example. And this is what I see NOT happening on Lisa Scott's forum. Well, at least if you want to lead by HEALTHY example. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(and we all know what she 'sees' is DELUSIONS!!! and are we taking this depraved person's definition of HEALTHY now??? LOL!!!)</span><br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I'm not clear as to how involved Scott is with her forum. She has a single moderator, "Barbara", who participates regularly and posts a wealth of articles and resources to specific issues that the membership brings up. I recognized "Barbara" almost immediately. I knew her as Shattered4Good on Trubble's Catbox. She was a dedicated link poster then, too. She sometimes linked four or five articles per day.<br /><br />I was not privy to exactly what happened to cause Shattered4Good to be banned from the Catbox. It had something to do with her linking. The Catbox admins created a dedicated forum for articles and links and helpful books, and asked Shattered4Good to post her material there. Soon thereafter, she was banned. It happened when I left Idaho, I didn't have a computer and lost contact for a few days. "Barbara" was also a member of The Next Right Choice, a spin-off forum of Trubble's Catbox, in the immediate aftermath of the Catbox Implosion of 2008. She was one of many who re-emerged to cast their opinions while the Catbox fell apart, and the membership made their exodus to Our Place. She was eventually banned from TNRC as well, though again I was not privvy to exactly why.<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">What I do know of "Barbara" is that she lives with her two children and her (ex?) husband in a separated dwelling, and is dependent upon him for her living expenses. She is disabled by a number of chronic health conditions and is unable to work. This leaves her in a kind of bondage to her abuser, which she recounts many tales of. Her children suffer various emotional problems as well.<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> <span style="font-style: italic;">(They do??.. this is really SICK and LOW!!! even for BinkStink... diagnosing someone's children that you don't even know!!!!)</span></span> All of this information has been shared by "Barbara" on all forums she's been a member of, so this is definitely not insider information, but public knowledge. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(on ALL forums??? or is BinkStink rewriting and skewing history like all Narcs!!!)</span><br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">What concerns me is that between "Barbara's" written feedback to the membership of Allabouthim.com and Lisa Scott's mission is a loud discrepancy. It appears so great, to me, that I wonder if Lisa Scott reads the forum content at all. Or if she does, she doesn't know quite what to do with "Barbara".<br /><br />The Catbox Implosion occurred when Dr Irene Matiatos, after several years of allowing her admins to run the show, decided she didn't like the direction the ship was going, and took the wheel. It turns out Dr Irene and her admin team had very different ideas about what was "good" for abuse survivors. The difference could be much better described by the ex-Catbox admins (now at Our Place, along with the entire ex-Catbox community), but to a member with a short stint as an admin working directly with Irene, the difference was more about the aftermath of a stupid mistake on Irene's part and her doomed attempts to save face afterward, than anything philosophical. Between the sole moderator "Barbara" and the mission of Allabouthim.com, the difference appears indeed to be philosophical, in the extreme.<br /><br />Here is her reply to an AAH member who is expressing despair and hopelessness in the aftermath of a relationship with an abuser:<br /><br /></span></div><div align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-style: italic;" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-style: italic;">Fri, 03/12/2010 - 21:32 — Barbara I have to back up my buddy narcnarc here. While I can appreciate you all trying to bolster her... people like her and I are WAAAAY beyond 'hope' and 'getting out' and having 'fun.' Fun to me is a good night's sleep on pain killers, when I am able to take them... some party, huh?</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-style: italic;">narcnarc, for instance, has complex PTSD. She and her pets would be homeless if someone didn't donate a house to her. A house WITHOUT heat... but it's something. She has NO INCOME other than food stamps. Food pantries won't deal with her because she 'can't show proof of income' (I know, WTF! huh?) She probably has fibromyalgia but the hospital won't see her (no medicaid) and no doctor will see her for free.Like her I have complex PTSD. I am severely disabled so a shelter would never take me. Besides I would never leave my kids. I am morbidly obese from drugs & surgeries though people treat me like I am "just fat." If exNH didn't pay my rent, utilities and insurance I'd be in narcnarc's position.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-style: italic;">We don't want to go out. We look like hell, feel like hell and we are tired of people telling us to "have hope." We have accepted what IS. That's one of the reasons I am working on getting a coaching certification. The positive affirmation/ self-talk thing gets pretty tired when you've dealt with a serious psychopath (or 3 in my case)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-style: italic;">I don't date and I never will again. I get it narcnarc - why afflict someone as PTSD destroyed as us? We don't like it and we are smart enough to know others won't either. The old "her" is gone for me. I'd be ridiculous to even imagine I could get "her" back - she died a long time ago - a horrible agonizing death.the only person who know who I USED TO BE left - was Psycho-Boy!! and look what happened!she's done... all I can do is make sure no one else goes thru the same things I have.</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br />Good grief, now *I* feel like gargling a bottle of Percocet and going to bed forever</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(Stop punking us bitch, and </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">DO IT!</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">)</span></span></strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /><br />This woman is a MODERATOR? A "leader", a wise woman, for a group of people hoping for a decent life after years with an abusive narcissist? What is she trying to tell them? That she herself is hopeless and so is her "buddy" and DON'T YOU DARE SUGGEST OTHERWISE. <span style="font-weight: bold;">No words of support, or any empathy for that matter, for the members who've begun to open up and risk sharing their shame and pain. God forbid they HOPE for a better life, this "destroyed" woman will set them straight! <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(where the FUCK did anyone but you BinkStink apply this logic to ALL the members... NO ONE... once again, you are assuming things that never happened!!! only in your delusional little Narc brain...)</span></span><br /><br />You know, whatever. "Barbara" has the perfect right to be the way she is.<br /><br />But is she "moderator material" for a group of very vulnerable individuals recovering from abuse and violence?As damaged and hurt as we are by our abusive scenarios, we are not made STUPID by them. And that is why most of them, anyway, will steer clear of this forum.<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> (omg... now she's implying this moderator is damaging the forums members because she admits SHE HERSELF IS DAMAGED... do the math and apply her own logic: ...can you IMAGINE how this NURSE then treats her own patients???)</span><br /><br />Lisa Scott! Pay attention to what's going on on YOUR website. Pay attention to your good name and reputation, which is good enough with your written work and public appearances. Take another look at this forum and ask yourself if "Barbara" is your idea of a guide for people you hope to give a leg up to?</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong><br />This is a clear sign of BinkStink's desperation, taking things out of context and delusions... what kind of person abuses your friends when they you expose them for who & what they really are??? a PSYCHOPATH... also a clear sign of her need to be 'relevant'... before she removes it or sends her abuser proxies over... like she did with a bunch of her other smear & slander - <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you can read and respond here:</span></strong></span><br /><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12785.html">http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12785.html</a></div></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-60648278959473540442010-03-14T03:52:00.006-07:002011-03-08T17:31:19.086-08:00BINKSTINK'S TRUBBLES... ON THE JOB WITH FLORENCE NIGHTINHELL<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=eb26.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/eb26.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"><strong>~~~~</strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">poooor BinkStink...she's in a </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">bit of trouble</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> at work... which is </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Providence Medical Center in Olympia Washington.</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. here she is employed as a nurse!.. yes... this wretched abusive monster is a <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">NURSE</span>!.. she is in a bit of trouble at work -- she CLAIMS <span style="font-style: italic;">because of m</span>e...<span style="font-style: italic;"> but the reason she is in trouble at work is because SHE was using THEIR computers for hours on end....to stalk my blog.....and God only knows who else... she was spending many hours a night reading and rereading posts on my blog... and viewing my profile over and over and over</span>... i was tired of her nasty comments to me... i've been tired of BinkStink for years... she began her spews against me way back on the</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Catbox...<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and the vicious bitch continues to this day... i asked her to knock it off... and told her i had the IP logs showing she was spending hours at work on my blog... she told me to 'piss off' and that there was nothing i could do about it.. so i dropped a dime on her to Providence Medical Centers...</span><br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and even though i am a '</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">crazy whack job</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">', according to the </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">professional diagnostician </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Nurse BinkStink, the hospital was quite concerned...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">especially about her betraying patient confidentiality, gossiping about her patients online... and about her vicious attack and slander of another nurse there.. one whose dying baby she was gloating about... and accusing of abusing patients...</span><br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">as always... my 'invective' will appear in </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">PURPLE</span>..<br /></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">............</span></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>The mother of this child is a nurse I work with several times a week. In the last year I have worked with her, I have grown to pretty much loathe her. She is very abusive, the kind of person I keep at arm's length and force myself to be polite and friendly with. The kind of person who I see sitting HERE and go OVER THERE so as not to sit near her and get her focused upon me. If she spent that time complaining just doing her JOB she wouldn't have to throw a temper tantrum at the end of the shift because she has to stay late to chart, or brow beat the charge nurse into giving her overtime for not taking her breaks.She will blatantly lie to the director of nursing while you are standing there aghast. And then tell you "I love you so much!!!" while you writhe in disgust and fear of what she is going to do next. I don't ask her for help with my bedbound patients <strong>because she is rough with them</strong>.</blockquote></span></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>we who have been victims of Narcissists and Psychopaths all know about one of their favorite </strong><strong>tricks... PROJECTION... a pathological will accuse others of thinking what they are thinking... and doing what <em>they</em> are doing... knowing BinkStink's propensity for <em>HIPPODROME PROJECTION</em> :) i felt that it was probably <em>her</em> who was doing the things she was accusing this </strong><strong>other nurse of... and i knew for a fact that Nurse BinkStink was certainly being derelict in her duties... because she was spending <em>hours on end</em> reading my blog (it was all clocked on my stats meter)...<br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and even though, according to Nurse Binkstink, who has somewhere between 14 and 19 years experience as a PSYCH nurse, depending on her mental state and the forum she is spewing on, i am </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">' a gnashing crazy woman', </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">it appears my complaint was heeded... and Nurse BinkStink was called to task... she was shocked... because ALL Narcs and Psychopaths are </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">oblivious</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> to consequences from their actions... and all feel </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">entitled </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">to abuse others... and when the hammer falls... they are </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">always</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> the VICTIM... so Nurse BinkStink received great Narcissist injury from my well founded complaint... you'll soon see HOW well founded... and is now in a full blown Narcissistic rage.... booooooo hooooooo... someone call Nurse Binkstink a whaaaaambulance... preferably one from a </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">psych</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> hospital...</span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>~</strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=livepencil_ambulance.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/livepencil_ambulance.gif" border="0" /></a></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);">.</span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I would not relish the thought someone is hurting and scared because of something I did. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(and i thought Psychopaths had no sense of IRONY!)</strong></span> No matter WHAT they did to me, much less lose their job, reputation amongst their community, because I was vengeful. I will chide people or confront them in the right context.<strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(minimizing her abuse of others..the <em>context</em> being when she can <em>get away</em> with it..:)...)</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>Like, when they ask for it</strong> or in consensual debate<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(all abusers say the victim ASKED for it, don't they)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>I see a moral difference between challenging a person's words or behavior, and telling lies so they might lose their job, rather an obvious point to most folks.Reputations, jobs and positions are dear and most adults have them. They are earned over time, by hard work and trustworthy behavior. They are built over years, very carefully. They're worth the effort.Someone has, with unusual grandiosity for an adult, appointed themselves to make mischief with my job. Someone with a lot of time on their hands. Someone without a job or credibility of their own to occupy their time, apparently.Case in point: A person, whom I shall not name but should be obvious, turned her bitter sights to attempt to get me in some sort of "trouble" at my place of work. Not that it is possible to do with her "methods", which were to send enough emails to amount to fifty printed pages to the corporate office, complaining that I was spending HOURS stalking her online from my workplace. She hammered the recipients with stats from her blog's site meter, and interjected them with her trademark . . . well, ravings<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(sent them the FACTS, bitch...just the FACTS)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>Apparently, someone from the IS department took a couple of hours and perused her blog themselves, using some tools only IS people (computer geeks that they are) know how to use. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(it was HER...i ASKED... her employer confirmed)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"> </span>Don't worry, dear, this is what HAPPENS when you make false statements to a really large corporation who then worries you might be a security risk.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(<strong><em>WORRY</em>, DEAR...THIS is what happens when you use a corporations computers to stalk blogs instead of empty bedpans)</strong></span> . She was concerned this person has gone to great lengths to discover my name and place of work, may even know where I live and perhaps be dangerous<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(yeah..i bet they've got armed guards surrounding the building..worried sick of this loser bitch )</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>Like I said, my judgment was impaired and I blew it. I still wasn't sure she wasn't just jousting with me<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (guess that's been cleared up ) </span></strong></span>I am a sucker for jousting. I should know that mentally ill people are concrete thinkers. I should have completely ignored her a LONG time ago, when everyone else started ignoring her too.That is what we are taught to do with "abusive", i.e., mean people. Playing games with them, unless you are a mean person yourself, is a sure way to get yourself in an unhappy situation. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(yes it is)</strong></span> . . she tried to get me in "trouble" at work. My job is the singular thing that provides me with . . . everything. I went to school for five years and spent 40K on the education to get it. I've spent the last almost 19 years of my life "being" a nurse<strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (now it's 19 ..you'll see this number change frequently)</span> </span></strong>It is a sacrifice, and a gift, to be a nurse. Jobs are dear nowadays, in this economy. Even nursing jobs.A year and a half ago, I went through Hell to get back on my feet, a lot of terrific fear, a complete change of venue (I used to be a psych nurse and retrained for this job). I had to become a novice again, after several years of being at the "top" of my field. I'd lost my confidence entirely, thanks to subjecting myself to a very bad man. So it is, for me, a particularly low blow, to have a <strong>gnashing crazy woman</strong> hate that I disagree with her and then proceed to try and take me down where it matters. Which she can't do, but it's the THOUGHT, you know? It's her intention. It would bring her great satisfaction to know she brought me down. See, what I did, was much more than call bullshit and confront her about the inconsistencies and evasions in her "story". <strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(we're about to see Nurse BinkStink confronted with some more inconsistencies in HER story)</span>From what I know about personality disorders, a person WITH one is a person with a hazy, indistinct sense of self</strong>. It<strong> is easily threatened, and viciously defended</strong>. An insult is life or death. They are both grandiose and so insignificant to themselves. <strong>This is the mechanism that drives them to crush others who disagree with or reject them.</strong> They cannot just walk away and say "whatEVER<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>!!" (nope...BinkStink would not just walk away)</strong></span> <strong>The sense they do have is so fragile a breeze would dislodge it.</strong></span></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);"></span></strong></div></blockquote><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">this is </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">typical...</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> during that entire spew she never once mentioned</span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> h<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">er</span></em> </span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">wrongdoing... it wasn't </span><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">me </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">sitting around in a hospital, working as a nurse and making, to quote BinkStink 'big bucks' while using their computers to read blogs all night long!... that was HER... in her OWN WORDS!!!</span><br /></span></strong></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>...was tantamount in her mind to justify fucking with my sole means of support. For my daughter, grandson, son, and animals, NOT just me.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">boy... for someone who shoves </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">personal responsiblity</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> down the throats of anyone she gets near... she sure isn't too fond of taking it herself!!.. i'd say it was HER fucking with her sole means of support... i didn't make her sit around using Providence Medical Center's computers all night long to read my blog... she CHOSE to do it...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and we all know from the 'feature presentation' expose' how BinkStink just </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">despises </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">the unemployed... so why is she the 'sole support' of her </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">adult</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> daughter and son?... and a grandchild?... you'd think she pound THEM with some of that 'tough love' she was beating </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">me</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> with!!. tell them to get off their 'lazy asses' and get a job at Jack in the Box!!. what's up with </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">THAT</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">, BinkStink???.. boooooo hoooooo...</span><br /></strong></span><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink... there's a problem.. i believe this is not the first time you've had some 'trouble' at your place of work!!.. or even the SECOND time... let's put on our bulletproof vests, grab our xenon flashlights and try to shine some light onto the TRUTH that is hidden deep in that dark bad neighborhood that is BinkStink's mind...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=flashlight.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/flashlight.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center">``</p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>here we go!!.. think i found something!!. </strong></p><blockquote><p align="left"><strong><br /></strong></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=64387">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=64387</a></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 01 November 2008 - 05:15 PM </span></p><p align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I don't think being a life long abused person gives me a corner on the market of defensiveness, or self flagellation when it comes to being <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>"corrected".</strong></span>Most people really dislike it, and there might be a few Zen masters out there with the ability to gracefully accept criticism, and deal with it effectively.<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Last night</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">(and the night before, apparently <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">uh oh)</span></span></strong> </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Admittedly, <strong>I was blazing with ignorance </strong>and it was my first time doing it . . . but that's not the point. That kind of "excuse" is offensive, when it comes to carrying out treatment orders on your patients. You do it right the first time, period. Room for errors? None</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"> Do we understand and even expect, to a certain degree, some error? Oh yes. . . but do we admit it? Hell no :lol: !!</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">So anyway, when the night shift nurse comes to me and points out this error to me, I am horrified and am subject to watching an entire team of nursing staff stand around and say "Now what should we do?" Interspersed in the general air of "Uh oh!!" were the carefully worded questions asking me if my brain was switched on, or off, or if I graduated from nursing school.</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"> Ugh. You know, that's just the way things work and are,</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>I've been a nurse for 17 years<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(it is soooooooo hard to keep up with how many years she's been a nurse)</span></strong> and this is the way nurses talk to each other. At least they questioned my competency politely :lol: <strong>Eyes bulging</strong>, and trying really hard not to <strong>yell </strong>(or cry), I listened to what I SHOULD have done, and what I did wrong, in all it's glory. <strong>By the skin of my teeth, I only made vague excuses :X that just came out and that I didn't really believe anyway<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">,(soooo Narc...to just SPEW inane lies and excuses when confronted)</span> </span></strong>and I didn't cry or yell and pretty much kept a cap on what I FELT, which was devastated. </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">The patient missed a lab draw and a minor adjustment upward in a titrated medication. <strong>He was oblivious and not harmed in a short or long term way</strong></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(minimizing)</span></strong> </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">But we pay very close attention to stuff like this because it is a series of these kind of errors that DO cause the big mishaps you hear about in the news.<strong>Of course my 90 day evaluation comes up like TUESDAY.</strong> I feel professionally obligated to do a "systems" and <strong>psychological autopsy</strong> on what went wrong so I can prevent future extreme brain farts errors of omission. It's not enough, in my career field, so say "Ooopsie, ha ha! I just didn't know." While that is true, why didn't I know? And why didn't I know that I didn't know? I must get to the bottom of it, and see how this may affect other aspects of my care. It's the only rational way to deal with this sort of error, and vital to do if you don't want to harm someone in your care.<strong>I am consumed with defensiveness</strong> and destroyed by that old voice of self recrimination, that rises like a tidal flood. It's like having emotional hotflashes. I find that I am <strong>struggling MORE with calming myself down from reactive defensiveness </strong>and protecting myself from the overwhelming sense of "YOU SUCK". Both are severe reactions, and don't help whatsoever.Being a person who endured much useless and hurtful criticism, from ATM and my abusive father, <strong>I have become a very defensive person</strong>.</span></p></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">let's pause here and reflect on the statements made above... and then... let me quote BinkStink from a spew launched against ME ..</p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>From what I know about <strong>personality disorders,</strong> a person WITH one is a person with a hazy, indistinct sense of self. <strong>It is easily threatened, and viciously defended.</strong> <strong>An insult is life or death. They are both grandiose and so insignificant to themselves. This is the mechanism that drives them to crush others who disagree with or reject them</strong>.</blockquote></span><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">ok... now... where were we?... oh yeah... BinkStink said she is feeling EXTREMELY DEFENSIVE...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I am tired of being accused. In my soul, I am fed up to my eyeballs.<strong><em> My instantaneous reaction is to react with defensiveness, as if I am being attacked, even if I am not</em></strong>.Sneaking along behind this is "YOU SUCK" and all the vivid fantasies of being a pariah and being so awful and pathetic and disgusting and useless that you can't even see.As a part of our continued healing, how do we accept being corrected without resorting to defensiveness or massive self-flagellation? Neither of which solve anything, just diminish quality of life. And nothing is solved. I'm not making sandwiches, I'm keeping people alive through serious illnesses. I need all my energy for problem solving, not <strong>fending off my defensiveness</strong>.I mean, SOMETIMES we are wrong, right :p?? I<strong> have been SO defensive, my whole life long, when "corrected". </strong>So guarded, because I was cruelly mistreated. How to grow up and beyond that, accept limits when others set them on us, accept feedback that is difficult to hear (however true) without beating ourselves up FOREVER, and how to discern the "truth" and whether or not to accept the feedback or consider the source?Any thoughts or experiences of this, and how you dealt with it out there?</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Bink </span></p></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">been extemely defensive FOREVER, eh?... and from what this <em>professional diagnostician </em>knows about the <em>personality disordered...</em> being extremely defensive is a</strong> <strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><em>big red flag</em></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... Nurse.. diagnose thyself!!!..</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">ok. let's get some fresh batteries... then.. .back into the darkness... 'cause i've just got a hunch, truth seekers... i've got a hunch that we're getting </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">close</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... my invective still in purple...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=truth-3.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/truth-3.gif" border="0" /></a></strong></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 02 November 2008 - 12:35 PM </span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br />I didn't think I was alone :pI love the idea of the "uninstall button". That keeps sticking in my head . . . I get it, but I don't quite "get" how it's as easy as uninstalling the button. I can sort of see it. It's a matter of identifying what kind of stuff pushes the button in the first place and that I'm having to think about<strong>.I have been SHOCKED that I've done as well as I have on this job. Doing psych nursing for 15 years</strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(<em>which</em> is it??? ....14, 15, 19, 107???? ...geeez)</strong></span> then being in the north Idaho outback with ATM NOT working as a nurse for two plus years, then I jumped into oncology nursing. <strong>In psych nursing, ya just don't DO the medical stuff. </strong>I'm like a baby nurse in some ways, and I know that *I* forgot that I still need a lot of support and can't really trust myself yet, not completely. <strong>The other nurses "bought" my seasoned persona</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(wow...someone 'bought' her CON....she's say so!! )</strong></span> and found out the same thing I did, I'm NOT beyond needing extra support.I trusted myself to make an executive decision -- <strong>the decision was to NOT check up on myself, or check in with more experienced staff. It was the wrong decision.I was really, REALLY enjoying my apparent success and fairly easy transition. It made me a bit too bold</strong>. <strong>I enjoyed how I felt about myself</strong>, and how the rest of the nursing staff just accepted me as "one of them" with very little of the gauntlet, as gr8rn talks about - There is a dark side to the Florence Nightingale rest-your-head-against-my-bosom selfless helper types<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (no shit!!!...we're in that </span><em style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">darkness </em><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">right now, readers)</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><strong>The rage of the victim is STRONG in nurses. The victim/martyr archetype is practically celebrated</strong>, and the inevitable rage beneath that is what I and gr8rn and any other nurse with an iota of awareness is very afraid of having aimed at them. Talk about re-creating the pariah complex, abandonment and "outcast" experiences, too.I have somehow escaped that "gauntlet" and have been accepted, so to speak. This incident makes me fear they'll throw me back to the alligators, that they'll all turn on me and snatch away that precious position of acceptance and I'll be just another "new" nurse having to earn every nanometer of acceptance the hard way.<strong>Yeah it's sick</strong> but it's my career and people and their weird group dynamics are EVERYWHERE so my job is to change/adapt myself. To uninstall the button. I just need to think about this some more before it "clicks", I think I'm close.The end result, I hope, is that I have a stable position in the group, that I do my job without participating in the martyr complex, without giving voice to my own victim rage, <strong>and don't bring forward the old old fears of being cast out and rejected for not being "perfect".</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">as we know, ALL NARCISSISTS MUST BE PERFECT...ALL THE TIME...this is </span><em style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">VERY</em><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> TELLING ) </span></span>I can't even BE cast out.Your responses really got me thinking, thanks everyone . <strong>And that defensiveness . . . it NEVER goes over well, it always makes us look like we are hiding something<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (for sure)</span></span> I think it's because it's true, we ARE hiding something. I know I am<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (FOR SURE)</span></span> </strong>I'm trying to hide my vulnerability and my scared-sick self, that little girl who was beaten and reviled, literally, and never understood what she did to cause it. So I've hidden and guarded her out of a sense of loyal protection . . . and unspeakable shame. I'll keep the loyal protection. No need to be ashamed of that little abused child, who didn't deserve what she got. She is likely the "source" of my empathy and grit. Time to give her some credit r</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">ather than stay stuck in the <strong>endless feedback loop of defensiveness</strong> .</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Bink</span></p></blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">wowzer...lots of talk about DEFENSIVENESS here... hmmm... a very defensive Nurse BinkStink...when she gets caught doing something WRONG she becomes wildly, </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">abnormally</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> DEFENSIVE... by her own admission...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=Crazy-Nurse-Joker-the-joker-2435898.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/Crazy-Nurse-Joker-the-joker-2435898.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center">``````</p><p align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 05 November 2008 - 09:25 PM </span></p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><p align="left"><br />OMG Boomer :lol: <strong>I read that article and this is really going to make me look evil but I do exactly what the author suggests at the end of the article. With really prickly, angry defensive people, they are so easily flattered. And in my experience, seem so grateful for an empathetic "hand" or word. It works like a charm. And that's all it is, is a charm</strong>. <strong>It doesn't make them nice people :p they are still who they are, but I've made myself seem "safe" and nonthreatening <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(STOP THE PRESSES!!..she is <em>ADMITTING</em> to being a NARC...to using FLATTERY AND MANIPULATION!!..and admitting to looking EVIL...WHY...IT WORKS LIKE A <em>CHARM</em>!!</span></strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">.) </span>Until I'm not and then I've had to start over from scratch.<strong>It's managing difficult people. I wouldn't dare try it on someone unless I was in severe self defense mode, though I did do it to one particular nurse at this job, I spotted her coming a mile away. I just want to be able to FUNCTION in the same room with this person, that is all. It enables me to not waste energy, and these types really get my attention whether I want to give it to them or not<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (WOW!!...WOW!!.. she can spot someone she MANIPULATE coming a MILE AWAY!.. MANIPULATING people saves her ENERGY!!. WOW!)</span></span></strong> It was about half in half . . . half concern about the error, and half the old shame and inadequacy stuff.Last night I had an opportunity to keep my lip zipped. <strong>I had to go hide in the medication room and talk to myself, out loud. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(<em>EWWWW</em>!!...snag a few Dilaudid while you were in there?)</span> _</strong>"Don't do it. Don't go there. Stop, it's not worth it." :lol: The <strong>charge nurse hollered at me from the hallway about me being late with my meds for a certain patient.</strong> I might be running my gauntlet a little later, rather than avoiding it in the first place. <strong>I sincerely am doing things NO differently than I ever have, timewise</strong>. <strong>In fact I do things the way the other nurses do them until I fashion my own "way", which will take time and practise<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (always the rebel, eh BinkStink?..refusing to comform to rules... what a surprise!.. narc narc narc)</span></span></strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>So it was a little baffling.The moment of wanting to verbally respond was . . . sublime. My eyeballs literally made little sounds popping out from the pressure.<strong> I had to do DAMAGE CONTROL, pronto</strong>. Inside. It was a moment of pure ego death :lol: I had to take it like a man. And NOT say a word, at all. Maybe I moaned a little. But it was not safe to speak, not for a while.I guess I learned some important tools, useful in all parts of life, not just with an intimate abuser </p></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"><br /></span></p></span><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">well... this was certainly enlightening!!! Nurse BinkStink admits to being <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">abnormally defensive</span>... admits to being <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">a slacker</span>... admits to <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">refusing to follow rules</span>... and admits to<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> being a manipulator</span>...<br /></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">soooo... she's already been in some trouble at Providence Medical Center !!!. probably a lot more than she is admitting to in print... she's a trouble maker... a defensive, slack ass, obnoxious know it all... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and even after all of this... she had no problem sitting around on her slacker ass... using their computers for hours on end to read my blog!!. talk about a sense of ENTITLEMENT!</span>!..<br /></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">let's go back a little FURTHER... and we'll see that Nurse BinkStink has been having some problems with people concerning her career for quite some time!!. and of course... someone else is ALWAYS to blame!!...</p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><p align="center"></p></span><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=warning_crazy_nurse_t_shirt.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/warning_crazy_nurse_t_shirt.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><p></p><p align="center"></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">geez... i'm over here in a really DARK corner!.. hey!!. found something!!. something very interesting!!! a couple of things!!. let's drag them out into the light of day and have a look see!!!</p><blockquote><p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><p align="left"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=52862&st=0">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=52862&st=0</a></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 17 June 2008 - 11:57 AM </span></p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><p align="left">Could they just have sent an email to cancel my interview tomorrow?I checked the job number, it is the same one I was to interview tomorrow. It's a "form email", simply stating that unfortunately the job has been filled and here's the link to look at other available openings. Last week<strong> I posted that the prospective employer was having trouble hearing back from my references.</strong> I'm guessing this trouble continued? I don't understand, I don't know why.</p><p align="left">Would they EMAIL me to give me that bad news? How cold. <strong>These are my choices, I have no one else to give them, it's too late now. This hospital is THE hospital in the Olympia area. Application for further positions will involve the same human resources staff, the same references who apparently have not come through (???), and now I have a "reputation".</strong><br /></p><p align="left">I am too upset to call them right this minute and ask. My mind in just spinning. I feel so alone. I just went out yesterday with my mom and sister to get an interview "suit".</p><p align="left">I can't believe it could be "this bad". <strong>He (ex boss) really got me</strong>. I don't know why I'm even posting this. I need to go tell my sister and calm down enough to get on the phone so I can find out for sure what happened. I can't describe how bad this feels. Things have been really tough. It was just a matter of crawling out, you know? I just don't know what I did. I am going to have a headache from hell.</p><p align="left">I'll update when I get a grip and call HR. Yeah sure it could be a "mistake" but I doubt it.</p></span></blockquote><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">hmmmmm... looks like BinkStink has had problems with PREVIOUS EMPLOYERS... imagine that!!. </p><p></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 17 June 2008 - 12:13 PM </span></p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><p align="left"><br />I don't think verifying my employment was the problem Stringbean. That is an impersonal transaction, and HR at my previous job is good, and they are even aware that I'm on the hunt, I spoke with "my" rep personally last Thursday.<strong> My ex boss knows his p's and q's well enough to NOT badmouth me directly. He doesn't HAVE to say a word but refuse to help when called for a reference. </strong>(((((((ocean))))))))(((((((ellie)))))))))) Thank you all, your words mean a lot. The thing is I totally UNDERSTAND where these people are coming from. <strong>There are a lot of wingnut nurses out there, they are just protecting themselves. It is hard as hell to get rid of a wingnut once you hire them, and they raise so much hell</strong>. They are doing what *I* would do, which makes this a very interesting set of feelings indeed.</p></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><p align="left"></p><p align="left"></p></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>hmmmm... former boss won't give her a reference!!. Providence is already suspicious that she is a <em>'wingnut'... </em>geee... can't imagine!!!!</strong> </span><p></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 18 June 2008 - 08:35 PM </span></p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><p align="left"><br />OK, I'm back from the interview.</p><p align="left">I'm serious, I kept your words in mind. <strong>I just thought Hey, what you see is what you get. I'm not gonna be anything that you don't pick up on right here, right now<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(soooo.......she's </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">admitting</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> to PLAYING them...being what she thought they wanted her to be!!..)</span></span></strong> <strong>Besides, who wants to live UP to that kind of crap later on <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">??(yeah.. it can be TEDIOUS when you CON people, then are expected to FOLLOW THROUGH)</span> T</strong>he director and manger who interviewed me were VERY likeable. <strong>It was easy to make them laugh (thank God, that is so important!)</strong>. <strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(soooooo important when you are a MANIPULATIVE NARC)</span>They didn't ask me a THING about my old job!! Or ex boss </strong>. They did not look at me and see that I sat on a mountain top with a pistol and terrified I would be killed by a meth addict :lol: !! <strong>They couldn't TELL</strong> <strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(this speaks for itself) .</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"></span></p><p align="left">They asked me a bunch of "what would you do, what did you do" type of questions, and TWO hours later, the director gave me her business card and took me around on a tour of the unit and introduced me to many of the staff.</p><p align="left">That's prolly a pretty good sign :) ya think?I'll know in a few days. I think I could work for these guys :D Bink</p></span></blockquote><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">this is fascinating... Nurse BinkStink has had problems in the past with employers... and now she is prattling on... apparently completely oblivious to the fact that she is revealing HER </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">machinations on a public website</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">.</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. the machinations of a Narcissistic Psychopath...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">hey... what's this crumpled up over here in a dark corner??? MORE insights into the mind of BinkStink!!. let's look... HOLY BAT SHIT!!! GATHER AROUND, TRUTH SEEKERS......WE'VE HIT </span></span><em><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">PAY DIRT</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">!!!</span></em></strong> <p><strong><em></em></strong></p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=straightjacket-2.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/straightjacket-2.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center">~~~~~~</p><p><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=52817&st=0"></a></p><blockquote><p><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=52817&st=0">http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=52817&st=0</a></p><p><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 15 June 2008 - 04:44 PM </span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>I have another issue, related to resurrecting my career as a nurse, that was going to rear it's ugly head sooner or later.</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(gee...<em>another</em> issue.....what a SURPRISE!)</strong></span>I've mentioned bits and pieces of it in response to others, but here it is, whole, and I hope, brief :p,his is literally like Part Two of "My Story", in terms of my experiences with verbal and emotional abuse, so here goes<strong>.</strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>I was a nurse manager for a little chemical dependency hospital in a major SoCal city, for almost four years. I left that job three years ago in March, and haven't worked as a nurse since. That was after having worked nonstop as an RN for fifteen years<em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(14, 15, 17, 19... it's soooooooo hard to keep up!)</span></span></em></strong><br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">The story goes, my boss was a PhD therapist, and i<strong>f he wasn't narcissistic, he had some heavy traits.</strong> <em><strong>I practically worshipped him.</strong></em> <strong>See a pattern here</strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(YES WE<em> DO</em> SEE A PATTERN HERE!)</strong> </span>I was his "right hand woman", <strong>it was him and me against the "world", I mean, the two of us would take on a really manipulative addict that had the rest of the staff quailing and wanting to resign, and we'd have that person begging to stay in treatment and busting down the door to get to an AA meeting.</strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(WOW...a couple of manipulative NARCS tag teaming victims...what FUN)</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><strong>We clicked like mad. As long as I did everything exactly the way he wanted me to do it <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(two NARCS... clicking like mad... this is gonna end ugly)</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.</span> Over time, I became more confident, and desired greater independence<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(more GRANDIOSE, i beleive she means)</span></span></strong> He agreed. That's when it all started to fall apart. Likely, this guy hasn't the first CLUE about allowing independence, in anyone, much less me. It wasn't personal, but because I worked so closely with him (I was like Moses bringing down the Ten Commandments to the staff :lol: ), I got the brunt of it. I was carefully praised for certain things and mercilessly "analyzed" for everything else. An abusive person with a PhD in counseling is a deadly sort of individual. <strong>I had NO idea, I just wanted to please him<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(wait a minute!!. isn't this the same bitch who spewed forth </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">this</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> line.. more than ONCE... 'Abusers and victims seem to me to be on the same continuum')</span> </span></strong>I adored and respected him, and I thought he felt the same about me too. At first, sigh, isn't that how it always starts?<strong><br /></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>I pulled this little hospital through two Joint Commission surveys (gives healthcare organizations the OFFICIAL stamp of approval) with flying colors, literally.</strong> The nursing/counseling staff was limited, and I could pull a night shift, a double shift, lead a therapy group, whatever, go sit in a corporate meeting and<strong> <em>pretend</em> to know what was going on ha ha<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">, <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(here we go...psychopaths and narcs always FAKE great knowledge)</span></span></strong> and yes I worked my mule off but I loved that job, too. <strong>Until my boss stopped liking me so much</strong>. The "downfall" followed such a predictable story line! <strong>I wasn't doing any more WRONG than ever</strong>, but I didn't understand that at the time.</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Eventually, I had trouble getting out of bed to go to work. One day I got up, got dressed, started to cry and sat in the closet until ATM got up and found me. He was alarmed and called my boss and they went back and forth for a while. I<strong> took time off, came back refreshed, and within months, did it again. Twice more. The fourth time I "lost it", I called off work and went to a <em>psychiatrist</em> I knew from my previous job and he put me on a medical leave effective immediately<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">( EUREKA!!!WE'VE STRUCK</span> <em><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">GOLD</span></em>,<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> TRUTH SEEKERS!!.. WE'VE STRUCK</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">GOLD</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">!!)</span></span></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong></strong>I emailed my boss, because I could not face him, it was one more failure. I immediately resigned, so he could replace me. The thought of going back there, in spite of my closeness to the staff, and love of the work, made me want to die. I wasn't THIS conflicted over ATM, ending that relationship, at any time or place. To love something and feel like it was killing me is/was my karma for the last three years or so :wacko:<strong><br /></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>And, he took it as if I'd spit on him. There's good reason, too. He was able to access my personal email and read and read and read. I can't think of anything specific, but I did bitch and moan about him. I wrote a couple of emails to staff I was close to, that knew my situation with my boss. He probably read them all. I'm sure, knowing him, he didn't take it well :wacko: . I had NO idea he'd ever be able to access my personal stuff. I was extremely unprofessional in sharing with these staff members. We ALL were unprofessional, but I had the greater responsibility. Usually, we just don't get "caught", and I did. I didn't suggest a mutiny or anything, I WHINED. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF!!!. this is <em>EXACTLY</em> what happened when she was booted from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a>!!. SHE WAS SLANDERING IRENE AND OTHER MEMBERS... BEHIND THEIR BACKS..IN EMAILS!!.IT'S JUST LIKE THEY SAY!!. PSYCHOPATHS AND NARCS NEVER LEARN FROM THE PAST!!!)</span></strong><br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Seriously. I'm embarassed to think of all the whining I did. If anyone has ever been fired or quit precipitously from a position with a lot of responsibility/authority, you know the "routine". <strong>I would have not been allowed to return to the hospital without an escort, nor access a computer, yadda yadda. The staff I was close to never returned any calls I made or emails I wrote<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (JUST LIKE AT THE <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">CATBOX</a>!)</span></span></strong> I did not understand at the time that they were forbidden to do so, by these same rules, I just felt completely rejected. The failure thing just grew fifty more arms and legs.I didn't realize that my boss was verbally/emotionally abusive until I realized ATM was, which was ALSO after the fact. Slow on the uptake, here, thanks to spending my childhood with an abuser. I did not know any of this at the time, I just tried harder to get it "right". <strong>I got myself into a state of depression and anxiety I haven't quite emerged from, </strong>and then when I had to deal with ATM's meltdown less than two years later, in the middle of Nowhere, Idaho, I did so that much less strong and capable. I never dealt with what happened at that job. Yeah, it was important to me, obviously. I feel the pain now as if it happened last week.So between ATM and my old boss, I became a complete mess. I see it now, I didn't see it before. Heck, I still don't see it all, but see more every day.</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">OK, <strong>here's what's happening NOW</strong>.<strong>My potential employers have been trying to confirm my employment with my old boss. He refuses to speak to them. At all. He is well within his rights to do so. He is subject to a lawsuit if he comes right out and tells them he thinks I suck</strong>. He couldn't even truthfully say that I DID suck without sounding demented himself<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (this all sounds soooooo familiar)</span></strong></span> <strong>He can't say anything negative without risk, in this day and age. But he's smart, and he knows the laws and rules<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(just like she does... just like all NARCS do)</span></span></strong> <strong>Refusing to speak to prospective employers is a RED FLAG to them. He taught me that himself. I was hoping time would have softened his heart. Apparently not.</strong><br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">The prospective employers NEXT choice, then, is to call human resources, which I have supplied the contact person and number to them.<strong><br /></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>On Thursday, my prospective employer, with whom I have an interview on Wednesday, called me to tell me NONE of my references would return her call or even come to the phone.</strong> <strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(geeee... she seems to have problems of long standing with a LOT of people)</span><br /></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>My ex-boss left a message that he was "unable to help them". The number I'd given them for human resources was a fax number :blink: which I did correct. The other reference was a gal who supervised me SEVEN years ago. I called and left her a message, hey remember ME??? :wacko:</strong> . I'll find out if anyone got any action tomorrow I guess!