OUR FEATURE PRESENTATION... PART TWO...

AUTOPSY OF A NARCISSISTIC ABUSER

PART TWO

when we left the nefarious Narcissistic Abuser BinkStink, she had just attacked a poster over her physical disabilities... she was feeling pretty damn good about herself, after dodging repeated questions regarding her beliefs concerning differences between PTSD in soldiers and us common abuse victims...

in this next installment we will see BinkStink become more and more enraged and more and more abusive..finally coming to a full NARCISSISTIC BOIL.. AND BOIL OVER... before we start the show... let me again list just a few of tricks of the trade you will see BinkStink employ... the old Narc standards of

• BLAMING,
• FINGER POINTING (Blame-Shifting),
• BELITTLING,
• BERATING,
• CRAZYMAKING,
• GASLIGHTING AND
• JUST PLAIN OLD NASTINESS

There are also these BinkStink standbys...

Manipulators use distraction and diversion techniques to keep the focus off their behavior, move us off-track, and keep themselves free to promote their self-serving agendas. Sometimes this can be very subtle. You may confront your manipulator on a very important issue only to find yourself minutes later wondering how you got on the topic you're talking about then.

The evasion tactic is closely related to diversion, this is a tactic by which a manipulator tries to avoid being cornered on an issue by giving rambling, irrelevant responses to a direct question or otherwise trying to skirt an issue.

A subtle, but effective form of evasion is the deliberate use of vagueness. Covert-aggressives are adept at giving vague answers to the simplest, most direct questions. You have to have a sensitive ear for this. Sometimes the vagueness is not so pronounced and you think you have an answer when in fact you don't.

the tactic of DENIAL... this is when the aggressor refuses to admit that they've done something harmful or hurtful when they clearly have. It's a way they lie (to themselves as well as others) about their aggressive intentions. This 'Who... Me?' tactic invites the victim to feel unjustified in confronting the aggressor about the inappropriateness of a behavior. It's also the way the aggressor gives him/herself permission to keep right on doing what they want to do. Denial as a lying tactic of manipulation is another in the list of tactics covert-aggressive manipulators (usually character-disordered individuals) use very frequently. I stress the importance of differentiating between denial as a defense and denial as a tactic to hide aggressive intent.

Lying... the lies preferred by covertly-aggressive individuals are lies of omission. Damn, if those aren't the hardest lies to detect! They lie by telling the truth. It is what they leave out that makes it a lie.The sad, yet absolute, fact is that the default position when dealing with a narcissist is that they are lying. The anomaly with a N is when they tell the truth. They so seldom tell the truth that you don't even have to worry about mistaking that truth for a lie. They don't deserve to have us believe one thing they say or insinuate. If we presume that whatever they are doing, whatever they are saying, is designed to manipulate and deceive, then we are in a much safer and saner position.

Covert aggression: the tactics of the covert-aggressive are another form of lying. One of the first things their tactics accomplish for them is to conceal the fact that they are fighting with you. They are refusing to allow you to have the opinion you have, the standards you have, the decision you've made. They are attempting to force your surrender to their way, their opinion, their standards (or lack thereof). But the first thing they must do is come at you in such a way that the first thing you'll think is that they are reacting defensively. They hide their aggressiveness under a cloak of pretense that they are simply acting out of defensiveness which, of course, means that you attacked them. So the next thing their tactics accomplish is putting you on the defensive. Now you are knocked off-balance and the covert-aggressive will likely start throwing so many different manipulative tactics at you at once that you end up falling for the ruse and capitulate.

Minimzation: the aggressor is attempting to assert that his behavior isn't really as harmful or irresponsible as someone else may be claiming. It's the aggressor's attempt to make a molehill out of a mountain... Neurotics frequently make mountains out of molehills, or 'catastrophize.' The disturbed character frequently trivializes the nature of his wrongdoing. Manipulators do this to make a person who might confront them feel they've been overly harsh in their criticism or unjust in their appraisal of a situation. Minimization is not primarily the way they make themselves feel better about what they did, it's primarily the way they try to manipulate your impression of them. They don't want you to see them as a person who behaves like a thug. Because they are most often comfortable with their aggressive personality style, they also want you to believe that there's nothing wrong with the kind of person they are.

http://www.cassiopedia.org/glossary/Covert_Aggression

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fasten your seatbelts... turbulence ahead... it's going to get ugly... i mean REALLY ugly... you're about to enter a dimension where Reality has no meaning:

"You're traveling through another dimension, a dimension not only of sight and sound, but of mind.
A journey into a wondrous land whose boundaries are that of imagination.
That's the sign post up ahead, your next stop...
The BinkStink Twilight Zone!"

as before, my invective will appear in purple...

(I wrote on her blog)
PTSD.....
the PSYCHIATRIC COMMUNITY does not see any difference between PTSD sufffered by soldiers... and PTSD suffered by ANYONE ELSE... "Your question I danced around doesn't seem relevant to the subject I thought we were discussing. It seems like a diversion, that's why I ignored it. I'm talking domestic abuse survivors and LIVING people.And I think comparing ourselves to Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans and dead people is specious and borrowing more trouble than we actually have"... the PSYCHIATRIC COMMUNITY CONSIDERS ALL PTSD TO BE PTSD...THEY don't differentiate... but because you didn't like where the conversation was headed... you decided that YOU can and WILL differentiate... and you decided to 'dance around it'... because you couldn't come up with some quick easy MAGICAL THINKING SOLUTION... AND because just like with the victims of 9/11... its a little bit DICEY to use the old BLAME THE VICTIM bullshit... sort of between a rock and hard spot on THAT issue... can't exactly BLAME A WAR VETERAN for being in the FUCKED FOREVER CAMP... so instead you decide to stick with you feel you can easily BLAME for being fucked forever... ME!!!!!!

her response:

Re: PTSD.....
I'm in a much better place, professionally speaking, to know what the psychiatric community thinks than you are.(talking down to me from her assumed position of AUTHORITY) No offense,(of course not) I was a member of it for many years, not a client of it.(again, snide, sanctimonious, authoritarian and diversionary) I am simply relating what I've been told.(by Dr. Phil, Dr. Seuss, Oprah or just the voices inside her head?)

It's actually a GOOD thing we haven't experienced a true war zone. We are that much LESS traumatized. We haven't been taken down as far, so to speak. We haven't been damaged as badly. That's GOOD news :) HOPEFUL news.I think to compare your experience to that of veterans of war action is something you USE to support your original claim, that you are fucked forever. You hoist it on your petard but it doesn't belong to you.The logic and opportunistic nature of your "identification" does not hold up to scrutiny, in other words.(word salad, it's what's for dinner at Chez Bink)

i challenge her again:

Re: PTSD
been told by WHOM??.. you've got interent access... throw up one single article... one single opinion... by ANYONE in the psychiatric community the PTSD in soldiers is any different that PTSD in plane crash survivors... or rescue workers... or abused women... you're simply RELATING WHAT YOU WANT TO BELIEVE... and nice slam...

...except you let some truth leak out... "NOT A CLIENT OF IT"... SO YOU'RE LYING... YOU'RE LYING WHEN YOU SAY YOU'VE BEEN IN THERAPY!!!. I KNEW IT!!!..

YOU LET IT SLIP...GOT PISSED... TO TAKE A SWIPE AT ME, AND LET THE TRUTH ABOUT YOURSELF SLIP OUT... TYPICAL NARC...

busted again, again BinkStink plays victim:

Re: PTSD.....
I'm so disappointed, now I am a narc in Zen's book.(she's a NARC in a lot of people's books... and did she JUST catch on that I've been calling her a Narc?) EVERYBODY who knows anything about me knows I've been in therapy. I've just spend a helluva lot more time in the other chair. You could say I'm well balanced that way.(notice how she is STILL evading the question?)

I'm not going to let her off the hook:

Re: PTSD.....
lots of NARCS have been in therapy... ots of NARCS HAVE SPENT A LOT OF TIME IN THE OTHER CHAIR, TOO... LIKE IRENE, FOR EXAMPLE... you and she are both well balanced that way :)

DELUSION: A delusion, in everyday language, is a fixed belief that is either false, fanciful, or derived from self deception.

a delusion is distinctly different from a belief based on false or incomplete information, stupidity, a perception, illusion, or other effects of perception, because even when confronted with CONCRETE EVIDENCE to the contrary the deluded REFUSE to acknowledge any and all evidence the contradicts with the delusion. whenever you hear someone say they 'REFUSE' to believe something... you've trod upon a magical thinker...