</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I feel like some kind of a pariah. Intellectually, I know I did nothing to merit being a pariah, or a screw up, but how do you reconcile, and explain, to yourself, much less others, <strong>that you basically FELL APART and went swirling down the toilet and you are just trying to crawl out,</strong> and yes, you ran afoul of a not-very-nice boss who you inflicted narcissistic injury upon, <strong>then spent two years in rural north Idaho kickin' it with a meth addict</strong> :blink:</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I am going to my first interview in like SEVEN YEARS, with the above paragraph hanging over my head! I<strong> am worried I will have to explain WHY my previous employer won't speak to them,</strong> <strong>the sonofaitch. I am painted with a bad brush, they had to call ME back and get ME to rustle up more references (I literally had none) AND/OR call and plead with the current set to respond.</strong><br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">OK, now after that vent/long moan, here's my question. As you can guess by now I am NOT thinking clearly.I feel like I should be "ready" to explain something about what happened at my last job.<strong> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Yet there are so many red flags already</span>.</strong> <strong>Yup, I burnt out and went on a MENTAL HEALTH LEAVE OF ABSENSE<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">,<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(EUREKA!!! EUREKA!!! THERE'S </span><em><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">GOLD</span></em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> IN THEM THAR GOOGLE CACHES!!! IT </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">IS</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> BINKSTINK WHO HAS MENTAL PROBLEMS!!. ALL THAT FINGER POINTING AND ALL THOSE NASTY DIAGNOSES... IT'S ALL TOTAL </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">PROJECTION</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">!!!.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">SHE</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> IS A 'WINGNUT'!!!!)</span></span> </strong>I had an abuser at work and one at home, I am just out of a domestic abuse nightmare where I lost everything except my underpants. <strong>Yep, I'm ready to be a member of your healthcare team </strong>:'(<br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">.I am sort of laughing at myself while also wanting to crawl in a hole. Anyone relate to this kind of stuff when you re-emerged back into the world? I feel like I'm just going to make it worse if I'm asked why I left that job. I will not blatantly fabricate a lie, <strong>I couldn't pull it off, and believe me, I've been willing to do it. Not telling the entire truth is fine, most of this is none of their business<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">,<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (of course not...not your employer's business that they are hiring a </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">wingnut</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> for a nurse!!!)</span></span></strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>but I feel like I'm walking a terribly fine line, and not too steadily.Thanks if you made it this far :blush:Bink</span></p></blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">.................</span></p><p></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Posted 15 June 2008 - 06:52 PM </span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br />I used to hire nurses, and so I have THAT lovely point of view to help me get even more anxiety-ridden than ever. <strong>This is sad, but there are lots of nurses that . . . have life problems and it is as important to verify that your "new hire" RN is not a fruitcake/problem-child as much as it's important that he/she is actually an RN</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(no shit!)</strong></span></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span>I am concerned tossing this off as personal issues or "focussing on my family" will sound like a major red flag all on it's own. <strong>I think because it is obvious there was a problem</strong>, I should acknowledge it, in some way, does that make sense?<strong><br /></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>I interviewed a RN who'd been fired from her previous position. One of my peers (another nurse manager) referred her to me, with a sympathetic foreword to her situation. It could have gone either way. But this RN painted a picture of herself as a complete victim of they system . . . she was between a rock and a hard place, but made the wrong decision. I got a bad feeling about her, not because of what she did wrong but because she went on and on, and was a big victim.So I get this, big time<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span></strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>:(looks like what goes around comes around BinkStink)</strong></span></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span><strong>Be careful of blaming or talking negatively about them because the prospective employer will wonder if you could be problematic.I just am having a hard time figuring out WHAT to say, and not come across sounding like a big victim</strong>. Truth is, my sitch is much like this gal above me. I made bad choices . . . <strong>I did not violate any laws or regulations as she did, but I was between a rock and a hard place</strong>. I don't know if I had it in me, at the time, to do things differently than I did.</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Truth is, I *was* a victim, much as I loathe admitting it. I knew one of the previous managers who had my position and I was treated no differently than she was. I didn't get special treatment from him. I guess then what I need to do is be ready to admit something happened, for sure.</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Should I broach the subject or allow it to be brought up? <strong>Something obviously DID happen. I must be ready, one way or the other</strong>. This is the part I'm not sure about. How to describe what happened without blaming or talking negatively about my ex boss.<strong> Owning what was mine, without telling the whole friggin' story</strong>.</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I know I would not have wanted to hear it, if I were interviewing a person. I still would have my guard up. <strong>That may sound harsh or unfair of me, but that's the way it is, hiring in my field, weeding out the not so reliable from the reliable ones.Here's the thing: I was NOT reliable, that's the whole point. At that point in my life, I was not a reliable employee.</strong> <strong>I was sick, enough for a shrink to put me out on a leave</strong>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(more </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">GOLD</span>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">.. so... BinkStink... who, as all of you have read... diagnoses EVERYONE she gets near as 'disorder' or 'in need of medication'.... or as a 'crazy whack job'.. but come to find out, to no surprise... that SHE is the one with the problem!!!)</span></strong></span><br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Yeah, no blame. <strong>But I was not reliable, that's how it shakes down. Should I admit this?</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(give us a break, BinkStink!! Narcs never admit to anything..they just lie and finger point )</strong></span>Or, how should I even word this, to take responsibility for what is MINE, without saying too much?</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Thanks everyone **whew** can't believe ya read all the way through that, this is helping. <strong>I can't think straight when it's ME I'm thinking about</strong> :blush:</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Bink</span></p></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>The contact people to initiate grievances were camped out in my ex boss's mule. He lied to me about direction he'd received from human resources once. I <strong>called HR to question them about a related issue, and it became apparent to BOTH of us I'd been deliberately misinformed... This gentleman in HR backpedaled so fast he practically hung up on me</strong>. He played golf with my ex boss at least once a month.<br /><br />Sheesh, this is a three year old problem . I know just how the victims here think when they are afraid to leave, afraid to divorce, afraid to demand anything lest that "beam" get focussed on them. I sat for four years watching him WIN, over and over again, whatever he did. I complained directly to him, as is my style. Ha. I even confronted him and made him gape like a fish. I told him he treated his staff like asparagus and they knew it and doing damage control because of HIM was interfering with MY workload. Things really accelerated after that.<br /><br />I ordered the employee evaluations, four years worth, last week, to be sent to me. Those are top notch and can't be argued with. <strong>I have no doubt he's violated something "legal". I'll check out that website and see if it would be worth calling his bluff. </strong>Dam. (((((mimzy :) )))))))<br /><br />Bink<br /><br /></blockquote></span><p></p><p></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>LOL that makes sense not to use the words EEOC. This is exactly the kind of feedback that is helpful. I am sure HR will confirm my employment, I talked to them directly, so no problem there. <strong>I usually do well in interviews, too. I actually come across better in person than on paper, and right now, my "paper" is not looking so hot</strong>.<br /><br />The irony is, I am VERY manageable. I am a fantastic follower. I could not have done as well as I did, as long as I did, with my ex boss if I weren't good at following. In fact, I prefer to "follow". <strong>Like anyone else, if too much is asked, I start balking</strong>. He was impossible to please and unpredictable in what pleased him. OK, just tellin myself :wacko:<strong><br /><br />The interview is for a position in the new oncology wing going up in the hospital in Olympia </strong><strong>I mean hey, I spent time with the insane for fifteen years, now let's spend time caring for people facing death</strong>.<strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(damn..now it's FIFTEEN years again )</span></span> It's a completely entry level position, for new graduate RNs or old battle axes like myself who want to retrain for another field<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(uh oh...Narcs don't like 'entry level')</span></span></strong> Gr8RN, I've been out of nursing for three years <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>(damn..it is soooooooooooo hard to keep up with this</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">):</span> p I haven't had an interview for seven. Sheesh that sounds like a long time! <strong>I slid under the wire for the RN Refresher course, which would have been necessary had I returned to the field later than July of this year<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(????..i'm sure dying patients would feel very comforted with this knowledge!!!)</span></span></strong> <strong>As far as accounting for why I left the workforce, I *AM* using a line<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (a LIE)</span> straight from Lorelei, one she gave me in my topic last week. I left nursing to start a farm in Idaho, and it was a perfect disaster. So I am selling it and coming back to work as a nurse where I belong :p<br /><br />If there's any problem believing that I started a farm (as opposed to going to jail, rehab, or the funny farm), there's always my blog<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> (gonna tell a LIE... and already thinking of ways to back up that LIE)</span></span></strong> They'll get more info than they ever wanted to know about me. But I kept the stuff about ATM and domestic abuse very general.<br /><br />Notagain, I don't hear from you much, and your words of personal support mean A LOT. I also am very grateful to hear from you and Openeyes, <strong>folks who are in the corporate world and understand the "politics" and how careful one has to be<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(YES....one has to be </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">very careful</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> when one is a manipulating, lying psychopathic NARC)</span></span></strong><br /><br />Bink</blockquote></span></p><p></p><p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><em>WHEW!!. .</em>it's nice to be out of that bad neighborhood and back in the bright light of day!!. let's go wash the BinkStink off us....the look through our</span><em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 51);">GOOGLE CACHE OF GOLD......</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">!</span></em></strong></p><p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i KNEW the truth was out there!!. and we've found it!!. in her own words!!. it's going to be pretty damn hard to rewrite THIS history!!. she can't erase what's in Google Cache like she can erase her nasty spews from her own blog.. like she's been doing!!.</span><br /></span></strong></p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=crazy-woman.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/crazy-woman.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">~</span></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">wow.. how many people has that crazy bitch called <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">crazy</span>, just lately???.. </span><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">PrudenceB and I did not get along well. She was articulate and funny as long as her serum narcotics were at a therapeutic level. In their nadir, she was frantic and paranoid.</span></p></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Another person I have my eye on is Gone Quiet. I have met her before, in the long locked wards where she has just attempted suicide, for the fifty ninth time, because her husband/mom/coworker/boss did not do exactly as she wanted. Her solution is to punish and terrorize to get her needs met.She is getting mundo attention, the kind that pleases her greedy little heart, which focuses upon what a victim she is, what a horrible man she is with, and she is feasting</blockquote></span><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Remember Tink? And her fifteen page threads? Another borderline personality, but a very high functioning one, a brilliant brain for academics (she got into medical school at a prestigious program). She had the cardinal borderline personality symptom -- fear of abandonment -- as the axis around which she revolved.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Lately, on both boards, I'm noticing a great degree of illness amongst the members.Watch Ceeking. She is not doing well, at all. I suspect this has been going on all along, most people in their mid life do not break down into psychosis, that's an early twentysomething gig. She's been fighting this for a very long time. She is begging for people to connect with her, to shore her up because she is sinking. I used to be a psych nurse and the only thing I can think of to do for her is medicate her so she does not sink so low. I am not insulting her or feeling repulsed. She is sliding down the slide, and finally letting us in on it. She does not wear her illness on her sleeve, as most on these boards do. I am worried about her, she is a person who needs emergent help :( It's just sad,and for what it's worth, I would stop her, physically restrain her from running, hold her down until she gives up and keep her safe while she sobs and lets herself come back.</blockquote></span><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>So it is, for me, a particularly low blow, to have a gnashing crazy woman hate that I disagree with her and then proceed to try and take me down where it matters.I pity this woman, and am curious about her, fascinated by her disease process. </blockquote></span></p><p></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">The mother of this child is a nurse I work with several times a week. In the last year I have worked with her, I have grown to pretty much loathe her. She is very abusive, the kind of person I keep at arm's length and force myself to be polite and friendly with. The kind of person who I see sitting HERE and go OVER THERE so as not to sit near her and get her focused upon me. She is negative as a rule, and envious. I don't ask her for help with my bedbound patients because she is rough with them. A truly hateful and destructive person is experiencing the worst tragedy and grief I myself can imagine. I can't and won't forget that this person is abusive and psychologically dangerous.</span></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p></blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>No, no honey.<br />I was talking to YOU. You. Mary.You, Mary. Me, Bink.Your repertoire.<br />I know you hated the Seroquel and Zyprexa. But they really do help you firm up those interpersonal boundaries. I'm sure you have a near full bottle around there somewhere. And some Benadryl for the itching.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOl2y6slBjOdBiuxsLSQvaiCATFVzknf-KoCaBIz6J31EqLRHAxSG0HB_fqaW2l90doYqO8R0lWzytwLXqrwT0JjWZCd_HPi-6bmBRx2Glp_uC1QfaPrpv01bllt8sIuahmtbhDsrYIbKJ/s1600-h/whiner.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5448606545933093122" style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 225px; cursor: pointer; height: 225px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOl2y6slBjOdBiuxsLSQvaiCATFVzknf-KoCaBIz6J31EqLRHAxSG0HB_fqaW2l90doYqO8R0lWzytwLXqrwT0JjWZCd_HPi-6bmBRx2Glp_uC1QfaPrpv01bllt8sIuahmtbhDsrYIbKJ/s320/whiner.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>There is no medication or real effective therapy for people with your issues. Except prison, to keep you away from taking advantage of naive people who have a hard time believing people as bottomlessly cruel and greedy even EXIST.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><br /><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">the examples above a just a FEW of her recent attacks on various people... including some she doesn't even know... everyone in the world, in the world according to Binkstink, is crazy... everyone except her.... the one who really is crazy... what am i going to do with this Google Cache of pure gold???..</p><p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink has this to say...</span> </span></strong></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Mark my words, she will copy and paste this and send it to corporate headquarters.</span></p></blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /></span></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left">she's right... i took her advice... i have already sent it to corporate headquarters... along with Google cache posts about her alcoholism... and her posts on her blog in which she attacks people she doesn't even know... to quote BinkStink... </p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Don't worry, dear, this is what HAPPENS when you make false statements to a really large corporation who then worries you might be a security risk.</span></p></blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">this woman is abusive... deluded... deranged... twisted... and she knows it.. she needs to be locked up in a rubber </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">bardo</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">..</span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">that's buddist speak for ROOM, according to BinkStink... and this is what the Psychopath BinkStink has to say about herself...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>My Self is filthy, earthy, lazy and selfish. I am appalled at how little it cares about the norms of society.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">she also has this very telling and disturbing thing to say about herself...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>I agree that what I think of me and know to be true is enough. <span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">I don't actually have a problem </span>with her calling me a narc or a ravening psychopath intent upon victimizing the already victimized.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and this...</span> <p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I don't have a problem pathologizing myself, it's been very helpful to take responsibility for my own sickness.</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">There are many inverted narcissists or inverted abusers on abuse survivor boards.The best way to tell, IMHO, is when you confront them, they come back at you in a rage. They rapidly switch their guns to point at you, the person ostensibly supporting them, while their abuser bashes them from behind. A few even threaten to hurt YOU for daring to see a crack in their beloved story.</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">The agenda of the inverted so-called victim is attention and pity and validation to CONTINUE exactly as they are. They have no intention of changing themselves, or the conditions of their lives. They may give it lip service, knowing that it is what gets them "in". But any suggested steps toward that are ignored or considered "personal" attacks.The self pity of inverted victims is bottomless. Their situations are unique, and so are they. The rules don't apply to them.~</span></p></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and this...</span> <p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>I still shudder at being "busted", but here I am.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Yes, BinkStink... your goose is cooked... and here you are...</span> <p align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><br /></span></strong></p><p align="center"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://blog.blurb.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/02/busted.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 301px; cursor: pointer; height: 366px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://blog.blurb.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/02/busted.jpg" border="0" /></a><blink style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"><span style="font-size:180%;">BUSTED!!!</span></blink></p><p align="left"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong>..................</strong></p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=BEN-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/BEN-1.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">BEN</span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">PASSED: 2/14/2007</span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">MURDERED </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">by the psychopath Mike McGrannahan of Kansas City, MO<br /></span></strong></p><strong></strong><p align="center"><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></p><blockquote><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">"The time will come when men such as I will look upon the murder of animals as they now look upon the murder of men."</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">-- Leonardo Da Vinci</span></strong></p><p align="center">~~</p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">“I do not bring forgiveness with me, nor forgetfulness. The only ones who can forgive are dead; the living have no right to forget.”</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">-- Chaim Herzog</span></strong></p><p align="center">~~<br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">''Justice is incidental to law and order."</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">- J. Edgar Hoover</span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong>~~<br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">"Life is life's greatest gift. Guard the life of another creature as you would your own because it is your own. On life's scale of values, the smallest is no less precious to the creature who owns it than the largest."</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">-- Lloyd Biggle Jr.</span></strong></p><p align="center">~~<br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">When a man has pity on all living creatures only then is he noble.</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">--Buddha</span></strong></p></blockquote><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><p align="center"></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="center"></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p align="left"><strong><em></em></strong></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></p><p align="left"></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="left"></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-69151795395143095082010-03-13T04:57:00.007-08:002011-03-08T17:30:50.020-08:00BinkStink Extends her Smear Campaign to my Friends<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.cartoonstock.com/newscartoons/cartoonists/mba/lowres/mban1152l.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 300px; cursor: pointer; height: 333px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://www.cartoonstock.com/newscartoons/cartoonists/mba/lowres/mban1152l.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">As we all know... mud sticks best to a clean spot... so since BinkStink the abusive Narc, couldn't make headway with me... she now turns to my friend - Barbara, moderator at ALL ABOUT HIM... in a pathetic attempt to hurt me and get attention for herself... here's her latest spew:</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">All About Him: A Review</span><br /><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">bink_think</span></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">March 12th, 21:00</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">From the welcome page for Lisa E. Scott's website allabouthim.com .</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">You cannot change a narcissist, but you can take steps to make changes in your life that will make you happier. I believe that is our goal... to accept what we cannot change and change what we can. We have the ability to grow and evolve, which is a beautiful thing. We are responsible for the choices we make in life and we can choose to be happy or we can choose to remain a victim. I choose to be happy and I hope you will join me in my journey.</span></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">There is a forum on Scott's website for victims of narcissists to share their stories and receive hope and support. It has a modest membership as yet, being only about a year old.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">There are tens or maybe hundreds of public and private forums for victims of domestic violence or partners with personality disorders (which amount to about the same thing). I've searched high and low on the net over the last three years, and after joining many of them, ended up spending most of my time on Trubble's Catbox. It was a community that was going strong seven years after it's inception. The membership, almost to the person, is now at Our Place as of a year and a half ago, and in my estimation, has a number of true veterans of domestic violence and the years of healing afterward. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Many of the true veterans are on the admin team, some of whom have held the position for the last ten years. Many more are just members, still active years past the grueling end of their abusive relationships. There is real clarity and healing going on over there. There is leading by example. And this is what I see NOT happening on Lisa Scott's forum. Well, at least if you want to lead by HEALTHY example.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">I'm not clear as to how involved Scott is with her forum. She has a single moderator, "Barbara", who participates regularly and posts a wealth of articles and resources to specific issues that the membership brings up. I recognized "Barbara" almost immediately. I knew her as Shattered4Good on Trubble's Catbox. She was a dedicated link poster then, too. She sometimes linked four or five articles per day.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">I was not privvy to exactly what happened to cause Shattered4Good to be banned from the Catbox. It had something to do with her linking. The Catbox admins created a dedicated forum for articles and links and helpful books, and asked Shattered4Good to post her material there. Soon thereafter, she was banned. It happened when I left Idaho, I didn't have a computer and lost contact for a few days. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">"Barbara" was also a member of The Next Right Choice, a spin-off forum of Trubble's Catbox, in the immediate aftermath of the Catbox Implosion of 2008. She was one of many who re-emerged to cast their opinions while the Catbox fell apart, and the membership made their exodus to Our Place. She was eventually banned from TNRC as well, though again I was not privvy to exactly why.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">What I do know of "Barbara" is that she lives with her two children and her (ex?) husband in a separated dwelling, and is dependent upon him for her living expenses. She is disabled by a number of chronic health conditions and is unable to work. This leaves her in a kind of bondage to her abuser, which she recounts many tales of. Her children suffer various emotional problems as well. All of this information has been shared by "Barbara" on all forums she's been a member of, so this is definitely not insider information, but public knowledge.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">What concerns me is that between "Barbara's" written feedback to the membership of Allabouthim.com and Lisa Scott's mission is a loud discrepancy. It appears so great, to me, that I wonder if Lisa Scott reads the forum content at all. Or if she does, she doesn't know quite what to do with "Barbara".</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">The Catbox Implosion occurred when Dr Irene Matiatos, after several years of allowing her admins to run the show, decided she didn't like the direction the ship was going, and took the wheel. It turns out Dr Irene and her admin team had very different ideas about what was "good" for abuse survivors. The difference could be much better described by the ex-Catbox admins (now at Our Place, along with the entire ex-Catbox community), but to a member with a short stint as an admin working directly with Irene, the difference was more about the aftermath of a stupid mistake on Irene's part and her doomed attempts to save face afterward, than anything philosophical. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Between the sole moderator "Barbara" and the mission of Allabouthim.com, the difference appears indeed to be philosophical, in the extreme.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Here is her reply to an AAH member who is expressing despair and hopelessness in the aftermath of a relationship with an abuser:</span><br /><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">just a word</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Fri, 03/12/2010 - 21:32 — Barbara</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have to back up my buddy narcnarc here. While I can appreciate you all trying to bolster her... people like her and I are WAAAAY beyond 'hope' and 'getting out' and having 'fun.' Fun to me is a good night's sleep on pain killers, when I am able to take them... some party, huh?</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">narcnarc, for instance, has complex PTSD. She and her pets would be homeless if someone didn't donate a house to her. A house WITHOUT heat... but it's something. She has NO INCOME other than food stamps. Food pantries won't deal with her because she 'can't show proof of income' (I know, WTF! huh?) She probably has fibromyalgia but the hospital won't see her (no medicaid) and no doctor will see her for free.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Like her I have complex PTSD. I am severely disabled so a shelter would never take me. Besides I would never leave my kids. I am morbidly obese from drugs & surgeries though people treat me like I am "just fat." If exNH didn't pay my rent, utilities and insurance I'd be in narcnarc's position.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">We don't want to go out. We look like hell, feel like hell and we are tired of people telling us to "have hope." We have accepted what IS. That's one of the reasons I am working on getting a coaching certification. The positive affirmation/ self-talk thing gets pretty tired when you've dealt with a serious psychopath (or 3 in my case)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I don't date and I never will again. I get it narcnarc - why afflict someone as PTSD destroyed as us? We don't like it and we are smart enough to know others won't either. The old "her" is gone for me. I'd be ridiculous to even imagine I could get "her" back - she died a long time ago - a horrible agonizing death.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">the only person who know who I USED TO BE left - was Psycho-Boy!! and look what happened!</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">she's done... all I can do is make sure no one else goes thru the same things I have.</span><br /></blockquote><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Good grief, now *I* feel like gargling a bottle of Percocet and going to bed forever.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">This woman is a MODERATOR? A "leader", a wise woman, for a group of people hoping for a decent life after years with an abusive narcissist? What is she trying to tell them? That she herself is hopeless and so is her "buddy" and DON'T YOU DARE SUGGEST OTHERWISE. </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">No words of support, or any empathy for that matter, for the members who've begun to open up and risk sharing their shame and pain. God forbid they HOPE for a better life, this "destroyed" woman will set them straight!</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">You know, whatever. "Barbara" has the perfect right to be the way she is.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">But is she "moderator material" for a group of very vulnerable individuals recovering from abuse and violence?</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">As damaged and hurt as we are by our abusive scenarios, we are not made STUPID by them. And that is why most of them, anyway, will steer clear of this forum.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Lisa Scott! Pay attention to what's going on on YOUR website. Pay attention to your good name and reputation, which is good enough with your written work and public appearances. Take another look at this forum and ask yourself if "Barbara" is your idea of a guide for people you hope to give a leg up to?</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">This is a clear sign of BinkStink's desperation and delusions... as well as her need to be 'relevant'... before she removes it or sends her abuser proxies over... like she did with a bunch of her other smear & slander - you can read and respond here:</span><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12785.html"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">http://bink-think.livejournal.com/12785.html</span></a><br /></span>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-90844407286491706842010-03-08T03:05:00.004-08:002011-03-08T17:30:25.707-08:00THE NARC BINKSTINK GETS BUSTED!! UPDATED ALREADY!! AND UPDATED AGAIN...<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=duck-tape-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/duck-tape-1.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><br /><div align="center">~~~~~~~</div><div align="center"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>BinkStink is the perfect example of a psychopath with a little knowledge...<br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">although she claims to have been a psych nurse... i'd say it's more likely she was a PSYCH PATIENT... .let me quote the esteemed expert in psychopathy... Dr. Robert Hare... </span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 153);"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">They may ramble and tell stories that seem unlikely in light of what is known about them.</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Typically, they attempt to appear familiar with sociology, psychiatry, medicine, psychology</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">, philosophy, poetry, literature, art, or law. A signpost to this trait is often a smooth lack of concern at being found out.</span></blockquote></span></div><div align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink claims to be a psych nurse... and she does this by throwing around a few words she's picked up along the way... more likely from pointless treatment than schooling... she rattles off a few terms anyone can google... and sets herself up as an </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">expert</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... then she uses her completely fabricated 'expertise' to victimize others... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">anyone who has read BinkStink's spews can see a running theme... everyone is mentally ill... except her... everyone needs to be restrained or medicated, etc... except her... by pointing the finger at others, and spewing a few words of psychobabble... BinkStink takes the stance of being in control... of diagnosing... of being superior to her victims... but when you think about it... is this the way someone who is REALLY in the mental health field would behave?. of course not... .that's the first clue that she is not what she claims to be... </span><br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>here's what i do know from my exchanges with BinkStink's employer... BinkStink claims <em>repeatedly</em> to be a former psych nurse who is now an 'oncology nurse'... she always works evenings.. i know that from her stalking my blog from hospital computers... oncology nurses do not work evening shifts at BinkStink's place of employment, according to them... so she is lying about being an oncology nurse... i believe it will eventually be revealed that she is lying about being a nurse... period...<br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>in almost every post.every nasty attack... she somehow manages to squeeze in ...<span style="font-style: italic;"> 'i was a psych nurse for 19 years'</span>... it's like that is her excuse for what she is about to do... attack and misdiagnose ... any real medical professional i believe would be more wary about diagnosing everyone they come across as mentally ill...</strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><blockquote>Psychopaths are good imposters. They have absolutely no hesitation about forging and <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">brazenly using impressive credentials to adopt professional roles that bring prestige and power. They pick professions in which the requisite skills are easy to fake, the jargon is easy to learn</span>, and the credentials are unlikely to be thoroughly checked. Psychopaths find it extremely easy to pose as financial consultants, ministers, <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">psychological counselors and psychologists</span>. And that's a scary thought.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">here's the bottom line... this woman has been stalking me and others for a long time... here are the facts...</span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><ul style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><li><strong>she was banned from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>for STALKING and abusing members...</strong></li><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">she has STALKED me...<br />and now she is STALKING and attacking members of a forum she is not a member of... </span></ul><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">she is a predator...</span><br /><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i blocked her home IP address from my blog... she then began stalkng me using computers from her place of employment... when i told her i knew it was her and was going to report her... she at first denied it... then told me </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">'so what? there is nothing you can do about it'.</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. she then attempted to intimidate me into not contacting her employer... but i did... and now she is in a rage... because i have already discovered that she is not what she claims to be... and am getting close to finding out what she really is... and she's not liking it... again i quote Dr. Robert Hare...</span><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 204, 204);">Even more amazing is the fact that when psychopaths do get exposed by someone who is not afraid to admit that they have been conned, the psychopath is a master at painting their victims as the "real culprits."</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><br /></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink is enraged... and now she is employing classic psychopathic techniques</span> <div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>to try to divert attention from the issue at hand... she is an abusive stalker...<br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>first she tries <em>covert intimidation:</em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em></em></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Another thing I noticed on her blog, that my place of work will be SURE to notice, is that she is compromising patient confidentiality and a corporation's good name herSELF, by using the hospital's actual name (never once mentioned on my journal). Keep on shoveling, you twit. In your grandiosity, you are messing with bigger and badder people than you are capable of recognizing. Corporations take their "good name" VERY seriously, even more seriously than you take yours. And they can DO something about it, more effective things than ravings and character assassination attempts.</blockquote></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>here she tries to insinuate that 'big bad' Providence Medical Centers will be coming after me... .of course this is ridiculous... and doesn't work... then she tries...<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><em>playing the victim:</em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em></em></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Jobs are dear nowadays, in this economy. Even nursing jobs. So it is, for me, a particularly low blow, to have a gnashing crazy woman hate that I disagree with her and then proceed to try and take me down where it matters. Which she can't do, but it's the THOUGHT, you know? It's her intention. Fucking with my sole means of support. For my daughter, grandson, son, and animals, NOT just me.</blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">now she's the victim... of course it was actually BinkStink who was toying with her 'sole means of support'... by using hospital computers to read blogs and forums and attack me and others, while on their time clock... this was a choice </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">she</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> made and she didn't think about consequences...because psychopaths never think about consequences... but now that she sees there are some.. she is now the </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">victim...<br /><br /></em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i refuse to feel any shame for going after an abusive stalker... you will see BinkStink call me a 'dangerous person'... you will also see her call a nurse she works with a 'dangerous person'...</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">what does a psychopath consider to be a 'dangerous person'?... someone who is onto them... their way of dealing with such 'dangerous people' is to attempt to destroy them.. if they can't do it physically, they do with a smear campaign... full of lies and finger pointing... in an effort to discredit the person who is onto them... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">so she kicks it up another notch</span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... vilifying the real victims... </em></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">there is no need to offer examples... are they are legion and well known to anyone who reads here... or knows of her... </span><br /></strong><div style="text-align: center;"><strong><a href="http://photobucket.com/images/boo%20hoo" target="_blank"><img style="width: 162px; height: 361px;" alt="Boo fucking hoo Pictures, Images and Photos" src="http://i53.photobucket.com/albums/g65/theblaz_01/boo-hoo.jpg" border="0" /></a></strong><br /><strong></strong></div></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink's 'contribution' to abuse victims is to offer up more abuse... to vilify ALL of them... not just me... to point her finger and blame the victims... to POINT OUT THE STAIN ON THE ABUSED... all the while wearing the cloak of an expert (ie psychiatric nurse)... which i believe will soon be proven to be a completely false identity... in her own words...:</span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>As I've written before, the unthinkable is true, that at heart, the victim and perp suffer from the same condition. They just take up position on opposite poles of the same problem. At heart, they are equally as greedy and destructive, at least in results. I know this is what makes me a pariah in the domestic violence victim community, this willingness of mine to point out the stain on the lily white garment of the abused</blockquote></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">her sole objective is to further victimize victims... it's rather interesting that BinkStink never mentions her own 'horrible abuse', except in passing... there is no description of that abuse offered, ever... and i believe there is a reason for it... she is a pathological liar... and now that she is under great scrutiny... her lies about having been an abuse victim herself can be easily weighed against over 5,000 posts of lies and subterfuge while stalking the </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... as well as those from her own blog...</span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i was threatened and menaced and beaten... verbally emotionally and physically, by a psychopath for over 15 years.. my tolerance level for it is now ZERO... and i am going to go after this abusive psychopath... she has not only attacked me... but she has attacked other Domestic Violence victims... psychopaths do not stop... unless, to quote Cleckley's The Mask of Sanity... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">'they are </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">forcibly</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> stopped'</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... i have hit her the only place it hurts... </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">economically</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... you cannot appeal to the </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">better nature </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">of a psychopath... because they don't have one.. she will never understand that her abuse of people is wrong... she will never be sorry for her behavior.. all you can do is counter attack and aim for an area that causes them some PERSONAL DISCOMFORT or FRUSTRATION...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i intend to keep pounding away at her until she 'choses' to go away... if it requires '50 pages' of emails to her employer... or a formal complaint to the medical board... or letters from myself and others to the attorney general... alerts to patients rights organizations... whatever it takes... i am going to do it...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">psychopaths value their MASK OF SANITY dearly.. it is what allows them to walk through this world and do their dirty work... unimpeded... i am going to claw and rip at her mask until it is in shreds... and she is revealed for what she is... a MONSTER... in her latest attempts to vilify me... among a few actual quotes from me... and some she has fabricated, is one that stands out... i did indeed say this to her... while she was taunting my poverty... "you obviously find poverty very amusing... as long as it isn't YOURS."... she seems to value two things... her 'reputation' i.e. her MASK... and her job...</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Conscience seems to depend on the ability to imagine consequences. But most "consequences" relate to pain in some way, and psychopaths really don't understand pain in the emotional sense. They understand frustration of not getting what they want, and to them, that is pain. But the fact seems to be that they act based solely on a sort of Game Theory evaluation of a situation: what will they get out of it, and what will it cost? And these "costs" have nothing to do with being humiliated, causing pain, sabotaging the future, or any of the other possibilities that normal people consider when making a choice. </blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>she has already come close to conceding... while still vilifying me and taking the victim stance:</strong></div><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I know I'll never "win" a contest with such a person. I can't and won't go so far as she has. All I can do is warn others to stay far, far away lest she come after them, too. I appreciate EVERYONE'S support through this, and urge you NOT to get into pissing matches with CF, or spend a moment worrying about me.</span></blockquote><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><blockquote></blockquote></span></div><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">any other PSYCHOPATHS who are out there reading this... heed BinkStink's words... don't spend a moment worrying about your fellow psychopath BinkStink.. because she sure won't spend a moment worrying about you... but stay far away... lest i come after you too... </span><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">........................</span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><em></em></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">the nasty, nefarious, narcissistic cockroach BinkStink was recently unmasked here... in technicolor... of course... like all Narcs... she refuses to give up... to go away... and continued on with stalking my blog and posting ranting, schizophasic diatribes about me on her own blog...</span><br /></strong></div><br /><div align="left"><strong style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i had told BinkStink, in no uncertain terms, that i was not going to tolerate her </strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">abuse... and would take whatever measures necessary to put a stop to her little low rent reign of terror... and like ALL NARCS... she CHOSE not to believe me... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i told her i was going to contact Providence Medical Centers... her employer... because she was using </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">their</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> computers for hours every night... no doubt neglecting her patients in her obsessive efforts to stalk me... and writing about her betrayals of patient confidentiality.. and about her nasty, likely unfounded, attacks on co-workers in her blog...</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">calling </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">them</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> abusive and crazy... same as she says about everyone</span>...<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> except herself... of course... all Narcs believe they are above reproach.. all Narcs believe they are untouchable...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">as seen in these excerpts from her rants... in which she began to spew typical Narc lies...</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> that's not where she works... she</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">can't access my site from there</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">, even though she </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">doesn't work there</span>.<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. well, even</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">if she works there, i don't have her real name</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">so she's </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">not worried</span>.</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. the usual Narc lying bullshit...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(my comments in purple)</span><br /></strong></div><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">if you don't want me to read your blog, STOP SENDING ME INVITATIONS TO DO SO</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (as we all know..no one has to INVITE a disgusting Narc to stalk you!)</span></span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">You love it when I read your blog, you live to check your site count. It's too transparent<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (typical Narc... telling me i want her around while i'm screaming at her to get lost)</span></strong></span> You'd make your blog private or invitation only if you were so APPALLED at being READ (your version of stalked). <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(again telling me what i think...what i should do....)</strong></span> And wrong AGAIN about where I work<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(NO... I'm RIGHT ABOUT WHERE YOU WORK... ABSOLUTELY CORRECT... if I wasn't she wouldn't spend ANY time trying to tell me I'm wrong - LOL)</span></strong></span> We can't access sites like LiveJournal or Blogger or Facebook for a reason<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(LIE.. LIE)</span></strong></span> I wouldn't worry even if you had my NAME, which you do not and cannot possibly have. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(<em>is </em>worried and is FISHING )</strong></span> Your accusations will look like insane drivel<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(trying to do some pre-emptive intimidation)</span> </strong></span>The nursing board cares about facts and proof, not the ravings of a lonely spurned internet ghost</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(UH HUH - methinks BinkStink doest protest WAAAY TOO MUCH... a dead giveaway)</span></strong></span><br /><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></div></blockquote><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">now of course i've told this crazy abusive bitch repeatedly to take a hike... .take a slide in her own slimey shit... but she's</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">an abusive defiant psychotic Narc</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... getting rid of someone like BinkStink is like trying to pull a tick off a dog's butt... BinkStink will have to be FORCED to go away... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">here are some excerpts from her next ranting diatribe posted in her Narc rage... this bitch is not only vile... i'm beginning to think she really may have some underlying mental illness... or the world's worst case of </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">DUMBASS</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... </span></span></strong><br /><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=dumbass-1.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/dumbass-1.gif" border="0" /></a></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">NOT continue to send little "hints" and "entreaties" to read her blog, dropping her scat in little titillating bits just big enough to give a hint of stink<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(that's your own nasty shit you're smelling BinkStink.. not mine ) </span></strong></span></span><br /><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Send me an invite to read "Episode Three" of her smear-fmst on Bink<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> <span style="font-style: italic;">(speaking in third person... can we say SCHIZOID... and she was </span><em style="font-style: italic;">not</em><span style="font-style: italic;"> 'invited'.. in fact i had blocked her home IP weeks before)</span></strong></span> I DO read Mary's blog<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(i thought she wrote that she DIDN'T read it... it's so hard to keep up with all these NARC LIES... they change constantly)</span></strong></span> I check it about every other day<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(about every other <em>MINUTE</em>).</strong></span> From home<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(SHE CAN'T...SHE'S BLOCKED)</span></strong></span> Our "net nanny" at work does not allow us to access Facebook or MySpace or Blogger. <span style="font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>this is course is a BLATANT NARC LIE)</strong></span> It's tremendously ANNOYING because I know my sunflowers are ready to be harvested and must hope they do not shrivel by the time I get home<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (poor NARC... neglecting her sunflowers to STALK ME... soooooooo sad...)