BinkStink's WTF responses are coming fast & furious... Once again she tries to define me and read my mind... classic Narc:

Re: DELUSION
You refuse to believe you are ALIVE.
My point, exactly.(SCHIZOPHASIA)

I call her on it again:

MORE AND MORE AND MORE DELUSION......
no one and nothing can convince you of something you do not want to believe... because you are DELUSIONAL... that is the VERY DEFINITION OF DELUSIONAL THINKING... you are DELUDED... and since you have 'no serious mental disease'. (ha!)...

i guess one could assume it is BY CHOICE.......

Here she goes again... and she's STILL not faced or addressed my question!..

Re: MORE AND MORE AND MORE DELUSION.....

EXACTLY!!!!Turn that mirror around, if you dare . . .(crazymaking circular talk?...or another heapin' helpin' of SCHIZOPHASIA?)

this is where the non-'dialog' turns toward those nasty lazy shiftless disgusting poor people who are such a bother to BinkStink's BFF: TurboNarc Tallulah... and then there's that Ayn Rand quote that sends her into the stratosphere... and BinkStink of course hates EVERYONE....so she's well prepared to attack the poor and the homeless...

crossing a line
you're crossing a line here... in your rabid desire to blame the victim and feel better about yourself... how about the over 15 million people who are currently unemployed... is that due some FAULT on their part?... is it because THEY aren't taking steps be employed... because THEY AREN'T TRYING HARD ENOUGH???... and the homeless... are homeless people homeless because they aren't doing enough for themselves???

i know you like to confine your ragging about someone who isn't doing enough to me... but let's expand on it, ok??.. why are over 15 million people unemployed today??... becuase they have somehow failed to live up to their full potential???..

"you can avoid reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding reality". -Ayn Rand

BinkStink NEVER gives up her delusions... she continues with her Thought Policing - Thought Policing is any process of trying to question, control, or unduly influence another persons thoughts or feelings.

Re: crossing a line
we are sort of "helpless" to believe what we believe, until we are open to new information.In my case, I HAVE been affected by "new" information from Zen. I've thought about it, and thought ways around it.(and she's still thinking of ways around the QUESTION, OBVIOUSLY)

So, I gave it some time and still am not compelled to agree she is Fucked Forever.I believe that SHE believes she is. Maybe I have not made that clear, and I apologize for that.When she tries to convince ME that I am delusional, I don't believe that. (hard to convince a whack job they're a whack job) When she tries to convince me that she is hopeless, so far she hasn't given me enough proof. Bringing in the PTSD of war veterans, of which she has not been, is not compelling. I understand the terrible unemployment situation, and the lack of services for people at or below the poverty level. I was unemployed and unemployable for a solid year. I couldn't even put a roof over my head, surrendered all my animals, which Zen has been able to do for herself and keep her animals. Zen has done better than I did, she did not go down as far.

In that horrible time I had two choices. Give up or do what pathetically little I could do to move forward. It eventually worked.Because I went into the psych field in the first place, I have a desire to help people see around their obstacles and find what they need and want. Even when they don't want to see. My education and training contributes to this tendency of mine. (i believe it is her NARCISSISIM and her MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES that contribute to that tendency to project her abuse on people... and notice, she STILL has YET to address the QUESTION)

check out this manifesto... typical NARC... can prattle for days on end... and never say anything worthwhile, sensical or sane...

Re: crossing a line
I see people as living in "worlds within worlds", ie, each person has their own fairly well integrated paradigm that exists within a larger consensual paradigm (culture and society).

Personal paradigms are self reinforcing. They are like cell walls in your body, they let "in" what is acceptable, and block out what is "unacceptable" to keep the integrity of the whole(speaking from personal experience, i'm sure). Was it was too much to ask that either "camp" have a dialogue about their experiences? No, I think we did. It worked out as well as the participants could work it.