</span></strong></span><br /><br />Why do I read her blog? She entertains me<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(she is a STALKER.. that's why she reads the blog.. even after i banned her home IP... she started stalking me from work)</span></strong></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> I am and have always been someone who is first to the trainwreck to ogle the disaster. </span>I can eat spagetti and corn with great appetite while watching abdominal surgery on Discovery Health Channel. <span style="font-weight: bold;">I have an embarrassing fascination with gore.</span> Forgive me. I've read all Ann Rule's books and relate to her a lot. I know more about birth defects and crazy ass freakazoid genetic disorders than many doctors SIMPLY because that is the kind of stuff I read about before I fall asleep at night. <strong style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);">(FREAK reading about freaks...sounds about right )</span></strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> </span>My mind is like a bad neighborhood at night.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(during that schizoid rambling... she did give some insight into the 'machinations' of her pathology... what a whack job)</span></strong></span><br /><br />Reading Mary's journal is like reading a case study. She desperately wants to imagine me reading her journal and getting pissed off<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(nope... i prefer to imagine this crazy bitch dead and in Hell)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>She enjoys the thought that I am sweating her threats to report me to the board of nursing. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(narcs never sweat anything...)</strong></span> It gives her great thrills (otherwise lacking in her life) to IMAGINE that someone else is SUFFERING because of what she says about them. It would please her to no end if I did lose my nursing license and end up as broke-ass as she says she is<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(i concede to this one!! she shouldn't be near sick people!! :p )</span></strong></span><br /><br />Now what kind of person gets their jollies out of causing PAIN to other people? <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(you BinkStink)</strong></span> What kind of person is it that would take ACTION to destroy another person's life? <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(BinkStink)</strong></span> While AT THE SAME TIME make pages and pages of requests for PITY for her own (rather imagined) destroyed life? <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(BinkStink must be talking about the 5,000 PLUS whining posts SHE made on the Catbox before being BOOTED)</strong></span> What kind of person with a shred of conscience can do that, without a stab of guilt, without a natural boundary past which she would not venture? <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(no one with a shred of conscience... again she's talking about HERSELF)</strong></span> Mary is a classic case of an ABUSER disguising herself as a VICTIM. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(HIPPODROME PROJECTOR is running... again she's talking about HERSELF - read her first paragraphs - she ENJOYS reading about my pain & problems.mine and others....GLOATS over it... she's said so HERSELF)</strong></span><br /><br />For a while I WAS afraid of her<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(</span><em style="font-style: italic;">WHO'S</em><span style="font-style: italic;"> playing VICTIM?.. HAHAHAHA)</span>.</strong></span> I thought GAWD what if she FOUND ME?? What if she showed up on my doorstep one day? It's in the news all the time. These people do not have the "natural" boundaries that prevent most of us from taking certain kinds of action<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(YEAH... like stalking a blog after you've been asked, then </span><em style="font-style: italic;">told</em><span style="font-style: italic;"> to 'get lost' )</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I do not fear her threats to call a complaint to the nursing board, because she'd need my NAME and a legitimate complaint to do so<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(here she goes again)</span></strong></span> I'm sure she knows this, but yet it is the last of her lifeblood, the last thrills she allows herself, to threaten and smear, alternating with embarrassing (to anyone else) pleas for pity.<br /><br />You are a pain machine, a vampire who feels no strike of conscience for the bloodsucked corpse at your feet. As long as YOU get your satisfaction, to hell with everyone else<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(PROJECTING again)</span></strong></span> Your misery is so pervasive I truly do NOT comprehend it, and yes, it really DOES frighten me. God gave me the instinct to flee from such hopeless destructiveness<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong> (hmmm... then you'd think the bitch would FLEE me instead of STALK me )</strong></span> I know you and yet I still cannot fathom why a person would so persistently seek to create more pain for others, when a life lived well has already more than enough pain </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(i'm really fed up with this sanctimony spewing Narc bitch)</strong></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span></div><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">now if all this garbage aimed at me isn't enough... then the nasty bitch starts in on some poor nurse she works with who has a baby dying of cancer!!! she is, in her own sneaky Narc way... GLOATING over this nurse's suffering!!.. she has obviously been envious of this nurse for some time... and starts projecting her own nasty garbage onto this poor woman... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">this was the final straw... after reading this spew... in which she </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">feigns </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">compassion and concern... while gloating and hinting the woman has it coming to her... i picked up the phone and called the administrators of Providence Medical Centers... and told them about their own nasty version of Nurse Ratched... RatchedWretchedBinkStink!!. </span><br /></span></strong><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=cuckoo16square.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/cuckoo16square.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">here's the spew that caused me to narc out the NARC... </span><br /><div style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Anyway, a couple of weeks ago a nurse I work with had a very sick baby, sixteen months old, rushed to Children's Hospital unable to urinate or move her legs. Turns out she has cancer, Atypical Rhabdoid Teratoid Tumor or AT/RT. All but 11% of children beneath the age of three live less than a year, in spite of massive chemotherapy, radiation, stem cell transplant and surgery. It is a "new" sort of cancer, identified as a separate type in 1987, and is known to resist chemotherapy and grow back stronger than ever.<em>An oncology nurse thinks her baby daughter has a urinary tract infection and constipation, but it turns out to be the WORST possible problem</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (she is taunting this woman... for being an oncology nurse and not recognizing cancer in her own baby... <span style="font-size:130%;">BinkStink is a sick evil vindictive bitch</span> )</span></strong></span><br /><br />I do pray, although I am not sure who or What I am praying to. And as I get older, I am less and less sure what I am praying FOR. Of course, a miracle for this precious child is what I pray for<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (which is it you lying bitch... praying for a miracle... or just NARC ASS </span><em style="font-style: italic;">FAKING</em><span style="font-style: italic;"> IT?)</span></strong></span> And I hesitate for just a moment to order around a Higher Power that contains within it the "miracle" of how tragedy can destroy your life and force you to rise from your own ashes into a new one<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(WHAT?... the Narc hates to order God around?.. i can't imagine that!!!!)</span></strong></span> The mother of this child is a nurse I work with several times a week. In the last year I have worked with her, I have grown to pretty much loathe her<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(OF </span><em style="font-style: italic;">COURSE</em><span style="font-style: italic;"> !!!!!.. .this nasty bitch LOATHES everyone... like all Narcs she is envious and jealous of everyone! )</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><br /><br />She is very abusive, the kind of person I keep at arm's length and force myself to be polite and friendly with. The kind of person who I see sitting HERE and go OVER THERE so as not to sit near her and get her focused upon me. She is negative as a rule, and envious. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(P.R.O.J.E.C.T.I.O.N)</strong></span> Her assignment is always "unfair" and she spends a lot of her time cornering her co-workers to complain about how the charge nurse is singling her out and "punishing" her with such an unfair assignment. If she spent that time complaining just doing her JOB she wouldn't have to throw a temper tantrum at the end of the shift because she has to stay late to chart, or brow beat the charge nurse into giving her overtime for not taking her breaks<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(YEAH... while the Narc BinkStink is spending HER time on her JOB stalking my blog!! )</span> </strong></span><br /><br />She will blatantly lie to the director of nursing while you are standing there aghast. And then tell you "I love you so much!!!" while you writhe in disgust and fear of what she is going to do next. <strong>I don't ask her for help with my bedbound patients because she is rough with them</strong>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(it was this obvious PROJECTIVE SPEW from BinkStink that convinced me she's abusing her patients!!)</strong></span><br /><br />I say a special "prayer" each time I know I am working with her. Sort of like a virtual garlic necklace, I guess.When her baby girl was diagnosed with this horrible cancer, I felt such a mass of inarticulate pain and remorse and stubborn SOMETHING I dare not put it into words even now. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(yeah... i bet...)</strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>The last I heard, she remains "herself". Unlike most of the other staff, I do not call her on the phone, I have not participated in the bake sale and silent auctions scheduled for next week. I have not sent money or food<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(what a SUPRISE!! BinkStink's true selfish, envious NARC self is showing here, big time... and she's BRAGGING about being a cold blooded bitch!!)</span></strong></span> .<br /><br />Of course, this nurse, who even the doctors have formally complained about is now a saint, and you know, I really get that<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (stinking of ENVY)</span></strong></span> She's just had the worst possible thing happen to her, and it is only going to GET worse and worse even if there is a conventional miracle in this child's future<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (GLOATING)</span></strong></span> I sometimes feel confused but I know it isn't really confusion. It's my mind trying to stay balanced on a bucking bronco, to hold two diametrically opposed thoughts at the same time. A truly hateful and destructive person is experiencing the worst tragedy and grief I myself can imagine. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(GLOATING AGAIN )</strong></span> I can't and won't forget that this person is abusive and psychologically dangerous<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(this crazy bitch thinks EVERYONE in the world is abusive and dangerous except her... everyone seeing the pattern to this?)</span><br /><br /></strong></span>It is these things that make me more hesitant than EVER to float up an order to God or Whatever set Existence in motion<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(wow... again the crazy bitch is hinting that she COULD intercede by chatting it up with God. but isn't going to do it... WHACK JOB)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Do I have the power, or even the choice to TRY, to bring up an edible fruit from what is sown in tragedy?I guess I HAVE done that already<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(OMG)</span></strong></span> <div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div></blockquote><strong style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">that was very disturbing.</span>.. <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">so i picked up the phone and called... and told the administrator part of the story... and forwarded her some highlights of BinkStink's raging diabtribes... they were concerned... about her using their computers... about her accusations that another nurse is abusive... about her prattling on about patients and their conditions... </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i sent them the IP logs... showing BinkStink on my blog for HOURS at a time... when she was on their time clock.. .and supposed to be caring for gravely ill patients... i'm sure i'm just one of many people the whack job is stalking... so she probably spends almost every moment at work using their computers for some nefarious purpose... </span></span></strong><br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=liar-2.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/liar-2.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">anyone who actually knows me in real life... and anyone who has read this blog for any time at all knows that i have been trying to get BinkStink to stop maligning me... slandering me... attacking me and stalking me for some time. i exposed her as a Narc on here... posting her spews in an attempt to get her to back off... i blocked her home IP... and she just kept on stalking... using the hospital computers even more... so i TOLD her to knock it off.....or i was going to complain to Providence Medical Centers... but like ALL NARCS... BinkStink considers herself to be omnipotent... impervious to consequences... all powerful behind a keyboard...</span></strong><br /><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i sent her the IP logs... she KNEW i had them... knew i could prove she was using their computers... and what did she do?... she</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">LIED </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">about working there... when that didn't work, she</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">LIED </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">about having the ability to access my blog from the hospital computers... and when that didn't work (even the hospital confirmed to me what SHE WAS DOING!)... she became defiant and told me there was </span>'<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">nothing i could do to stop' </span>her... and that i '<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ENJOYED</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">' her abuse... so.. i dropped a dime on her sick, Narcissistic ass to her employers... just like i said i would do... </span></span><br /></strong></p><strong><br /></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">let's look at some of BinkStink's BLATANT NARC LIES </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">(which were refuted to me BY HER OWN EMPLOYER)...</span> </span><br /></strong><ul style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><li><strong>she IS stalking my blog from Providence Medical Center... </strong></li><li><strong>she IS using their computers... </strong></li><li><strong>she IS employed there... </strong></li><li><strong>there IS NO 'NET NANNY'... </strong></li></ul><strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">one thing she says is true... i have had to contact her from multiple emails... because like ALL NARCS... BinkStink will smear </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">her</em><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> goose scat... then block any possibility of reply or self-defense from the person she ATTACKED...</span> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">a typical NARC CONTROL TACTIC</span>...<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">here are some emails from the nasty BinkStink... </span><br /></strong><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">in this one... BinkStink, who like ALL NARCS, is an </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">expert on everything</span>...<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> sends me an email suggesting</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span>how and what i should write in my own blog</span>..</span></strong><br /></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I am serious. Your content is less organized</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (ah...the old gaslighting routine... the old you're crazy by i'm not crap..)</span></span></strong> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">You crank on the same point fifty times, as if you are trying to force someone who doesn't believe you. I know you screen your comments, so I'm wondering if you have received a bunch of unsupportive ones<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>? <span style="font-style: italic;">(SHE WISHES... the only unsupportive comments I have ever gotten were from her or her Catbox cronies... and I can prove that)</span></strong></span> Or people asking after your welfare<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>? (MORE gaslighting...<em>BORING</em>)</strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Are you telling them to shove it too?<br /><br />The post I attributed to you has the same IP address as you. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(someone left BinkStink a negative comment.. so of course it had to be me...because she's so BELOVED and ESTEEMED by everyone else in the world :P) </strong></span><br /><br />Hello. And you've said the same thing before. My comments are unmoderated, you don't have to "disguise" yourself. Re: the demonic imagery. It's just over the top. Mike is not Hannibal Lecter<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (i guess that's because BinkStink is Hannibal Lecter - and typical Narc minimizing the abuse I endured at the hands of a PSYCHOPATH who tried to kill me many times, to which I have eyewitnesses. But BINKSTINK KNOWS ALL!!!)</span></strong></span><br /><br />You hammer the satanic imagery in a way that makes you look insincere. You don't temper your description of him with realistic descriptions of yourSELF. I have to conclude you're not honest<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(i think we can all conclude now that BinkStink is not HONEST...)</span></strong></span> It's too one sided. </span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></span><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></p><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>her 'concern' is quite touching is it not?.. HAHAHAHAHA... but now... BinkStink has been <em>caught</em>... Providence is onto her... so she changes her tune... same song... different tune... </strong></span><br /><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=ItsAllFunandGames.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/ItsAllFunandGames.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="left"></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Yeah, whatever. I can't find a point worth responding to. Nor do I want to pick on someone who is obviously ill and in pain. I sincerely apologize for not recognizing your condition earlier<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (again... i'm crazy.. but the whack job BinkStink -- why she's perfectly sane..and of course as with ALL NARCS... there is no such thing as a 'sincere' apology )</span></strong></span><br /><br />You can't comprehend what I write. You are so bitter and envious that you went blind a long time ago<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(see??..no such thing as a 'sincere' apology)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Your agenda is transparent.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>this from a whack job NARC whose agenda is as clear as saran wrap )</strong></span> PITY ME. GIVE IT TO ME. Go call the waaaaahmbulance. People like you dig their own graves and blame everyone else because they are six feet under. Crawl out and get over yourself. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(remember... this is coming from a NURSE who also considers herself QUALIFIED TO GIVE ADVICE TO ABUSED WOMEN... sick isn't it?)</span> I mean that in the best possible way, though you'll consider this an insult too. If reading your blog is CAUSING you to contact me via EIGHT different user identities so far, then good gawd I'll stop<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(here we go!!...she's been caught...so now..she's VOLUNTARILY going to stop stalking me...it's all HER IDEA...)</span></strong></span><br /><br />I don't need this shit, <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(ah... she doesn't need my shit...but she seemed to think i desperately needed and wanted her shit )</strong></span>I got rid of my abuser and don't tolerate them in my life if I have any choice. And I DO have a choice with YOU. Piss off. If I'm such an abusive narc to YOU then act like it. Quit bothering me. Go 'no contact'. Quit coming back for more "abuse". Problem is, you are so lonely that even 'abuse' is preferable to NOTHING. </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(BinkStink is busted... and angry... she's been bothering me for months... and that's ok... BUT -- now that i'm one up... by getting her busted at work... she's enraged... and now she's doing the typical narc 'rewriting history' and saying it's me bothering her... gee....i sure hope i'm bothering her!!...and she's the one who keeps 'coming back for more')</strong></span></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">she's been busted... but she just can't quit... she spends two hours on my blog... again from her employers' computers... trying to hack into my sitemeter... and my widget tools!!. and then has her buddy Goongoddess try to do the same...</span> <p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">but of course it wasn't BinkStink... noooooooooo... instead she blames the computer nerds at her place of employment!!.. it's 'way beyond her ken 'to use simple blogger tools children use all day every day'!!! oh... i'm soooooooo believing that!!!. this SAME abusive bitch who tried to give me advice on how to run my own blog now can't blog at all!!! this bitch couldn't tell the truth if her miserable life (or job) depended on it!!!</span></p><p align="left"><strong></strong></p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=009.png" target="_blank"><img style="width: 300px; height: 300px;" alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/009.png" border="0" /></a></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">I am leaving you alone. The Information Services where I work will be researching this "case" thoroughly to determine if any true breaches of policy have been made . It will be as simple as tracking backward, to see if I "blogged you" from work, which I did not<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> <span style="font-style: italic;">(do tell!!. i thought she didn't use their computers at all!!. wait -- i thought she didn't work there!! i thought they had a 'net nanny'!!. she's told so many pathological lies, she can't even remember them all).</span> </strong></span>a very simple and easy thing for our computer techs to ascertain. By now, it will be apparent that your accusations are false, thus discrediting you. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(all of my accusations are IN PRINT and black & white proof was ALREADY SENT TO HER EMPLOYER... but of course the NARC BinkStink will attempt to discredit me... that's what ALL NARCS DO)</strong></span><br /><br />Someone else is using tools on your blog. That is waaaayyyy beyond my ken<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (BULLSHIT... she tried to hack my blog then had her horse-faced- Tonto, Goongoddess try it.. please refer to the '<a href="http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2010/03/goongoddess-fails-test.html">Goongoddess fails a test' post</a>.. for PROOF that she was trying to access my tools)</span></strong></span> As for any accesses to your blog from Providence, rest assured it is no longer me doing so,<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> <span style="font-style: italic;">(wait a minute!!..i thought it NEVER WAS her doing it!!. isn't that what she SAID???)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>and our people will know that.</span> <strong style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(our people!!! hahahahahahahaha... ah... now it's OUR people... its her and HER people investigating me now.!!.. instead of the reality: her employers sniffing around her)</span></strong></blockquote><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong><p></p><strong style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">let's try to keep all the lies straight here...</span><br /></strong><ul style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><li><strong>she doesn't work at Providence Medical Centers... <span style="font-style: italic;">but she does.</span>..</strong></li><li><strong>she was't using their computers... <span style="font-style: italic;">but she was...</span></strong></li><li><strong>she wasn't stalking my blog from work... but now she's <span style="font-style: italic;">going to STOP stalking my blog from work</span>... but of course...</strong></li><li><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">she </span>hasn't done anything <span style="font-style: italic;">wrong</span>...</strong></li><li><strong>all my accusations are <span style="font-style: italic;">false</span>...</strong></li></ul><strong style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">narc lie narc lie narc lie... there's a bit of a problem, BinkStink... a bit of a problem... see.. you were on your blog... talking about patients at Providence Medical Centers... and accusing another nurse there of being abusive... and those things have </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">nothing</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> to do with me...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">i am simply going to point out your IN PRINT breaches of confidentiality and your accusations of abuse within the hospital where you work to the Washington State Medical Board</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... and they can launch their own investigation into that... i guess if you're also lying about those things... you can explain that to</span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> them</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... (and don't try to erase them - internet archives are very easily accessed! VERY EASILY!!)</span><br /></strong><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><strong>~~~~</strong></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">of course... NARCS are never to blame for the things they've done... never... someone else is </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">always </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">to blame... BinkStink is big on shifting blame... finger pointing... let me quote from an </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">open letter to Dr. Irene she posted on her own blog</span>..<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> about her being banned from the </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... where she blames Dr. Irene's failure to make it </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">a RULE not to stalk harass or slander other members</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">-- for Goongoddess and herself stalking harassing and slandering other members of the Catbox... and of course it's the member's fault too... .for READING what she and Goongoddess said about them !!! a finger pointing blame shifting NARC in action:</span></strong></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">It was with complete shock that I signed on with my coffee one morning and found I had been banned. We both know there was no “due process” involved, and it didn’t take me long to realize <strong>your reasoning must be because of the content of private messages Earthgoddess and I sent to each other.<br /></strong>I’m pretty sure our private messages to each other did not lead me (or EG) to <strong>openly </strong>disrespect the admin staff or Irene in our public postings. I can separate my personal opinions from my public behavior<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.(ALL NARCS CAN AND DO!!!)</strong></span> <strong>I know the Catbox rules and did not break any that I am aware of.</strong> <em><strong>Snarking behind the scenes ought to be included explicitly in the posted rules</strong></em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(geez...talk about blame shifting)<br /><br /></span></strong></span>There were very hard feelings, on my part, when I was let go from the admin team. But I cooled off for about three months and resumed my participation when I was able to put it aside for the sake of the members. It felt like I’d come back home. <strong>I had no intentions of carrying on my hard feelings. I do not believe I did, <em>publically,</em> in any way.<br /><br /></strong>We <strong>discussed other members, gossiped about them with abandon.</strong><br /><br />For myself, I never meant any harm, whatsoever, to another Catbox member. Or, to any of you. I<strong> would not ever say, directly, my personal opinions to you<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(because NARCS are <em>covert</em>)</span></strong> That’s all they were. I understand that all people are multidimensional. You were seeing my backside, here. Not my best self. Not a self I would ever share directly<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.(Narcs always try to hide their true selves )</strong></span> I don’t even believe I am right in my assessments. I was venting, gossiping, spewing. All things I confined to private conversations with a trusted friend.<br /><br />I apologize deeply if what I wrote to Earthgoddess hurt any of you. <strong><em>You simply were never meant to read it, or hear it, or ever experience it.</em></strong> <em><strong>I suppose you have no one to blame but yourselves for that one<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(omg!)</span> But I do feel regret for any pain I caused</strong></em></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (she regrets being CAUGHT...)</span></strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span><p></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 51, 51);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong>t<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">hat was an amazing bit of blame shifting by a TURBONARC... it's Irene's fault she was stalking and slandering people behind the scenes... .because there wasn't a RULE about that!!. and anyone who was offended or hurt... well it was THEIR OWN FAULT for READING IT!!.</span></strong></span></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i guess it will be Providence Medical Centers fault that she was using their computers to stalk me & my blog... because they didn't keep the nasty bitch in chains while at work!!! the crap above is a shining example of the blame shifting techniques of a NARC... and here comes another one... her latest post!!! titled Mean People Suck... it is an ode to her nasty Narc self:</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span> <p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><p><strong></strong></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>How do you deal with them? DO you deal with them? <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(you report them to the hospital where they work)</strong></span> Or ignore them? I guess it depends on what they are doing<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(guess so) </span></strong></span>It's something we can all relate with. Kids can be very cruel to each other, and we write it off as a lack of maturity. But what's up with a grown person who still does this<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>? <span style="font-style: italic;">(i don't know BinkStink...what is UP when a grown person does this? shows pathological lack of maturity???)</span></strong></span><br /><br />It's "normal", for 13 year olds, they are developmentally grandiose. They are just beginning to see themselves emerge from a hazy lack of differentiation. But I'm talking about people who get stuck there because they never grew up.They accumulate adult experiences and sophistication, and do more sophisticatedly destructive things. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">(she should know</span>)</strong></span> No one ever said they can't LEARN while remaining perpetual seventh graders.<br /><br />I don't want to sound like I merely point fingers and take other people's inventories<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(no... of course not... you don't want it to SOUND like you're blame shifting...)</span></strong></span> I am in many ways a person to not be proud of. <span style="font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>whoa... stop the presses... some TRUTH... but of course she doesn't know it's the truth.. so it doesn't count... and Narcs always throw in a little bit of truth to keep you believing their nonsense )</strong></span> I have embarrassing shortcomings too. I am just not a mean person. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(<span style="font-style: italic;">hahahahahaha... no.. she's an EVIL PERSON...)</span></strong></span> I would not relish the thought someone is hurting and scared because of something I did. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(the bullshit is getting deep now)</strong></span> No matter WHAT they did to me, much less lose their job, reputation amongst their community, because I was vengeful. I will chide people or confront them in the right context. Like, when they ask for it or in consensual debate<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (ah...i was ASKING to be verbally abused, chided, slandered and stalked) </span></strong></span><br /><br />I see a moral difference between challenging a person's words or behavior, and telling lies so they might lose their job, rather an obvious point to most folks. Reputations, jobs and positions are dear and most adults have them. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(GEE... SHE sure doesn't mind SMEARING AND SLANDERING people... She said it herself that she slandered with WILD ABANDON... stay tuned.. she'll do here in just a few paragraphs)</strong></span> They are earned over time, by hard work and trustworthy behavior. They are built over years, very carefully. They're worth the effort.<br /><br />Someone has, with unusual grandiosity for an adult, appointed themselves to make mischief with my job. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">(how grandiose of me to report this crazy bitch... shame shame on me)</span> </strong></span>Someone with a lot of time on their hands. Someone without a job or credibility of their own to occupy their time, apparently<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> <span style="font-style: italic;">(unlike BinkStink who has several hours of free time to spend on Providence's time clock.. stalking my blog... while her patients languish</span>)</strong></span>.Case in point: A person, whom I shall not name <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(she's NAMED me over and over...wonder why she's not NAMING me NOW?)</strong></span>but should be obvious, turned her bitter sights to attempt to get me in some sort of "trouble" at my place of work. Not that it is possible to do with her "methods", which were to send enough emails to amount to fifty printed pages to the corporate office, complaining that I was spending HOURS stalking her online from my workplace<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (which she was... and the 'method' of complaining is generally to complain, i believe )</span></strong></span><br /><br />She hammered the recipients with stats from her blog's site meter, and interjected them with her trademark . . . well, ravings. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(simply sent her spews with an explanation of why and how she is stalking me - i'd be happy to share them so you can see how 'irrational' they were... LOL)</strong></span> She went especially heavy on the ellipses<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(hey BinkStink... F... U... C... K... Y... O...U... )</span></strong></span> I was given them to read, and yep, guess who? A few cursory checks by our I.S. people ruled that I have "stalked" no one from a work computer, discrediting her entirely<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(LIE)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>A few days ago she sent five or ten messages to me via a NINTH new LiveJournal identity demanding I leave her alone and stop hacking her blog.<br /><br />Apparently, someone from the IS department took a couple of hours and perused her blog themselves, using some tools only IS people (computer geeks that they are) know how to use. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(here we go with the BULLSHIT... we're talking simple blogging tools... like WIDGETS... this bitch is so full of shit she could fertilize a third world country..yeah..i'm sure some I.S geek was trying to hack into my PHOTOBUCKET account and my WIDGETS....... i will be asking 'her' I.S. people, btw...)</strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><br /></span>Don't worry, dear, this is what HAPPENS when you make false statements to a really large corporation who then worries you might be a security risk. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>( HAHAHAHAHA....finger pointing and blame shifting...it's BinkStink who is breaching patient confidentiality... and accusing nurses of abuse..and using hospital computers...not me!!!!..... i'm not a 'security risk'... I DON'T WORK THERE... this bitch is really digging deep)</strong></span> Feeling a bit . . . invaded?? Idiot<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.(how about YOU BinkStink..you IDIOT...feeling a bit <em>BUSTED</em>?)<br /></strong></span><br />The complaints themselves were "odd", said the human resource rep I spoke to.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> <span style="font-style: italic;">(yeah...that's what they told me too... they found BinkStink's spews VERY ODD</span>) </strong></span>She was concerned this person has gone to great lengths to discover my name and place of work<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>,<span style="font-style: italic;"> (OH </span><em style="font-style: italic;">PLEASE...</em><span style="font-style: italic;">i got the bitch's place of work from my IP logger... and she signs her own name KIM to her open letter to the Catboxers she maligned!... boy... lot of heavy detective work involved in THAT... LOL)</span></strong></span> may even know where I live and perhaps be dangerous. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(see?...now she's trying to make ME into the stalker...blame shifting...blame shifting...typical Narc blame shifiting!!...gee BinkStink...maybe you should go into HIDING...that would make plenty of people happy!!!...BinkStink sure does think a lot of people are 'dangerous!!..me...a nurse she works with...a forum member on a forum she's stalking but not on, that she knows nothing about... but you'll see her attack here below...on and on and on)<br /></strong></span><br />I know it is revenge for suggesting her father was a grand poohbah KKK even though that's probably true<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (see??. he nasty bitch just CANNOT stop with the slams)</span></strong></span> I did my best to ignore the three part BinkStink expose' but I was stupefied after working too many days in a row and my judgment was impaired. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(or maybe she was stupified simply because she's a STUPID OBNOXIOUS NARC)<br /><br /></strong></span>I should have never posted it<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.(of course she has yet to remove it)</strong></span> For all I know, she's black or Hispanic or a man. I was sort of looking forward to my expose', and found it disappointing in it's lack of imagination and substance. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(..MAYBE YOU'LL LIKE <em>THIS </em>ONE BETTER!!)</strong></span> Like I said, my judgment was impaired and I blew it. I still wasn't sure she wasn't just jousting with me. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(hmmmm...all those emails telling her to knock it off were just love notes, i guess)</strong></span> I am a sucker for jousting. I should know that mentally ill people are concrete thinkers<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(yes...since she likely is mentally ill...she should know)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I should have completely ignored her a LONG time ago, when everyone else started ignoring her too. That is what we are taught to do with "abusive", i.e., mean people. Playing their game with them, unless you are a mean person yourself, is a sure way to get yourself in an unhappy situation. They always "win" because they are willing to go farther than you ever would<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. (blame shifting......see article at bottom of page<span style="font-style: italic;">)</span></strong></span> They do not have conventional limits, or depths of depravity. I should KNOW that, having lived with one for seven years. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(she's been living with one FOREVER....herself)</strong></span> My bad, entirely.<br /><br />So what is it about ME that I would entertain a person like her, the type of person that once recognized, most normal people steer clear of? <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(YOU'RE A CRAZED NARC ABUSER WITH A PATHOLOGICAL NEED TO ALWAYS BE RIGHT, MAYBE???) </strong></span>That's the real issue. I did get paid to entertain some very sick people for many years, but I'm devoting forty five minutes of my morning to writing this out for free and that is not good<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(typical NARC..thinks people should pay her for her abusing them)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I should be above even giving it a moment of my attention. It's middle school drama. Yet . <strong><em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(yet).</span></em></strong> . she tried to get me in "trouble" at work. My job is the singular thing that provides me with . . . everything. I went to school for five years and spent 40K on the education to get it. I've spent the last almost 19 years of my life "being" a nurse. It's the kind of vocation that uses up your entire intelligence and personhood. It is a sacrifice, and a gift, to be a nurse<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(WHAT A SAINT...)</span></strong></span><br /><br />Jobs are dear nowadays, in this economy<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(this one cracks me up!!.. let's not forget BinkStink raving on for days that yours truly doesn't have a a job because i am a lazy ass!!.. who refuses to 'try'... even told a severely disabled person who stumbled on her blog their poverty and INABILITY to work was somehow THEIR FAULT... that we're people who want to steal from the 'gubbermint'... please refer to the '<a href="http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2010/01/and-nowour-feature-presentation.html">OUR FEATURE PRESENTATION' </a>posts)</span> </strong></span>Even nursing jobs.<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i358.photobucket.com/albums/oo28/Artful_S/quotes/artful-s-quotes-128.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 300px; cursor: pointer; height: 300px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i358.photobucket.com/albums/oo28/Artful_S/quotes/artful-s-quotes-128.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />A year and a half ago, I went through Hell to get back on my feet, a lot of terrific fear, a complete change of venue (I used to be a psych nurse and retrained for this job). I had to become a novice again, after several years of being at the "top" of my field. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(DAMN... you'd think the bitch would have a little empathy for others if this was the case)</strong></span> I'd lost my confidence entirely, thanks to subjecting myself to a very bad man. I didn't just lose my confidence in my looks or wifeliness, I lost it all, across the board. So it is, for me, a particularly low blow, to have a gnashing crazy woman hate that I disagree with her and then proceed to try and take me down where it matters. Which she can't do, but it's the THOUGHT, you know<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>? <span style="font-style: italic;">(she seems pretty WORRIED about something i 'can't do')</span></strong></span> It's her intention. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(yes. it is.)</strong></span> It would bring her great satisfaction to know she brought me down. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(YES IT WOULD)</strong></span> See, what I did, was much more than call bullshit and confront her about the inconsistencies and evasions in her "story". <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(classic Narc: playing martyr here... minimizing her dozens of hateful spews... just like with stalking the Catboxers... she meant no harm... uh huh... she has a bridge in Brooklyn for sale too..)</strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>TO HER.<br /><br />But to HER, the magnitude of what I did to her is EQUAL to the magnitude of what she has attempted to do with me. She can't tell the difference, and is therefore, a dangerous person. Finding her father after refusing to believe her sob story<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> <span style="font-style: italic;">(there she goes again... she posts some crazy shit about some KKK member..then says he's my father ..... and here she goes again... gee...can't imagine why i'd be offended and angry.... can't imagine why i would report this crazy bitch!)</span></strong></span> this , and eventually banning her for endless name-calling twaddle was tantamount in her mind to justify fucking with my sole means of support. For my daughter, grandson, son, and animals<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>, <span style="font-style: italic;">(WOW... sounds like it just might be BinkStink's adult DAUGHTER and SON who are 'bleeding the gubbermint'... gee, BinkStink... your lazy ass, adult DAUGHTER and SON don't have a jOBS???. WHY NOT??? they're out there!!. that's what you told me!!. anyone who 'doesn't have a job is a piece of lazy trash'!!. that's what you said to ME!!! soooo are your lazy ass adult daughter and son WORTHY of government aid???...FOOD STAMPS???...WELFARE???...you got some of those nasty welfare moochers you despise so living in the same house with you?????? )... </span></strong></span>NOT just me.<br /><br />From what I know about personality disorders, a person WITH one is a person with a hazy, indistinct sense of self. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(PERSONAL KNOWLEDGE i'm assuming)</strong></span> It is easily threatened, and viciously defended. An insult is life or death. They are both grandiose and so insignificant to themselves. This is the mechanism that drives them to crush others who disagree with or reject them. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(thanks for explaining yourself)</strong></span> They cannot just walk away and say "whatEVER!!" <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(nope..not even when someone they are stalking tells them they're going to call their employer)</strong></span> They mistakenly believe rejection is a death blow. And their response is overshot accordingly, another death blow. When we are talking ideas and honesty and integrity, which are much higher on the food chain than they can grasp, they are struggling, like a 13 year old terror of a kid, for a simple sense of SELF. The sense they do have is so fragile a breeze would dislodge it. It really is life and death, to them.I can better understand "mean people" from this point of view. We were all 13 years old, and remember our pathetically youthful torments. They were real at the time, but as we matured, awareness with less self centeredness abided.<br /><br />I think it must be hell to be fifty something years old, with the coping skills of a 13 year old, the same fears and terrors but ugly rather than cute. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(she can only imagine because she's only 44 right now...)</strong></span> And NO adult around to provide for you while you grow up and get over yourself. Worse, to be unaware that this is how you appear to others . . . not a victim at all, but a lunatic to be feared. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(PROJECTION...HIPPODROME PROJECTION)</strong></span> People in their fifties with the emotional maturity of a 13 year old ARE VERY scary people. <span style="font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">as are crazy whack job Narcs in their 40's... entrusted with the CARE of very sick people!!!)</span> </strong></span>As any of us who have married one can testify.This is the essence, as I understand it, at the heart of mean people everywhere. They can accumulate the bells and whistles of experience, appear to gain sophistication and complexity in their machinations, but at the bottom of it all, they have a severe developmental delay.Feeling sympathy for such a person is natural enough . . . but considering the damage they can and do cause others, the sympathy is misplaced. Ironically it is sympathy that they demand, for they pity themselves above all other suffering.Although they DO suffer terribly, they haven't suffered adequately, in the "right way<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>". <span style="font-style: italic;">(maybe you'll soon suffer adequately... and in the 'right' way BinkStink)</span></strong></span> They may never suffer enough in the way they need to, to rise up and grow up.<br /><br />If I must indulge that petty part of me, I imagine what a sad and joyless life it must be, to be her<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(speaking of herself in THIRD person. as she tends to do? hahahahaha)</span> </strong></span>And that each attempt to hurt or destroy other people (I am not the first, or last) puts another brick in the wall around her, isolating her further. Reinforcing her self loathing, and shame. The really sad part is that each time you attempt to hurt another person for your own pleasure, you are damning yourself to further pain<strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;"> (BINGO, BinkStink)</span></span></strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Because of your hazy lack of self to begin with, the acts of hatred appear to come from outside yourself, and you are victimized, over and over again without respite. It is an anguished feedback loop. The solution is forever just outside your reach, because you refuse to see yourself as having any power to make a change. The checkbook is always in someone else's pocket. And the withholding seems deliberate. Mark my words, she will copy and paste this and send it to corporate headquarters<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(wow... finally right about something... and I am using MY OWN BLOG to post about it too)</span></strong></span> She will be unable to resist embellishing it with different colors of font and her own commentary<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="font-style: italic;">(nope... saved that for HERE... my own blog... corporate headquarters can read your unvarnished spew for themselves...)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>And cross referencing past entries.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong> (nope -- saved that for here too!)</strong></span> It will take hours of her time<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>, <span style="font-style: italic;">(3 minutes)</span></strong></span> and she has it.And when will they get tired of being hammered by six to ten emails per day from her? <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">(blatant lie... i guess now 'HER PEOPLE' tell her how many emails i send them.. this is classic Narc... critcizing even my COMPLAINT against her!!!!)<br /><br /></span></strong></span>Sheer volume and force is how abusive people seek their validation, isn't it?I pity this woman, and am curious about her, fascinated by her disease process. She IS human, after all, and so am I. Like I said before, abusiveness is so common it is boring. It is so human, to be abusive and to be victimized. Our teachers come at us from all directions and shapes, I tell you :) That is a comfortable, workable conclusion for me, one where I do not hate or wish revenge on ATM, or this woman, knowing they need no help as they undo themselves.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>what a <em>touching pack of lies... </em><br /></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>it's all my fault that she wouldn't stop stalking me from Providence Medical Centers computers!!.<br /></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>it's all my fault she was stalking and attacking me period!!.<br /></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>and she's going to forgive me for it!!.</strong></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">thanks, BinkStink, you crazy bitch... this reminds of when Mike McGrannahan </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">forgave me for him trying to murder me</span>!!!.</strong></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">thanks sooooooooo much... now... go empty a commode, </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">if</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> you still have a job... or </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">while</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> you still have a job... and let me be CLEAR: </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><blockquote>stay off my blog...stop slandering me on yours... and OWN YOUR OWN STUFF as your hero Irene would say!!!</blockquote></span></span></strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Here's a couple of doctors who have STUDIED Narcissists and their "apologies" for years in a scholarly paper published a few years ago... SEE IF THESE EXCERPTS DON'T SOUND LIKE ALL OF BINKSTINK's B.S. above:</span> </p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ></span></p><blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold;">What intrigues us about the reparation process when a narcissistic defense is operating is that </span><strong style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">what is repaired is not the damage to the relationship, but the subject's illusion of perfection</span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" >. <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Narcissistically impelled people may be at least temporarily incapable of genuine expressions of remorse, because inherent in an apology is the admission that one is not needless and faultless.</span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;">What a narcissistically defended person seems to do instead of apologizing is to attempt a repair of the grandiose self in the guise of making reparation with the object. We have identified several different ways that </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">narcissistically motivated people tend to substitute some other kind of interpersonal transaction for an apology. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><strong style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255); font-family: arial;">Appealing to Good Intentions</strong><br /><strong style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">People who are engaged in defending their internal grandiosity may become adept at giving ostensible apologies that really amount to self-justifications. Narcissistically driven people do not seem to understand that saying one is sorry represents an expression of empathy with the injured party irrespective of whether the hurt was intentional or avoidable</span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" >.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The organizing, overriding issue for people with narcissistic preoccupations is the preservation of their internal sense of self-cohesiveness or </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">self-approval, not the quality of their relations with other people</span>. <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">As a result, when they feel their imperfections have been exposed, the pressing question for them is the repair of their inner self-concept, not the mending of the feelings of those in their external world (cf. Stolorow's [1979b] definitions of narcissism).</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">They are consequently likely, in a state of defensiveness about exposed faults, to protest that <span style="font-style: italic;">they meant to do the right thing</span></span>,<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> as if the purity of their inner state is the pertinent issue - to others as well as to themselves.</span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">If one displaces the issue to the area of intention an error has in fact occurred. If one displaces the issue to the area of intention, an error has not occurred, since one's</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">intentions were faultless.</span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><strong style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255); font-family: arial;">Explaining</strong><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" >A<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> related substitute for apologizing is the practice of explaining. Unless the listener is particularly sensitive, </span></span><strong style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">an explanation can sound remarkably like an apology</span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" >.<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The advantage of the explanation to the person protecting a grandiose self is that it avoids both asking for something (forgiveness) and admitting to a sphere of personal responsibility that includes the risk of inevitable shortcoming. Hence, the illusion of personal needlessness and guiltlessness is maintained. ...</span></span><strong style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">substitutes that may appear to connote remorse, but actually stop short of expressing sorrow and making emotional reparation</span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" >.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">A special case of the explanation sans apology is that of the person who has become adroit in offering his or her psychodynamics as explanatory, exculpating principles behind behavior that is remiss. "Maybe I was acting out my envy," or "I wonder if I did that because I'm going through an anniversary reaction to my sister's death," </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">are the kinds of nonapologies typically offered by the psychoanalytically sophisticated when protecting a grandiose self-concept</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Because the explainer is defending his or her action to an internal critic who expects perfection,</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span>the listener often ends up, because of being the target of a projective-identification process</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">, feeling inarticulately critical.</span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><strong style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255); font-family: arial;">Recriminating</strong><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">We have noticed the tendency for<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> </span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">narcissistically vulnerable people to engage in a kind of ritual self-castigation in the wake of an undeniable or unrationalizable failing toward someone. This is a process even more elusive than explaining, and harder to distinguish from true apologizing</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">. </span>This recrimination is expressed to witnesses and objects of the transgression </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">with the implicit invitation that the transgressor should be reassured that despite the lapse, he or she is really fine</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> </span>(i.e., perfect or perfectable), after all.<br /><br />In the case of a person with a narcissistic character disorder, recrimination is probably as close as he or she ever comes to apologizing, and is doubtless believed to constitute sorrow and reparation.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><strong style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255); font-family: arial;">Deflecting Blame</strong><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The readiness of narcissistically vulnerable people to convey criticism is equaled only by their resistance to assimilating it. Frequently,</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">they seem to have mastered the art of deflecting blame.</span> </span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:arial;" ><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">A response to the effect of </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">"I'll confess that I acted that out, but I think you have your part in this, too," is typical.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">The process boils down to:</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">"I feel mortified that you saw a limitation in me because I aspire to perfection. You probably aspire to perfection, too, or should, so I'll point out that you haven't yet reached it, either."</span><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">[The Narcissist] structures the psychological situation as follows:<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> </span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">"If you deny your part in the dynamic, you are self-deluded and therefore not worth listening to; if you admit it, you and I can lament your shortcomings together, construe my actions as responsive to your mistakes, and avoid looking at my own problems."</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">from: </span><em style="font-weight: bold;">Narcissistic Pathology of Everyday Life: The Denial of Remorse and Gratitude; </em><span style="font-weight: bold;">Nancy McWilliams, Ph.D. and Stanley Lependorf, Ph.D.</span></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-family:arial;font-size:85%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span><p style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></span></strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><span style="font-size:180%;"><blink>UPDATE</blink></span></p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">WOW...that didn't take long... BinkStink has now chosen two new people to attack... both from </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a>... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">where she is banned and not wanted... where she is now doing her stalking... good for me... bad for them... she's hard at it...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">diagnosing and attacking</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">... some excerpts... </span></strong></span><br /><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Lately, on both boards, I'm noticing a great degree of <span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 153);">illness</span> amongst the members <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(what a SURPRISE..)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(gee...this all sounds familiar)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><br /><br />Her solution is to punish and terrorize to get her needs met, and because she ALSO happens to be in an abusive relationship does not make her a saint. It's only to be expected that she would not be with a wholesome man, hello. And she is jerking everyone's chain over there. I won't mention "where" for the sake of respect for the forum<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><em>.(i will...because i have no respect for the forum....OUR PLACE )</em></strong></span> She is getting mundo attention, the kind that pleases her greedy little heart, which focuses upon what a victim she is, what a horrible man she is with, and she is feasting. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(wow... this vicious attack is on a member she doesn't know at all... just picked her out of the line up... )<br /><br /></strong></span>The face of the victim of domestic violence is also the face of the perp in HIS (or her) equally self centered dysmorphia. As I've written before, the unthinkable is true, that at heart, the victim and perp suffer from the same condition. They just take up position on opposite poles of the same problem. At heart, they are equally as greedy and destructive, at least in results. I know this is what makes me a pariah in the domestic violence victim community, this willingness of mine to point out the stain on the lily white garment of the abused<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(that among a HOST of other things... like being an abusive hateful whack job NARC BITCH)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span>Just remember I wore that garment, and at least now deliberately act it out rather than deny it<strong><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(the </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">garment</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> </span>BinkStink needs to be wearing has wrap around arms that tie in the back)<br /><br /></span></span></strong>Watch Ceeking. She is not doing well, at all. I suspect this has been going on all along, most people in their mid life do not break down into psychosis, that's an early twentysomething gig<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(OMG..now she's diagnosing yet another victim as psychotic)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span>She's been fighting this for a very long time. She is begging for people to connect with her, to shore her up because she is sinking. I used to be a psych nurse and the only thing I can think of to do for her is medicate her so she does not sink so low. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(OMG.. how about medicating yourself, BinkStink... how about maybe OVERMEDICATING yourself )</strong></span><br /><br />I am not insulting her or feeling repulsed. She is sliding down the slide, and finally letting us in on it. She does not wear her illness on her sleeve, as most on these boards do <span style="font-style: italic;">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(ahhh... everyone is crazy... except BinkStink... this is all verrrrrry familiar to those of us who were victims of pathologicals...)</strong></span> I am worried about her, she is a person who needs emergent help :( . I hope she is directed toward that, and to find out that she is just one of us, not so bad or special at all, rocked in the arms of just being a regular person. I haven't had a lot of luck redirecting people who are running so fast from themselves, when they believe their Self is an enemy.<br /><br />It's just sad, and for what it's worth, I<strong> would stop her, physically restrain her from running, hold her down until she gives up</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(eeewwwwwwwwww)</strong></span>and keep her safe while she sobs and lets herself come back<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(GEEEZ... someone </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">restrain</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> this bitch...)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"> I am guilty of making it too simple, I know</span></blockquote></span></p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left"><strong>same spew... new victims... some things never change... especially when the THING is a NARC... and the Narc is BinkStink...</strong></p><p align="center"><strong></strong></p><p align="center"><strong>..........</strong></p><br /><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><a href="http://www.glitterfy.com/"><img alt="Glitter Words" src="http://img33.glitterfy.com/10067/glitterfy0093139T322D31.gif" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><a href="http://www.glitterfy.com/">[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Words*]</a></span><strong><span style="font-size:180%;"><blink><br /></blink></span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:180%;"><blink><br /></blink></span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:180%;"><blink>UPDATED YET AGAIN...</blink></span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">let's take another look at BinkStink... a case study in narcissism and psychopathy... .BinkStink in the update above</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">is viciously attacking a woman on another forum... not me... someone else.. a complete stranger</span>...<br /></strong></p><p align="left"><strong style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and... BinkStink is not a member of that forum.. because BinkStink is </span><em>pre-banned</em></strong><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">from that forum...</span> <strong><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-size:130%;">so noxious she was banned by the moderators before she could join!..</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">this woman she is attacking... she simply went over to </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">Our Place</span></a><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... and picked out the most hurt and hurting member there and attacked her... predators attack those they think are weak... and BinkStink is a predator...<br /></span></strong></p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></p><p align="left"><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">to be clear... BinkStink went back to a board that</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">will not even take her as a member</span>... <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">out of the 100s of abuse victim support boards on the web... and she picked out a new member who's in bad need of support & validation... and attacks this poor woman on her blog...</span></span><br /><strong style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">anyone who might not believe that BinkStink is a ravaging wolf needs to read about the woman BinkStink is attacking... she has gone back to her abuser.. time and again... he beats her... but she goes back... she cuts herself... this poor woman... when someone ask s her why she keeps going back... this is her reply... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">'because I hate myself. I deserve it</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">'... this woman is in horrible pain... taking beatings... harming herself... and saying she hates herself... brainwashed and controlled by her abuser... and this</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">again<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">is what BinkStink has to say....</span></strong></p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><blockquote>Her solution is to punish and terrorize to get her needs met, and because she ALSO happens to be in an abusive relationship does not make her a saint. It's only to be expected that she would not be with a wholesome man, hello. And she is jerking everyone's chain over there. I won't mention "where" for the sake of respect for the forum. She is getting mundo attention, the kind that pleases her greedy little heart, which focuses upon what a victim she is, what a horrible man she is with, and she is feasting.</blockquote></span></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i think these few sentences say about all there is to say about BinkStink... and is the entire reason I call people out... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">people & organizations who hurt other genuine victims of abuse are on my radar... especially those doing it under the 'guise' of 'helping' victims...<br /></span></strong></span></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink's a predator...who claims to be an abuse victim herself... but who is in reality a soul-less monster...</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span>completely lacking in empathy or compassion... and in the narcissistic raging rant above, she really lets it show</span>.<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. although she claims to have attacked and stalked and slandered me for months... using all the typical Narc reasons... according to her </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">i had it coming... she was just joking around... i started it</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... (SOUND FAMILIAR FELLOW VICTIMS?)</span></span></strong></span></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">all you have to do is look at the paragraph above... to see that BinkStink is a psychopath... who attacks simply to be attacking... because she takes PLEASURE in hurting others... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">all you have to do is read the paragraph she wrote about a woman she has never had any interaction with at all... other than to stalk her and predatorize her... with words... it's the ravening psychopath BinkStink who is 'feasting'... on the suffering off a woman in great pain and distress... <span style="font-size:130%;">making fun of her pain... deriding her... belittling her... eating her alive</span>...<br /></span></span></strong></span></p><p style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102); text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">BinkStink is a MONSTER.</span></span></strong></span></p><p align="center">................</p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=BEN-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/BEN-1.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">BEN<br />2/14/2007<br />MURDERED</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">by the psychopath Mike McGrannahan</span><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">~</span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">"The time will come when men such as I will look upon the murder of animals as they now look upon the murder of men."</span> -- Leonardo Da Vinci</strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">........<br />“I do not bring forgiveness with me, nor forgetfulness. The only ones who can forgive are dead; the living have no right to forget.”</span> -- Chaim Herzog</strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">.........<br />''Justice is incidental to law and order."</span> - J. Edgar Hoover</strong></p><p align="center"><strong>..........<br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">"Life is life's greatest gift. Guard the life of another creature as you would your own because it is your own. On life's scale of values, the smallest is no less precious to the creature who owns it than the largest."</span> -- Lloyd Biggle Jr.</strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">.........<br />When a man has pity on all living creatures only then is he noble</span>. --Buddha</strong><br /></p><div align="left"></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-72970283261083652022010-02-07T04:39:00.004-08:002011-03-08T17:29:56.129-08:00BINKSTINK... YOUR PSYCHOPATHY IS SHOWING!<div style="text-align: center;">l<a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=Psycho-3.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/Psycho-3.gif" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>"Innocence seldom utters outraged shrieks. Guilt does. Innocence is a mighty shield, and the man or woman covered by it, is much more likely to answer calmly: 'My life is blameless. Look into it, if you like, for you will find nothing.'<br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">-</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Whittaker Chambers</span></strong></span></div><div align="center"><strong>~~<br /><br /></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0); font-style: italic;">my life is an open book... i don't hide who i am... where i am... or what i believe... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">that's BinkStink's number one stock in trade... her and all other Psychopaths.</span></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">~~<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>the evidence is overwhelming... BinkStink is not just a garden variety toxic weed commonly known as a NARCISSIST... BinkStink is a more rare and even more TOXIC WEED... a PSYCHOPATH... with some very SCHIZOPHRENIC overtones...<br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><br />BinkStink will not just GO AWAY... because she wants to completely dominate and control her current victim of choice... which in this case is me... she refuses to go away...<br /><br />outing the NASTY BITCH only enraged her further... and now she has launched into another round of her attacks followed by lies... followed by taking the ever popular psychopath <span style="font-style: italic;">'I'm the victim here</span>' stance... any of us here who has known a Narc or a PSYCHOPATH knows this game well...<br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>first the nasty little psychotic cockroach scurried out of the hole she has been hiding in since being OUTED.... and posted a schizophasic attack on me... sending me <span style="font-style: italic;">'condolences</span>' on someone she apparently in her Schizophrenic mind has come to believe is my father!.. some guy who died in prison in 2006... who was a member of the KKK...<br /><br />she then launches into another SCHIZOPHRENIC/SCHIZOPHASIC spew about me <em>SELLING</em> 'heirlooms' from this person... her insanity and delusions have become quite obvious... to everyone except her...<br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">she, in her Psychopathic rage, has somehow failed to notice the date of this article she dug up... and BinkStink says that this person is ABOUT TO BE buried in a pauper's grave if i don't claim his body...</span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>~</strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="left"><a class="subj-link" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/7788.html">Hey Mary!!!</a><br /><br /><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">bink_think</a><br />February 3rd, 14:29<br />Check it out, I think I found yer Pa! <a href="http://www.picayuneitem.com/local/local_story_311142508.html">http://www.picayuneitem.com/local/local_story_311142508.html</a><br />I realize it will be more emotionally difficult than ever to sell your . . . erm, heirlooms to the rich, kinky and bored collectors of such. . . memorabilia. Then again, it's possible you could exploit your relationship for a higher bid. Anyway, condolences :)</div><div align="left"><br /></div></blockquote><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">now.. .as with all Narcissists and Psychopaths... her attacks on me are <span style="font-style: italic;">JUSTIFIED</span>... but if i</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">defend </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">myself, then of course i am the <span style="font-style: italic;">attacker</span>, in her disordered mind...</span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>~</strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">like all Narcissists and PSYCHOPATHS... BinkStink is a pathological liar... and </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">will tell any sort of lie, tweak time, space and the truth - to cover her own psychotic ass</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... Narcs and Psychopaths will often tell ridiculous transparent lies... like the ones below:</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><blockquote><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I DO read Mary's blog. I check it about every other day. From home. Our "net nanny" at work does not allow us to access Facebook or MySpace or Blogger. It's tremendously ANNOYING because I know my sunflowers are ready to be harvested and must hope they do not shrivel by the time I get home.</span></blockquote><div style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><blockquote></blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink's </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">personal </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">IP address... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">76.104.243.242</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">, through COMCAST CABLE was banned from this blog on January 19th, 2010... since that time she has been EXCLUSIVELY using the computers of PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER... so if she is checking my blog from 'home'.... we can only hope that HOME is a locked mental ward at PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER... and that she keeps making repeated escapes from her CAGE to run to a computer to read my blog... because the IP logger </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">does not lie</span></strong>.<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. </span><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">even though BinkStink does nothing but...</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">so here it is again... a log of her most RECENT USE of the computers belonging to PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTERS...</span><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">VISITOR ANALYSIS</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Referrer No referring link</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Host Name</span> <span style="color: rgb(153, 0, 0);"><strong>sdc-nat.providence.org</strong> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">IP Address 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target="_blank">trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2009/12/narcissists-are-obsessed-with-their.html</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br />February 5th 2010</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">09:31:39 PM</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Page View</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">No referring link</span><br />http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2009/12/<span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">narcissists-are-obsessed-with-their.html?zx=c600cd131c893be6</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>Binkstink is <em>obsessed</em> with several of the posts on my other blog blog... including the one she last viewed</strong></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">NARCISSISTS ARE OBESSESED WITH THEIR IMAGE</span>... <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">yes, they certainly ARE... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">t<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">o the point of telling any lame lie they can come up with to attempt to cover up their abuse of others...</span></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">of course... while accusing me of whatever pops into her crazy head... BinkStink... like ALL Narcs and PSYCHOPATHS... knows no fear... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">she must believe her own lies</span>.<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">.. that she is not using the computers at her place of employment... when something can be PROVEN beyond a doubt...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">but when someone continues to refuse to acknowledge or believe what has been proven... then they are considered to be DELUSIONAL.... boy... that's a big surprise... BinkStink is delusional!!!!</span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">“A favored technique is to debilitate your identity by levelling false accusations and/or questioning your honesty, fidelity, trustworthiness, your “true” motivations, your “real” character, your sanity and judgment.</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">They are absolutely the world’s best manipulators, liars, and fabricators of truth. They do so convincingly because they believe their own lies. After all their life is nothing but a lie, a sham, how can we possibly assume they know anything different.”</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">-The Mask of Sanity/ H. Cleckley</span><br /></blockquote></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink is a Psychopath... a noxious, toxic little pile of psychopathic SHIT... who has been unmasked REPEATEDLY... she was unmasked by Dr. Irene Matiatos (who CERTAINLY should know one when she smells one) and banned from </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/">Trubbles Catbox</a> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">(which she also continues to 'read' ie STALK... to the point of copying posts and </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">answering </em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">them on her own blog... for lack of anywhere else to spew... as if anyone is truly interested in her opinion!) </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">banned along with her stalker whack job cohort GOONGODDESS... and she was unmasked again </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">here... </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">along with her stalker whack job cohort GOONGODDESS...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">the mask if off BinkStink... you can spin it... you can lie... you can spew... but the fact is... YOUR MASK IS OFF... and you won't be able to fool those who now KNOW... no matter how hard you try....</span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>you're a sick twisted piece of shit, BinkStink... YOU truly are a lonely spurned puddle of fermenting drivel... one that people who have seen you for what you really are will from now on either walk through then wipe their shoes... or step around with disgust and revulsion...<br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>the mask is off... and what is underneath is HATEFUL... AND NASTY... AND LOATHSOME... AND UGLY... and we can all see it... CLEARLY</strong></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-62902074832268769532010-02-06T05:50:00.005-08:002011-03-08T17:29:33.917-08:00ATTENTION BINKSTINK AND GOONGODDESS...<div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=Psycho-3.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/Psycho-3.gif" border="0" /></a></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-size:130%;" >UPDATE!!....</span></strong></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i'm really getting fed up with BinkStink and Goongoddess and their stalking... pooooooor Goonie!!. got a dead father!!. yep... grief stricken... on february 1st she posted on Our Place...<br /></span><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); text-align: left;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="center">"<br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span><div style="text-align: left;"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Feb 1 2010, 03:03 AM<br />Post </span><a title="Show the link to this post" onclick="link_to_post(57519); return false;" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php?showtopic=4729&view=findpost&p=57519"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">#3</span></a><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br />Advanced MemberGroup: Member + cPosts: 402Joined: 25-July 09From: somewhere in CanadaMember No.: 333<br />thank you all..........for your love.........i didn't make it........he passed away at 11:00 PM..........MG</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></div></div><div align="center"></div><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><strong>hmmm... dead at 11pm on february 1st... she also claimed to be 'making the trip to say goodbye'.... my she certainly is RESILIENT...<br /><br />and it must have been a <em>very short trip</em>... because on february 3rd... she spent over 20 hours on this blog... from her USUAL IP address in Victoria, British Columbia!!. not too grief stricken to do a little CYBERSTALKING, HUH GOONIE???<span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><br /></span><em>and </em>thanks to an unnamed informant... i see that on february 4th she posted on Twitter.. <span style="font-style: italic;">.'comfortably numb...with intermittent moments of grief.</span>' ... yeah, her grief was 'intermittent' enough that she was sniffing my blog by 1pm... boo hoo Charlene... you're as phony as a pair of ten dollar Manolo Blahniks!!! <span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">SERIOUSLY... GET LOST... </span></span></strong></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><strong style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></strong></span><br /><strong></strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">>>>>>>></span></strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">OOPS... MORE TO ADD... BINKSTINK and her Psycho-Tonto Goongoddess slammed me again on <a href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/">BinkStink's creepy little blog</a>... CLAIMING I AM DESCENDED FROM A KKK MEMBER!!. then of course they deleted my posts... ABUSIVE CONTROL FREAKS that they are..<br /><br />SO,.HEY CHARLENE.. I WOULDN'T WANT THIS TO GO TO WASTE.. SO I'LL POST IT HERE... BECAUSE YOU'VE GOT IT COMING!!...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">CHARLENE... I THINK I'VE FOUND <span style="font-style: italic;">YOUR </span>'PA'!! BECAUSE THE RESEMBLANCE IS STRIKING!!. PROBABLY FROM BOTH ENDS!! i can get down and dirty too, Charlene!!..<br /><br />so from now on...when you and BinkStink shit in your hands and throw it at me... i'm going to return fire... that dating site is called Plenty of Fish (well-known all over the news for being loaded with predators, rapists, sociopaths, stalkers and murderers).. not <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Plenty of BLIND Fish</span>... hence your problem with getting a date!!!</span><br /><strong></strong><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=ed.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/ed.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=xqtmyf55hg_68839641-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/xqtmyf55hg_68839641-1.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">BinkStink, you nasty abusive PSYCHO BITCH... i blocked your personal IP address </span></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and yet... you are STILL STALKING ME AND MY BLOG, using a computer belonging to the SISTERS OF PROVIDENCE/ PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTERS!!!..</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">where you work!!!</span><br /></strong></div><strong></strong><blockquote><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left">Domain Name<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">IP Address 170.173.0.# (</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Sisters of Providence System Office</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ISP Sisters of Providence System Office</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">North America</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Country </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s29confederaterebel&v=43&country=US&vlr=89&pg=21&r=76">United States</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s29confederaterebel&v=43&country=US&vlr=89&pg=21&r=78">(Facts)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">State Washington</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">City Seattle</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Lat/Long 47.5951, -122.3326 </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s29confederaterebel&r=75&pg=21&vlr=89&v=43">(Map)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Language English (U.S.)en-us</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Operating System Microsoft WinXP</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Browser Internet Explorer 6.0Mozilla/4.0 (compatible; MSIE 6.0; Windows NT 5.1; SV1; .NET CLR 1.1.4322; .NET CLR 2.0.50727)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Javascript version 1.3</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Monitor Resolution 1024 x 768</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Color Depth 32 bits</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Time of Visit Feb 2 2010 9:06:07 pm</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"></div><div align="left">~~</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="center"><strong>and Moongoddess/GOONGODDESS </strong></div><div align="center"><strong><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=Alicethegoon.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/Alicethegoon.jpg" border="0" /></a></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>SAME WITH YOU!!.<br />~~~<br /><br /></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="center"><span style="font-size:180%;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">UPDATE!!</span></strong></span></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><span style="font-size:130%;">GOONGODDESS IS A SERIOUS CYBER STALKER...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">SHE WAS STALKING FORUM MEMBERS ON THE <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">CATBOX !</a>!.. IT'S ONE OF THE REASONS SHE WAS BOOTED!!! AND WE CAN SEE WHY!!!</span></span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"></span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="center"><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">VISITOR ANALYSIS</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Referrer </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.google.ca/search?q=trubbles" target="_blank" aq="t&rls=" ie="'utf-8&oe=" client="firefox-a">http://www.google.ca/search?q=trubbles</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Search Engine Phrase trubbles catbox and more abuse forums</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Search Engine Name Google</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Search Engine Host www.google.ca</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Host Name S0106001b2f49f69d.gv.shawcable.net</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">IP Address 24.68.226.187 </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://my5.statcounter.com/project/standard2/project/standard2/add_ip_address_label.php?project_id=5325856&ip_address=24.68.226.187&return_url=%2Fproject%2Fstandard2%2Fmagnify.php%3Fproject_id%3D5325856%26ip_number%3D407167675">[Label IP Address]</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Country Canada</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Region British Columbia</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">City Victoria</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ISP Shaw Communications</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ><strong>Visit Length: </strong></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ><strong>20 hours 37 mins 11 secs</strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ><strong></strong></span></div></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102); text-align: left;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" >~~</span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102); text-align: left;"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102); text-align: left;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">WOW!!. </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">TWENTY HOURS ON MY BLOG BETWEEN FEBRUARY 3RD AND FEBRUARY 4TH!</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">!.. GOSH, GOONIE... SHOULDN'T YOU BE WORKING ON YOUR DIVORCE???....</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">OR PROSELYTIZING ON</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">OUR PLACE</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">??????</span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);" align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Domain Name </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://shawcable.net/">shawcable.net</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s29confederaterebel&r=34&vlr=89&pg=1&v=61">?</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> (Network)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">IP Address 24.68.226.# (Shaw Communications)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ISP Shaw Communications</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Location North America</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Country </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s29confederaterebel&v=61&country=CA&vlr=89&pg=1&r=76">Canada</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s29confederaterebel&v=61&country=CA&vlr=89&pg=1&r=78">(Facts)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">State/Region British Columbia</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">City : Victoria</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Lat/Long 48.4333, -123.35 </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.sitemeter.com/?a=stats&s=s29confederaterebel&r=75&pg=1&vlr=89&v=61">(Map)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Language English (U.S.)en-us</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Operating System Microsoft WinXP</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Browser Firefox Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; en-US; rv:1.9.1.7) Gecko/20091221 Firefox/3.5.7 (.NET CLR 3.5.30729)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Javascript version 1.5</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Monitor Resolution 1024 x 768</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Color Depth 32 bits</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Time of Visit Feb 3 2010 4:44:48 pm</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Feb 3 2010 4:57:18 pm</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Visit Length 12 minutes 30 seconds</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Page Views 5</span><br /></blockquote></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left">~</div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>YOU CONTINUE TO STALK MY BLOG!!...shouldn't you be at <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><a href="http://articles%20and%20items%20that%20are%20posted%20on%20the%20our%20place%20page%20on%20facebook.%20...%20forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">posting more LIES like this:</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><blockquote><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left">congratulations 2017!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! </div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">wish i could say the same, </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">but here in canada we must be separated for one year before we can even consider divorce...</span>.....*hugs*<br />(IMG:<a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/style_emoticons/default/nature-smiley-001.gif" target="_blank">style_emoticons/default/nature-smiley-001.gif</a>)</div><div align="left">~</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php?showtopic=4742&pid=57671&mode=threaded&start=#entry57671">http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php?showtopic=4742&pid=57671&mode=threaded&start=#entry57671</a></div></blockquote><div align="left"><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php?showtopic=4742&pid=57671&mode=threaded&start=#entry57671"></a></div><div align="left"><br /></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">GEE, GOONGODDESS!!. i thought you were an ABUSED WOMAN...</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span>who used to do DOMESTIC VIOLENCE COUNSELING!!!<br /><br />DON'T YOU EVEN KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT DIVORCE LAWS IN CANADA????<br /><br />ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">CLAIM</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> TO BE SEEKING A DIVORCE FROM YOUR HORRIBLE ABUSER THERE???!!</span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong>~~~~~~~~~~~~</strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><blockquote><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left"><strong>Divorce in Canada</strong></div><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left"><strong>In order to file for divorce in Canada you or your spouse must be residing ("ordinarily resident") in the province where you file at the time of filing and for the 12 months immediately before filing. </strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">If one of you can meet that minimum residency requirement either of you can literally go down to the nearest divorce court office</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">and file for a divorce</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"> today.</span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">That is, assuming you can fill out and assemble all the necessary paperwork that fast. What are these conditions?</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><em>One </em>of these three things is needed</span>: </strong></div><div align="left"><br /><strong>1.<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> One spouse committed adultery and the other did not forgive him or her.</span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left"><strong><br />2. <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">One spouse</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">has been cruel to the other (physically or mentally) </span>and the other did not forgive him or her.</strong></div><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="left"><strong><br />3.The spouses have been living separate and apart for at least 12 months.</strong></div></blockquote><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left">~~~</div><div align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;"><strong>GET REAL AND STOP LYING!!!<br />AND STOP STALKING!!!!!<br />~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<br /><br /><blink>UPDATE: MOONGODDESS JUST CAN'T HELP HERSELF</blink></strong></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br />she came back for another look!<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:100%;" ><strong></strong></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><strong><br /></strong></span><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-size:100%;" ><strong></strong></span><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-size:100%;" ><strong></strong></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Domain Name shawcable.net</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">IP Address 24.68.226.# (Shaw Communications)</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ISP Shaw Communications</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Location Continent : North America</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Country : Canada (Facts)</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">State/Region : British Columbia</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">City : Victoria</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Lat/Long : 48.4333, -123.35 (Map)</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Language English (U.S.) en-us</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Operating System Microsoft WinXP</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Browser Firefox Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; en-US; rv:1.9.1.7) Gecko/20091221 Firefox/3.5.7 (.NET CLR 3.5.30729)</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Javascript version 1.5</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Monitor Resolution : 1024 x 768</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Color Depth : 32 bits</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Time of Visit Feb 4 2010 1:22:25 pm</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Last Page View Feb 4 2010 1:22:25 pm</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Page Views 1</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Referring URL </span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Visit Entry Page http://trubblescatbo...?zx=c01f9a34d9264dfa</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Visit Exit Page http://trubblescatbo...?zx=c01f9a34d9264dfa</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-size:100%;" ><strong></strong></span></blockquote><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><strong></strong></span></div><span style="font-size:130%;"><strong></strong></span></div><br /><br /><div style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); text-align: center;"><blink style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size:130%;">MORE UPDATES: BINKSTINK'S BEEN BACK TOO</span></blink><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">(wanting to see if I took the bait after her blog posting worthy of a 7 year old. Still using her EMPLOYER'S COMPUTER!! Really now, BinkStink... should someone of your abusive schizo mentality be around cancer patients?? )</span><br /><br /><p></p><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Domain Name (Unknown)<br />IP Address 170.173.0.# (Sisters of Providence System Office)<br />ISP Sisters of Providence System Office<br />Location Continent : North America<br />Country : United States (Facts)<br />State : Washington<br />City : Seattle<br />Lat/Long : 47.5951, -122.3326 (Map)<br />Language unknown<br />Operating System Microsoft WinXP<br />Browser Internet Explorer 6.0<br />Mozilla/4.0 (compatible; MSIE 6.0; Windows NT 5.1; SV1; .NET CLR 1.1.4322; .NET CLR 2.0.50727)<br />Javascript disabled<br />Time of Visit Feb 5 2010 12:40:01 am<br />Last Page View Feb 5 2010 12:40:26 am<br />Page Views 4<br />Visit Entry Page http://trubblescatbo...xt-right-choice.html<br />Visit Exit Page <a href="http://trubblescatbo...busive.blogspot.com/">http://trubblescatbo...busive.blogspot.com/</a></blockquote><a href="http://trubblescatbo...busive.blogspot.com/"></a><p></p><p align="center">............................</p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=BEN-1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/BEN-1.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >BEN</span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >2/14/2007</span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">A <em>REAL </em>VICTIM OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE</span></strong></p><p align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >MURDERED</span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">BY PSYCHOPATH Mike McGrannahan of Kansas City, MO<br /></span></strong></p><p align="center"></p><blockquote><p align="center"><br /></p><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">“I do not bring forgiveness with me, nor forgetfulness.</span></span></div><p style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">The only ones who can forgive are dead; the living have no right to forget."-</span> Chaim Herzog</span></p></blockquote><p style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></p>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-49727199303540309542010-01-14T09:21:00.003-08:002011-03-08T17:29:10.133-08:00OUR FEATURE PRESENTATION - PART THREE<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=FeaturePresentation1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/FeaturePresentation1.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"></div><p></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ><strong><blink>UPDATE!!</blink></strong><blink></blink></span></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Although BinkStink has been outed here as a Narcissistic Abuser... and is currently without a supply of victims... i do want to make mention of her cohort Moongoddess... who has slithered over to </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a> <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">...<br /></span></span></span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i know that several <em>members</em> of <a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">Our Place</span></a>... and several Adminstrators have been reading my blog... Adminstrators,</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> i just want to make you aware of <em>what </em>you have recruited... she sounds like just your type!!!. and i want <em>members</em> to be BEWARE of BinkStink's cohort, Moongoddess... here is the link to the thread concerning their banning from the<a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Catbox</span></a>:</span><br /></span></span></strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=79595&st=10?s=b65c02d0db820960bf61af4c59fa57fe"><blockquote>http://www.drirene.com/catbox/index.php?showtopic=79595&st=10?s=b65c02d0db820960bf61af4c59fa57fe</blockquote></a></span></strong></p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left">and here are a few excerpts from a post to BinkStink from a member of the Catbox, regarding Earthgoddess/Moongoddess... and what some people thought of her and her behavior:</p><blockquote><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><p align="left"><a href="http://pope-dubius-xii.livejournal.com/">pope_dubius_xii</a></p><p align="left">The person you've expressed the most unqualified approval of in this entire post is <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">"Earthgoddess."</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Yet it's Earthgoddess who got you into trouble. It's Earthgoddess who got you kicked off that board.</span> Oh, I realize you chose your own behavior, but it's clear from what you said that she was a huge influence on you. It looks to me as if part of the reason you got banned was "guilt by association" with Earthgoddess. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Anyway if it hadn't been for her you wouldn't have been doing the things that got you banned.</span> Once again, what I'm getting out of this is that you chose your friends badly.</p><p align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Earthgoddess brought you down too.The thread you mentioned seeing on October 6 is still there on that <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">Catbox</span> board. Reading through that, <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>it's clear that more than one member felt attacked on that board, sometimes by you but especially by Earthgoddess</strong></span>. They said they saw her going after new posters too. So <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>this was not all about PMs you were exchanging with her</strong></span> behind the scenes. It was about <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>complaints from members as well</strong></span>. Maybe they misjudged you about this "posting in tandem" business you mentioned, which is why you got tarred with the same brush as Earthgoddess. But when you called her a "smart cookie," it sounds as if what you really meant was a<strong> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">smartASS</span></strong>, if h<span style="font-weight: bold;">er </span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">chief occupation was going around dissing people</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span> That's not going to make her popular with some, especially a board's administration. <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">What's more, they made it clear on that thread that </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Earthgoddess at least had been</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> </span><strong>attacking </strong>some people <strong>in person, not just behind their backs, and persistently too</strong></span><strong>.</strong> There was even a <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">hint that she could be </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>delusional,</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> or some kind of </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>nutjob</strong></span>.</span>So did you pick another <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">"crazy"</span> for a friend without knowing it, a friend who was too blind to see why she got the "formal warning" you mentioned? Just as relevant, is it possible that the earlier friend you mentioned was a bit "crazy" too? Could Prudence have been right after all? If that's the way the board's owner saw it, that the "friend" you mentioned was crazy and you didn't spot it, that might have given her cause to question your judgment of the posters you'd be managing.What you've said here suggests that if you had been part of the administration team, you'd probably have come into conflict with them over the need to ban<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> <strong>"nuisance posters" like Earthgoddess</strong></span>. If you can't see eye to eye with their judgments and their policies, that's a logical, not an arbitrary reason for the board's owner to remove you from the team. That may be an idea worth mulling over.</p></blockquote><p align="left"></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>the decent, REAL abuse victim members of</strong> <a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><strong>Our Place</strong> </span></a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><strong>might want to 'mull over' the latest recruit... and</strong> <strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">BEWARE</span>... </strong></span></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and here is an excerpt from BinkStink's 'bio' section of her journal... she tells it like it is... in her own words:</span> <p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><em style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">'</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">About all I can handle right now is primary relationships with animals, of whom I have</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong>total control<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">'</span></strong></span></span></p></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></span></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">although she feigned concern for my pets... it's HER animals </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i'm</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> concerned about!!. innocent animals... in the care of an abusive control freak... God help them...