A while ago, during the Old Catbox administration, there was a member who was (and still is, on OP) determined to change her abuser, or herself, to keep the relationship together. It occurred to me that we have no "right" to try and change another person, even if they are destructive and obnoxious, no matter how much we love them. They have a right to be who they are. The clincher is, WE who look on in askance have the choice (and responsibility to make it) to stick around and manage OR to leave altogether. NOT to "change" that person into something we have decided is "better for them". (isn't this exactly what she is attempting to do in her attacks on me?...vaunt her ideas of what i should be...be doing, thinking, wanting, needing....onto me?..how many times in her abusive posts does she tell me how I NEED TO CHANGE?..i've lost count!...this is a perfect example of a NARC contradicting herself.....changing lanes without signaling.....)

What is hard for me to handle is when people ask for help, but are unwilling to change themselves as is necessary for the help to even work.They want help, but on their OWN terms (free will in their victims is beyond the comprehension of the entitled Narc) They are miserable, but believe their misery is centered in other people's behavior, not their own (PROJECTION). It's a sad paradox, and there's nothing to be done for them but to let them go.(IF ONLY! notice she STILL has not addressed the QUESTION?... this bitch is a PRO!)

i refuse to let BinkStink the professional Narc get away with this evasion...

nothing to do but let them go
again what HELP have you offered?... other than that BRILLANT idea of taping a trash bag to the roof a car, which any CUB SCOUT could tell you is a plan destined to fail???... i'm sure all the poor and homeless in this country are where they are from failure to take the ADVICE and HELP of people like you... SNIDE, SELF AGGRANDIZING, HAUGHTY ARROGANT OBNOXIOUS KNOW IT ALLS... who in REALITY know nothing...

CHOICE AND RESPONSIBILITY... putting the BLAME for someone's circumstances onto THEM... instead of onto who is REALLY to blame... be it an individual, or the failure of society as a whole... there... with a couple of choice words and the wave of a dismissive sanctimonious hand... you can explain and blame away the pain and suffering of others... why, it's their CHOICE!!!!!.. they're RESPONSIBLE for what happens to them!!!. which leaves you off the hook to be dismissive and condescending and arrogant FOREVER...

how DARE people seeking help, ask for help on THEIR TERMS!!.. why, they should just happily take whatever crumbs they're thrown!!!.. to make the sanctimonious arrogant ASSHOLES who are throwing the crumbs feel every more SUPERIOR... you're the sad paradox... sad for anyone and everyone who crosses your path...

here's where the fascist cockroach, former Catbox member and Bink's a**hole buddy - Tallulah crawls out of the crack she's been hiding in and defends Ayn Rand and elitisim...

Re: nothing to do but let them go
mata_hari41
2009-12-30 02:11 pm (UTC)
"How DARE people seeking help, ask for help on THEIR TERMS!!"

How dare ~YOU~ expect top of the line, top notch help simply for the fact that you can't afford to pay for ANY help whatsoever! " Gee, I can't afford even a 1970 Pinto, therefore, you OWE ME a fvcking MERCEDES." Pleeezzz. Pffft.

How does that saying go??? Oh yeah. *BEGGARS CAN'T BE CHOOSERS."And you, Zen, have the temerity to quote Ayn Rand??? LOL! You'll have her spinning in her grave.

i learned long ago to stand up to abuse like this:

Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart.....
you are one of the most SHAMELESSLY callous and unsympathetic 'people' i have ever come across... wow... so the 7.5 MILLION people who are unemployed today are unemployed because they are IGNORANT... and the MILLIONS who are homeless are homeless because they are IGNORANT... and the nearly 48 MILLION people who are living in poverty in the wealthiest nation in the world are living that way because they are IGNORANT... WOW... 48 MILLION DIRT POOR IGNORANT... it's all because they lack INTELLIGENCE...

i don't know how a bitch like you lives with herself... i'm sure Ayn Rand is very proud of you....

now the abusive NARCISSISTIC Bitch BinkStink is ENRAGED... watch her pull out all the stops:

Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart......

I'm leaving this up. Nice evasion there! (no..the EVASION is all HERS on HER blog) No one is talking about the 48 million dirt poor!! We are talking about YOU. (she means she is only attacking ME... gee... what has happened to that 'open dialog") One purportedly "dirt poor" INTELLIGENT woman. Who hides behind 48 million "dirt poor" people to excuse herself from making an effort. (here we go... finger pointing, blaming, accusing...)