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~</strong></span></p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ><strong>AUTOPSY OF A NARCISSISTIC ABUSER</strong></span></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" >PART THREE</span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ></span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:180%;" >BinkStink RAGES ON</span></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=MADDONALD.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/MADDONALD.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong>the only 'dialog' BinkStink is interested in is one in which she will endlessly attack me and i simply sit there and take it... that's not going to happen...when she was on the Catbox her signature line was 'does not negotiate with terrorists'... neither do i...<br /><br />from the ferocity of her attacks on me...i'd say she's one hungry little Narcissistic Vampire... been sitting there <em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">starving</span></em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">since Irene booted her from the Catbox... she has no mercy or compassion or empathy for anyone...except the abusive bitches from those forums... her kith and kin...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">BinkStink went on to show ZERO interest in my post on the 90, 000 homeless people in Los Angeles County alone... she refused to acknowledge or discuss the numbers of unemployed and homeless abuse victims in this country... showed no interest in discussing the lack of services and real help for abuse victims ANYWHERE... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">her sole motive and purpose was to ATTACK ME... and it shows</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... i have probably shown enough of BinkStink's abusive behavior here... i will wind up this part of the presentation with her last few nasty posts to me... including two she deleted, but which i had already copied...</span><br /></span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><br /></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">she of course continues to ignore whatever subject i bring up... and stays on HER favortie subject... attacking me...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">it's pretty obvious that attacking me is her SOLE OBJECTIVE... </span><br /><br />from BinkStink (my comments in <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">PURPLE</span>):<br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: a little something for you</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">At least your blog didn't crash my computer (thanks for the trojan)</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(Paranoid!!.. lying.. she was using a HOSPITAL computer... she's playing victim... and what is the SHE doing reading my blog anyway?)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">At least it doesn't say anything new, just more of the same invective you spew about everyone and everything. </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(she must mean her abusive </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">friends </em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">you will later see HER attack)</span><br /></strong></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Like I said last night, I am beginning to agree with you, rather against my desire to see you triumph over your situation. As many, many have. I hoped you would be one of them. Instead this has become a weird Faust and Mephistopheles of domestic abuse recovery</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(she is stuck on this line of bullshit... must make her feel smart)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> You seem to relate to "hope" and encouragement as attacks and blaming. The word "responsibility" goes through your machine and turns into "blaming the victim" rather than "tools for recovery". Perhaps you are a victim of something far worse and malignant than the "natural remedies" of interpersonal support and encouragement can help?</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(here we go again)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> And I truly mean this in terms of "you can't help it". I really don't think you CAN help it. You seem trapped on a hamster wheel.That's why I bring up the subject of money. Would THAT help you, instead of all this insipid encouragement? If someone wrote you a big fat check? You want connection and relationship, but yet when people DO connect with you, you end up chasing them away. You get banned or ignored and end up alone, again and again. I realize that fits in with your paradigm perfectly, and reinforces it.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Which is what leads me to think, among many other things, why you are indeed hopeless</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(make up your mind, YOU'RE THE ONE DEFINING ME... am i hopeless or am i not?)</strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Just a reminder. What you went though with your psychopath, and what I went through with mine, and all the other women and men who've been dealt similar blows, do the same kind of damage to each of us. Your damage is not special or unique, and neither are you</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">( Narcs love to remind others that THEY are 'nothing special... i heard that about ten million times from the psychopath i was married too... but it looks like she sure as hell thinks she's SPECIAL... diminishing... belittling</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">That's the hope and the promise. But in your mind, it is the reason to give up and turn your hurt onto other people for not REALLY helping you, which I am coming to conclude would only be to send money.If that's what you want -- real, practical HELP -- then you'd better tone down your invective or no one will WANT to help such a vindictive, ungrateful, snarling pathetic thing. You drive people away with your words and deeds, NOT with the pain of the abuse you've endured</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(AGAIN...defining me and my reality...) </span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">That does NOT frighten me. And frankly, your snarling does not either, having spent 17 years in the industry being snarled at and getting paid big bucks for it</span>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(snide braggart... another hallmark of a NARCISSIST)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have to wonder why I'm doing it for free LOL. Consider it a <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">gift</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span>(we'll see what the nursing board has to say about her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">gifting </span>me with unlicensed psychological 'advice')</span></strong></span> I<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> am fresh out of money myself, making just enough to provide for my own family, for which I am every day grateful. </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(CLASSIC</strong></span><strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> </span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">EXAMPLE of a NARC contradicting themselves in the same paragraph!.. 'paid big bucks for it'... 'making just enough to provide for my family, fresh out of money'... which is it???.. and i don't recall soliciting money or anything else from her, or anyone else on those forums... that's her SMEAR CAMPAIGN)</span></blockquote><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><blockquote>~~~<br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Abusers prefer to abuse in private. </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">They fear exposure of their abuse</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">. So they need to </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">discredit</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> anyone who can </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">point the finger at them</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">. An abuser's preferred tactic is the Smear Campaign. They spread lies, character assassination, malicious gossip, backstabbing with factless innuendo and cruel insinuation. Smearing the reputation of someone else (often using projection accusing them of doing what the abuser has done) is a </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">major indicator of personality disorders.</em></blockquote></span></div><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>here she launches another SMEAR CAMPAIGN on me... taking little bits and pieces she has scrounged up about me... and building a <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">fabricated delusional scenario</span>, in which i am a CRIMINAL... and again... how many abused women out there have had some MORON sling at them the 'YOU MARRIED HIM' line???... and here it comes at me... from someone who claims to have been a victim of abuse... she'll grasp at <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ANYTHING</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span>she can at this point... anything to attack and try to discredit me...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> this is one that she has deleted</span>... but that i had already copied (along with the source codes so she can't say I made this shit up)...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/CrazyWomanUp.jpg%20"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 333px; cursor: pointer; height: 291px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/CrazyWomanUp.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">RE: </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Psycho</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">YOU MARRIED HIM. You thought he was a pretty good deal yourself. I suspect there was a time his nefarious deeds (criminal activity, drug addiction) were lookin' pretty good to you. </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Together you could rip off the whole world and sit pretty on your real estate millions, together. ceptin's crime does NOT pay</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(now watch this Narc take a little bit that she knows about me... i was a real estate broker married to a psychopath... the drug addiction crap about HIM she got from reading my blog... so she takes little snippets of information and pieces a few pieces of TRUTH into a big PACK OF LIES... and next thing you know i'm a CRIMINAL... see how these psychos work???.. you can't make this sort of spew up!.. i guess she'd do ANYTHING to keep from answering a question!!.. she reminds me so much of the Psychopath i was married to it makes my skin crawl)</span></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><br />You know . . . unless you can insert some creativity into your personal attacks, I'm getting tired of you.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">You project your own narcissistic rage like a fricken Hippodrome</span>.</span> Step it up, Mary. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(there's that 'Hippodrome' schizophasia bullshit... and abusers will often call there victim by name when talking down to them... like someone would scold a child... or a dog... very nasty)</span><br /><br /></strong></span></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);" align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and now she launches into gaslighting .. she has blamed me for my abuse over and over and over... but now she she changes tactics:</span><br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left">Why do you WISH for harm to come to other people, when you have been so harmed yourself<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>?<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(dishing up the GUILT...trying to make me feel bad for exposing her abusive buddies and their abusive forums..)</span></strong></span> Do you have a heart or not<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>?<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(not for those bitches)</span></strong> y</span>ou didn't deserve what you got from your psycho ex<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(</span><strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">se<span style="font-style: italic;">e how she's simply changed tactics?.. a minute ago he and i were both psychopath criminals working together to rob the world,remember?)</span></strong></span> Why would anyone else deserve to be harmed by him<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>? <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(remember, just a couple of posts back she said I was abusing HIM, remember?)</span></strong></span> That line of logic infers that you deserved what YOU got.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(defining me... telling ME what i think and feel and believe, pathological circular talk)</strong></span> Is that what you think? If so, it's NOT TRUE. You did nothing to deserve his abuse<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<br /><br /></span></div><div style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);" align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);" align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">then she switches back to </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">this</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> line of attack... now she BLAMES ME AGAIN...</span><br /></strong></span></div><strong style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></strong><div align="left"><br />You married and bound your finances with a dog murdering psychopath and still use his NAME<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(BLAMING... FINGER POINTING... SMEARING... btw, did any of you know you were marrying a psychopath or narcissist?... Bink here thinks I did!!.. defining me again...)</span></span> You slowly doom your animals to starvation and illness and neglect, supposedly<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(who s<em>upposes this</em>?...<em> </em>again SMEARING , BLAMING FINGER POINTING, ACCUSING)</span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">.</span> You tell lies to get sympathy and money<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(MORE OF THE SAME)</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">You try to take advantage of a system meant to help the TRULY needy</span>.<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">MORE OF THE SAME... and only BinkStink can apparently judge who is 'truly needy')</span> What is your opinion of yourSELF? <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(certainly not as low as she would like for it to be)</strong></span></div><p style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">and here she comes at me again... assuming, defining, guilting, shaming, lying, smearing... and attacking my love for my pets... she is starting to sink low... grasping for anything she can use to try to hurt me... (all she's really doing is proving how screwed up SHE is... without any help from me)</span><br /></span></strong></p><p><br />There isn't enough WRONG with your ass for you to be sitting on it moaning.You are not psychotic.You have two arms and two legs that work. Your intelligence is intact. Your PTSD is REAL and it is terrible. It is definitely an obstacle in your life. However, it is NOT so bad that you have been designated "disabled". That is not a ray of hope for you, I know. I don't know what you should do, except to get off your ass. You have bricked yourself in with Yes, Buts. You've convinced yourself (somewhat) that you are incapable of rising up out of the ashes, but you protesteth too much for me to actually believe you. Wake up and smell the coffee. Just because you paid taxes, in the REAL WORLD does not mean you are owed them back. Wish it and shake your fist at the establishment all you want, you'll stay in your "hovel" with starving animals that someone should probably report you for<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(i'm getting sick of the 'starving animals' attacks... she knows i love my pets and thinks this is an EXCELLENT WAY TO ATTACK ME.. she's a vicious rabid bitch)</span></strong></span></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>now on to threatening... still pounding away at me:</strong></p><p>From this point forward I will delete your comments unread unless you answer my question.Why? Because I can<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> (</span><strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">wow...if this isn't typical NARC talk... 'because i can'... that's what the psychopath used to say when he was beating me... and i would say 'why are you doing this to me?'... that was his answer... because i CAN )</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> This blog is for people who can reciprocate </span><strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT...it's for the self agrandizement of a PSYCHOPATH - HER!)</span>.</strong> Answer my question, if you will. I did allow Kilroy to leave his new comment up (Gadfly77), maybe you could go gnash your teeth at him while you think about answering me.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(controlling, authoritarian... and she has yet to answer a single question posted to HER</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">)</span></strong></span> I won't delete those comments.Hmmm. I am wishing harm upon Kilroy. That's not nice of me. On the bright side, someone will respond to him.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(no one does... by now everyone has fled the scene, even her cohort Tallulah)</strong></span></p></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"></p><p><strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">by this point she is raging out of control... unable to beat me into submission with words... no matter what she tries... now she attacks my mental health... this vicious spew is one of the posts that is going to get a complaint filed against her with the nursing board and the hospital she works at:</strong><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp252/jaxandclive/medication.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 299px; cursor: pointer; height: 240px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp252/jaxandclive/medication.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=152510#t152510"></a></p><blockquote><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/manage/subscriptions/comments.bml?journal=bink_think&talkid=152510"></a><br />No, no honey.I was talking to YOU. You. Mary. You, Mary. Me, BinkStink. Your repertoire. I know you hated the Seroquel and Zyprexa. But they really do help you firm up those interpersonal boundaries. I'm sure you have a near full bottle around there somewhere. And some Benadryl for the itching. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(she's getting nastier by the minute... feeding off her own rage... abusers want only to CONTROL... and i have continued to resist her attacks... it's driving her over the edge... as she tries to think of SOMETHING... ANYTHING to lash out at me with)</strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span><p></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and then she makes her FINAL ATTEMPT... and unleashes this nasty despicable spew... which she erased... but again... i had already copied it and the codes to show it was from HER... i sent it to her by email and she then reposted it...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">you can clearly see from her posts how she becomes more and more and more enraged when she cannot bring me 'under control'... by now she no longer cares who is watching... she no longer cares what she is saying... or that it is in PRINT... all she can think about is HURTING ME... she gives it one last shot... gives it all she's got: </span><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span></p><p><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=150206#t150206"></a></p><blockquote><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=150206#t150206">2010-01-03 09:30 pm (UTC)</a> .<br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >Are you flea infested?Are you running with red open sores from the vermin munching on your ankles? Do your dogs gasp and lay quietly on the ends of their chains, fur matted and eyes dim from starvation and worms? Does your hovel stink from the scarce kitty litter? Or are they shitting up the poor man's yard where you keep your hovel? Do you scoop it up out of some rare impulse to actually be grateful? If you do, where do you PUT the POO? In his garbage can? Or do you dry it and burn it for heat<strong>?</strong></span></blockquote><p><strong></strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>i posted to her that my my sole purpose in life is to care for my pets... and that i will not tolerate this kind of attack from <em>anyone</em>, including her... i go on to tell her that now she has gone too far... and make mention of her being a nurse... and her SCHIZOPHASIA... i tell her that i can prove the care and love that my pets receive... through copies of billing and from testimonials from veterinarians and people in various animal rights and rescue organizations...<br /></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>on January 4th she posted this defiant piece of SCHIZOPHASIA (word salad)... and scurried off to post her 'disturbed individual' pre-emptive strike against me (which I already posted)...</strong></p><p></p><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">ROTFL!! Musta struck a chord somewhere! Your Hippodrome projector reveals what is within YOU. You've given us a sad picture of your wishes and fears and desires<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong>ROLLING IN THE FLOOR LAUGHING!!.. all abusers take great delight in abusing others... it brings them great joy... as you can see, she thinks she's done nothing wrong....abusers feel they are <em>entitled</em> to abuse.. you can also see that like many NARCISSISTIC ABUSERS... she feels she is <em>untouchable... </em>out of reach... beyond punishment...<br /></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">perhaps she has taken time to rethink that... because now she has stopped posting to her journal altogether... no more hateful snide comments... no comments at all... now, like all abusers...she has run off to hide from any threat of consequences... but she will NEVER EVER apologize... or admit she was wrong... never... and when she is hit with consequences...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">she will try to turn my defense of myself into an attack on her... that I was "unprovoked</span>" <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">(LOL)... that's what ABUSERS do...</span><br /></strong></span></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">she has continued to read my blog... although she's stopped reading it from the computers at PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER... i fought back against my abuse by my PSYCHOPATH husband... and i will fight back against her abuse too...</p><p align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">`````````````````````````</span></strong></p><p align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=6a00d8341bf7f753ef00e54f21aeab8834-.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/6a00d8341bf7f753ef00e54f21aeab8834-.jpg" border="0" /></a></p><p align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">```````````````````````</span></p><p><strong>i am going to post some of BinkStink's musings <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">from her own blog</span>... i think they give great insight into the mind of this ABUSER.....</strong></p><p><strong>she was <em>banned </em>from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>for emails she was exchanging with Moongoddess/Earthgoddess... using the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>personal message system, saying things about other members, the administrators and Irene herself....</strong></p><p><strong>the first is an excerpt from an open letter to Dr. Irene and the administrative team... using the well worn abuser's <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">HOOVER MANUEVER, BLAME SHIFTING, REVISING HISTORY, EXPLAINING AWAY HER ABUSE and CIRCULAR TALK</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">...</span></strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><p></p><blockquote><p>It was with complete shock that I signed on with my coffee one morning and found I had been banned. We both know there was no “due process” involved, and it didn’t take me long to realize your reasoning must be because of the content of private messages Earthgoddess and I sent to each other.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(i'm sure... Abusers are always shocked when they are caught and punished)</strong><br /></span><br />I’m pretty sure our private messages to each other did not lead me (or EG) to openly disrespect the admin staff or Irene in our public postings<span style="color: rgb(153, 51, 153);">.</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I can separate my personal opinions from my public behavior.</span> I know the Catbox rules and did not break any that I am aware of. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Snarking behind the scenes ought to be included explicitly in the posted rules.</span> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">here she is SUCKING UP... and Litte Miss "It's the Victim's Fault" is now </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">blaming</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> her being abusive on there <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">not being a RULE against stabbing her fellow adminstrators and Irene in</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">the back</span></span>! geeez)</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><br /></span></span></strong><br />There were very hard feelings, on my part, when I was let go from the admin team. But I cooled off for about three months and resumed my participation when I was able to put it aside for the sake of the members. It felt like I’d come back home. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I had no intentions of carrying on my hard feelings. I do not believe I did, publically, in any way.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">We discussed other members, gossiped about them with abandon<br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I would not ever say, directly, my personal opinions to you</span>. That’s all they were. I understand that all people are multidimensional. You were seeing my backside, here. Not my best self. Not a self I would ever share directly. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I don’t even believe I am right in my assessments. I was venting, gossiping, spewing. All things I confined to private conversations with a trusted friend. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(gossiping about the abuse victims posting on that board for help, support & advice - how altruistic of her!)</span><br /></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">This is how difficult it is to tell who is abusing whom</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(DIFFICULT for </span></span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">her, </em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">maybe)</span></strong></span> The victim and perp are a single continuum. I am not accusing anyone of abusing me. I am pointing out how perspective can be lost when people stop questioning themselves honestly.<br /><br />I apologize deeply if what I wrote to Earthgoddess hurt any of you. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">You simply were never meant to read it, or hear it, or ever experience it. <strong>I suppose you have no one to blame but yourselves for that one. </strong></span></p></blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">there you have it... the offended parties are to BLAME for </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">reading </em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">her offensive words!!.. BinkStink can't even SUCK UP without</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">blaming the victims</span>!!</strong></span><br /><br />.................</p><p><strong>in the next installment, BinkStink, who will start to refer to herself in <em>THIRD PERSON</em>... describes her mood as 'REALLY PISSED" <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(my invective in PURPLE again)</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">:</span></strong></p><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><strong>here she is talking about Dr. Irene:</strong></p><p></p><blockquote>I LIKE psychologists. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Unnaturally</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(hmmm</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">)</span></strong></span> Having wanted to become one, I idealize them. A<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> person who makes their life’s work the issues of the downtrodden and hurt is, or rather, MUST be a good person. </span>Incapable, or at least, not-as-likely to rain down hell on you. A person you can trust without knowing them at all.</blockquote><br /><strong>and now she is talking about the women from </strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><strong><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> who she continues to <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">defend </span>and try to get her fellow nutjob Tallulah to get her onto; <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">even after having this to say about them </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">herself:</em></span></strong><br /></span><p></p><p></p><blockquote>I defended Dr Irene, because I was appalled by the behavior of many of the departing membership. Friendships degenerated into something I don’t have a word for. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">Vulnerable information was used against each other abusively</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(so </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">that's</em> where she learned that trick!)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>It looked just like a chimpanzee war with all the shit flying. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(guess I wasn't the first to think of the flying monkeys analogy!!!)</span><br /><br />Membership on Catbox spinoffs soared and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">became venues for some of the most destructive and blatantly abusive tripe I’ve seen. </span>By people who I thought were friends. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>People who had themselves been abused, had turned to rage and abusive behavior themselves</strong></span>. </blockquote><p></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong>WAIT! she attacks ME for exposing these same women as ABUSIVE... but then she, on her own blog, calls them ABUSIVE!.. MAKE UP YOUR MIND, BINKSTINK!... typical abuser - adjusting her rhetoric to fit what reaction she wants at the time.<br /></strong></span><br /><strong style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">now on to her short & frightening stint as an Adminstrator:</strong><br /></p><blockquote>My adminship was a whole six weeks long. PrudenceB and I did not get along well. At first we did. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">She was articulate and funny as long as her serum narcotics were at a therapeutic level. In their nadir, she was frantic and paranoid, and posted <em>perseveratively</em> on the admin board about this and that “crazy” poster.</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">She started threads about various members, giving her assessment of their psychological state of being. Unflattering ones, usually</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(this all sounds </span></span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">strangely </em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">FAMILIAR!)</span><br /></span></strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PrudenceB accused me of attacking her via PM</span>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(HARD TO IMAGINE :P )</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span>The rest of the new admin team took her words at face value.</span> I asked PrudenceB to publically post my “attack PM”, but she was too busy with her wrecked life to do so. Dr Irene flibberty-gibbetted and wrung her hands and demanded I call her on the phone. I did,<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> and in our twenty minute conversation, she did all the talking</span> which I didn’t remember five minutes later. She <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">posted on the admin board about our “conversation” and attributed to me about a thousand things I did not say, and said them for me.</span> I politely and firmly responded that I felt sick that I was so misunderstood by her. I was fired the next day<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(this all sounds </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">strangely</em> familiar too!!! I think pot met kettle when BinkStink and Dr. Irene had their 'chat')<br /></strong></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I never did find out what I did wrong</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> (there you go)</span></strong></span></blockquote><br /><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Now on the her buddy </span><a href="http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2009/12/attention-moongoddessyour-ip-address.html">Moongoddess/Earthgoddess</a>:</strong><br /><p></p><p></p><blockquote><p>I gave her the link to <a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Our Place</span></a><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> (looks like that's how BinkStink took her revenge on </span><a style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">, huh)</span><br /></strong></span><br />We had the most hilarious, irreverent character sketches going . . . <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and no one was safe</span>. We behaved ourselves in public, but <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">behind the scenes, we had FUN</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(making fun of abuse victims behind the scenes is FUN???)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Dr Irene was also included in our snarking. Of course she was.</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(of COURSE she was)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I had a huge chip on my shoulder, OK? I’d defended the bitch and lost my community</span>. She was a confusing person with contradictions that I felt needed to be explored. With humor, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and worse</span>. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(...typical abuser saying her abuse was ACCEPTABLE...)</span><br /><br />When Earthgoddess received a formal warning for a post she’d made a month prior, I helped her through it. I told her it was probably a mistake that she got a FORMAL warning, the kind that shows up under your user name. Granted, the admin team limped along and had some <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">screwballs in it and the titular head, Dr Irene, was a real piece of work</span>, but they wouldn’t be UNFAIR. They would follow their own rules, wouldn’t they?<br /><br />Two weeks later (was it that long?) I opened up the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>to discover <a href="http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2009/12/attention-moongoddessyour-ip-address.html">Earthgoddess</a> and I were “no longer members of the board”. I probably couldn’t have been MORE shocked. We had apparently been “posting in tandem” and breaking rules right and left. Conspiring together behind the scenes and <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">victimizing</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span>the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/">Catbox </a>membership. Our disposal was characterized as <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">“making the Catbox a safe place”</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">(NO DOUBT!)</span> </strong></span>and underscored several times were allusions to our clandestine, behind the scenes machinations. AGAINST the Catbox members themselves. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(...BinkStink admits to doing this but now she's shocked for being called on doing it??? Narcissistic Abuser!!!)</span><br /></p><p>I think we addressed Tahwaaaandah as a <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">dishrag</span> and Chelli as hopelessly codependent, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">but we didn’t spend much time on them because they don’t stick their heads out and shoot alien tentacles from their orifices like some.</span> I suppose it also makes sense that we recklessly posted and giggled about everyone in the background, but these people we supposedly giggled about were US, were our sisters and brothers and the time (it was suggested) we spent in collusion <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">to objectify them and make the Catbox unsafe for all </span>is what does not make sense. Unless we were <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">cleverly disguised sociopaths</span>, which we <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><em><strong>aren’t.</strong> <strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(UH HUH... the mob that can not see itself!)</span><br /></strong></em></span><strong><br />I guess we really hit home somewhere along the line. Good to have the validation.</strong></span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(...and I must thank BinkStink for validating every single thing I have said on this blog since DAY ONE... every. single. thing.)</span><br /><br />Your private messages are being read and monitored by Dr Irene and Catbox administration. If you jack them behind the scenes, they will know. They print off the PMs and leave them on a stack on the backs of their toilets, to entertain themselves on the can. They want to know how YOU FEEL. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>They are afraid you may foment a revolution!! And take their precious, precarious and entirely imaginary “power” away from them. They have become ugly, diminished versions of themselves, narrowed and squelched.</strong></span> But in their behavior, dictated by their fear and thirst to maintain control, they have become caricatures. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>In their righteousness, they have committed the sins of the abuser. The mindfucking, the gaslighting (maybe the sender deleted their OWN PMs???) the planting of seeds of paranoia. Among the most vulnerable of us all. Shame on you. SHAME ON YOU!!!</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(shame on <em>them</em>?... for calling YOU and your abusive 'sisters' on your ABUSE of members??... can you smell the sanctimony...)</strong></span><br /><strong><br /></strong></span>Earthgoddess tried to convince me for months that Irene is a narcissist. Truly, I couldn’t see it. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>Obviously she can, and does, diminish people into pathetic, tortured souls incapable of seeing the light (as she does, and anyone who agrees with her line).</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">That's been my lesson.</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">and one she's learned and co-opted very well)</span><br /></strong></span><br />And I am not welcome to join them on <a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">Our Place</span>,</a> perhaps. Because I fell for the line of an abuser, and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ran with it, spreading the sickness</span>. For that, I apologize from the depth of my soul. I never intended to hurt, or harm.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(you just said you did!!!)</span> I believed at the time that I was doing the right thing. It was a very honest and straightforward MISTAKE. Which I humbly accept responsibility for<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(SUCK UP... this whole post was about blame-shifting and explaining it away and now she 'takes responsibility'... and this woman walks among us...)</span></span><br /></strong></span><br />In the meantime . . . Bink seems to be finished<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> (talking about herself in third person..never a good sign)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Am I sad? Yes. She is a “person” to me, an internet presence I poured myself into..<br /></p></blockquote><p></p><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">...................</span></strong></div><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left">more insights:</div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>is she really talking about Irene?...or herself?</strong></div><blockquote><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">There is a snake in the garden disguised as a saint. The FIRST place to look is ALWAYS within yourSELF.<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>Anyone with a modicum of independent thinking will, in the very least, be suspicious, and a little dizzy from the spin. Your contempt for the people you spent years of your life getting educated to help is SHOWING. You can try to explain your behavior but it will always speak louder than your words</strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(yours too, BinkStink... yours too!)</strong></span></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span></span></div><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">ragging again on the members of </span><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><a href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a>:</span></strong></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Further, the BEHAVIOR I witnessed from the retreating membership was shocking to me</span>. In retrospect it was only a few people who made really big splashes. A lawyer, a few very angry women. I, personally (just me here, OK?) was disgusted. People can get angry all they want. They have every right, and I totally agree with the righteousness of the anger that predominated that time. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">What I couldn't stomach was using that anger to justify attacking</span> Irene. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">No one, no matter what they do, "deserves" abuse.</span> Not even our abusers. What's good for the goose is good for the gander, right? If we are to have any integrity at all, we must see that.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> As victims of abuse, it is our JOB forevermore to put a stop to it whenever we can. And it starts in our own behavior.<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(????!!!!.. i'm about to vomit at this crap! Does she remember what she says?.. clearly not, another sign of mental instability!!! wouldn't that be her own diagnosis????</strong></span></p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Irene told us all, clearly, WHO SHE IS. What she is willing to do when she is called on the carpet. She is vindictive and nasty and could give a shit about a person's safety from their abuser if she herself is threatened.I am not a therapist, and I would never do such a thing</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> SHE </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">WOULDN'T</em><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">?? ISN'T THIS WHAT SHE DID TO ME?.. read installments ONE and TWO)</span> </span></strong></span>I<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> was personally attacked in a gruesome way, accused of begging for money by the people who OFFERED me small sums in response to a post I made. A sick twist of facts is all it was</span>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(AGAIN... DIDN'T SHE JUST ATTACK ME, CLAIMING I AM BEGGING FOR MONEY???)</strong></span> But I have not even NAMED those people, or attempted revenge or anything of the sort. It's not that I am super specially KIND, it's that I know<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> it's the wrong thing to do and I am not going to repeat a wrong</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> (OMG!! ...BinkStink is clearly seriously delusional..)</span></span></strong> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">A person willing to return a "wrong" with another "wrong" is a person whom you cannot trust</span>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(!!!!!)</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I've certainly learned that thanks to my abuse scenarios</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(apparently she has NOT)</span></span></strong> <p></p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Since I am not myself welcome to join </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">Our Place</span></a><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">, it seems silly I’d be part of </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" href="http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2009/11/not-so-secret-societies-at-our-place.html">a secret underground</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> to steal Catbox members.</span> I suppose it could be said I’m doing it out of spite for the Catbox. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(could be said... and thanks again for proving this blog CORRECT!!!)</span><br /><br /></strong></span></p><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7Xut0F_sS0eI0pdbFNdC2a4DXOt4A8gKqVepRMmRfw6vIEmbVtms5al9FD24-bxaFjGRBcey7mJ8KGQSX0EJXF426lc_pFHVEu4oQAnlwBXzYFOD-s0lmZJWphGuFfKO6WWTXnXJJTKFk/s400/Insane+woman.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="meds Pictures, Images and Photos" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7Xut0F_sS0eI0pdbFNdC2a4DXOt4A8gKqVepRMmRfw6vIEmbVtms5al9FD24-bxaFjGRBcey7mJ8KGQSX0EJXF426lc_pFHVEu4oQAnlwBXzYFOD-s0lmZJWphGuFfKO6WWTXnXJJTKFk/s400/Insane+woman.jpg" border="0" /></a></strong></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span></div><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><br /></strong></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I do acknowledge that there is a problem with recruitment PM's from another site. This has been a problem since the beginning of the year.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(narcing out </span><a style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place </a><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">for recruiting members from the </span><a style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox</a><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">... something they have always denied and continue to deny!!!!!!! </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">thanks</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">!!.. well </span><a style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">... guess </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">that</em> 'cat' is out of the bag!!.. God Bless BinkStink and her big mouth... keyboard!)<br /><br /></strong></span></p></blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">as you read this one... bear in mind she is talking about being punished by </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">DR. IRENE</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... and yet look how closely it compares to how she behaved toward ME... </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">proving the PATTERN of her ABUSIVE PERSONALITY</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">:</span></span></strong></p><strong></strong><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I regret that I have lost trust to the point that my words now are not believed. I brought that on myself. Perhaps I am really blind; in fact, I know I am, to many things about myself. Since I was fired from the admin team, which truly confused me at the time, I have been curious about the “me” that seems to bring this stuff on</span>. I am the common denominator. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I am doing SOMETHING</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">abusing people, perhaps?)</span></strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /><br />Perhaps I am so dogged and persistent that I am bullying, running roughshod over people</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><em><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(PERHAPS!!!)</span></strong></em></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Perhaps they feel stomped into the ground</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> (<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> TURBO PERHAPS!!!!)</span></span></strong> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br />Perhaps I am still so self-centered that I just can’t see it</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">or PERHAPS she <em>does</em> see it and is PLAYING VICTIM and keeping her abuse compartmentalized so she can excuse or forget she even did it!!!)</span></strong> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /><br />I would appreciate seeing it</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(you heard her!!! well, here it is BinkStink... in one neat spot... SEE IT)</span>.</strong></span> . .<span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">so I will stop freakin DOING IT.</span><br /><br />I ended up the object of some pretty mean accusations. That tells me that I made a person SO ANGRY that lashing out back at me was something they felt justified in doing</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(YES!!)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">That I harmed people, and I was getting my just desserts.I know abusers say they “don’t remember” being abusive. I am saying the exact same thing</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(</span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">PERHAPS</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> that's because she's an ABUSER)</span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">And I understand why abusers say that. They don’t believe they were being abusive, and we’re asking them to remember something ABUSIVE that they’ve done. They felt justified in what they said or did, and to them, it wasn’t abusive.I’m saying the same thing </span>.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">If what I said and did was abusive, I deeply apologize</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(IF... one of an ABUSER'S favorite PLOYS)</span></span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>Apart from some pretty obvious jabs I took at Epiphany and Mr Mopus, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I don’t see what I said or did otherwise that was abusive</span>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">(of course NOT</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">)</span> I am not saying I BELIEVE I was never abusive, I’m saying<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> I don’t SEE IT</span>. And I am willing to see it. I need help seeing it, obviously. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(your help is here BinkStink... read and read and read these posts perservatively...)</span><br /><br />What I want to do is “right the wrong”.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> I don’t want this kind of crap messing up any more of my relationships</span>. Of COURSE I miss the community and regret no longer being a trusted member of it. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(too late for THAT!!) </span>But I also respect the consensus, and can totally accept it. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(no you can't or you wouldn't be whining about it... you miss the power & control...)</span> I mainly wish to know what I did, the effect my words and behaviors had, to make me such a damn pariah. I want to “right the wrong”, for myself and for the sake of the people around me.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I can’t YET accept responsibility and accountability for something I do not realize I am doing, or have done</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(of course NOT... everyone else can accept </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">responsibility, </em><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">but not her!!)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>But I am willing to do so. It would truly be disingenuous of me to apologize for anything more than I have already apologized for – so far. I hope that makes sense.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /><br />So I am asking for direct feedback</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(and WOW... she sure didn't like it when she got it... just read installments ONE and TWO)</span></strong></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>That is assuming someone will take the time and energy to respond. If you choose to do so, I am much honored and will take your words with respect.<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(BULLSHIT!.. you're an attack narc who enjoys abusing then throwing yourself a pity party when you get called on it...)</span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>What do I hope to accomplish? Just “righting the wrong”. I would never seek to intrude where I would end up being a liability. I’m human; I want to be liked as much as the next person. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I don’t think you SHOULD accept and trust me<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(i think everyone would agree with her on <em>this</em> point)</strong></span> I want to know what I did, in your words, which made that trust go away. So that I do not do that to other dear friends I have now and will find in the future.I truly appreciate your consideration, very much, and if you’ve read this far I thank you again..</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><p></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></strong></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">WOW! that is quite the little suck up HOOVER job!!!.. Irene didn't buy it... and for damn good reason...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> she obviously did not mean a word of it!!!.</span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ABUSERS DO NOT CHANGE!!.</span> after all that spew, she turned around and attacked me relentlessly in the</span> <p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">very same manner</span>... <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);">up to and including this:</span></span></strong></p><p><a class="subj-link" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/6791.html"></a></p><blockquote><p><a class="subj-link" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/6791.html">But I didn't say I wouldn't use her material!</a> </p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Zendog's<span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 204);"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(me)</span> latest . . . attempt?</span> </p><p><span style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"></span></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Transference (and counter-transference) are quite common on the Net and the narcissist's defense mechanisms – notably projection and Projective Identification – are frequently aroused. The therapeutic process is set in motion by the – unbridled, uncensored, and brutally honest - reactions to the narcissist's repertory of antics, pretensions, delusions, and fantasies.The narcissist – ever the intimidating bully – is not accustomed to such resistance. Initially, it may heighten and sharpen his paranoia and lead him to compensate by extending and deepening his grandiosity. Some narcissists withdraw altogether, reverting to the schizoid posture. Others become openly antisocial and seek to subvert, sabotage, and destroy the online sources of their frustration. A few retreat and confine themselves to the company of adoring sycophants and unquestioning groupies</span>.</blockquote><p></p><p>Bwahahahahahaha!!!!!!I rest my case, Your Honor.I wouldn't dream of really taking your mirror away, Mary. You would go blind. </p></blockquote><p></p><p align="center">~~~~~~~~~~~</p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="center"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-size:180%;" ></span></p><div style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: center;"><span style="font-size:180%;">AND I NOW<br />REST MY CASE!!</span></div><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" align="center"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-size:180%;" ></span></p><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></strong></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-22951040805051204122010-01-11T04:14:00.006-08:002011-03-08T17:28:40.777-08:00OUR FEATURE PRESENTATION... PART TWO...<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=FeaturePresentation1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/FeaturePresentation1.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" >AUTOPSY OF A NARCISSISTIC ABUSER</span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" >PART TWO</span></strong></div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong>when we left the nefarious Narcissistic Abuser BinkStink, she had just <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">attacked a poster over her physical disabilities</span>... she was feeling pretty damn good about herself, after dodging repeated questions regarding her beliefs concerning differences between PTSD in soldiers and us<em> common</em> abuse victims...<br /><br />in this next installment we will see BinkStink become more and more enraged and more and more abusive..finally coming to a full NARCISSISTIC BOIL.. AND BOIL OVER... before we start the show... let me again list just a few of tricks of the trade you will see BinkStink employ... the old Narc standards of<br /></strong><ul><li><strong>BLAMING, </strong></li><li><strong>FINGER POINTING (Blame-Shifting), </strong></li><li><strong>BELITTLING, </strong></li><li><strong>BERATING, </strong></li><li><strong>CRAZYMAKING, </strong></li><li><strong>GASLIGHTING AND </strong></li><li><strong>JUST PLAIN OLD NASTINESS</strong></li></ul><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><br /></span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">There are also these BinkStink</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> standbys...</span><br /></p><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></div><blockquote style="font-weight: bold;"><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">Manipulators use</span> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">distraction and diversion techniques</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">to keep the focus off their behavior, move us off-track, and keep themselves free to promote their self-serving agendas. Sometimes this can be very subtle. You may confront your manipulator on a very important issue only to find yourself minutes later wondering how you got on the topic you're talking about then.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">The </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">evasion tactic</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">is closely related to diversion, this is a tactic by which a manipulator tries to avoid being cornered on an issue by giving rambling, irrelevant responses to a direct question or otherwise trying to skirt an issue.</span></span></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">A subtle, but effective form of evasion is the</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">deliberate use of vagueness. </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">Covert-aggressives are adept at giving vague answers to the simplest, most direct questions. You have to have a sensitive ear for this. Sometimes the vagueness is not so pronounced and you think you have an answer when in fact you don't. </span></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">the</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"> </span>tactic of DENIAL</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">... this is when the aggressor refuses to admit that they've done something harmful or hurtful when they clearly have. It's a way they lie (to themselves as well as others) about their aggressive intentions. This 'Who... Me?' tactic invites the victim to feel unjustified in confronting the aggressor about the inappropriateness of a behavior. It's also the way the aggressor gives him/herself permission to keep right on doing what they want to do. Denial as a lying tactic of manipulation is another in the list of tactics covert-aggressive manipulators (usually character-disordered individuals) use very frequently. I stress the importance of differentiating between denial as a defense and denial as a tactic to hide aggressive intent.</span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Lying...</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-style: italic;">the lies preferred by covertly-aggressive individuals are lies of omission.</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);"> Damn, if those aren't the hardest lies to detect! </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">They lie by telling the truth. It is what they leave out that makes it a lie</span>.T<span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">he sad, yet absolute, fact is that the default position when dealing with a narcissist is that they are lying. The anomaly with a N is when they tell the truth. They so seldom tell the truth that you don't even have to worry about mistaking that truth for a lie. They don't deserve to have us believe one thing they say or insinuate. If we presume that whatever they are doing, whatever they are saying, is designed to manipulate and deceive, then we are in a much safer and saner position.</span></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Covert aggression: the tactics of the covert-aggressive are another form of lying.</span> <span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">One of the first things their tactics accomplish for them is to conceal the fact that they are fighting with you. They are refusing to allow you to have the opinion you have, the standards you have, the decision you've made. They are attempting to force your surrender to their way, their opinion, their standards (or lack thereof). But the first thing they must do is come at you in such a way that the first thing you'll think is that they are reacting defensively. They hide their aggressiveness under a cloak of pretense that they are simply acting out of defensiveness which, of course, means that </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-style: italic;">you </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">attacked them. So the next thing their tactics accomplish is putting you on the defensive. Now you are knocked off-balance and the covert-aggressive will likely start throwing so many different manipulative tactics at you at once that you end up falling for the ruse and capitulate.</span></div><div align="left"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Minimzation: the aggressor is attempting to assert that his behavior isn't really as harmful or irresponsible as someone else may be claiming. </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);">It's the aggressor's attempt to make a molehill out of a mountain... Neurotics frequently make mountains out of molehills, or 'catastrophize.' The disturbed character frequently trivializes the nature of his wrongdoing. Manipulators do this to make a person who might confront them feel they've been overly harsh in their criticism or unjust in their appraisal of a situation. Minimization is not primarily the way they make themselves feel better about what they did, it's primarily the way they try to manipulate your impression of them. They don't want you to see them as a person who behaves like a thug. Because they are most often comfortable with their aggressive personality style, they also want you to believe that there's nothing wrong with the kind of person they are.</span><br /><a style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);" href="http://www.cassiopedia.org/glossary/Covert_Aggression"><br />http://<span id="main" style="visibility: visible;"><span id="search" style="visibility: visible;"><cite>www.cassiopedia.org/glossary/Covert_Aggression</cite></span></span></a></div></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><div style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);" align="left"></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);" align="left"><strong>~</strong></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204);" align="center"><strong>fasten your seatbelts... turbulence ahead... it's going to get ugly... i mean REALLY ugly... you're about to enter a dimension where Reality has no meaning:</strong></div><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><strong>"You're traveling through another dimension, a dimension not only of sight and sound, but of mind.<br />A journey into a wondrous land whose boundaries are that of imagination.<br />That's the sign post up ahead, your next stop...<br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);font-size:130%;" >The BinkStink Twilight Zone!</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">"</span></strong></span></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=hypnotize6.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/hypnotize6.gif" border="0" /></a></div><br /><br /><br /><br /></span><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">as before, my </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">invective will appear in</span> purple...</span></strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><div align="left"><br /></div><blockquote><div align="left">(I wrote on her blog)<br />PTSD.....<br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">the PSYCHIATRIC COMMUNITY does not see any difference between PTSD sufffered by</span> </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">soldiers... and PTSD suffered by ANYONE ELSE... "</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Your question I danced around doesn't seem relevant to the subject I thought we were discussing. It seems like a diversion, that's why I ignored it. I'm talking domestic abuse survivors and LIVING people.And I think comparing ourselves to Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans and dead people is specious and borrowing more trouble than we actually have"... </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">the PSYCHIATRIC COMMUNITY CONSIDERS ALL PTSD TO BE PTSD</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">...THEY don't differentiate... but because </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">you </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">didn't like where the conversation was headed...</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> <span style="font-weight: bold;">you </span>decided that <span style="font-weight: bold;">YOU </span>can and WILL differentiate... and you decided to 'dance around it'... because <span style="font-weight: bold;">you </span>couldn't come up with some quick easy MAGICAL THINKING SOLUTION... AND because just like with the victims of 9/11... its a little bit DICEY to use the old BLAME THE VICTIM bullshit... sort of between a rock and hard spot on THAT issue</span>..<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">. can't exactly BLAME A WAR VETERAN for being in the FUCKED FOREVER CAMP... so instead you decide to stick with you feel you can easily BLAME for being fucked forever... ME!!!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">her response:</span><br /></span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: PTSD.....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I'm in a much better place, professionally speaking, to know what the psychiatric community thinks than you are</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(talking down to me from her assumed position of AUTHORITY)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">No offense</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong>,<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(of course not)</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I was a member of it for many years, not a client of it</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">again, snide, sanctimonious, authoritarian and diversionary)</span></strong> I<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> am simply relating what I've been told</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(by Dr. Phil, Dr. Seuss, Oprah or just the voices inside her head?)</span></strong></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It's actually a GOOD thing we haven't experienced a true war zone. We are that much LESS traumatized. We haven't been taken down as far, so to speak. We haven't been damaged as badly. That's GOOD news :) HOPEFUL news.I think to compare your experience to that of veterans of war action is something you USE to support your original claim, that you are fucked forever. You hoist it on your petard but it doesn't belong to you</span>.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">The logic and opportunistic nature of your "identification" does not hold up to scrutiny, in other words</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(word salad, it's what's for dinner at Chez Bink)</span></strong></span></blockquote></div></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i challenge her again:</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><em></em></span></strong></span></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><p><strong>Re: PTSD<br /></strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">been told by WHOM??..</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> you've got interent access... throw up one single article... one single opinion... by ANYONE in the psychiatric community the PTSD in soldiers is any different that PTSD in plane crash survivors... or rescue workers... or abused women...<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">you're simply RELATING WHAT </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">YOU </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">WANT TO BELIEVE... and nice slam...</span></p></span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">...except you let some truth leak out</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">..</span>.</span> "NOT A CLIENT OF IT"<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">SO YOU'RE LYING... YOU'RE LYING WHEN YOU SAY YOU'VE BEEN IN THERAPY!!!. I KNEW IT!!!..</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">YOU LET IT SLIP...GOT PISSED... TO TAKE A SWIPE AT ME, AND LET THE TRUTH ABOUT YOURSELF SLIP OUT... TYPICAL NARC... </span></span></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">busted again, again BinkStink <a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-victims.html">plays victim:</a></span><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: PTSD.....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I'm so disappointed, now I am a narc in Zen's book</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="font-style: italic;">(<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">she's a NARC in a lot of people's books... and did she JUST catch on that I've been calling her a Narc?)</span></span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">EVERYBODY who knows anything about me knows I've been in therapy. I've just spend a helluva lot more time in the other chair. You could say I'm well balanced that way</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(notice how she is STILL evading the question?)</span></strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">I'm not going to let her off the hook:</span><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Re: PTSD.....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">lots of NARCS have been in therapy... ots of NARCS HAVE SPENT A LOT OF TIME IN THE OTHER CHAIR, TOO... LIKE IRENE, FOR EXAMPLE... you and she are both well balanced that way :)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold;">DELUSION: </span>A <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">delusion</span>, in everyday language, is a fixed belief that is either false, fanciful, or derived from <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">self deception</span>.<br /><br />a delusion is distinctly different from a belief based on false or incomplete information, stupidity, a perception, illusion, or other effects of perception, because even when confronted with CONCRETE EVIDENCE to the contrary the deluded REFUSE to acknowledge any and all evidence the contradicts with the delusion. whenever you hear someone say they 'REFUSE' to believe something... you've trod upon a magical thinker...</blockquote></span></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink's WTF responses are coming fast & furious... Once again she tries to define me and read my mind... classic Narc:</span><br /><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: DELUSION</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You refuse to believe you are ALIVE.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">My point, exactly</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 51);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(SCHIZOPHASIA)</span></strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 51);"><strong></strong></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">I call her on it again:</span><br /><br /><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">MORE AND MORE AND MORE DELUSION......</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">no one and nothing can convince you of something you do not want to believe... because you are DELUSIONAL... that is the VERY DEFINITION OF DELUSIONAL THINKING... you are DELUDED... and since you have 'no serious mental disease'. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(ha!)..</strong></span>.<br /><br />i guess one could assume it is BY CHOICE.......</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Here she goes again... and she's STILL not faced or addressed my question!..</span></span></span></span> <blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><br />Re: MORE AND MORE AND MORE DELUSION.....</blockquote><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></p></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">EXACTLY!!!!Turn that mirror around, if you dare . . </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-undermining.html"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(crazymaking circular talk?...or another heapin' helpin' of SCHIZOPHASIA?)</span></a></strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong></strong></span><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">this is where the non-'dialog' turns toward those nasty lazy shiftless disgusting poor people who are such a bother to BinkStink's BFF: TurboNarc Tallulah... and then there's that Ayn Rand quote that sends her into the stratosphere... and BinkStink of course hates EVERYONE....so she's well prepared to attack the poor and the homeless..</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-style: italic;">.</span></span></strong></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">crossing a line</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">you're crossing a line here... in your rabid desire to blame the victim and feel better about yourself... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">how about the over 15 million people who are currently unemployed... is that due some FAULT on their part?... is it because THEY aren't taking steps be employed... because THEY AREN'T TRYING HARD ENOUGH???... and the homeless... are homeless people homeless because they aren't doing enough for themselves???</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i know you like to confine your ragging about someone who isn't doing enough to me... but let's expand on it, ok??..</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> </span>why are over 15 million people unemployed today??... becuase they have somehow failed to live up to their full potential???</span>.. <blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">"you can avoid reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding reality". -Ayn Rand</blockquote></span></blockquote><blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink NEVER gives up her delusions... she continues with her </span><span class="nookheading3" style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><a href="http://www.outofthefog.net/CommonBehaviors/ThoughtPolicing.html">Thought Policing</a></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> -<span style="font-style: italic;"> Thought Policing is any process of trying to question, control, or unduly influence another persons thoughts or feelings. </span></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: crossing a line</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">we are sort of "helpless" to believe what we believe, until we are open to new information.In my case, I HAVE been affected by "new" information from Zen. I've thought about it, and thought ways around it</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(and she's still thinking of ways around the QUESTION, OBVIOUSLY)</span></strong></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">So, I gave it some time and still am not compelled to agree she is Fucked Forever.I believe that SHE believes she is. Maybe I have not made that clear, and I apologize for that.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">When she tries to convince ME that I am delusional, I don't believe that</span>.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong> (hard to convince a whack job they're a whack job)</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">When she tries to convince me that she is hopeless, so far she hasn't given me enough proof. Bringing in the PTSD of war veterans, of which she has not been, is not compelling. I understand the terrible unemployment situation, and the lack of services for people at or below the poverty level. I was unemployed and unemployable for a solid year. I couldn't even put a roof over my head, surrendered all my animals, which Zen has been able to do for herself and keep her animals. Zen has done better than I did, she did not go down as far.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">In that horrible time I had two choices. Give up or do what pathetically little I could do to move forward. It eventually worked.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Because I went into the psych field in the first place, I have a desire to help people see around their obstacles and find what they need and want. Even when they don't want to see. My education and training contributes to this tendency of mine. </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(i believe it is her NARCISSISIM and her MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES that contribute to that <em>tendency </em>to <a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-projecting.html">project</a> her abuse on people... and notice, she STILL has YET to address the QUESTION)</strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong></strong></span></span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">check out this manifesto... typical NARC... can prattle for days on end... and never say anything worthwhile, sensical or sane...</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: crossing a line</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I see people as living in "worlds within worlds", ie, each person has their own fairly well integrated paradigm that exists within a larger consensual paradigm (culture and society).</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Personal paradigms are self reinforcing. They are like cell walls in your body, </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">they let "in" what is acceptable, and block out what is "unacceptable" to keep the integrity of the whole</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">(speaking from personal experience, i'm sure)</span>.</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Was it was too much to ask that either "camp" have a dialogue about their experiences? No, I think we did. It worked out as well as the participants could work it.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">A while ago, during the Old </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox/">Catbox</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> administration, there was a member who was (and still is, on OP) determined to change her abuser, or herself, to keep the relationship together. It occurred to me that we have no "right" to try and change another person, even if they are destructive and obnoxious, no matter how much we love them. They have a right to be who they are. The clincher is, WE who look on in askance have the choice (and responsibility to make it) to stick around and manage OR to leave altogether. NOT to "change" that person into something we have decided is "better for them".</span> <strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(isn't this <em>exactly</em> what she is attempting to do in her attacks on me?...vaunt her ideas of what i should be...be doing, thinking, wanting, needing....onto me?..how many times in her abusive posts does she tell me how I NEED TO CHANGE?..i've lost count!...this is a perfect example of a NARC contradicting herself.....changing lanes without signaling.....)<br /></span><br /></strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">What is hard for me to handle is when people ask for help, but are unwilling to change themselves as is necessary for the help to even work</span>.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">They want help, but on their OWN terms </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(free will in their victims is beyond the comprehension of the entitled Narc)</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">They are miserable, but believe their misery is centered in other people's behavior, not their own</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span><span style="font-style: italic;">(PROJECTION</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">).</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It's a sad paradox, and there's nothing to be done for them but to let them go</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>.<span style="font-style: italic;">(IF </span><em style="font-style: italic;">ONLY</em><span style="font-style: italic;">! notice she STILL has not addressed the QUESTION?... this bitch is a PRO!)</span></strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i refuse to let BinkStink the professional Narc get away with this evasion...</span><br /><br /><blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">nothing to do but let them go</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><em style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">again</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> what </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">HELP</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">have you offered?... other than that BRILLANT idea of taping a trash bag to the roof a car, which any CUB SCOUT could tell you is a plan destined to fail???... i'm sure all the poor and homeless in this country are where they are from failure to take the ADVICE and HELP of people like you... SNIDE, SELF AGGRANDIZING, HAUGHTY ARROGANT OBNOXIOUS KNOW IT ALLS... who in REALITY know nothing...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">CHOICE AND RESPONSIBILITY... putting the BLAME for someone's circumstances onto THEM... instead of onto who is REALLY to blame... be it an individual, or the failure of society as a whole... there... with a couple of choice words and the wave of a dismissive sanctimonious hand... you can explain and blame away the pain and suffering of others... why, it's their CHOICE!!!!!.. they're RESPONSIBLE for what happens to them!!!. which leaves you off the hook to be dismissive and condescending and arrogant FOREVER...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">how DARE people seeking help, ask for help on THEIR TERMS!!.</span>.<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> why, they should just happily take whatever crumbs they're thrown!!!.. to make the sanctimonious arrogant ASSHOLES who are throwing the crumbs feel every more SUPERIOR... you're the sad paradox... sad for anyone and everyone who crosses your path...</span></span></p></blockquote></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">here's where the fascist cockroach, former <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">Catbox </a>member and Bink's a**hole buddy - Tallulah crawls out of the crack she's been hiding in and defends Ayn Rand and elitisim..</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>.</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">Re: nothing to do but let them go</span><br /><a style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);" href="http://mata-hari41.livejournal.com/">mata_hari41</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=108734#t108734">2009-12-30 02:11 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0); font-style: italic;">"How DARE people seeking help, ask for help on THEIR TERMS!!"</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">How dare ~YOU~ expect top of the line, top notch help simply for the fact that you can't afford to pay for ANY help whatsoever! " Gee, I can't afford even a 1970 Pinto, therefore, you OWE ME a fvcking MERCEDES." Pleeezzz. Pffft.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">How does that saying go??? Oh yeah. *BEGGARS CAN'T BE CHOOSERS."And you, Zen, have the temerity to quote Ayn Rand??? LOL! You'll have her spinning in her grave</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">.</span></strong></span></blockquote></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i learned long ago to stand up to abuse like this:</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart.....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you are one of the most SHAMELESSLY callous and unsympathetic 'people' i have ever come across... wow... so the 7.5 MILLION people who are unemployed today are unemployed because they are IGNORANT... and the MILLIONS who are homeless are homeless because they are IGNORANT... and the nearly 48 MILLION people who are living in poverty in the wealthiest nation in the world are living that way because they are IGNORANT... WOW... 48 MILLION DIRT POOR IGNORANT... it's all because they lack INTELLIGENCE...</span></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i don't know how a bitch like you lives with herself... i'm sure Ayn Rand is very proud of you....</span></p></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>now the abusive NARCISSISTIC Bitch BinkStink is ENRAGED... watch her pull out all the stops:</strong></span><br /></p><p><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c8/lifelesssunshine/delusional.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 325px; cursor: pointer; height: 178px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c8/lifelesssunshine/delusional.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart......</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I'm leaving this up. Nice evasion there</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">! </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">no..the EVASION is all HERS on HER blog)</span></strong> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">No one is talking about the 48 million dirt poor!! We are talking about YOU</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">. </span><span style="font-style: italic;">(she means she is only attacking</span></strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><strong style="font-style: italic;">ME... gee... what has happened to that 'open dialog")</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">One purportedly "dirt poor" INTELLIGENT woman. Who hides behind 48 million "dirt poor" people to excuse herself from making an effort.</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <span style="font-style: italic;">(</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">here we go... finger pointing, blaming, accusing...)<br /><br /></span></strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You don't get public assistance because the gubbermint doesn't think you NEED it</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">. </span><span style="font-style: italic;">(wow... the "GUBBERMINT"... now the abusive bitch is using racial slurs ... i'm surprised she hasn't called me a NIGGER)</span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You don't get decent free services because it's been determined you don't meet the criteria</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span>(man, this bitch knows EVERYTHING)</span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You have been pronounced WHOLE ENOUGH by the establishment that the funds and services will NOT go to you, but to other deserving people</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span> <span style="font-style: italic;">(she must be talking about her own welfare recipient</span></strong> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>daughter)</strong></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You probably terminated your own therapy, didn't you? Because your therapist(s) were challenging you to get off your pity pot. They wouldn't validate your snarling rage and death wishes upon your ex abuser. They wouldn't BUY that you were hopelessly damaged because they too didn't think you were.No one is "afraid" of the black hole of "your pain". They get TIRED of being attacked and insulted by you</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="font-style: italic;">(i wonder if this nasty filthy bitch thinks anyone might get tired of being insulted by HER?)</span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">They get hurt and offended that they reach out to help and you bite their hand the moment they do not obey your commands.They give up on you because you don't WANT a hand up, you want a hand out. And who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious, insulting bitch as yourself? NO ONE.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Methinks it's been YOU who are exposed.</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(MEthinks she's WRONG... what do YOUthinks?)</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I wouldn't call you a narcissist but I would call you severely personality disordered. There is no medication or real effective therapy for people with your issues. Except prison, to keep you away from taking advantage of naive people who have a hard time believing people as bottomlessly cruel and greedy even EXIST</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span> <span style="font-style: italic;">(she is just begging for for a complaint to the nursing licensing board in her state) </span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Every abuser out there thinks they are the victim. I wonder if Psycho Mike is really YOUR victim? Or if two psycho abusers met each other and blew themselves to Kingdom Come.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Your words and responses tell us everything, and contradict most effectively your claims of being a "victim". For all I know, you aren't living in a "hovel" with nine thousand animals. Someone would have called the Animal Cops on you by now for all your claims they are in need of food and care. How do you keep the fleas and heartworm under control? Do you brush them all and bathe them all? How do you care for their teeth? Do you do your own surgery on them when they are ill? You can't take care of them, if I am to believe your story.But I am starting to not believe it. If you can support 8 dogs and six cats, you DO have money. Because NO WHERE on Planet Earth is there enough charity or people willing to provide it without calling Animal Control ON YOU</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">(this bitch has gone starking raving NARC insane)</span>.</strong></span> A person on dial up internet CANNOT set up or maintain a blog such as yours<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span></span><strong style="font-style: italic;">(<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">now she's an INTERNET AUTHORITY TOO!!</span></strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="font-style: italic;">her jealousy of - and fixation on my little ol blog is disconcerting</span>).</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">A person who is "disabled" because of their "complex PTSD" cannot manage to string enough thoughts together to set up a blog such as yours, nor would they have the intense focus to maintain such a pathetic sob story for SO LONG as to take advantage of good people until they too run the other direction when you begin attacking THEM</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> </span>( there she goes again...practicing psyciatry without a license and without sanity... and belittling all PTSD sufferers)</span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It is YOU who have been busted. As an abuser yourself. As a psychopath yourself. I ought to ban you entirely, out of decency and principle. Except you amuse me</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="font-style: italic;"> (WOW!!...<a href="http://narc-attack.blogspot.com/2008/03/poor-narcissist-feels-threatened.html">now what set this crazy bitch off?</a>.. NOTHING, that's what... she's a projecting, lying, twisted, exposed NARCISISSTIC ABUSER... i'm glad i amuse her... because she sure doesn't amuse me... i wonder if she'll amuse the administrators or PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER?... or if the Washington State nursing board will find her amusing?.. i wonder if the families of the cancer patients in her tender loving care will be amused by this? and the crazy bitch <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">STILL HASN'T ANSWERED THE QUESTION</span>!!!)</span></strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong></strong></span></span><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i was married to a piece of loathsome Narc shit just about like BinkStink... i am unimpressed... i continue: </p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><blockquote style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart....<br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i would think a BRILLANT NARC like yourself would have heard of WIFI... so your paranoid delusions about me having high speed cable are just that... more of your NARC PARANOID DELUSIONS...<br /><br />you can call me whatever you want... say i should be in prison... call me a psychopath... i consider the source... someone so fucking controlling and nasty that DR. IRENE couldn't tolerate her...<br /></span></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">OOPS THERE IT IS! But BinkStink the Narc Pitbull will never let go...</span><br /><blockquote><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart......</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Irene couldn't stand to be exposed to the light of day.Much like you.</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(GEEZ...this Bitch would melt at the sight of a 5 watt bulb!!... is it Schizophrenia, or just a the most severe case of DUMBASS ever?)</strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong></strong></span><p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">she goes again... I've rattled her delusional cage...</span><br /></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart......</span><br /><a class="comment-permalink" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=145854#t145854">2010-01-03 08:40 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Funny you don't address the health of your animals, just the one thing that doesn't necessarily implicate you.Do you even HAVE eight dogs and six cats? Or is that just another one of your crafted stories to get pity? It's just a bit over the top, just like the rest of your story</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong> (what's funny is that this crazy whacked out NARC still hasn't addressed a question i posed about two weeks ago!.. how long can the bitch stall???? and now that nothing else has worked for the loathsome nasty Narc... she's going to start attacking my pets, and my love for them!!... JUST LIKE THE PSYCHO!!)</strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong></strong></span><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong>i just keep on asking my unaddressed questions:</strong></span><br /><br /></p><blockquote><p style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=146366#t146366">2010-01-03 08:46 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">wow ... interesting that you're so impressed with my simple little blog... many people maintain blogs from library computers... it's really not all that difficult... like all NARCS, you claim to be an expert on EVERYTHING... while knowing little about ANYTHING... you're an expert on PTSD... and blogs... and internet service... you're diagnosing mental disorders.</span></p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">you - through divine psychic powers - know my financial situation... and my living conditions... you're a real renaissance NARC... ALL KNOWING... ALL BULLSHIT</span> <p style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">do you ever take time away from terminal sanctimony to read???...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">nearly 90% of homeless families have a woman as head of the household... usually an ABUSED WOMAN</span>... <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">probably </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">because they're not 'working on themselves' enough</span>.<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.. you seem to think HOPE is the magic cure all for everything...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">but i do notice that you NEVER EVER offer up any real, valid, concrete SOLUTIONS to anything... and you dance away from any challenge to do so... by claiming it's not the issue at hand... which is TEXTBOOK NARC BEHAVIOR</span>...<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> you refuse to address anything you don't have a pat answer to... you sound just exactly like IRENE...</span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> when you spew your narc circular talk of 'responsibility' and 'hope'... talking out of both sides of your mouth with EVER uttering a word of any real value...<br /></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">so again... let's address the issue of HOMELESSNESS AMONG ABUSED WOMEN... what's your idea of a SOLUTION to the problem... and WHY do you suppose it is an issue at all???. is the fault with the homeless women????..</span></p></blockquote></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">again she sidesteps answering and goes into a backpeddle:</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: helped</span><br /><a class="comment-permalink" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=94398#t94398">2009-12-25 06:40 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Nobody is at FAULT. How does "fault" come into it</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">?</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(hmmm... i thought FAULT was the name of</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>her game..guess she's changed games)</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It's your choice, right? Some help ain't helpful. MOST of the help I gave as part of my job was unwelcome or thrown aside</span><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);">.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(i BET!!.and</span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">what JOB is she talking about?...her JOB as Irene's ass licking flying monkey?)</span></strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">It's the nature of the beast. I've dissed help from others many a time. It's human to do so </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(this PSYCHOPATH wouldn't know the first thing about being HUMAN!NOTICE how she's just forgotten about that crazed diatribe???... of course, we are in the BinkStink Twilight Zone)</strong></span></blockquote></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">my rational response... one more time, trying to bring her back to the ORIGINAL QUESTION...</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">help</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">no one is dissin help here... because no </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">HELP</span> <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">has been offered... firstly YOU decided to divide all abused women into TWO CAMPS... one that toes your party line... and the other one declared FUCKED FOREVER... then YOU go on to define MY REALITY... which seldom draws a good reaction from anyone... especially someone who has had a psychopath define her reality for over 16 years... THEN you go on to attack me... BLAMING me for the shambles my life is in... ALSO JUST LIKE THE PSYCHOPATH AND CERTAIN MEMBERS OF CERTAIN BULLSHIT 'HELP' FORUMS... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">THEN you offered up your narrow, pollyanna view of abused women and life in general... <span style="font-weight: bold;">and when confronted with cold facts and hard questions, danced away from them</span>... THEN you insist that YOUR personal opinion on PTSD is the correct one because you've been a psych nurse... and YET... although you love to spread the blame on other abuse victims, a case could be made that perhaps YOU, with all your knowledge and experience in the psychiatric field should have taken a sniff of ATM, and "SEEN IT COMING"... IF someone wanted the pull the BLAME THE VICTIM card that YOU play every hand..</span>.<span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> then, someone comes on talking about their physical disabilities as well as their abuse...and that they cannot find help... and then once again you start talking your </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">RESPONSIBILITY </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">crap... </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /><br />SO... show me once fucking post here from you that was <span style="font-weight: bold;">NOT ALL ABOUT YOU!!</span>.</span>.. <span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">because anyone else's opinions, thoughts, experiances or even REALITY were shouted down...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and on a more PERSONAL NOTE... i am fed fucking up with your insinuations that i am not 'trying hard enough'... I lived with a raging lunatic for 15 years...and it continues to this day... there was NOT ONE SINGLE DAY in the fifteen plus years that wasn't fraught with verbal abuse, emotional abuse, economic abuse, and physical abuse... NOT ONE... i have a fucking RIGHT TO BE TIRED... to be EXHAUSTED to be ANGRY, to be WAAAAAAAAAY BEYOND HOPE... and i know the REAL reason that i have been abandoned by everyone i ever knew... FEAR... i rock their little worlds... give them a knot in the pits of their stomachs they don't care for... if it could happen to me... it could happen to them... no one has come to see me and the dogs and cats in our run down shack with no heat in a bad part of town... NO ONE WANTS TO SEE US... it's not PRETTY... or HOPEFUL... it's just a little too REAL... i have problems... SERIOUS PROBLEMS... that cannot be cured with MAGICAL THINKING... and as i've MENTIONED... everyone who attacks me for not being able to SAVE MYSELF... when confronted... and asked to come up some VIALBLE SOLUTIONS THEMSELVES, of course FAIL... because there are NO VIALBLE SOLUTIONS... and the MOST ridiculous solutions of all are the ones that entail... 'ask someone for help'... this one never ceases to amaze me... i've had FRIENDS AND FAMILY members not lift a finger to HELP ME... other than suggest that i ASK FOR HELP!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">from someone other than them, of course...</span></span></blockquote><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink's response:</span><br /></strong></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">re: help</span><br /><a class="comment-permalink" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=144318#t144318">2010-01-03 08:11 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You've been abandoned by people because you chase them away. They fall for your fake sob story, try to help you, and when you overwhelm them with outrageous requests and then get ANGRY with them for not complying, they run for their lives</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(my outrageous requests??. there she goes again... attacking, berating... finger pointing... over something I never did )</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You are black hole of hatred and lies</span> <span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(SHE MUST BE LOOKING IN HER MIRROR WHILE SHE'S TYPING </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">THIS</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> SHIT</span>...<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> it's sheer NARCISSISTIC PROJECTION</span>)</strong></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Your pathetic descriptions of abuse that you endured are much less compelling than the bulk of your vicious personal attacks that occur like running verbal diarrhea.</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(playing the victim again... i'm attacking her... by now i'm sure HELEN KELLER could see through this BULLSHIT)</span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You won't answer my question because YOU DON'T DARE</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(um, SHE hasn't answered my question from a week ago!)</span></strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I finally cornered you and MADE YOU AFRAID you'd reveal your hellish, true nature</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(THIS SNOT WAD is</span></strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">OUT OF HER MIND... i wonder if she's stealing drugs from the hospital, or if it's a natural high?</span>)</strong></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Might as well come out with it, you've spelled it out on Sesame Street for the Retarded. It would take a real moron to fail to put a true picture of you together at this point.</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(it would take HER not to be able to put together a true picture of HER at </span><em style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">THIS</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> POINT)</span></strong></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">You've fished all the fish in this pond. Time to move on, Mary. Your bait no longer fools us</span><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(SCHIZOPHASIA)</span></strong></span></blockquote></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">i won't back down from BinkStink the monster:</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <p style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span></strong></p><blockquote style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">Re: help<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=146622#t146622">2010-01-03 08:53 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">NICE SPEW ......what 'OUTRAGEOUS' REQUESTS are you spewing about?... i'm not afraid of you, you nasty little narc... it's YOU who got some women to fall for you SOB STORY... not me... you're a NARC WITHOUT A COUNTRY....you trying to use ol Tal here to squeeze you onto Our Place... wanting her to use her 'influence' so you'll have an audience for your blathering tripe??.. that's very NARC of you... you must feel very POWERFUL... I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO AFRAID!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA</span></blockquote></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">her infantile neener-neener response:</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"> <blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Re: help</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0); font-style: italic;">"you're a NARC WITHOUT A COUNTRY "</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I'm laughing so hard my Serenity Pad runneth over, OMG!!!!Sorry, didn't mean to mention I can AFFORD Serenity Pads, when you must make do with your ex psycho's flannel drawers. </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(wanna bet this bitch is stealing SERENITY PADS and MORPHINE from cancer patients???..and wanna bet that if she is buying them, that she won't be able to when PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER gets through with her?)</strong></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"><strong></strong></span><p></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"></span></strong></p><p align="center"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ><strong>STAY TUNED FOR PART THREE</strong></span></p><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(51, 0, 153);"></span></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div></span>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-59075860074222996242010-01-10T13:05:00.009-08:002011-03-08T17:28:15.057-08:00AND NOW... OUR FEATURE PRESENTATION (PART 1)<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=FeaturePresentation1.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/FeaturePresentation1.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><br /><div align="center">~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >Abused women are NOT 'codependent'. It is abusers, not their partners, who create abusive relationships.</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /></span></span><a href="http://www.lundybancroft.com/">-Lundy Bancroft</a></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong><br /></strong></div><br /></div><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=CookedGoose-LMG.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/CookedGoose-LMG.gif" border="0" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="center">~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<br /></div><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>i came to those forums I write so much about beaten and bloodied and battered... but not completely ignorant... everyone knows victims are not <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><em>responsible<span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span></em></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">for their abuse... and yet... on these forums for abused women... allegedly run </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">by </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">abused women... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">it was ALL I HEARD</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">...that it was my </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">CHOICE</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> and I was </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">RESPONSIBLE</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... and i couldn't help but wonder why.... so i posted... and clung to what i KNEW IN MY VERY SOUL to be true... that i was in no way responsible for my abuse at the hands of a monster... one who had murdered a dog... abandoned his own children... robbed and pillaged and plundered and used his own parents with wild abandon... a predator... and anyone he gets near is fair game...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">yet the women on these forums persisted... i resisted... it was all so familiar...</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">they used the exact same tactics the Psychopath had used on me</span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... and it became crystal clear... that i was not surrounded by abused women... but by </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">abusive women...</span></span></strong></div>~<br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);" align="center"><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">let's start at the ending... BinkStink (one of these forums I speak of above's anointed) last post on her personal blog as of yesterday...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">let's take some pertinent excerpts... and examine them... bit by bit... piece by piece... let's autopsy a living breathing blogging monster...</span><strong><br /></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">AUTOPSY OF A NARCISSISTIC ABUSER...<br />PART ONE</span></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I'm afraid that . . .</span><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">January 4th, 12:14<br />I have given a platform to a very disturbed individual. One who does not desire real dialog on relevant issues, but to prove her point. People who offered her, in the least, a listening ear have been rewarded with hundreds of verbally abusive posts. I knew I would reach the end of my willingness to participate, and I have.<br /><br />On the bright side, we have a real life Faustian dialog between an abuse survivor and a verbally abusive person. I suspected this was the case from the beginning, which is why I posted the "Camping with Abuse Survivors" entry. Mephistopheles was not able to make credible, thoughtful contributions the way the literary character was, but not everyone can be a good Mephistopheles. I'm banning her from my journal.<br /><br />Sorry to everyone and ANYONE who has had their eyeballs scalded by the nastiness and vile hatred that has been spewed across the page. No more platform will I provide for that, hers, or my own.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong>she has most certainly given platform to a very disturbed individual...<span style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span><em><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">herself...</span></em></strong></div><br /><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and you will soon she that it is she who has no interest in relevant issues...<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> </span>as her </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><em>point, </em></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">as with all Narcissistic Abusers, is </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">to CONTROL AND ABUSE others.</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">.. and as with all abusers... she hasn't BANNED me... she has simply stripped me of the ability to defend myself...</span> (<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">how many of you have been the target of a smear campaign at the hands of your abuser when you call them on their bullshit?... that you're scorned, crazy, psycho, disturbed, a bunny boiler, a stalker... etc etc... are the similarities for BinkStink's '</span><a style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;" href="http://www.ex-cult.org/General/singer-conditions">ABUSER'S CLOSED SYSTEM OF LOGIC</a><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">' hitting you yet? Something she learned from her cronies at the <a href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox">CATBOX </a>and OUR PLACE!