You don't get public assistance because the gubbermint doesn't think you NEED it. (wow... the "GUBBERMINT"... now the abusive bitch is using racial slurs ... i'm surprised she hasn't called me a NIGGER) You don't get decent free services because it's been determined you don't meet the criteria. (man, this bitch knows EVERYTHING) You have been pronounced WHOLE ENOUGH by the establishment that the funds and services will NOT go to you, but to other deserving people. (she must be talking about her own welfare recipient daughter)

You probably terminated your own therapy, didn't you? Because your therapist(s) were challenging you to get off your pity pot. They wouldn't validate your snarling rage and death wishes upon your ex abuser. They wouldn't BUY that you were hopelessly damaged because they too didn't think you were.No one is "afraid" of the black hole of "your pain". They get TIRED of being attacked and insulted by you.(i wonder if this nasty filthy bitch thinks anyone might get tired of being insulted by HER?) They get hurt and offended that they reach out to help and you bite their hand the moment they do not obey your commands.They give up on you because you don't WANT a hand up, you want a hand out. And who wants to give a hand out to such a vicious, insulting bitch as yourself? NO ONE.

Methinks it's been YOU who are exposed. (MEthinks she's WRONG... what do YOUthinks?)I wouldn't call you a narcissist but I would call you severely personality disordered. There is no medication or real effective therapy for people with your issues. Except prison, to keep you away from taking advantage of naive people who have a hard time believing people as bottomlessly cruel and greedy even EXIST. (she is just begging for for a complaint to the nursing licensing board in her state) Every abuser out there thinks they are the victim. I wonder if Psycho Mike is really YOUR victim? Or if two psycho abusers met each other and blew themselves to Kingdom Come.

Your words and responses tell us everything, and contradict most effectively your claims of being a "victim". For all I know, you aren't living in a "hovel" with nine thousand animals. Someone would have called the Animal Cops on you by now for all your claims they are in need of food and care. How do you keep the fleas and heartworm under control? Do you brush them all and bathe them all? How do you care for their teeth? Do you do your own surgery on them when they are ill? You can't take care of them, if I am to believe your story.But I am starting to not believe it. If you can support 8 dogs and six cats, you DO have money. Because NO WHERE on Planet Earth is there enough charity or people willing to provide it without calling Animal Control ON YOU(this bitch has gone starking raving NARC insane). A person on dial up internet CANNOT set up or maintain a blog such as yours (now she's an INTERNET AUTHORITY TOO!! her jealousy of - and fixation on my little ol blog is disconcerting). A person who is "disabled" because of their "complex PTSD" cannot manage to string enough thoughts together to set up a blog such as yours, nor would they have the intense focus to maintain such a pathetic sob story for SO LONG as to take advantage of good people until they too run the other direction when you begin attacking THEM. ( there she goes again...practicing psyciatry without a license and without sanity... and belittling all PTSD sufferers) It is YOU who have been busted. As an abuser yourself. As a psychopath yourself. I ought to ban you entirely, out of decency and principle. Except you amuse me. (WOW!!...now what set this crazy bitch off?.. NOTHING, that's what... she's a projecting, lying, twisted, exposed NARCISISSTIC ABUSER... i'm glad i amuse her... because she sure doesn't amuse me... i wonder if she'll amuse the administrators or PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER?... or if the Washington State nursing board will find her amusing?.. i wonder if the families of the cancer patients in her tender loving care will be amused by this? and the crazy bitch STILL HASN'T ANSWERED THE QUESTION!!!)

i was married to a piece of loathsome Narc shit just about like BinkStink... i am unimpressed... i continue:

Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart....
i would think a BRILLANT NARC like yourself would have heard of WIFI... so your paranoid delusions about me having high speed cable are just that... more of your NARC PARANOID DELUSIONS...

you can call me whatever you want... say i should be in prison... call me a psychopath... i consider the source... someone so fucking controlling and nasty that DR. IRENE couldn't tolerate her...

OOPS THERE IT IS! But BinkStink the Narc Pitbull will never let go...

Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart......