</span>)<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and you will see that </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">there is certainly a dialog </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">[sic] between abuse survivor and abuser... but that it is </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">she</span></em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;"> who is the abuser</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... anything i volley back at her is reactionary... although, </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">as with all abusers... she will point her finger and accuse me of being the abuser... and the 'hundreds of abusive posts' she is lying about... it was ONE post... <a href="http://narc-attack.blogspot.com/2008/03/poor-narcissist-feels-threatened.html">one <span style="font-style: italic;">she </span>considered <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">threatenin</span></a></span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://narc-attack.blogspot.com/2008/03/poor-narcissist-feels-threatened.html">g</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... because it was the one in which i pointed out her </span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><a href="http://www.merriam-webster.com/medical/schizophasia"><em>schizophasia</em></a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><em>...</em> this line being an example... but far from the worst one...</span></span></strong></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0); text-align: left;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><blockquote>"Mephistopheles was not able to make credible, thoughtful contributions the way the literary character was, but not everyone can be a good Mephistopheles."</blockquote></span></div><blockquote style="font-weight: bold;"><div align="left"></div></blockquote><div align="left"></div><br /><div align="left"></div><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">here's what schizophasia is - now just compare this definition to what BinkStink says in the above quote from her blog:</span><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></div><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Schizophasia</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">,<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> also known colloquially as </span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">"</span><a onmouseup="document.cookie='lastnode_id=0; ; path=/'; 1;" class="populated" title="word salad" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://everything2.com/title/word+salad"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">word salad</span></a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">," is a mental disorder characterized by <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">confused, disorganized usage of words.</span> Although the words may have a </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">loose, thematic</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> relation to the specific question asked or topic at hand, </span><em style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">parsing a specific meaning</em><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> from them is difficult or impossible.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">Schizophasia is best known as a common symptom of </span><a onmouseup="document.cookie='lastnode_id=0; ; path=/'; 1;" class="populated" title="schizophrenia" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://everything2.com/title/schizophrenia">schizophrenia</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">, although it can also present as a symptom of a variety of other mental illnesses. It is also possible for schizophasia to be the sole symptom of mental illness, in what is sometimes termed "asymptomatic schizophrenia," although in some cases it is an early warning sign in patients who later develop more severe illness.</span></div></blockquote><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"></div><strong style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and now... to the beginning... you are about to see many common abuser tactics in use...<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><em>in print</em>...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> it is common for an abuser <a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-isolating.html">to cut their intended prey away from the 'herd'... single them out</a>....<a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-division.html">divide people into 'camps'</a></span><a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-division.html">.</a>.<em>. <a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#ThoughtPolicing">single them out and set them up</a></em>... and this is exactly what BinkStinks does... <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">don't ever think an abuser is not fully aware of what they are doing</span>... just read this quote from her...</strong><br /><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I suspected this was the case from the beginning, which is why I posted the "Camping with Abuse Survivors" entry.</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></div><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">this is a 'partial truth'... the only kind abusers ever tell... </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#SituationalEthics">she is admitting she has done it</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... but is </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#PathologicalLying">lying </a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">as to her reasons...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and now... on with the show..</span>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">my</span><em style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> invective</em><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> will appear in purple...</span></strong></span></div><br /><blockquote><div align="left"><br />Camping With Abuse Survivors (by BinkStink)<br />December 17th, 2009<br />It is too simplistic, i know, but it seems like the victims of interpersonal abuse are in two camps.To make it worse, I'll only focus on the extreme, the stereotype "character" that populate these two groups.<br /><br />Keep in mind that I have a bias toward the idea that abuse is abuse, and that <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">individual's subjective suffering is as real, and horrible, as anyone else's</span>.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">watch this line come back to bite her on her abusive Narc ass)</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">No one corners the market on greater suffering</span>.<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(same with this one)</span> Not because I think that the suffering is completely relative, I don't. No one's suffering is so great that it justifies really awful behavior. Unless you are mentally ill. So keeping that variable nice and flat is important.<br /><br />OK. We have Brenda, a 46 year old woman married twenty six years to Brent. Brent is a turd. He is an abusive waste of space. I don't care if he's really a PERSON beneath that loathsome exterior. Insert your own experience here. He screams at Brenda in public. He physically abuses their son. He has forced her to have sex against her will. He has made favorite pets "disappear", cherished items savaged in revenge for Brenda's inability to fill his huge HOLE where his soul should be.<br /><br />Brenda realizes she is being abused. She joins a support forum. She is validated over and over again until she begins to validate herself a little more. She feels defeated and hopeless, but sees herself in the other members. She bumbles around, starting and stopping, coming and going, for a length of time and then she leaves him, or consciously chooses not to.<br /><br />She thinks, HELL NO, I am outta here. She moves on and leaves the support forum (or stays on as support), and runs away from the pain. Not in the "bad" way, but she goes in a different direction, and starts throwing off the chains and beatings and nasty words until she's free of them.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">this of course was her describing herself, as she must be deluded into believing she is)</span><br /><br />Then, we have Carol, a 46 year old woman married twenty six years to Chuck. Chuck is a turd. He is an abusive waste of space. I don't care if he's really a PERSON beneath his loathsome exterior. Insert your own experiences here. He does the most horrendous things to punish Carol for her inability to fill his huge HOLE where his soul should be.Carol realizes she is being abused. She joins a support forum. She is validated over and over and over again, until she begins to validate herself. She feels defeated and hopeless, and is just not impressed with the stories of others. It's just too much, Chuck took the best years of her life and shat upon them. There is nothing left, and no getting back what was taken. Life, because of what Chuck did, has become a long slow fuck in the ass. Carol is broken and dammit, she'll be the first to inform you. She does not run away from the pain, she embraces it. I'm a bit biased here too, I think it bites her head off in the process, but in any event, Carol finds HER way forward, from Ground Zero of her abuse.<br /><br />Unfortunately, Carol tends to be BANNED from the more conventional abuse support forums, or leaves in disgust. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">this is her describing ME, as she has deluded herself into believing what I am )</span>My hopes are that Carol DOES find connection and continued healing. But I can't see HOW. I am ready to admit that I literally can't see it. Sorry for my blindness. Oops, more bias, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and you can see I have the brain of a</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">toadstool</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">( no shit)</span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"> </span>and guess which "camp" I belong to.<br /><br />These two camps end up warring with one another, either overtly or by ignoring the other as if it doesn't exist. They reject each other like magnets . . . which is really an interesting metaphor, but I'll lose my train of thought. They either accept the other side as "ill" or "young" or "misinformed" or "incredibly stupid". Sometimes, there is vitriol and attacks. Good gawd, you'd think for a bunch of people who went through the same damn thing . . . well, never mind.I think <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">open dialogue</span> between the two camps is in order. I mean, think about it. Both sides are missing exactly one half of the picture.<br /><br />Let me tell you how hard it is for me to give relative value to BOTH camps. It is making my eye twitch. Could there be something, of value to us in the "I'm outta here" camp, in the "I'm fucked forever and that's OK" camp?? Could we be trying to fly too high, doomed to the fate of Icarus? And could there be something of value for the Fucked Forever camp from us from the "I'm Outta Here" camp? like a LOT god help them</div></blockquote><strong style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">BinkStinks was fishing for</strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span><strong style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">'open dialogue'</span>... ie... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">a victim to attack</span>... i decide to reply... </strong><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="left"><br /><blockquote style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">fucked forever<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=51646#t51646">2009-12-18 02:03 pm (UTC)</a><br />i don't think those in the 'fucked forever' camp signed up for it... they just end up there....there are varying DEGREES of everything.. .from burns to abuse...i think those who suffer 'first degree abuse'... they have a far better chance of going to 'i'm outta her camp'... those with 'third degree abuse'... burned to a crisp..inside and out...makes it hard to 'get outta here'... and through no fault of their own...so it's a matter of degree... all abuse is not the same.....has everyone who has been abused been hurt?... sure... but just as someone whose finger is nicked with a butcher knife suffers a wound... it's doesn't compare to the wounds of someone who has been repeatedly stabbed up to the hilt to the knife...<br /><br />i consider myself to be in the 'fucked forever' camp... not because i <span style="font-style: italic;">want </span>to be in that camp... but because<span style="font-style: italic;"> i AM</span> in that camp... that camp is like the Hotel California...<span style="font-style: italic;"> 'you can CHECK OUT anytime you like... but you can never LEAVE'</span>... and i can say that most of the people who have insisted that i am NOT in that camp... <span style="font-style: italic;">them saying it was a whole lot more for THEIR benefit than mine... if they can trick THEMSELVES into believing every story COULD have a happy ending... and blame the camper, if it's the FAULT OF THE CAMPER... it makes THEM feel SAFE</span>... they'll never end up in the FUCKED FOREVER CAMP... nope... because they're not LIKE me... it's a coping technique that is just PEACHY for the <a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#Blaming">BLAMER</a>... but a living hell for the victim...<br /><br />the bottom line is that some abused victims are ready willing and able to throw more severely injured victims to the wind... <span style="font-style: italic;">just to feel more safe themselves</span>... this <span style="font-style: italic;">Not-me</span>-Logic is the sickest and most lowly and pathetic of coping techniques... because someone who has already been victimized has to be re-victimized in order for it to be effective... human sacrifice in exchange for feeling better about yourself...<br /><br />it stinks of NARC...</blockquote></div><strong>this goes on for a bit... her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">baiting </span>me... during this she does allude to someting i found very disturbing... since i know she is an abuser... and a nurse... it would stand to reason that she is also an abusive nurse...<br /></strong><div align="left"><blockquote>I work with cancer patients. There are two I have worked with in the last month, a thirty four year old mother of three with newly diagnosed metastatic breast cancer. Her PET scan, originally done to figure out what was causing all the pain in her shoulder, revealed massive metastases up and down her spine, the long bones of her arms and legs, the base of her skull.<br /><br />The other is a thirty year old mother of four, newly diagnosed with metastatic colon cancer. It's in her lungs and liver, and turned her pelvis into a huge fixed mass that they don't dare remove. They gave her a colostomy, <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">which I couldn't even talk her into LOOKING at</span><span style="font-weight: bold;">.</span></blockquote></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">in hindsight, i find this even more disturbing... seeing how she <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">VAUNTED </span>her abuse onto me... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">attempting to <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">FORCE </span>me to 'see things her way'</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">, in true abuser fashion... her statement above really concerns me now... wow... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i wonder if she tried to 'talk her into' looking at her colostomy <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">by FORCE</span></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">...<br /><br />the fact that this woman is a nurse makes her all the more frightening as a NARCISSISTIC ABUSER...</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">can you imagine a better venue for an abuser than to be IN CHARGE of some desperately ill people???... OMG..</span>.<br /><br /><br /></strong><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">the 'dialogue' continues..i bring up </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://www.nook2.com/Disorders/STPD.html">'magical thinking'</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">.......notice how she has </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;" href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#Shaming">'cut me off from the herd'</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... i am in </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">my own camp</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... she has </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">put </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">me there... and she starts her attack... first she attacks my blog... when i say my blog is </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">no big deal</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">...</span> <a href="http://www.melanietoniaevans.com.au/articles/jealousy-pathological.htm">it must be a lot bigger deal to HER than i ever imagined</a>...<br /></strong></div><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="left"></div><blockquote><div align="left">re: magical thinking...<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=58814#t58814">2009-12-19 02:30 am (UTC)</a><br />I thought we all employed mirrors and lights. I don't think anyone doesn't . . . there isn't some radical purity that you are missing out on, that sets you apart.<br /><br />It's like you are saying that the contents of your blog are dishonest, or meaningless.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> <span style="font-weight: bold;">On the other hand, you must be writing it for SOMEBODY. For the FF camp.Would you say you are a fair representative of the FF camp?<br /><br />What do you guys seek to do, to teach or get the word out on, for your fellow campers?</span></span></div></blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><br />my response:</span><br /><div align="left"></div><blockquote><div align="left">Re: magical thinking......<br /><a href="http://adishservedcold.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://adishservedcold.livejournal.com/">adishservedcold</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=59070#t59070">2009-12-19 03:17 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">sure, the contents of my blog are meaningless... not dishonest... but certainly meaningless... maybe more to me than anyone... there are geniuses who can make words come alive... my words are more like doodles made on a cocktail napkin while waiting on a train... of no importance... </span><br /></div></blockquote><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"></div><strong style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">it goes on... i've told her my blog is unimportant... does it satisfy the nasty bitch?.. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">of course not</span>... this is the perfect example of how <a href="http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2009/08/31/narcissists-perplexing-behavior-and-backward-reactions-things">an abuser can <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">never </span>be placated... instead she becomes more angry</a>... more <span style="font-style: italic;">accusing</span>... her attack goes on...</strong><br /><br /><div align="left"><blockquote>In the meantime . . . you are a bonafide member of the abuse survivor community.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> (for now... i won't be for along... watch her change THAT tune shortly)</span> What is YOUR mission, for the sake of other abuse survivors?<br />Your blog includes sites that you agree are helpful. Are they helpful to you? How do they help you? Why do you think they are helpful?</blockquote></div><strong><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">see her attack?... pointing her finger... trying to back me into a corner?... attacking my blog... attacking me... belittling me... questioning my motivations... </span><a style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" href="http://howtospotadangerousman.blogspot.com/2007/10/am-i-who-he-says-i-am.html">defining me</a><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">....</span></strong><br /><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><div style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);" align="left">my response:<br /><blockquote>Re: Compelling . . .<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=59838#t59838">2009-12-19 03:01 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">when did i become a 'bonafide member' of the abuse survivor community???!!... are there certain QUALIFICATIONS that must be met???... a fucking JUDGING committee???... i thought the pain and suffering of all abuse victims was <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">'subjective'</span>...<br /><br />and i hope when you said that, you were inferring the definition 'PERSONAL... particular to a given person' and not the psychobabble definition of <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">'existing only</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">within the experiencer's mind'</span>... as for what contributions i intend to make... the answer is... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">NONE</span>... i am too busy trying to find a way for my pets to SURVIVE.....</span></blockquote></div><br /><div align="left"></div><strong>there...<br /><br />but now, as with all Narcs....<a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#PlayingTheVictim">no one's suffering <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ever </span>equals their own</a>... watch her start to <a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#Blaming"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">BLAME </span></a>me for my poverty... for my abuse... . watch her <a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#FalseAccusations">put words in my mouth</a>... watch her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">assume </span>what i think and feel... watch her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">assume </span><a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#SelfAggrandizement">a position of AUTHORITY</a>....</strong><br /><div align="left"><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=60094#t60094">2009-12-19 06:59 pm (UTC)</a><br />Answers: When you identified yourself as an abuse survivor. YOU stated your qualifications. YOU are the judgement committee.<br /><br />It seems as though YOU have trouble acknowledging the value of subjective experience, YOUR OWN, as you deny your own involvement in the decision.I think you've given me a pretty good idea of what the Fucked Forever camp is thinking, if you are a fair representative<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(see how she starts to DEFINE me...she is telling me what i am</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">representative of) </span>Hope is bullshit.<br /><br />Responsibility for healing lies outside yourself, is given to you or taken away by some "outer influence". This "outer influence" has seen fit to give other people healing, but has passed you by for some reason.<br /><br />You yourself are powerless to make a difference for yourself, because the damage you incurred is final.<br /><br />Suggestions in the vein of "what if something good DOES come your way?" are met with all the reasons why it never will.<br /><br />And in the end, people who camp elsewhere are deluded and say insipid affirmations to themselves in the bathroom mirror every morning.<br /><br />To your last statement there . . . oh do I ever remember finding a way for my pets to survive. Well, they were a herd of 25 goats, a couple dozen chickens and ten geese and two tom turkeys, 13 dogs and two cats. Oh yeah, and me :) I spent nine months trying to do that. No job. ATM gone. Five feet of snow for five months of the year. Temps that didn't go above 12 degrees for the same length of time. A well that froze, pipes that burst, firewood that I split myself from huge rounds with a wood grenade and a sledge hammer.<br /><br />I ate out of boxes that came from the food bank. I was so unused to "real food" that when I finally gave up the farm and went to live with my sister, I had the WORST gas and diarrhea till my intestines repopulated themselves with better creatures. Good thing I quit smoking because I'd have blown myself to kingdom come.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(this is all way too much information, but she is on a roll)</span>.</span> No wonder she gifted me a some powerful aromatic candles that first month. I was SO FUCKING HUNGRY. I used to go into her pantry and STARE at the food. I was delighted with the tiny jars of pickled artichoke hearts. I craved them. I just sat there and watched my farm DIE. And my heart died with it.<br /><br />From March of 2008 to June of 2009 I lived in HELL. My sister made me re-home my Great Pyrenees after HER dog got into the GP's food and the GP got a little testy about it. She made remarks that my last remaining dog was on short time, too. One of my cats disappeared, forever. Her children fell in love with my other cat and I couldn't bear to take her from them when I finally did move out<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">.(now i see where this is going ...she is JEALOUS of me..that i have kept my pets with me..that i have kept my family together...my success is HER failure..and she is ENRAGED by it)</span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"> </span>I lost my credit. I was going to Coinstar with the nickels and pennies to buy food, exhange it with my sister for money, and put in my damn gas tank so I could go to work at a job an hour away. My car had expired tabs, I had no insurance, and my tires were bald. The whole thing is documented on the Catbox. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Without their support and encouragement, which I was WILLING to receive and take on blind faith, I wouldn't be sitting here watching my geese and chickens out my bedroom window</span>. <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">( this is unusual for a Narc... they usually hog all credit for themselves... but this one has actually become an EXTENSION of a group of abusers... a BORG OF ABUSERS... they are as one)</span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"><br /></span><blockquote>I wouldn't be grumbling to myself about putting on cold plastic pants and going out in the blasted rain and mud to do FARM chores.I don't buy that ANYONE with a modicum of intelligence and willingness CAN'T HEAL. As far down as I went I wasn't going to stay there.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">My experience has proven my position. It can't get any better than that..</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(she finishes her diatribe by comparing herself to me... i am an abject failure... <a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#IdentityDisturbance">because i am <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">not </span>her</a>... heck, i can live with that)</span></span></div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i760.photobucket.com/albums/xx241/The_Rockstar_24/misc-dumb_bunny.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 300px; cursor: pointer; height: 427px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i760.photobucket.com/albums/xx241/The_Rockstar_24/misc-dumb_bunny.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><strong>she goes on to say:</strong></span><br /></div><blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I won't beat a dead horse. I just don't see any dead horses to beat. Nope, not even you :)</span></div></blockquote><div align="left"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></div><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><strong><br />this translates to...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> the attacks will go one... she's just warming up...</span></strong></span><br /><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i attempt to explain myself... defend myself... i bring up the fact that i have complex PTSD... anic attacks... anxiety attacks... which has not been properly treated because i have no insurance... and because i have found 'free therapy' to be far worse than no therapy at all...</span><br /></strong></div><br /><div align="left"></div><blockquote style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><div align="left">PTSD<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=63422#t63422">2009-12-20 07:29 am (UTC)</a><br />how about that?.....does that count?.. how about a world class case of PTSD?.. how about PTSD that is so bad i have intense anxiety attacks... in grocery stores... pet food stores..?<br /><br />how about PTSD so bad that i cannot really function in day to day life?... how about it taking me HOURS sometimes... to force myself to go out for a bag of groceries?... it not only interferes with my life... it keeps me from having a life.<br /><br />i sought help for it... begged help for it... and gotten NOTHING... except so therapy from someone so incompetent that it has made my PTSD worse... or is the fact i can't walk into a fucking walmart without having a breakdown going to be dismissed too?????</div></blockquote><br /><div align="left"><strong>of course, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;"></span>.</strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">the all knowing Narc knows all about PTSD</span></strong><strong>... <a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#Hysteria">she starts citing her wealth of knowledge... she poses as an AUTHORITY ON PTSD</a>.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">(which will come back to bite her hard on the ass when i file a complaint with the nursing board in her state)<br /><br />she attempts to define my reality... tell me what i think and feel... she is attempting to tell me MY reality is WRONG...</span></strong></div><div align="left"><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=63678#t63678"></a><blockquote><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=63678#t63678">2009-12-20 09:22 am (UTC)</a><br />I wouldn't think of dismissing the terrible pain of PTSD<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">,<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(we'll soon see this is a lie</span>)</span> or the person experiencing it<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(she has already dismissed the person experiencing it)</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"> </span>My own is not as bad as it once was<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(of course not)</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"><br /><br /></span>It seems as though a combination of time and baby steps forward has decreased the symptoms. It's weird, they can pop up at any time again, for no "reason". What gives me hope is that <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PTSD is a curable condition</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(this is a total lie and this one is going to get her in deep with the nursing board also)</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span>I've watched other people get better with their symptoms too. It also takes an <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">extreme ongoing effort on the part of the sufferer,</span> to not give up<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold;">(her recurring theme... i'm not trying hard enough... that's my problem, according to BinkStinks)</span></span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I was a psych nurse for 17 years</span>, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">long enough I always "will" be no matter what else I do</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(we shall see)</span> I've seen me some PTSD. I've seen people who SHOULD have PTSD but are amazingly together. One gal that comes to mind was a co-worker who witnessed her father murder her mother when she was nine years old.<br /><br />I've also seen people who are determined there is no help, no hope, and they are fucked forever<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(again she is slamming me... blaming me... it's all my fault i have PTSD)</span></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I just don't believe it. I don't think anyone is hopeless, </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and I don't mean that to insinuate something bad about the person who has given up even trying</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"> (OH NO...of course not)</span></span> I just think they are <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">wrong</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">about themselves</span>. And they are building their Fucked Forever prison <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">themselves</span>, one brick at a time<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">.(i see... she's not insinuating anything... she's announcing it... people are to blame for their own PTSD!)</span><br /><br />I tell you what's impossible. To try and reach out to a person who is determined to stay Fucked. Every thing you say to them is construed as an insult, a head game<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>,(yes..because it IS)</strong></span> or the person reaching out is in hopeless denial. It's a very tight system, and self reinforcing. If YOU are fucked, then so is everyone else, so it doesn't matter what you do or say to them. You <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">can abuse them, cheat them, tell lies about them, destroy them</span>. Everybody is trying to do that to YOU, after all, so you're just dishing it right back out to them.<br /><br />I agree you must have TERRIBLE PTSD. I also think it is not PTSD that causes you to be so fucked<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(WOW..WHAT A SLAMATHON...a nasty abusive sanctimonious authoritarian manipulating blaming NARC BITCH has extended her hand to me ...to 'abuse me, cheat me, tell lies about me and destroy me'..and i'm not GRATEFUL...gee....imagine </span><em style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">that!)</em></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><em></em></span></div><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i tell her i'm seeing where this is going:</p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><p style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"></p><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">very familiar with this</span><br /><a href="http://adishservedcold.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://adishservedcold.livejournal.com/">adishservedcold</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=64190#t64190">2009-12-20 02:45 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i get it... i do... been there seen it... no matter how hurt somone else is...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you're hurt more</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">... no matter what someone else has accomplished...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you have accomplished more</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">... people always come up short in your lofty estimation... and you are ENTITLED to have YOUR feelings hurt and to be angry... t irene... and the list of bitches on OP who dissed you.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">a lot of whom are the same ones who dissed me... who treat everyone like shit... but i cannot... and you can get on your blog and talk about how sorry you are... while your hatchet man charlene rips irene to shreds elsewhere... keeping your hands clean...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">YOU are one who wants to play dueling suffering</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">... not me...<br /></span><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">30,000 people die from suicide every year in this country... are they also on the receiving end of your CONTEMPT... because they didn't 'get over it'... like you did???..<br /><br />5 million people a year will suffer from PTSD... hundreds of thousands are on disability for PTSD... are they all objects of your contempt and scorn??... maybe you should get a job in a VA hospital... were you could attack scores of PTSD suffers... minimize their suffering... negate it...</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you said it to me yourself... you have little or no sympathy for any human being</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">... it shows...<br /></span></blockquote><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">her twisted response:</span><br /><br /><blockquote>Re: very familiar with this<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=64702#t64702">2009-12-20 07:23 pm (UTC)</a><br />You attribute a lot of really negative stuff to me, like contempt, that I don't have<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">(hahahahahaha)</span></span>Because I believe you could recover and find serenity and peace, you accuse me of minimizing your suffering and YOU.I dare to say you aren't familiar with "this" at all, because you aren't hearing me or recognizing my intention.<strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> (oh, i'm hearing you bitch..and believe me, i RECOGNIZE your intentions</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">)</span></strong> You have me all figured out, <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>(yes i do..and Narcs just hate to be figured out)</strong></span> put me in a nice little category that enables you to discount MY experience as denial and fear and YOURS as "real" and substantial<strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(OUTSTANDING example of PROJECTION)</span><br /></strong><br />That's really interesting because I think that denial and fear is more an aspect of your side of the camp than my own.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Thus, this conversation... I don't want to prove you wrong. I already believe</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you are</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(and of course that is all that matters)</span> Each time you accuse me of these <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">horrendous </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">motives</span> I am even more convinced you are<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(here we go!!.. another typical Narc maneuver... <a href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#PlayingTheVictim">she is painting herself as being a victim of ME... it is ME abusing HER</a>)</span> You don't have to defend your "rightness" to me, <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(that's what this attack is all about ... forcing me to defend myself)</span> and I don't have to defend mine to you<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(why of course not)</span> You don't need me to agree with you, do you? For you to be OK with where you are?</blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>i reply</strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><blockquote>Re: very familiar with this<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=65470#t65470">2009-12-21 12:03 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">you seem to think you have ME all figured out... and no, i don't need you to agree with me... it's you who keeps trying to get me to agree with you... . some situations are hopeless... that's reality...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> it's you who are projecting yourself onto me</span>... if i am miserable beyond MY personal comfort zone with inside temps in the 40's... you come back with how you lived with with temps in -100 or something... if i say what MY personal limitations are... you counter back with yours... but YOURS have nothing to do with me... nd i know that mine have nothing to do with you... i would venture to say that most people think 'adishservedcold' is referring to that horrible horrible REVENGE... but it is actually about being cold... about being constantly cold...<br /><br />people who know me... who truly know ME... know that i very much believe in MIRACLES... i have witnessed miracles... a couple in my own life... but i'm pretty sure i've maxed out my miracle card... my problems are immense... and cannot be fixed with positive affirmations or HOPE or a spa day... they cannot be fixed with psychobabble... or stacks of conflicting self help books... i cannot fix them... and i deeply deeply resent those who imply it is due to some <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">WEAKNESS OF CHARACTER</span> on my part... i've served more tours of duty than George C. Patton... (although i'm sure you've served EVEN MORE)...<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">i've posed this question before... but never gotten a reply</span>...what i would like to know is... is the interest in my redemption really about <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ME</span> at all???</span></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>NOW SHE BRINGS OUT <a href="http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2010/01/more-on-tallulah-two-faced-bitch.html">TURBONARC TALLULAH</a>...always sniffing around to attack someone...</strong></p><blockquote><p><strong></strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><p><a href="http://mata-hari41.livejournal.com/">mata_hari41</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=64958#t64958">2009-12-21 05:24 am (UTC)</a><br />No, there are THREE camps. InfernoPurgatoryParadise, Dish dwells in the Inferno. "Abandon all hope, ye who enter here."</p></blockquote><p></p><p><strong>this is one of the two quotes that TURBONARC TALLULAH has committed to her apparently very small memory capacity... and i've seen it and heard hundreds of times...<br /></strong></p><blockquote>shifting the blame<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=70590#t70590">2009-12-22 07:51 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">have you EVER considered that 'SOME PEOPLE' DO NOT abandon HOPE... but that perhaps HOPE itself ABANDONS SOME PEOPLE?????.. WHICH CAME FIRST?????????????...did those 'SOME PEOPLE' abandon HOPE before HOPE abandoned THEM... or was it PERHAPS the other way around????? <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">again we're back to the NOT-ME, magical thinking merry go round</span>... if everyone who is WITHOUT HOPE is to BLAME... because they have ABANDONED HOPE... while you EMBRACE it... then HOPE will never abandon YOU... it's quite shameful, really... very cowardly...<br /></span></blockquote><p></p><p></p><p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">BinkStink spews back:</span><br /></p><blockquote>Re: shifting the blame<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=71614#t71614">2009-12-22 09:01 am (UTC)</a><br />No, I don't.Hope springs eternal<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.(<span style="font-style: italic;">and so does the drivel from this NARC'S mouth)</span></span> You have just as much access to it as the next human being. You are bright and intelligent and curious. You do not appear to have a thought disorder, ie, schizophrenia, you seem to participate in consensual reality<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="font-style: italic;">(which is a LOT more than i can say for this whack job)</span></span> I think YOU abandoned hope, because you couldn't get what you wanted on your terms. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(of course... i am to BLAME because BLAME is the name of her GAME)<br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(153, 51, 153);"><br />MY RESPONSE</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><br /></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p></p><p></p><blockquote><p>shifting the blame<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=72126#t72126">2009-12-22 10:41 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i'm really worn out with your magical thinking... my teeth are bad... shall i just HOPE for new ones... or maybe get some <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PRO BONO</span>????.. if i get sick or hurt, there is NO ONE to take care of my dogs... shall i just <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">HOPE</span> someone will come stumbling down the street of the impoverished neighbohood i live in and help me????</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i owe thousand in back personal property tax t<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">hanks to the PSYCHOPATH and cannot tag my car</span>... shall i just HOPE for thousands of dollars to all from the beautiful blue skies above me... or shall i ACTIVELY SEEK SOMEONE TO PAY THEM FOR ME... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PRO</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">BONO</span>???</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">as with ALL MAGICAL THINKERS... serious, valid, REAL solutions to REAL problems are never addressed... it's all just vague, obtuse, hazy, indistinct, mumbo jumbo... designed ENTIRELY for the comfort of the MUMBLERS</span>... someone with TERMINAL MAGICAL THINKING..like the case you have... can simply fling out some piece of obtuse spew of claptrap and call it 'advice'... then they can sigh heavily and say 'well, i offered my advice<span style="font-style: italic;"> (non-existent..seen ONLY by the magical thinker) </span>and they REFUSED TO HEED IT'... case closed... as with all magical thinkers...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> COLD HARD FACTS never come into play</span>... that's because the fragile delicate magical thinker doesn't care for ANYTHING that can be construed as HARD, COLD or TRUTH... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">magical thinkers accuse <span style="font-weight: bold;">REALITY BASED INDIVIDUALS</span> who refuse to play along with magical thinking as BITTER and ANGRY</span>... by brandishing those who are standing firmly in REALITY as somehow being WRONG or BAD... the confronted magical thinker can slip back into their nice safe snug comfort zone.....right between DELUSION and DENIAL... same with you Tallulah..<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">. you want to address the 6,500 plus soldiers who commit suicide yearly from PTSD</span>.. you got some tired old quote to cover it???????</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">“The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts.”</span> - Bertrand Russell</p></blockquote><p></p><p><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i173.photobucket.com/albums/w42/omgjamieee/denial.gif"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 100px; cursor: pointer; height: 100px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i173.photobucket.com/albums/w42/omgjamieee/denial.gif" border="0" /></a><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">BinkStink's typical obtuse, insipid Narc response</span><br /></p><blockquote>Re: quotes<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=75710#t75710">2009-12-22 07:09 pm (UTC)</a><br />LOL, said the wolf to the grapes <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(she's starting to slip into some schizophasia here)</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i go on to quote a expert in PTSD... who says</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">it cannot be cured... and can only be treated by a therapist with extensive knowledge of and experience with PTSD... </span>Narcs don't like facts... especially when the facts don't mesh with their bullshit... i then went on to add something else that didn't mesh with her bullshit...<br /></strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><blockquote>Re: PTSD....<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=67518#t67518">2009-12-21 10:06 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i can imagine people not HEARING what i'm saying...but when i'm putting in PRINT... it makes me think it's purposeful... i think i have said... over and over and over and over and over... that i have tried everything... there is no medical care for <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">single</span> women... no dental care for <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">single</span> women... no PRO BONO therapy for <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">single</span> women... and not even LEGAL AID... and to get the low-rent pointless laughable 'therapy' i've gotten, i had to LIE about where i live... it's all a joke... there is no real help... <a href="http://survivorsinaction.blogspot.com/2009/10/let-me-introduce-you-to-dv-run-around.html">it just run around</a>... you go to one, they say go here, you go there, they say go over there... you go over there and they send right back to where you started... and I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS SAID THIS...there were several members on OP who had had this very same kind of experience... and they were shouted down... but in pms we all agreed... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">there is no real help</span>... none...<br /></span></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>another poster who has been reading this blog... someone who also has PTSD... joins in...</strong><br /></p><blockquote>a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/">4everdifferent</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=68030#t68030">2009-12-22 12:49 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">adishservedcold - you are absolutely RIGHT! There is no free or pro-bono care for Complex PTSD victims - and the "free" medical care is AWFUL!!! I am in the NorthEast and unfortunately one abuse victim who waits to use the E.R. The runaround you get from providers, medicaid and even the DV places is awful... I am sleeping on the floor of a friend but I'm sure she's getting tired of me being here.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Complex PTSD is PERMANENT. There is NO CURE!! The meds make you sleepy, dopey or sick. No amount of wishing or "working on it" changes it - unless maybe you have a Time Machine.</span></blockquote><p></p><p><strong style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">uh oh... should BinkStinks attack or suck up?... what to do... she takes an air of AUTHORITY again...</strong><br /></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=68542#t68542">2009-12-22 03:41 am (UTC)</a><br />Hi 4everdifferent, welcome :)Many people have had some, or a lot of response from meds and therapy. I realize there are some who don't. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I worked in this field for a long time</span> and there are those who don't get better and go on to lead very miserable lives.</blockquote><p></p><p><strong style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">it backfires and the Narc is challenged...</strong><br /></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/">4everdifferent</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=68798#t68798">2009-12-22 05:16 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">are you suggesting that we PURPOSELY LEAD 'miserable lives'?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">or that we PURPOSELY don't respond to therapy?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">If so you shouldn't be working in this field... because that's not only unrealistic it's nasty.</span></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>BinkStink's quick backpedaling... sort of</strong> </p><blockquote><p>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=69054#t69054">2009-12-22 05:45 am (UTC)</a><br />Sorry if I came across that way ..<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. (the Narc is sorry she got called on her bullshit)</span> . I don't think it's purposeful. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(in my case it is, though... right Narc?)</span><br /></p><p>There's something else missing, and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I don't know what it is for sure</span>. I suspect it is that the person has processed their personal tragedies in such a way that they are convinced there is no possibility of recovery. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I suspect, I don't KNOW. </span>I do not feel that there is no hope for <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">me</span>. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">It's hard for <span style="font-weight: bold;">me </span>to understand it when someone insists they are fucked forever.</span> Especially when they have it together enough to type legibly and write intelligently (and often hilariously, in adishservedcold's case lol).<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(uh huh... continued application of SUCTION and how <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">insulting </span>to PTSD sufferers to say that if someone can type and put a sentence together that they can't possibly have PTSD!)</span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>That woman is crazy brilliant <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(omg!! WHAT TOTAL GASLIGHING BULLSHIT)</span>... but hopeless? <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">I </span>can't buy it</span>.<br /></p><p>Sorry :(I haven't "spoken" to you enough to know your sitch<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <span style="font-style: italic;">(or to determine if i can rip you to shreds)</span></span> but you sound intelligent and you make perfect sense :P so <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I can tell your brain is wired normally</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> <span style="font-style: italic;">(because after all, she's been a nurse in the psycho-atric field for 17 years - easy for her to diagnose via blog!)</span></span>. So I'm not sure you are hopeless either.</p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I have NO idea what to suggest</span>, not that either of you are asking for suggestions, of course<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="font-style: italic;">(but we're gonna get them anyway, of course)</span></span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span> just don't buy it, <span style="font-weight: bold;">I </span>never have </span>. . . yet over and over again, I've seen the evidence of people who don't get better and lead very miserable lives.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> (doesn't have a feel for this poster yet... and it's making the Narc a little bit nervous)</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></p><p></p></blockquote><p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">this poster responds beautifully...</span><br /></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=69566#t69566">2009-12-22 06:53 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">what is it you just don't BUY???... you don't BUY the results of STUDIES... and RESEARCH?... you just don't BUY what PSYCHIATRISTS and PSYCHOLOGISTS and even the good ol UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT is saying<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">????.. so it's the particular PERSON who is at FAULT???.. because of they way they have PROCESSED they 'personal tragedy'??</span>?<br /><br />it's the FAULT of the PERSON, and not whoever or whatever PERPERTRATED the PERSONAL TRAGEDY????</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /><br />so when you say that the problem lies in the PROCESSING skills of the VICTIM... are you not in fact BLAMING THE VICTIM AND /OR THEIR PROCESSING SKILLS?????????????????</span></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>but that's lost on BinkStink so right back to her NarcStandard Operating Procedure:</strong></p><blockquote><p>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=71358#t71358">2009-12-22 08:59 am (UTC)</a><br />Hmm. You keep accusing me of blaming you<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(gee, i wonder why?)</span></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>I haven't<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">(she has)</span>.</span> I don't. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(she does)</span> I think where you get tripped up is assuming I am blaming. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(GASLIGHTING... i'm CRAZY... she didn't say that. blah blah blah... more lies and backwards talk) </span>That's more about you. You openly blame for your circumstances. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(she does, BinkStinks?)</span> I'm on a different track, or something. I'm thinking different thoughts. I say you are accountable, and in the end, responsible for yourself<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(AND YOUR ABUSE)</span></span> Who else could do it? And would they even do a good job? So far, no<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">.(oops! ..here's her Schizophasia again)</span><br /></p><p>In the end, it's not about blaming. It's about accepting that you might have to change IF, and I am capitalizing IF IF IF you desire to change<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">( you might HAVE to change IF you want</span></span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">to change... meds wearing off?)</span>...