Irene couldn't stand to be exposed to the light of day.Much like you. (GEEZ...this Bitch would melt at the sight of a 5 watt bulb!!... is it Schizophrenia, or just a the most severe case of DUMBASS ever?)

she goes again... I've rattled her delusional cage...

Re: upsetting your own rotten apple cart......
2010-01-03 08:40 pm (UTC)
Funny you don't address the health of your animals, just the one thing that doesn't necessarily implicate you.Do you even HAVE eight dogs and six cats? Or is that just another one of your crafted stories to get pity? It's just a bit over the top, just like the rest of your story (what's funny is that this crazy whacked out NARC still hasn't addressed a question i posed about two weeks ago!.. how long can the bitch stall???? and now that nothing else has worked for the loathsome nasty Narc... she's going to start attacking my pets, and my love for them!!... JUST LIKE THE PSYCHO!!)

i just keep on asking my unaddressed questions:

2010-01-03 08:46 pm (UTC)
wow ... interesting that you're so impressed with my simple little blog... many people maintain blogs from library computers... it's really not all that difficult... like all NARCS, you claim to be an expert on EVERYTHING... while knowing little about ANYTHING... you're an expert on PTSD... and blogs... and internet service... you're diagnosing mental disorders.

you - through divine psychic powers - know my financial situation... and my living conditions... you're a real renaissance NARC... ALL KNOWING... ALL BULLSHIT

do you ever take time away from terminal sanctimony to read???... nearly 90% of homeless families have a woman as head of the household... usually an ABUSED WOMAN... probably because they're not 'working on themselves' enough... you seem to think HOPE is the magic cure all for everything... but i do notice that you NEVER EVER offer up any real, valid, concrete SOLUTIONS to anything... and you dance away from any challenge to do so... by claiming it's not the issue at hand... which is TEXTBOOK NARC BEHAVIOR... you refuse to address anything you don't have a pat answer to... you sound just exactly like IRENE... when you spew your narc circular talk of 'responsibility' and 'hope'... talking out of both sides of your mouth with EVER uttering a word of any real value...

so again... let's address the issue of HOMELESSNESS AMONG ABUSED WOMEN... what's your idea of a SOLUTION to the problem... and WHY do you suppose it is an issue at all???. is the fault with the homeless women????..

again she sidesteps answering and goes into a backpeddle:

Re: helped
2009-12-25 06:40 am (UTC)
Nobody is at FAULT. How does "fault" come into it?(hmmm... i thought FAULT was the name of her game..guess she's changed games) It's your choice, right? Some help ain't helpful. MOST of the help I gave as part of my job was unwelcome or thrown aside.(i BET!!.and what JOB is she talking about?...her JOB as Irene's ass licking flying monkey?) It's the nature of the beast. I've dissed help from others many a time. It's human to do so (this PSYCHOPATH wouldn't know the first thing about being HUMAN!NOTICE how she's just forgotten about that crazed diatribe???... of course, we are in the BinkStink Twilight Zone)

my rational response... one more time, trying to bring her back to the ORIGINAL QUESTION...

help

no one is dissin help here... because no HELP has been offered... firstly YOU decided to divide all abused women into TWO CAMPS... one that toes your party line... and the other one declared FUCKED FOREVER... then YOU go on to define MY REALITY... which seldom draws a good reaction from anyone... especially someone who has had a psychopath define her reality for over 16 years... THEN you go on to attack me... BLAMING me for the shambles my life is in... ALSO JUST LIKE THE PSYCHOPATH AND CERTAIN MEMBERS OF CERTAIN BULLSHIT 'HELP' FORUMS... THEN you offered up your narrow, pollyanna view of abused women and life in general... and when confronted with cold facts and hard questions, danced away from them... THEN you insist that YOUR personal opinion on PTSD is the correct one because you've been a psych nurse... and YET... although you love to spread the blame on other abuse victims, a case could be made that perhaps YOU, with all your knowledge and experience in the psychiatric field should have taken a sniff of ATM, and "SEEN IT COMING"... IF someone wanted the pull the BLAME THE VICTIM card that YOU play every hand... then, someone comes on talking about their physical disabilities as well as their abuse...and that they cannot find help... and then once again you start talking your RESPONSIBILITY crap...