</span> I can already hear you say "I CAN'T CHANGE!!!" and I believe to the tips of my toenails that human being can change, but only if they want to.What don't I BUY? That you are hopelessly fucked. Sometimes people have had so much fucked up stuff happen that they forget there is much, much more. They wait for someone else to give them what they need. When people CANNOT give them what they need, they hate them and all they stand for.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(<span style="font-style: italic;">PROJECTION...SHE SHOULD KNOW ALL ABOUT THAT SUBJECT)</span></span><br /></p><p>Ultimately, it seems you feel no power to change your life. You wait for someone to rescue you, perhaps? I don't know. You tell me<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(again attacking me & this poster, putting words in our mouths, and putting both of us on the defensive... didn't she say she'd worked with patients with PTSD and knew all about it?... yet BinkStinks seems clueless to understand how triggering everything she is saying is!!!)</span></span></p></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>she's about to be challenged again...</strong></span><br /></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/">4everdifferent</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=73150#t73150">2009-12-22 12:22 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">good for you but it wasn't ME who 'convinced' myself - it was numerous therapists & a clinic - all who sat me down and told me the TRUTH - this is NOT CUREABLE... this is a LIFE LONG CONDITION... only MANAGEMENT...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">yet over and over again, I've seen the evidence of people who don't get better and lead very miserable lives.<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">This alone should speak VOLUMES to you.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Like not blaming the sufferer and that DV resources are NON-EXISTANT</span></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">BinkStink backpedals... she can't remember a word she JUST said:</span><br /></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=74942#t74942">2009-12-22 06:59 pm (UTC)</a><br />I don't blame the sufferer<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(oh for God's sake!!! she JUST DID!!)</span></span> I encourage them to find that tiniest spark of self will and begin to take steps, even mincing, imperceptable ones, toward the best life they are capable of making.<br /><br />DV resources are NOT nonexistant. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(and she knows this because... well because she's the ALL-KNOWING WIZARD OF BINKSTINKS!) </span>They just aren't going to give you a house and a job and a good lawyer and an expensive, university trained therapist as a free counselor.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(<span style="font-style: italic;">God forbid someone would expect a 'UNIVERSITY trained therapist'!.. as opposed to </span><em style="font-style: italic;">what..</em><span style="font-style: italic;">. maybe a PRISON trained therapist?)</span></span> They have people like you and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">me </span>who have gotten far enough along in recovery that they want to turn around and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">help others</span> as they were helped.Management of PTSD, long term, is better by far than being a member of the living dead<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(so i guess she's agreeing without knowing it... that the DOMESTIC VIOLENCE industry is<a href="http://beyondthepsychiatricbox.blogspot.com/"> full of flakes and predators and not much else</a>... the good people are few & FAR between...)</span></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">so, i smack the bitch upside the head with some FACTS... the Narcissist's worst nightmare... cold hard TRUTH... and a little of her own medicine...</span><br /></strong></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">when you say <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">SOME never recover</span>... what P<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ERCENTAGE</span> would you say is <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">SOME</span>?... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and what would you say the reason is that those SOME do not recover?.</span>..<br /><br />when you say <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">MANY</span> people have had response from meds and therapy... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">HOW MANY are you talking about</span>?...<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and HOW MANY had SOME</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">response, and HOW MANY had a LOT</span>?... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">do more have SOME response</span>.. .<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">or do more</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">have a LOT of response</span>???..<br /><br />because the Ft. Campbell Kentucky army base was so concerned about the number of SUICIDES of PTSD sufferers on their base alone, they did their own study... and when it all added up it was estimate that the number of SUICIDES FROM PTSD about the veterans of Iraq and Afghanistan will EXCEED THE COMBAT DEATH TOLL... mostly due to INADEQUATE TREATMENT... that's quite a <span style="font-weight: bold;">FEW</span>... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">o</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ver 6,500 veterans kill themselves EVERY YEAR... that's quite a <span style="font-weight: bold;">FEW</span>.</span>.. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">and of course there are not studies that have been done on the numbers of VICTIMS of DOMESTIC violence related PTSD who commit suicide every year, mainly because NO ONE GIVES A FUCK</span>... 6,500 soldiers a year... dead from PTSD related suicide... that's quite SOME <span style="font-weight: bold;">FEW</span>... and 25 percent of ALL HOMELESS PEOPLE in the great UNTIED STATES OF BULLSHIT are veterans with PTSD... that's QUITE SOME <span style="font-weight: bold;">FEW</span>, wouldn't you say????...<br /><br />in my case bink... you seem to be blaming ME... my REFUSAL to <span style="font-weight: bold;">HOPE</span>... or to seek PRO BONO therapy, hahahaha... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">so, what do you suppose the <span style="font-weight: bold;">FAULT... the FLAW, the PROBLEM </span>with those 6,500 soldiers a year who commit suicide is</span>???.. is it what THEY are FAILING DO FOR THEMSELVES???.. or could it just fucking be that it is really what SOICIETY is FAILING TO DO FOR THEM???<br /><br />i await your reply...</span></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></p><p style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">it will be a long wait... because the NARC decides to </span><a style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);" href="http://www.outofthefogsite.com/CommonBehaviors.html#CircularConversations">dance around the questions posed... by finger pointing... and eluding... and trying to redirect the subject...</a><br /></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=70078#t70078">2009-12-22 07:15 am (UTC)</a><br />I am focussing on the domestic abuse victims. <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I don't think either of us are qualified to DREAM we can identify with the experiences of soldiers in Iraq</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">.(dancing away from the subject)</span> I agree their suicide rates are chilling, to say the least.We have fought a very different sort of war, and I <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">don't care how bad it was, comparing OUR PTSD to theirs is grandiose, and diminishes what they go through, IMHO. So won't compare them anyway</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(no of course she won't ... and how DARE i compare PTSD to ... PTSD!)</span></span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I </span>have just had a different experience with therapy and recovery. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(so everyone should be JUST LIKE her... according to her... how NARCY of HER!!!)</span> A<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ll I have is <span style="font-weight: bold;">my </span>experience to go by</span>, and of course, you yours.<br /><br />Rather than take potshots at each other as we represent different points of view, I was hoping we could try to understand each other<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">.(getting a little nervous here... she feels herself getting cornered)</span> We are BOTH domestic violence victims. We have had some very similar experiences . . . the animal murders and assaults, the psychopathic death threats, the drugs, the terrible isolation, the complete loss of money and lifestyle to a mooching, greedy con men<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">. <span style="font-style: italic;">(the old common ground ploy, a favorite of Tallulah)</span></span>Yet I have hope. You say you have none. I have had a modicum of recovery of my self and have dreams of a better future. You say you are already dead and consider your defeat final. I say I was defeated and goddammit it's NOT final. Not if I have anything to do with it<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(CONTROL FREAK BITCH)</span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I have never once blamed you for your condition,</span> yet you insist (by repeating yourself) that I blame you<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(here we go again - not remembering what she's just TYPED AS CLEAR AS DAY)</span></span><br /><br />It's not about BLAME in my book. It's about power and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">choice</span>, in my book. But you say you have neither. And that is what I don't understand. So far you have not given me compelling information or reasoning to support WHY you have no hope or life left in you, other than that is what you have decided is true. And yet you deny that you made that decision, that it was made FOR you. For <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">me</span>, I did make a decision. I could choose to be bitter and angry and hate the world for what it did to <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">me</span>. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(ooooh...look at this... now she is attacking me again...painting me as bitter and angry and full of hate... an Our Place standard)</span> For all the losses and pain. Or, I could be a proponent of just the opposite.I nstead of shaking my fist at the fucked up world, I could build my own little corner, what is within my personal power, to be as decent and good as I can make it.<br /><br />It IS a fucked up world, and I can't fix THAT. But I can fix myself. I can choose not to drag my friends and family and anyone I relate with into the pits of despair. I can choose to be uplifting. And I do, even when I feel like crawling in a hole and dying<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">nowhere </span>does she address what i have said in my post to her...)</span></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p></p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and i call her out on it...</span> <blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=70846#t70846">2009-12-22 07:59 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i'm calling you out on this one... to aid in your <em>personal growth</em>... <blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">'I think the</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">subjective experience of being abused is sacred, in that judging another person's abuse as a "nick" versus "third degree abuse" is mere speculation. The subjective experience is not something you can honestly judge. Sure you CAN judge it, but I don't buy that in judging it you are being honest and fair.'</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"><strong>(it has come back to bite</strong></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">her on her ass)</span> </strong></span></span>NOW........IS TRAUMA SUBJECTIVE... or is it NOT?????...not everyone who has been in <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">MILITARY</span> combat develops PTSD... and not everyone who has been in <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">MARITAL</span> combat develops PTSD... because ALL TRAUMA, all VICTIMIZATION is <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">according to YOU</span>... '<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">SUBJECTIVIE'</span>... so... who are YOU to say that someone who has been beaten by their husband isn't JUST as TRAUMATIZED as someone who was in military combat???... since ALL ABUSE IS <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">'SUBJECTIVE'</span>???</span></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>she gets a double whammy...</strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/">4everdifferent</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=73406#t73406">2009-12-22 12:28 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I am focussing on the domestic abuse victims</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> I don't think either of us are qualified to DREAM we can identify with the experiences of soldiers in Iraq</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> <blockquote><span style="font-style: italic;">I agree their suicide rates are chilling, to say the least.</span>'</blockquote>Exactly - and no comparison to DV victims - whose PTSD can be JUST AS if not MORE SEVERE in some cases</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">...</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> <blockquote style="font-style: italic;">'comparing OUR PTSD to theirs is grandiose, and diminishes what they go through, IMHO. So won't compare them anyway'</blockquote>.....</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">No it isn't -<span style="font-weight: bold;"> doctors do it all the time</span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">.'</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> <blockquote style="font-style: italic;">I have just had a different experience with therapy and recovery. All I have is my experience to go by'</blockquote>.. exactly... so why keep pushing "hope" and so on... you are then comparing <span style="font-weight: bold;">YOU </span>to the rest of us who were PSYCHOPATHY victims. Do you know that there's a new clinic in Clearwater, Florida for victims recovering from Psychopath Abuse? It's booked THROUGH THIS YEAR already and it's only been open 6 months... and no they won't do PRO BONO or compassionate care.</span></blockquote><p></p><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i300.photobucket.com/albums/nn34/manchester_utd777/GuiltTrip.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 300px; cursor: pointer; height: 240px; text-align: center;" alt="" src="http://i300.photobucket.com/albums/nn34/manchester_utd777/GuiltTrip.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">this is a tough one... can she attack me... while still attempting to ingratiate herself to a poster she's not sure about?... she decides to ignore the other poster and go after me...</span><br /></strong></p><p></p><blockquote>Re: a fellow PTSD sufferer<br /><br />How could you possibly KNOW that it is as severe or MORE? Have you been a soldier in Iraq? The doctors who compare have neither been DV victims OR war veterans.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(<span style="font-style: italic;">oh, so now they're WRONG too</span>)</span> I don't see how they can know, either.(<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">of course not... but she has no problem</span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">knowing they're wrong</span>)</span>The best I can come up with to JUSTIFY a comparison is comparison by metaphor. Yes, DV victims live in a war zone, but it is a specious war zone compared to what I imagine a TRUE war zone is over in the Middle East. It is helpful to conceptualize DV as a war zone and the PTSD as similar, but it's a huge jump to compare the experiences point by point. The metaphor fails, as most DO when you get right down to it<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(grasping at straws,</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">here).</span><br /><br />You think I wasn't a victim of psychopathy? Go check my story out on the Catbox.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span> totally agree there is not enough help out there available. So we are forced to help ourselves, however we can. If you can think in a straight line, don't hear voices telling you to kill your baby from the heat vent, then you are probably <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">capable of taking steps to help yourself</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(i guess if you're not killing people YET... no professional help is required)</span> </span><span style="font-weight: bold;">I </span>get the impression some people believe they CAN'T help themselves, and must wait for others to serve them. You'll be waiting forever. If you don't want to wait, start now.There is a whole other world out there, if you want it.<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> BTW I have very recently done the government funded psych care routine. I didn't have the money to put in my gas tank to even go to the free counseling services offered to me, so I didn't go.<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(you all remember this line from my </span></span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">preview and i want to take a moment to really address this one!!...THIS BITCH IS A NURSE!!...SHE OBVIOUSLY HAS INSURANCE!!...SO WHY WOULD SHE NEED TO GO THE 'GOVERNMENT FUNDED PSYCH CARE ROUTINE'?....this is an OBVIOUS LIE..she works in a HOSPITAL!..is she trying to say she has no access to PSYCHIATRIC CARE IN A HOSPITAL??...i say this is either COMPLETE FABRICATION OR she herself is RIPPING OFF FREE SERVICES THAT SHOULD BE GOING TO THOSE , AS SHE PUTS IT....'MORE DESERVING!'..and one cannot help but wonder WHY if there is a shred of truth to what she's saying here...that she isn't using her INSURANCE for PSYCH CARE.??????...)</span></span>It was all on me, and the support I was WILLING to receive from a bunch of women who told me I could do it if I wanted it bad enough. They were right. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(where is this going??... she wasn't willing to submit to real psych care, for reasons become more obvious by the sentence, but she was willing to join forces with a bunch of abusive bitches on a forum?... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">isn't she saying that she has done</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">what she is accusing me of?...</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">turning</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">down the</span> </span><em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">help offered to her</span>?</span>)</em></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><em></em></span><p></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i ask the question AGAIN.......</p><blockquote>calling you out on it....<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">it appears you are taking it upon <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">YOURSELF</span> to judge someone else's level of trauma... a soldier who is sitting beside his best friend in a truck... and he sees him killed by gunfire... a woman who is sitting beside her best friend in a car that is hit head on and she sees her decapitated... now who has suffered more????... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">it is impossible to know...unless YOU are BOTH of those people... you didn't answer... .why do you suppose nearly 7,000 soldiers and nearly 4,000 other people commit suicide every year???</span>... is it because they have ABANDONED HOPE... or could it be because HOPE HAS ABANDONED THEM?<br /><br />there are two flavors of HOPE....it comes in REAL and it also comes in TOXIC... REAL HOPE is when there is EVIDENCE that CHANGE IS HAPPENING. TOXIC HOPE is a FALSE HOPE by which you are in danger of being harmed physically or emotionally by continuing to BELIEVE that things will change when there is NO EVIDENCE that supports it... .look down......you're knee deep in TOXIC HOPE.....</span></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">she's getting rattled...</p><blockquote>Re: dancing around the question.....<br /><br />I am not a war veteran, nor have I ever been SO suicidal that I took my own life. And my friend, NEITHER ARE YOU, and NEITHER HAVE YOU. Unless you are on PearlyGatesNet, but your ISP belies a San Diego location <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(watch her change the subject, since she's up against the wall)</span><span style="font-style: italic;">.</span> . . I lived there for eight years, we could have been neighbors, I could have admired your dogs as you marched them proudly along dog beach where I took my Jack and Boogie . . .and though it's expensive and BROKE down there, San Diego is Paradise, not Hell. At least when it comes to weather<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(DIVERSIONARY TACTIC..an obvious one..since she knows EXACTLY where i am..and that it is NOT San Diego)</span> . . .<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Your question I danced around doesn't seem relevant to the subject I thought we were discussing. It seems like a diversion</span>, <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">that's why I ignored it </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(couldn't be because the bitch couldn't pull <a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-phrases.html">a pat Narc answer</a> out of her ass, could it?)</span>. I'm talking domestic abuse survivors and LIVING people.<br /><br />And I think comparing ourselves to Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans and dead people is specious and borrowing more trouble than we actually have <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(especially when dragging them into the mix and BLAMING THEM would be tough)</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></p><p style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">she then resorts to pretending to be another poster... to change the subject... but i'm not buying it... and I stay on her Narc ass...</p><blockquote>REALITY...VERY COLD... VERY HARD...<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=79038#t79038">2009-12-23 12:14 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">here's some <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">REALITY</span>... i am NOT in <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">san diego</span>... i fucking wish... right now it is POURING DOWN RAIN... and the moon roof on my car will not close... today i am supposed to go to job services... and they are SUPPOSED to help me find a job... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">the rain is coming down in BUCKETS... so i guess i can HOPE that my roof will close,</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">right</span>?... and i can HOPE that i won't get drenched driving it in the freezing cold rain, right???.. .or maybe i can find someone to close it for me PRO BONO... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">or maybe i can just PRETEND it's not raining into my car... i've had to drive that car lately in termperatures of 12 degrees!!!</span>... driving around in 12 degree cold with the entire top of my car wide open...<br /><br />oh well, i guess i should have just made an ADVENTURE out of it... it's not a big deal... this is my big throbbing problem with all you COMFORTABLY NUMB ,SELF DELUDING MAGICAL THINKERS... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">you invent REALITY</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">... not just for YOURSELVES... but for everyone else around you... </span>and when they refuse to live in the deluded make believe castles in the air you've constructed... it pisses you off... .what do you magical thinkers do when your breaks down on the freeway?.. click your hells together and chant 'there's no place like home?'...</span></blockquote><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">well, shit... again she has no answers... so she starts finger pointing and telling lies... as a </span><a style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);" href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-deflecting.html">diversionary tactic</a><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">... to call attention away from the fact that she is a RAGING NARCISSITIC MORON..</span>.<br /></strong></p><p></p><blockquote>Re: REALITY...VERY COLD...VERY HARD...<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=83902#t83902">2009-12-23 08:04 pm (UTC)</a><br />It doesn't rain OR snow when it is 12 degrees. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">(I didn't say it did</span>)</span>You have arms and legs and if you can afford Dish Satellite <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(<span style="font-style: italic;">didn't say i had it)</span></span> you can afford a roll of duct tape and a garbage sack to cover your moon roof. If you are wardriving on someone else's wireless internet, and sincerely can't afford duct tape or garbage sacks, I'm sure you could ask a neighbor nicely.<br /><br />I signed up for daily work with the felons, too<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(ddn't say i was working with felons</span>)</span> It really, really sucks. But none of what you say convinces ME I am not facing cold hard reality<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">,<span style="font-style: italic;">(OMG!..the bitch really is crazy... the mothership needs to come claim her soon...)</span></span> it more convinces me YOU aren't taking the most simple steps to take care of yourSELF. I wish you would :( Taking care of yourself, however you must, IS reality<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-style: italic;">(once again, she doesn't address my QUESTION... slick, huh?)</span></span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">now here i'm righteously getting pissed...</span><br /></strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><blockquote>Re: REALITY....VERY COLD....VERY HARD......<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=87230#t87230">2009-12-23 10:21 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">can you cannot comprehend the written word.????.. i didn't say it was raining or snowing at 12 degrees... i said i'd had to drive the fucking car in 12 degree cold.....i said it is pouring down rain TODAY... rain turning to snow... and that i had to drive it in the pouring rain... ok<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">... so now you're REFUSING to believe it's raining somewhere in the world</span>???...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> here's what i don't believe... i don't believe you've ever</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">been in therapy</span>... because if you had been... no matter how lame the therapist... i believe they would have pointed out to you how <em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PERSEVERATIVELY (one of her favorite bits of word salad)</span></em> delusional you are...dish satellite?????? and who said anything about DISH SATELLITE... i said my DISH account was screwed... i was talking about my ADISHSERVEDCOLD nickname... i've CHANGED my user name because of it... really...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">i hope you're not allowed to dispense medications</span>..</span></blockquote><p></p><p></p><p></p><blockquote><br />Re: REALITY....VERY COLD....VERY HARD......<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=90046#t90046">2009-12-24 05:59 am (UTC)</a><br />I apologize for misunderstanding, Zen. <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-style: italic;">(no misunderstanding, and no apology..just pure BULLSHIT)</span><br /></span><br />Cheap shots are pretty common unfortunately, I would wonder if you were ill or had a mishap with a meat grinder if she didn't send me a few good zappers like this one LOL!! <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(THIS BITCH IS MORE FULL OF SHIT THAN THE KANSAS CITY STOCKYARDS)</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span><p></p><p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">I respond:</span><br /></p><blockquote><p>Re: REALITY....VERY COLD....VERY HARD......<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=91070#t91070">2009-12-24 10:09 am (UTC)</a><br /></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">you know EXACTLY where i am... so stop being coy... and cut the crap... i know you know... i know which old battleship told you...</span></p></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>i decide to call her on her MAGICAL THINKING...</strong></p><blockquote>MAGICAL THINKING.........<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=79294#t79294">2009-12-23 12:57 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">i am somewhat familiar with it... i've seen it in action... <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">the psychopath embraced</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">magical thinking</span>... and my famous faith healer uncle... people would come in DROVES.. .believing they could be healed... and some employed magical thinking to the point that they actually believed they WERE healed... for a short time... and then... then when they found out they weren't exactly as cured as they thought... they CONTINUED to embrace magical thinking... that is was GOD'S WILL... yeah... seen a lot of magical thinking...<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><br /><br />and those who embrace it are NOT the self realized.. .the self empowered... those who have achieved great PERSONAL GROWTH... they are in fact the WEAKEST... the most DESPERATE... and what makes many of them OBNOXIOUS as opposed to PATHETIC is their sanctimonious self delusion... if you're too weak to live in reality, and just say so. then you are the true lost soul... that's another thing....but when you are too weak to live in reality.. .and then <span style="font-weight: bold;">attack those who do live in reality</span>... then you're a NARC..</span>.<br /><br /><a href="http://samvak.tripod.com/journal50.html"><span style="font-style: italic;">The narcissist's favourite sadistic cocktail is brutal honesty coupled with "helpful advice" and "concern" for the welfare of the person attacked. The narcissist blurts out - often unprovoked - hurtful observations. These statements are invariably couched in a socially impeccable context;Prone to magical thinking, the narcissist is deeply convinced of the transcendental meaning of his life. He fervently believes in his own uniqueness and "mission". He constantly searches for clues regarding the hidden - though inevitable - meaning of his personal life.</span></a></span></blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>and here comes <a href="http://trubblescatboxandotherabusive.blogspot.com/2010/01/more-on-tallulah-two-faced-bitch.html">the old battleship in question... BinkStink's proxy... chugging into the harbo</a>r... a firm believer in Magical Thinking... she is pissed that i have said it is often used by the weak and desperate...</strong></p><p><strong></strong></p><blockquote>Re: MAGICAL THINKING.........<br /><a href="http://mata-hari41.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://mata-hari41.livejournal.com/">mata_hari41</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=79550#t79550">2009-12-23 01:13 pm (UTC)</a><br />Well, yours is the antithesis of magical thinking to the point where it IS magical thinking. You doggedly and wholeheartedly believe your life is fucked forever and, by god, it IS. </blockquote><p></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">another poster comes back at this additional sanctimonious Narc....</span>.</p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></p><blockquote><p>Re: MAGICAL THINKING.........<br /><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/">4everdifferent</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=88766#t88766">2009-12-24 12:59 am (UTC)</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><blockquote style="font-style: italic;">could there be something of value for the Fucked Forever camp from us from the "I'm Outta Here" camp?AND could there be something of value for the "I'm Outta Here" camp to LEARN AND GET THROUGH THEIR THICK SKULLS FROM THE 'Fucked Forevers'?</blockquote>Like stop trying to tell us it's OUR FAULT!</span><br /></p><p></p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">save your platitudes for Oprah and admit you know nothing about how bad it really can be for many of us - dissed by the 'system' with no genuine help anywhere!</p><p><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">Uh Oh... BinkStink's digging a hole with her keyboard again... straight to Narc Hell:</span><br /></p><p>Re: MAGICAL THINKING.........</p></blockquote><blockquote><p><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=90558#t90558">2009-12-24 06:04 am (UTC)</a><br />It's not your fault.It's your <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">responsibility</span>. Huge difference, and the means to your freedom, if you want it.<span style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-style: italic;">(a mixture of bullshit, psychobabble, doublespeak... mostly bullshit... again... so BinkStink's decided to go out on a limb and sling some BLAME at this poster too)</span></p></blockquote><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>it doesn't go over well...</strong></span><br /></p><blockquote>Re: MAGICAL THINKING.........<br /><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/profile"></a><a href="http://4everdifferent.livejournal.com/">4everdifferent</a><br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=92862#t92862">2009-12-24 09:35 pm (UTC)</a><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">'It's your responsibility. Huge difference, and the means to your freedom, if you want it'.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">so the fact that shelters are full, won't take people with disabilities and some won't take kids, there's no jobs, I have no family, therapy didn't help me, medicaid won't do anything for me... that I spend every single day seeking out help... is MY <span style="font-weight: bold;">RESPONSIBILITY</span>? you simply don't get it won't get and have no intention of getting it.</span></blockquote><p></p><p><strong style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">THE NASTY NARC BINKSTINK FINALLY DECIDES TO ATTACK THIS POSTER TOO... since she can't shut her up with BULLSHIT ALONE... </strong><br /></p><blockquote>Re: MAGICAL THINKING.........<br /><a class="comment-permalink" href="http://bink-think.livejournal.com/5822.html?thread=93118#t93118">2009-12-25 02:56 am (UTC)</a><br />You had to spin what I said pretty hard to get THAT out of it!Which one of us is smokin' the wacky again?<span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">If you twisted the words of the therapist, the employer and the case worker in this same manner, NO WONDER you are feeling so fucked.</span></blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><p></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><strong><br /></strong></span></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" ><strong><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PART ONE... FADE TO BLACK... </span><br /></strong></span></p><p style="font-weight: bold;">are you seeing it?... how she's doing it?.. the finger pointing... the blaming... the diversionary tactics?... did you EVER see this crazy BULLYING ABUSIVE NARCISSIST actually answer a question, or address her own behavior?... OF COURSE NOT!..</p><blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">Manipulators use distraction and diversion techniques to keep the focus off their behavior, move us off-track, and keep themselves free to promote their self-serving agendas. Sometimes this can be very subtle. You may confront your manipulator on a very important issue only to find yourself minutes later wondering how you got on the topic you're talking about then.The evasion tactic is closely related to diversion, this is a tactic by which a manipulator tries to avoid being cornered on an issue by giving rambling, irrelevant responses to a direct question or otherwise trying to skirt an issue.<br /><br />A subtle, but effective form of evasion is the deliberate use of vagueness. Covert-aggressives are adept at giving vague answers to the simplest, most direct questions. You have to have a sensitive ear for this.<br /><br />Sometimes the vagueness is not so pronounced and you think you have an answer when in fact you don't. the tactic of DENIAL..this is when the aggressor refuses to admit that they've done something harmful or hurtful when they clearly have. It's a way they lie (to themselves as well as others) about their aggressive intentions. This 'Who...Me?' tactic invites the victim to feel unjustified in confronting the aggressor about the inappropriateness of a behavior. It's also the way the aggressor gives him/herself permission to keep right on doing what they want to do.<br /><br />Denial as a lying tactic of manipulation is another in the list of tactics covert-aggressive manipulators (usually character-disordered individuals) use very frequently. I stress the importance of differentiating between denial as a defense and denial as a tactic to hide aggressive intent.Lying... the lies preferred by covertly-aggressive individuals are lies of omission. Damn, if those aren't the hardest lies to detect! They lie by telling the truth. It is what they leave out that makes it a lie.The sad, yet absolute, fact is that the default position when dealing with a narcissist is that they are lying. The anomaly with a N is when they tell the truth. They so seldom tell the truth that you don't even have to worry about mistaking that truth for a lie. They don't deserve to have us believe one thing they say or insinuate. If we presume that whatever they are doing, whatever they are saying, is designed to manipulate and deceive, then we are in a much safer and saner position.<br /><br />Covert aggression:the tactics of the covert-aggressive are another form of lying. One of the first things their tactics accomplish for them is to conceal the fact that they are fighting with you. They are refusing to allow you to have the opinion you have, the standards you have, the decision you've made. They are attempting to force your surrender to their way, their opinion, their standards (or lack thereof). But the first thing they must do is come at you in such a way that the first thing you'll think is that they are reacting defensively. They hide their aggressiveness under a cloak of pretense that they are simply acting out of defensiveness which, of course, means that you attacked them. So the next thing their tactics accomplish is putting you on the defensive. Now you are knocked off-balance and the covert-aggressive will likely start throwing so many different manipulative tactics at you at once that you end up falling for the ruse and capitulate.<br /><br />Minimization:the aggressor is attempting to assert that his behavior isn't really as harmful or irresponsible as someone else may be claiming. It's the aggressor's attempt to make a molehill out of a mountain... Neurotics frequently make mountains out of molehills, or 'catastrophize.' The disturbed character frequently trivializes the nature of his wrongdoing. Manipulators do this to make a person who might confront them feel they've been overly harsh in their criticism or unjust in their appraisal of a situation.Minimization is not primarily the way they make themselves feel better about what they did, it's primarily the way they try to manipulate your impression of them. They don't want you to see them as a person who behaves like a thug. Because they are most often comfortable with their aggressive personality style, they also want you to believe that there's nothing wrong with the kind of person they are.</span></blockquote><blockquote style="font-weight: bold;"><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"><a href="http://www.cassiopedia.org/glossary/Covert_Aggression">http://www.cassiopedia.org/glossary/Covert_Aggression</a><br /></span></p></blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></p><p style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><strong>as for BinkStink's endless defense of the abusive women on the big three abusive abuse forums:</strong></p><blockquote style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">it is an important point on whom the narcissist will bequeath her empathy: other abusers. This is a fundamentally selfish bestowal of empathy just as much as giving herself undeserved empathy is because by bestowing her empathy to the abuser what she is really doing is granting absolution and empathy for herself. She recognizes the kindred spirit in the other abuser and by excusing their behavior she excuses her own.</span></blockquote><blockquote style="font-weight: bold;"><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">http://narcissists-suck.blogspot.com<a href="http://narcissists-suck.blogspot.com/2008/06/refresher-on-savior-complex.html">/2008/06/refresher-on-savior-complex.html</a><br /></span></p></blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></p><p><strong><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">BinkStink <a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-victims.html">accuses me of '</a></span><a href="http://www.cosmicwalk.co.za/games-victims.html"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">hurting</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">'<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> her and the other abusive bitches</span></span></a><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"> i unmask... of course she does...</span></strong></p><blockquote style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><br />Hurting someones feelings in the process of defending truth and principle is not a crime. Some people deserve to have their feelings hurt. Don't fall victim to the "cult of nice". Narcissists have taken full advantage of the now endemic belief that hurting someones feelings is a sin. If the truth hurts someones feelings, so be it. Too often people are unwilling to stick to and defend truth because someone may be offended by it. This is only advantageous to the covert and overt criminal. Society, churches, families are not benefited in the long-run by the evasion of truth for the sake of someones feelings. It is this reflexive aversion on the part of decent people that so often lets evil run unchecked.The truth is, the "hurt feelings" are a ruse when used by the character-disordered. Malignant narcissists are not experiencing hurt feelings... they are simply angry and annoyed at not getting their way. Know the difference between someone who has a legitimate claim to hurt feelings and someone who is just pissed off because they want what they want. The two are worlds apart. Getting hurt feelings for not getting your way is equivalent to a two-year old child throwing a tantrum simply because he wants what he wants. Let's not make it more than that.</blockquote><blockquote><p><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);"></span></p><p><a href="http://narcissists-suck.blogspot.com/2008/01/guilt-tripping.html">thanks to Anna Valerious</a></p></blockquote><p></p><p></p><p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">STAY TUNED FOR PART TWO</span></strong><br /></p><div align="center"></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3959186104893970036.post-31295544173362336152010-01-10T08:58:00.005-08:002011-03-08T17:27:34.687-08:00The Prologue<div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=castle.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/castle.gif" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">it all begain with an email... someone told me that BinkStink... an angry, banned and booted Adminstrator from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/">Catbox </a>was ragging on me and my blog in a blog she had recently started... i strolled over to take a look... sure enough...BinkStink was</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">attacking </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">my blog... and</span> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">lying about me</span>...<br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong>~<br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">my comments in purple:</span><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><blockquote><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I've read the entirety of Confederaterebel's blog (which I will, for the sake of the intelligence of my readers, NOT link to</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">) </span><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255); font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">(natch, she's read it in it's </span><em style="font-weight: bold;">entirety</em><span style="font-weight: bold;">... </span><em style="font-weight: bold;"></em><span style="font-weight: bold;">my IP hit counter has shown that she's read it in its ENTIRETY <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">several</span> times... however she finds it not fit for the consumption of her </span><em style="font-weight: bold;">own</em><span style="font-weight: bold;"> readers -- heaven forbid they find out what a liar she is...)</span>.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">This is an unfortunate woman who began her career on the Catbox with a truly sad story</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(and a true one, by the way... unlike so many of their own</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">)</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">. . . living out her last days in a foreclosing house with beloved dogs and no home for herself and them in sight. Everyone is different, and as she lifted her head and blinked into the day, she saw rage instead of the Groundhog of Healing</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> <span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255); font-style: italic;">(the Groundhog of Healing??...)</span></span></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">There are plenty of other venues for frothing, foaming, vicious vengance vigilantes, but no, she plants herself in the Catbox and within a few weeks, out she goes</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">(banned for defending <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Winkler">Mary Winkler</a>... how horrible of me!)</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">She comes back a few times under various guises to spew vitriol and bask in all the negative attention (and frighteningly, some positive). With all her outright disgust with</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Trubble's Catbox</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">and </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php?showforum=7">Our Place</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> , it causes me to wonder why she kept coming back</span><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">.<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 51, 255); font-style: italic;">(guess everyone knows the answer to that</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 51, 255); font-style: italic;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 51, 255); font-style: italic;">NOW)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">When her re-entry was prevented (a final warning by her ISP, no doubt),</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">(lie -- never</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">happened)</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">she could not let go and now fills pages of the internet with some . . .</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">I have to admit, very clever invective. Yeah, it's insipid and transparent . . . she loves her flying monkeys and counts her hits and flybys. The trouble is, her rhetoric is so NONcontagious that she is inadvertently giving a metric ton of publicity to </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://forums.our-place-online.net/index.php">Our Place</a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">, </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.thenextrightchoice.com/forums/index.php?act=idx"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 153);">The Next Right Choice</span></a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"> and </span><a style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);" href="http://www.drirene.com/catbox"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Trubble's</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Catbox</span></a><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">.</span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(102, 51, 255); font-style: italic;">(yup - as well as loads of the truth & negative publicity they all so richly deserve! in addition to driving up <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">my </span>stats like crazy!)</span><br /></blockquote></div><div align="left">~~~~<br /><br /></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink herself, was in a huff over being banned from the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/">Catbox</a>... fired from the Administrative Team... by Irene herself... and then caught sending very nasty emails full of </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">not so clever invective</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);"> smearing and making fun of Irene and members of the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/">Catbox</a>, using the personal messaging service of the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/">Catbox</a>... she and her proxy - Moongoddess were both summarily booted... but as with all Narcs... BinkStink has </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">done no wrong</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">... she is waffling between bowing and scraping to get her ass back on to some forum... any forum... and ranting and raving...</span><br /><br /></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=bsometer.gif" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/bsometer.gif" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center">~~~~~</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"></div><div align="left"><strong style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">my Bullshit Detector was screaming Red Alert... </strong><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">BinkStink was always high on my list of forum Narcs... she was </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">always </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">nasty and abusive to me on the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/">Catbox</a>; me and plenty of other people... and since <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">i am now in the business of Narcissist and Psychopath unmasking</span>... i decided to stick around for a bit...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">the blood sucker did not disappoint... she showed herself... to be the nastiest of the nasty... she makes Tallulah look like Miss Manners... you will see a full blown Narc in action... you will see her attack... again and again, when i refuse to </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204); font-style: italic;">'see things her way</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">'... you will see her become more and more and more abusive... use every trick of her trade..</span>.<a href="http://www.outofthefog.net/CommonBehaviors.html"> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-style: italic;">double talk... circular talk... gaslighting... finger pointing...blame shifting... diversionary tactics... belittling... berating... accusing... twisted logic... revisionist history... lying... minimizing... threatening...</span></a> <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">you'll see her contradict herself in the same post... sometimes in the same sentence... then simply ignore it, and rant on... you'll see her entlisting turbo bitch Tallulah as an ally... on and on and on... you will see a consummate abusive Narcissist show her </span></strong><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">true </span><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">self... </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">in print...<br /><br />she has attempted to rewrite history by </span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">deleting </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">some of her nastier posts... but Narc that she is... she could not bear to delete her entire blog... she is PROUD of her work... and in one post she actually refers to her attacks on me as her '</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">work</span>'...<br /><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center"><div style="text-align: left;"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">and bear in mind that this vampire was an Administrator of the <a href="http://www.drirene.com.catbox/">Catbox</a>...</span> <em><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:130%;" >this abuser</span></em><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">is the epitome of who is dispensing wisdom and compassion and caring to abuse victims on those forums!!</span>!.. <span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">this nasty bloodsucking vampire...</span></span></strong><br /><strong></strong></div><strong><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">BinkStink has blogged her way into the NARCISSISTIC ABUSER HALL OF SHAME... FIRST PLACE!!!!!</span></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=blogmenu.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/blogmenu.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="center">~~~~~~</div><div align="left"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">most of the abusive bitches from the </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">The Catbox,</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> The Next Right Choice, </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Our Place </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">have toned down their abuse, under great duress... which was my intention in creating this blog...their membership is dropping as word gets out... which was the intention of my blog... and once the nefarious BinkStink's goose has been cooked.. then i can get on to other issues...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">addressing the fact that there is</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><em>no real help</em></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> for domestic violence victims... that the DOMESTIC VIOLENCE INDUSTRY is a scam and a farce... that the police and the courts not only </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">condone</span> </em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">domestic violence... they also perpetrate it... in their own homes, and while pretending to protect and to serve...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i want to discuss how women are driven into poverty and despair by domestic violence... with no way out... (</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204); font-style: italic;">despite what BinkStinks, Tallulah and the the rest </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><em>purport</em></span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">)</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i want to discuss the use of religion as an excuse to abuse women... and i want to discuss, in depth, my own abuse... how i was held hostage in my own life... by a PSYCHOPATH... ow he got away with it...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">and how there was and is no help to be found, anywhere... from anyone... and how any justice i will ever have, i will have to get </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">on my own</em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">... and i want to continue to talk about how WOMEN, including those who claim to have been abused themselves, through their cowardice and their jealousy and hatred of their own RACE, </span><em style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">really</span></em><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">refuse to take 'responsibility'... how now change can never be had... if everyone sits around and waits for <em>someone else</em> to change it... while they take bubble baths and remain 'old fashioned girls'...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">i will continue to unmask abusive Narcissists and Psychopaths wherever i find them... and continue to monitor the abusive women of the three abusive abuse forums...<br /><br /></span></span></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"></div><div style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);" align="left"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">but first... the defanging of the Abusive Narcissistic Vampire, BinkStink...</span><br /></strong></div><div align="center"><strong></strong></div><div align="center"><a href="http://s402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/?action=view&current=images-2.jpg" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" src="http://i402.photobucket.com/albums/pp107/mcgrannahan/images-2.jpg" border="0" /></a></div><div align="left"><strong></strong></div>no one you knowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15276693845577646185noreply@blogger.com0