SO... show me once fucking post here from you that was NOT ALL ABOUT YOU!!... because anyone else's opinions, thoughts, experiances or even REALITY were shouted down...

and on a more PERSONAL NOTE... i am fed fucking up with your insinuations that i am not 'trying hard enough'... I lived with a raging lunatic for 15 years...and it continues to this day... there was NOT ONE SINGLE DAY in the fifteen plus years that wasn't fraught with verbal abuse, emotional abuse, economic abuse, and physical abuse... NOT ONE... i have a fucking RIGHT TO BE TIRED... to be EXHAUSTED to be ANGRY, to be WAAAAAAAAAY BEYOND HOPE... and i know the REAL reason that i have been abandoned by everyone i ever knew... FEAR... i rock their little worlds... give them a knot in the pits of their stomachs they don't care for... if it could happen to me... it could happen to them... no one has come to see me and the dogs and cats in our run down shack with no heat in a bad part of town... NO ONE WANTS TO SEE US... it's not PRETTY... or HOPEFUL... it's just a little too REAL... i have problems... SERIOUS PROBLEMS... that cannot be cured with MAGICAL THINKING... and as i've MENTIONED... everyone who attacks me for not being able to SAVE MYSELF... when confronted... and asked to come up some VIALBLE SOLUTIONS THEMSELVES, of course FAIL... because there are NO VIALBLE SOLUTIONS... and the MOST ridiculous solutions of all are the ones that entail... 'ask someone for help'... this one never ceases to amaze me... i've had FRIENDS AND FAMILY members not lift a finger to HELP ME... other than suggest that i ASK FOR HELP!!!

from someone other than them, of course...

BinkStink's response:

re: help
2010-01-03 08:11 pm (UTC)
You've been abandoned by people because you chase them away. They fall for your fake sob story, try to help you, and when you overwhelm them with outrageous requests and then get ANGRY with them for not complying, they run for their lives.(my outrageous requests??. there she goes again... attacking, berating... finger pointing... over something I never did ) You are black hole of hatred and lies (SHE MUST BE LOOKING IN HER MIRROR WHILE SHE'S TYPING THIS SHIT... it's sheer NARCISSISTIC PROJECTION)
Your pathetic descriptions of abuse that you endured are much less compelling than the bulk of your vicious personal attacks that occur like running verbal diarrhea. (playing the victim again... i'm attacking her... by now i'm sure HELEN KELLER could see through this BULLSHIT) You won't answer my question because YOU DON'T DARE. (um, SHE hasn't answered my question from a week ago!) I finally cornered you and MADE YOU AFRAID you'd reveal your hellish, true nature.(THIS SNOT WAD is OUT OF HER MIND... i wonder if she's stealing drugs from the hospital, or if it's a natural high?) Might as well come out with it, you've spelled it out on Sesame Street for the Retarded. It would take a real moron to fail to put a true picture of you together at this point. (it would take HER not to be able to put together a true picture of HER at THIS POINT)

You've fished all the fish in this pond. Time to move on, Mary. Your bait no longer fools us.(SCHIZOPHASIA)

i won't back down from BinkStink the monster:

Re: help
2010-01-03 08:53 pm (UTC)
NICE SPEW ......what 'OUTRAGEOUS' REQUESTS are you spewing about?... i'm not afraid of you, you nasty little narc... it's YOU who got some women to fall for you SOB STORY... not me... you're a NARC WITHOUT A COUNTRY....you trying to use ol Tal here to squeeze you onto Our Place... wanting her to use her 'influence' so you'll have an audience for your blathering tripe??.. that's very NARC of you... you must feel very POWERFUL... I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO AFRAID!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

her infantile neener-neener response:

Re: help

"you're a NARC WITHOUT A COUNTRY "

I'm laughing so hard my Serenity Pad runneth over, OMG!!!!Sorry, didn't mean to mention I can AFFORD Serenity Pads, when you must make do with your ex psycho's flannel drawers. (wanna bet this bitch is stealing SERENITY PADS and MORPHINE from cancer patients???..and wanna bet that if she is buying them, that she won't be able to when PROVIDENCE MEDICAL CENTER gets through with her?)

STAY TUNED FOR PART THREE